Monday, March 26, 2012
Today is one of those days....when you don't know which way you're turning or in what direction you're being pushed in. I have been re-evaluating a lot of things in my life recently, and it has apparently made me a bit maudlin (sorry).
I've been feeling a lot of self-pity lately. I can't help it for some reason. It's like no matter what I just keep slipping into this "woe is me" mentality. I've let my progress slip and I'm not proud of it, but it is what it is. I just have to pick myself back up and try again. I will get motivated to get back on the horse and and then run in the opposite direction when i get to the riding block, which leads to more self-pity, etc, etc.
This month was also the first month in my Clomid treatment, and I'm thinking it did not go well. I will know more around the first of April. I'm not looking forward to going up a dose (hot flashes are the devil) but if that's what it takes so be it.
On a sadder note, we've been battling parvo with our 3 month old puppies this past weekend. I can tell you from experience it is a swift battle if not caught early. One of them is eating a little now after 2 days of only pedialyte and antibiotics, 3 are MIA (they were outside puppies), and one (he was such a sweet baby) has passed away. And I just found out about the last one with 3 hrs left out of a 12 hr shift....sigh