Wednesday, April 17, 2013
One night I had a wondrous dream,
One set of footprints there was seen,
The footprints of my precious Lord,
But mine were not along the shore.
But then some stranger prints appeared,
And I asked the Lord, "What have we here?"
Those prints are large and round and neat,
"But Lord they are too big for feet."
"My child," He said in somber tones,
"For miles I carried you alone.
I challenged you to walk in faith,
But you refused and made me wait."
"You disobeyed, you would not grow,
The walk of faith, you would not know.
So I got tired, I got fed up,
and there I dropped you on your butt."
"Because in life, there comes a time,
when one must fight, and one must climb.
When one must rise and take a stand,
or leave their butt prints in the sand."
Saturday, April 06, 2013
“It is change, continuing change, inevitable change, that is the dominant factor in society today. No sensible decision can be made any longer without taking into account not only the world as it is, but the world as it will be.”
Friday, April 05, 2013
So Tuesday there was a mandatory meeting at work and they told us the lab would be closing in 60 days (since there are so many that lost their jobs, they had to give a 60 day notice).
There are now a large number of BSMT or MLT, and other lab folks that will want a job come the end of June or early July since the company staggered the end dates for the lab.
We will get a severance for the years worked, if you stay till your end date…so it makes it hard for some to look for that new job until this one is done.
But of course, you can use that severance to help you move to another location in the company and not lose any of that severance if you choose to do this before the end date on your walking papers.
I’ve never been through this before and it is surreal.
I normally try to be a positive influence at work. Happy and trying to get others to see the bright side of things when I can could because our jobs are were very stressful. But I haven’t been very positive….I have been crying along side everyone. Sitting and listening in disbelief as the few that will be left start making plans of what they want to take for their office or do with a space when we are all gone.
The QA coordinator, who is keeping her job, told me later on Tuesday of her plans for my office. I asked her if she could wait till my fat a** is gone for good..she looked at me as she was in disbelief that I said that to her. Since then, I haven’t been talking to my friend very much.
One of the many things that stinks, is that I now have to train my boss and the coordinator how to do the job that I have done for over 7 years. You see I was the QA Analyst for all of the area STAT and satellite labs and those labs will still be in operation. But with our lab, which was the main lab in our region, closing the QA manager and coordinator will simply switch to my job functions. I understand that it is a business, but it still stinks.
Phoenix, or not to Phoenix?
I was offered a job within the company as a QA manager in Phoenix AZ but we didn’t take it back in February. Because we couldn’t afford the moving expense and because my family and friends are here we decided it wasn’t a good idea to take it.
That job is still there…just waiting for me. The divisional QA manager knew that this closure was going to occur, but he couldn’t tell me that when that job first came open. All he could say is that he thought of me first for the poison and really wanted me to take it. He did remind me that this closure “rumor” had been floating around for the last few years and that it COULD happen someday, but the Phoenix lab is larger and never has been close to the closure list.
He has been doing his job and the QA manager job, waiting for me…I guess that I need to look at this again….since it is a step up in the company, more pay…and only 1200 plus miles from the grandson, daughters, other family…
Sunday, March 24, 2013
Yacht a know me by now!
Juno that I'm out here, right?
Says me, that's who?
Ima psychiatrist. I'm here 'cause you won't open up!
Sunday, March 17, 2013
I can’t tell you when it was, but I decided that I should step on that scale since it had been a few weeks since I had. You see, I had been staying around the same weight for months now and I was fine with that. I was exercising a bit each day by walking the dogs, even in the snow…they got to go!
But I didn’t always take the time each day to do all of the challenges that I was posting; thinking that walking the dogs was enough…. I shouldn’t take so much time researching things to add and since it takes so much time…I can’t to the exercises. It’s not that important for me to do the challenges that I post I thought…but it is really to me so that I don’t feel like a fraud or fake and I hate that feeling! And these challenges are for me as well as others in the group so I will get back into doing all that I post!
I was focusing on that other job. Focusing on thinking about getting the house in order; getting another place to live; I brought candy to work, just for my scratchy throat, but was eating too much; working on… you name it and then I stepped on the scales…6-pound increase? Of course it must be due to water weight or something such as that. So I tried some other days, but still 205 it tells me.
Then I didn’t log it on here. I was embarrassed but of course, I still told myself excuses for not logging my weight gain. I have to go to work; I’ll step on the scale when I’m logging on Spark People next time; I’ll get this off in a week or so, so don’t worry about it. The list goes on.
My what I thought was going to be my short-term goal this year, has been extended. I wanted to get to where I would no longer be considered obese, which would be when I hit 172 lbs or less and I wanted to hit that before Spring got started, but with all of those months of not losing much or not losing at all, or now gaining, I won’t see that goal until around June 30th of this year, but that is now my new short term goal.
So this is truly why I started my March Cardio Challenge, because I fell off the wagon and I need to run; not walk in order to catch up!
199 on 2/16/13
205- sometime after that
202-3/16/13 The extra cardio and exercise is working!
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