Saturday, June 12, 2010
All you have to do is watch some eps of Hoarders, Clean House, How Clean is your House? and you quickly see the correlation between disorganization, holding onto outdated stuff, and pure filth as it relates to mental health. Is my home ready to be on an ep of Hoarders? Certainly not, but it does reflect that the last 20 years have not all been hunky dory.
Not to sound sexist (and if you knew me in person you would know that I am 100 percent Feminist) but when a Woman's home becomes a pigstye then you know Houston we have a problem. The home is traditionally the woman's "place" but moreso I think it is women who care about the state of the cave - generally, men don't "get it." If a man has a comfortable bed, a television, a place for his hobbies and a woman to take care of the cleaning, laundry, dishes etc... he's a happy camper.
Yeah there are a few men who care more then their womenfolk; I have a girlfriend's husband who is the Neat Freak, but on the whole (I have three brothers, married for 20 years, and a son), men don't really get worked up when the house is a wreck.
The state of this house reflects many things, some uncomfortable and some flat out sad and disturbing to me.
1.) Financially, this house is a burden to us. We have tried to sell twice and both times the economy shortly collasped (yes we are the cause of 9-11, the Dot.com crash AND the home mortgage collaspe). This makes me angry and I've taken it out on this house by ignoring it.
2.) Caring for a house is a symbol of traditional womanhood. When I met hubby 20 years ago, I had to drop my career and what I had always thought my future would be. Not to gloss over it but this put me in counseling for four years and we almost divorced. There was quite some serious fallout and my role as woman became totally re-defined.
For a long time I resented that, and to this day it comes out by not doing housework for a husband and two kids who generate quite a bit of mess (all three are packrats; I am not).
3.) I'm very sensitive to my environment - so much so that husband would actually clean the house (before kids) because he knew that would improve our bedroom time.
When the house is dirty, messy and disorganized, I feel hopeless, depressed and YUCK. Because of my susceptibility to depression this then becomes a vortex that is hard to pull out of.
So when I post about cleaning, organizing, throwing stuff out --- and even decorating --- it is actually significant to my mental health.
BTW I've spent the entire week cleaning my son's bedroom. About three trash bags later, tons of new storage tubs (over 12, 18 quart tubs of LEGO), and a few pieces of new furniture, his room is now completed.
Details on his room
Thursday, June 10, 2010
Totally not a fitness update, but I have been busier then a one-armed wallpaper hanger these last two weeks.
Daughter left too grandparents for a week and we totally redid her room. If you are into decorating and home stuff, you can check out my other blog for photos of her completed project:
Son is off to Space Camp in Houston (is to be picked up on Sunday - when daughter leaves for one week of herpetology day camp at the science museum) and I've been re-doing his room while he is gone. I'll update with a link when it is done or just keep a look out on the Simply Rooms blog.
Completely nothing beind done on good eating or exercise. I'll post about why in a few days but for now I'm taking a break while thinking over what I need to do to get back on track while WANTING to get back on track and stay there...
Monday, May 31, 2010
I deliberately took the rest of May off from exercising and food tracking. That's been great! I have not gained or loss, but I did have the joy of having three TOM in 45 days so my body is back to it's bizarre schedule.
Anyway, tomorrow starts my new schedule, back to food tracking and back to late afternoon cardio (elliptical). In the a.m., I will be doing horse stuff due to the heat. I'll log in at Spark in the a.m. with the day's plans via the trackers, but mostly post to groups and friends in the p.m.
How involved I'll be with Spark remains to be seen. The summer is typically very busy with the kids out of school, as well as my busy involvement with the horses, both of which need a lot of work this summer. The reality is that I am not a big social network site person - I deleted my Facebook account and never had a MySpace account. I am mostly a lurker on my message boards that are non-Spark related.
Anyway, time to get back in the saddle - at Spark and with the horses so I'll be around more tomorrow after the holiday.
