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I was lost, but now I am found!

Sunday, July 24, 2011

SO I have been 'lost' the last few started with a back injury which resulted in the doctor telling me i could not do any physical activity other than a moderate 15 minute walk. I was just about to try my first mini marathon and run 10k when this happened. So I dealt with it by getting lost. I stopped coming on here becuase I felt like I had nothing to contribute and was feeling very depressed. When my exercise decreased my eating habits go worse. I was feeling embarrassed and ashamed so I dealt with it by simply ignoring this site. Today I read someones blog post on here and it inspired me back into reality. I am still on limited ability work so I am not able to do much, but I NEED to start by getting control of my eating and getting on my treadmill for the 15 minutes I am allowed. Last week I tried for 3 days in a row before I successfully completed 15 minutes pain free, but I did it! I am very thankful that I am only up 2 pounds in the last 3 months considering my exercise regime and eating habits have drastically suffered. But when I stop and really think about it, I picked up some automatic habits that have not gone away over the past 3 months that I think helped me maintain my weight. I still get all my water in, I almost never eat 2 hours prior to bedtime, I get at least 8 ours of sleep and I always look at nutritional info before eating a food. Sometimes I eat an unhealthy food anyways, but other times I decide its not worth it for the fat and pass it up. I will be having surgery in the next couple of months to correct my back injury and I will hopefully get back into the swing of things soon after that. In the meantime I need to work with what I have and get my eating habits in check and do the exercise that I can do. The blog I read this morning reminded me that I am not only doing this for myself but for my 7 year old son-I want to be able to do anything with him and I can't do that at this weight. I have managed to lose almost 50 pounds and I want to keep going. I'M BACK!!!

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KIZZIE48 9/27/2011 8:46PM

    I am in the same boat. Although I am not able to get any relief to my back injury and it is permanent. I found that over the summer, I fell off the wagon and have not checked in here. I have finally am getting better sleep due to my A-PAP machine and now just have to get the nutrition back. I am only able to workout for about 10 minutes, but am in absolute agony. Hopefully, once I get back into a routine, it will ease up with weight loss.

I hope to see you more here as I need motivation as well for my kids. I wish you all the success with your surgery!

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CANBDONE 7/25/2011 12:40PM

    What a great attitude...welcome back!

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How I know that I am on the right path...

Wednesday, March 16, 2011

I spent the last few days with my boys on a little mini vacation. We went into the city (5 hrs away) to see Monster Jam and do some relaxing. I was really worried about my eating, because when we go away, we eat junk like crazy!! Although, I did not eat well the last few days, I am proud of myself for eating much better than I ever would have in the past. Yes, I had dessert the first night we were there, but i had salad for dinner instead of a burger which i would have chosen in the past. Yes, we went to my fave restaurant TWICE, but i had salad one time, and only ordered a smaller version on my fave dish, not the full portion. And, the biggest success of all to me was when we went to the movies and i resisted the popcorn!!! I love movie theater popcorn, but I read an article recently (not sure if it was on SP or not) about the amount of fat in movie theater popcorn. At the theater I was at, in a medium bag of popcorn, there is over 60 g of fat!!!! So I thought about that article when we were ordering and I skipped it and got a drink instead:):)
I had intended on using the fitness room at our hotel at least once, but it was under construction. So I did a few laps in the swimming pool while my son was
I by no means stayed within any of my targeted eating goals while I was away, but I consider it a victory because I thought about everything before I ate it and was always fully aware of what I was putting in my mouth. I think that's how I know that I will not fall off the band wagon again-I am in it for the long haul. I may have days where I am not eating properly, but I am aware of those days and will now being extra careful the next few days!

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JDBD17 3/16/2011 12:18PM

    Awesome! Being out of your "element" and daily routine I think you did a wonderful job!

emoticon Wednesday!!!

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CANBDONE 3/16/2011 12:02PM

    Keep on doing what you're's working! I think I hear the sound of breaking chains...

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tooting my own horn-I deserve it tonight :)

Monday, March 07, 2011

Today I had every excuse in the book not to go to my scheduled fitness class. I have been battling a sinus cold for over a week and my stomach has been upset (flu going around). Being a teacher, I do not like calling in sick, so I decided to suck it up and go to school. The day only got worse as it went on. I had a confrontation with a co-worker about the way she spoke to a student and had to deal with a very upset parent. At lunch I walked into my sons class to give him his medicine and all he** was breaking loose in screaming yelling, kicking...which resulted in my son and a few other kids being very upset. I spent my lunch hour with a small group of kids calming them down. Then, near the end of the day, a grade one student punched a little boy right in the face (again in my sons class). I had to fill out reports and call parents. My son came home very upset and tired. I thought that I should probably stay home to 'support him'...then I realized that I needed to get my butt to class in order to be a better parent to him.
If all this had happened a few months ago, I would have planned first thing in the morning on not going to class...."im sorry, I cant, I just dont have it in me".....but I WENT and I actually feel better!!! I gt out alot of frustrations, and my son was perfectly content with his daddy at home. The fact that i did not throw in the towel after a day like today really makes me proud...I am well on my way to being a better me, inside and out!

