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Three days of driving with the brake on.

Wednesday, October 12, 2011

First of all the tools that this wesite offers and the blogging...I have never blogged before...I think has helped me not buying into the less than perfect day.
That is like ans since this is about health...well life happens and ya just gotta roll withit..until you can stand.

The nutritional part of this is easier than I thought.(I am eating much more than I expected....but weigh day isnt till Sunday. There will be the proof.)
I think I am getting the hang of the tracker. And that is so helpful.
The exercising has been the problem. I set out to workout one hour in the morning and 45 mins after dinner. Like any of this has happened.
It equates to driving with the brake on.

So perhaps I need to reset the goals. Deciding is a big step. Making it do-able is another. I think I took "too big a bite"...Yea ya gotta walk before you can run.
So would it be cheating to reset the goals half way through the wee? Or should I stick it out and see what happens?

Crazy is doing the same thing again and again expecting a different result...
What would be in your best interest for the long term...what wouldbe most supportive of your effort?

I think to step back look at the why I have not completed the goals. I have exercised just not the full hour and I have yet to walk after supper.

Perhaps it would feel so much better to me. I would feel more successful if i restated the goals. Right now I only am half succesful with the food.

So change them, you do not believe that the goals will remain as such. You will stpe them up as you feel ready...

ya I think that is right

So what are you going to do?

How about20 mins on the rebounder until Sunday, then take another look at this at that time. I think that is enough pushing but not overwhelming.

Good ...then do it. Schedule the time and make an appointment to get it done.

Yea. I got that.

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MJ-SHE-BEAST 10/13/2011 12:19PM

    I push the reset button all of the time! The only shame is in giving up. That is failure. If you keep on keeping on and keep on getting up when you fall, you are winning the race and will have the success you seek. I find making a list keeps me more on track. I find an odd satisfaction in scratching things off the list once completed!

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POSITIVE_ONE 10/13/2011 9:40AM

    Great job in wanting to be realistic on your goals. If you set them too aggressive, it can make it too easy to fall short and make yourself feel like a failure. Don't do that!!! Be strong and be smart!!!

I love you blogs and your honest introspection...keep it up.

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Parked In Front of the House

Monday, October 10, 2011

Not a bad day. Stayed within all nutrional limits, need to step up the protien.
the exercise was only some ehat thought out. Not well planned so did not accomplish as much as I set out too. That's OK. Tomorrow I hope we can make better progress meet the days goals and maybe get to the end of the block! I feel very far so good.

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POSITIVE_ONE 10/11/2011 9:07AM

    Excellent to hear!!! Keep being positive.

You can do it!!!

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Pulling out of the Driveway

Monday, October 10, 2011

Last night before i drifted off to sleep, I thought "what have I done...not only have a made a comittment to myself but to, who knows how many other people other in the cyber world". My greatest pressing concern was how in the world was I going to work out on the rebounder for 60 whole mins! 60 mins or 6,000 mins it all felt the same..just beyond me.
I got up this morning and everything screamed for my attention. I used that to avoid the exercise. Then I stopped asked my self what was the REAL a moment I heard it, I did not think I could complete 60 mins or even 30. So the friend part of me called and said, "hey I heard you were struggling with meeting the committment. So why not think differently about this. Break up the task into do-able chunks of time...until such a time as you can believe for more time on the rebounder." OK I think I could do that, maybe (4) 15 min sessions. I agreed with myself. Even at that I was concerned I would quit before the time. I did one 15 min round and it was just right. I sweated. A breathed heavy...not too heavy. It felt good not too much or not too little. three more 15 min breaks to drop into the day. I may give myself permission to forgo the strenght training that was listed for today PROVIDED all carido work is completed. In this way buying myself time to adjust to all this new way of life.
I feel better than I did 15 hours ago stressing as to how was I gonna do this.

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MJ-SHE-BEAST 10/10/2011 10:19PM

    Small bites in several intervals will get that elephant eaten in no time! I hope you are very proud of yourself because WE are sure proud of YOU! GREAT JOB!

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TXLADY110 10/10/2011 8:36PM

    Way to work it in!!
You Can DO IT

I had to start this way also.

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POSITIVE_ONE 10/10/2011 5:21PM

    Gerat job!!! Way to plan it out and be ready!!! Love it!

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THE_COUNTESS 10/10/2011 3:53PM

    Yay! emoticon

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GRACENFAITH 10/10/2011 2:41PM

    Keep it up! It will get easier with time and before you know it will be become your norm. emoticonWalking with Christ

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The Beginning of a Journey

Sunday, October 09, 2011

After years of obesity and being overweight all my life, I am tired. Tired of where I am and tired of all the energy and money spent to "loose weight" tired of day dreaming, tired of feeling trapped, helpless and hopeless. Forget that. I am going to live one day at a time, enjoying the day and doing what is healthy for me for that day....and in my thinking the weight will come off. Can I be generous to me that kind of time...I will try.

I am concerned that I will loose the vision and the determoination since this is not a short term goal. However, that makes no sense if the goal is ultimately health...then it is to be a way of life an obtaining of skills and behaviors that result in health.

Boy that sounds nice and flowery, lets see how this plays out when your frustration level and anger levels hit 9.9 and you still have to hold it together,
lets see then.

I have decided to begin, a journey. Like any other journey so much is unknown, I cannot allow the possibiltiy of a flat tire, a leak in a radiaitor hose or a dead battery stop me, nor the possibility of getting lost...for all roads lead somewhere.

So with that tomorrow I embark. First travel marker, 1 week out...follow the food plan, drink enough water, exercise and sing inmy heart...for singing makes heavy work light.

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VRCATON 10/10/2011 1:01PM

    Oh yeah .. you're a SPARKER!! Keep that in the front of your mind ... we are here for you ... don't get lost in the spiral .. hop on Spark and hit the message boards, your teams and your friends ... someone will help you over the hard patches .. they've been here for me .. I've been here for them .. now YOU!! Wooohooo!

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THE_COUNTESS 10/10/2011 11:38AM

    You can do it! And you are most certainly worth every minute of the time you give to yourself! It's definitely a journey, but so is life. Just know that when you feel tired and you want to quit, you always have someone to help you through the hard part till you're ready to do it on your own again. You deserve to be happy and healthy and enjoy your life and your body. You are the most beautiful person I know, and I don't see any harm in letting everyone else know it too! emoticon

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RUNJEWELRUN 10/10/2011 10:39AM

    Yay for starting your journey :) You got this!

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MJ-SHE-BEAST 10/9/2011 9:10PM

    One step at a time, one meal at a time, one day at a time. A lot of people get very overwhelmed when they have their ultimate goal weight looming off in the future. Some find it is easier to set 5 or 10 pound goals at a time. Kind of like that old joke - How do you eat an elephant? One bite at a time!

Just stick around here and we will encourage you all we can and give you whatever support you need!

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FAITH2BWELL 10/9/2011 8:33PM

    Love your blog. That is right take one day at a time. stick with what you have planned out for yourself. I can see you doing just fine.


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POSITIVE_ONE 10/9/2011 5:59PM

    Woo hoo!!! Love it when I read about someone ready to take the journey to a better self. A healthier you!!! It is like a celebration every day when someone starts anew.

Best part is - you have a plan. And - you have the singing.


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CHELEMMM 10/9/2011 5:59PM

    And just remember that this is a life style change, not a diet. If you fall off, get right back on. Nothing can stop you!!! emoticon

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