Friday, May 14, 2010
I am tired of this whole weight loss journey - tired and not motivated. Motivation continues to be my number one roadblock as I am seeing extremely slow progress.
Motivation is one of the hardest things to influence. It's not enough to say "just do it" - which may work for the short term, getting a workout done, but doesn't continue long term commitment.
#1 problem for me is Food. I am pretty consistent on my workouts and even if I get sidetracked for a week by my TOM, get back on track pretty quickly. Eating is definitely linked to the unconscious - though I have developed strategies to help me, sometimes the mind can be pretty determined to get her way!
In the past, I've used subliminal tapes to help me and they were a core component of my plan, especially a self-hypnosis tape I have. However, they are cassettes and I really want something on CD as it would be far more convenient for me. The easier something is, the more likely I am to use and do it. I don't like things that are complicated.
I went ahead and ordered Motivational Weight Loss
and Freedom from Junk Food
How do these work? Well there's a lot of info on the site (which I have ordered from this company before) so I won't go into the "science" but I will write briefly about my experiences with them...
It's best to listen to them everyday for 30 days. For best results stick to every day listening - which can be done while you do the dishes, cook dinner, take a bath, etc... They can be disturbing to your sleep if listened to while falling asleep, though I have done it that way - it depends on how sensitive you are to the voices (most of the time you cannot hear the voices, but sometimes you catch a murmur).
In about two weeks you will start making small changes that on the surface you don't connect to the tapes. Such as choosing a water bottle over a soda... or picking up a fruit instead of a candybar. You start finding it easier to resist making bad choices such as picking up candy at the checkout or resisting that dessert on the menu. The changes are small and you are not changed into a different person with no control over your mind.
Overall, it just makes doing the right thing so much easier... if you find it always a struggle, getting frustrated or impatient, it eases you.
There are a bunch of different methods you can choose from - completely subliminal means you will not hear the voices (though they give you a list of what is on the tape) and will hear nature sounds or music.They can be used while you are reading, doing chores, knitting, etc....
Some of the others you do hear the voices, such as with Echo-Tech so these need to be used with headphones and not while your attention is needed elsewhere. I've found a combination of subliminal with Echo-Talk (or something similar) works more effectively then just subliminal.
Yes, these are expensive. No way around it. But if you compare the cost to one counseling session (well over $100), or 3 workouts with a personal trainer ($150 at my gym and usualy more), or one piece of workout equipment I want (Bosu $100), then it is a bit easier to swallow (just a bit).
There are also other companies to order from. I Ilst and link this company because I have used their products before...
I do have a series on cassette tapes which I'll be replacing with CDs. if you are already my Sparkfriend and would like to be considered, email me your request. Available titles:
*Excellent Posture (subliminal)
*Relaxation (subliminal - comes in original case with list of messages)
*End Self Destructive Patters (headphones ONLY, Echo-Tech, in original case with messages)
*Enjoying Exercise (subliminal with tropical soundtrack, comes in original case)
*Natural Pain Relieve (same as above - I used this to prepare for natural childbirth)
*Soaring Self Esteem (2 cassette set, in original case, with coaching on one, and Innertalk on the other - will need headphones).
Wednesday, May 12, 2010
School is ending for the kiddos so my son has already gone on FOUR fieldtrips! He did get to hold a baby kangeroo and pet a bear cub... and I've gone to my daughers' music program, and my son's music program is tomorrow. Son also wants another "game night" where we invite about15 of his friends over for a night of video games. And I start back to college in two weeks.
May is always busy with these type of things which makes me almost wish that school IS out due to all the stuff that needs to get done. LOL
The tornados all went south of us on Monday and nothing showed up around here yesterday though it was predicted we would see some bad weather, and it has been gloomy, raining and mucky (kinda warm and heavy wtih humidity).
The pain of my TOM is just now starting to ease so I'm mapping out a program and re-thinking what I'm going to be doing so will update about that later.
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