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CANBDONE 3/10/2011 10:27AM

    As a retired teacher, I remember going home some days and thinking: KIDS 10, TEACHER win! Thank God, there were only a few days like that. I always knew when things didn't go right and wondered how I could have changed the outcome. If I may ask, where was the teacher when the kids were yelling and screaming and hitting and fighting?

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SJACK06S 3/7/2011 11:14PM

  Great work! I'm a teacher, too, so I understand how much stress the job produces! It's so easy to just go home and plop your exhausted booty on the couch! I always feel better when I force myself to work out.

Good luck in reaching your goals! You have an amazing attitude!

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KIBAISREADY 3/7/2011 10:49PM

    You should be proud... emoticon emoticon... Now that's what I call determined and focused.. Keep up the good work.... I believe In YOU...

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from the highest of highs to the lowest of lows in one day!

Sunday, March 06, 2011

How could I have gone from the hugest sense of accomplishment, to the lowest feeling in the world in the matter of a few hours?

I reached an amazing goal of mine today- to walk/run 5km...I actually ended up doing 5.3 in just under 50 minutes!!!! I was feeling so on top of the world when I got home, of course I shared it on facebook and on may great friends on fb and complete strangers on here congratulated me and made me feel awesome....then I felt like I was kicked to the my husband.....don't get me wrong, he has been supportive, but I really don't think he expected me to keep this up for so long. It's not that I think he is trying to sabotage me, but that's sure the way it felt today. He asked me how I did-when I told him I reached my 5k he said wow, didn't think you could. That was it-nothing else. Then, a little while later, he asked if I've been having fun going out 3x a week to do this.....I said I've enjoyed getting healthier, but its not fun....its working out....he seems to think that I should be thanking him for allowing me to leave the house a few times a week. Then, the kicker of it all was when I made a joke saying 'pretty soon I will be lighter than you".....that made him mad....he said 'you will NEVER be lighter than me". I asked him if he was gonna start working out too, because I only have 40 pounds to go and we are the same weight and he just repeated 'you will never be lighter than me". He's been in our room watching tv and ignoring me ever since.

What the heck is that? I feel like a piece of dirt now....Don't know what I did to deserve this....I am supposed to be feeling on top of the world!!!!


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KWSUTTON 3/6/2011 7:26PM

    Thanks gals-I really appreciate your words of advice and support....don't know what I would do without my SP friends. THANKS AGAIN emoticon

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WATCHMEGO! 3/6/2011 7:24PM

    Sounds like that's more about him than you. Don't get me wrong.....he was not nice when he said those things. I just think they're more about him than what he thinks of you.

I know that doesn't make it any easier. I'm sorry he wasn't very nice. He's probably not feeling any better than you are right now. YOU did NOTHING wrong!

I think you did great! Try to relive the great feeling you had when you finished. Visit FB and reread the awesome comments from your friends.

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PIXIECUTE 3/6/2011 6:27PM

    It sounds like he's "projecting"... basically feeling crappy about not exercising or eating too much (or not feeling like he's the center of your world) so he's taking it out on you by making YOU feel guilty (or trying to make you stop so he doesn't feel bad anymore). Most people don't know they're doing it... and it certainly doesn't mean he's consciously trying to sabotage you.
Chin up! He's just pouting but you're reaching goals :) He'll realize what he did and hopefully apologize, or at least stop doing it.
You DID the 5K!!! no one can take that moment away. You DID IT :)

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JEANNER6 3/6/2011 6:17PM

    I wonder if he is testing your resolve. Don't let the harsh words keep you from continuing. He will admire you and be so proud (maybe he won't admit it) when you finally reach your goal! emoticon

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My goals for the next 8 weeks

Thursday, March 03, 2011

I have been setting goals in eight week chunks. For this past 8 weeks, my goals were

1. exercise as often as possible, but at least 3 time a week
2. Drink 8 glasses of water a day
3. Dont eat at night
4. Use a workout buddy to help motivate me

I did pretty good. #1 went rather well, with only one week that I exercised twice, not three times. #2 was a little harder for me, but I chugged away. #3 was the hardest. I found that after I work out, which is always at night, I needed some food in me. So i started having a snack, but only allowed myself veggies, fruit or yogourt.
#4 has been awesome way to reconnect with some freinds!
#5.....almost! I lost 17.5 pounds. (but feel ok with it because I know where I went astray)

Today is day one for my next 8 week session. I am stepping up my fitness classes from twice a week to 3 times a week. My new goals:
1. Try to track my food intake
2. Drink 8-10 glasses of water a day
3. Walk/run 6 km per week
4. only eat veggies after 7pm
5. Check in with Spark people EVERY day
6. Be in the 230's (even if its 239.9:))-which is a weight loss of at least 13 pounds....feel like im being kinda eager with this one, but Im gonna give it a try.

Can't wait to start this new 8-week journey :)

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JUST_DUCKIE 3/3/2011 7:25PM

    I love these goals! They're very close to mine!! Good luck!

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KWSUTTON 3/3/2011 5:39PM

    Thank you so very much to the both of you :):)

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KIBAISREADY 3/3/2011 1:11PM

    Well Done! emoticon... Love the goals.... emoticon

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SUPER3800 3/3/2011 8:31AM

  Good job! You did it! I think you will continue to have sucess!

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