Tuesday, November 03, 2009
like giving up...but I know I can't and I shouldn't. I've just got no motivation and have tried hard to change habits but i feel myself slipping into what's comfortable...routines that got me here to begin with. And I feel like I COULD work harder but I'm just meh...
And my lower back and glutes are really hurting me, I don't know what I spasmed or pulled but it just makes me want to give up more, WTF I AM NOT THIS PERSON. I am a motivator and I am a hard worker...I guess I'm just asking for help or any kind of words of support and motivation.
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
I'm back after a nice long weekend up in the mountains, and I definitely feel relaxed but also that I did not maintain my routine while I was up there. I did go for a long ass walk for an hour, but I am so used to having my elliptical runner it's tough to really feel you are getting a work out if you switch things up to a different means of exercise that isn't a full on "i'm gonna kick your ass in the gym" kind of work out. Also, granny's cooking was amazing but of course comfort food so I tried to have controlled portions but it was tough, especially with really nothing to do but relax eat and watch movies. I hope my weigh in next week doesn't show I failed any, I have to definitely get back on track this week!
Control is such an issue that I do not like to admit is important with weight loss. I want to be one of those laid back whatever people who shed the pounds regardless of calorie counting but I'm starting to think I will A. gain weight or B. end up unhealthy and losing weight the wrong way. Knowledge is power, and I'm glad for this website and everyone involved because I need to keep a healthy outlook on this journey and stay knowledgable as to the balance of calories and exercise as not to plateau, starve, overeat, give up. Because the latter I am very, very good at.
Sunday, October 18, 2009
...and I've lost 5 lbs.! I couldn't help but smile as I drove home from my friends house (where she weighs me but doesn't give me a total as to just how big i am, God Bless her!) because all this hard work is paying off and I DON'T Have to be a the gym 3 hours a day and eat like a bird. I know the second week is hardest and I should be lucky to lose even a pound over the next 7 days, but I'm staying optimistic. PLUS I'm going away this Thursday-Monday to the mountains of the Adirondacks (No internet ) so I'll be well relaxed and low stress=a restful Kate. My grandparents, who i'm going to visit, always eat healthy so I'm not worried about any temptations. Plus my grandmother never hesitates to tell me I should lose weight, lol, so I always am careful of what I eat in front of her. :( She's been better in her old age, not as brutally honest, and I plan to tell her about this site so she knows it's going to stay off this time and I'm going to be healthy, like her, for a long long time. She's an amazing women of 82 who looks 20 years her junior. It's unbelievable, I think she gets younger every time I see her and she's always full of energy. I'm really looking forward to my visit and to get some fresh air and outside time with a panoramic picturesque view of all the glorious mountains.
I've also got lots of veggies and legumes to make some hearty soups because I think I'm lacking protein so that's my goal for the week. Cooking!
Friday, October 16, 2009
This is a strange curve ball that has been thrown at me since I started changing my eating and exercise lifestyle. It's been a little over a week and I feel great, much healthier, but my sleep pattern is all out of wack. I cannot get a good nights sleep! Something must me missing in my diet, because I have been working out in the afternoons which SHOULD make me sleepy at night right? WRONG. I lay awake in the dark for hours trying to sleep, and when I do sleep I'm awake only a few hours later, groggy but not tired enough to get that good REM sort of sleep. I work nights (from 4-midnight) but I still should not be going to sleep at 8 or 9am!!!
I have been researching foods that have tryptophan in them, and aside from the sea lion and elk, there seems to be some good tryptophan in spinach, soy, and broccoli raab. I'm hoping if I eat these foods at night it will help me with this slumber problem. I don't want to turn to sleeping pills and want to try natural remedies.
Has anyone else had this problem when initially changing their lifestyle? Any suggestions?
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