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Starting Over - Again

Thursday, July 12, 2012

Thank you Sparkpeople for still being here for me. I think this time around will be a more slow process than the last time was. The last four years have not been good for me at all health-wise.

I had very large ovarian tumors (was a cancer scare) which called for a complete hysterectomy in 09. They cut me from about 2 inches above my belly button all the way down...one of the tumors was as large as a basketball. The anesthesia made me really sick and i puked for days...weakening the internal sutures and stitches. My blood pressure was also thru the roof while I was in the hospital, so I started meds for that soon after surgery. Taking care of my mother-in-law too soon after surgery and being so sick after surgery caused incisional hernias.

In 2010, I was back in the hospital to have the hernias repaired. They fixed me from the belly button down with mesh and I had that to get over. I lost my job, but that was probably the best thing that came out of it, because my job was entirely too stressful. I had a different job within a week of losing the other one. My new bosses are very appreciative and actually took me on a Caribbean Cruise in December of that year.

Last year, I was still taking care of my husband's mother and still packing on the pounds. I started feeling more bulging in my belly....this time above my belly-button. The part they didn't repair was also coming undone.... My mother-in-law's state of health had become worse also and it got to the point that she had to be put in assisted living. She passed in December.

Another trip to the doctor ended up with me on cholesterol meds and another appointment to see the surgeon. I had lathroscopic hernia surgery on May 10 of this year....I had 11 incisions in my abdomen and was in the hospital for 4 days. It took 6 weeks for the soreness to go away and the first couple of weeks, the pain was almost unbearable. But, thankfully, I am feeling much better now and do not look quite as pregnant as i did before.

When I went to doctor 1 week out from my surgery, I weighed 257 pounds. I started watching my food intake and it took almost 2 months to lose 12 pounds...but even at that I still could not get my mojo back....until I went to doctor to get my liver function checked from being on the cholesterol meds for 3 months.
They called me a couple of days later and said I needed to come in for an A1C test to check my blood sugar over the past 3 months....and I guess that was finally my wake-up call....

I have to do this for me and my family....My first grandbaby will be a year old next month...my son is getting married next month and expecting his first baby in January....i want to be around for them....and I sure don't want to be a hypertensive diabetic, heart-attack waiting to happen. My hips hurt, my feet hurt, I feel like crap all the time...and it is time to do something about it.

Going back and looking at where I was and how I got there in 07 and 08 makes me want to cry....I really worked hard and then just let it all go. I can't do that again. I have the power to make my health and my life better... and that is what I intend to do.

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JEWEL-LEE 7/18/2012 10:08PM

    No matter what life throws at us, we can ALWAYS bounce back from it! You and all of us can do it! Hang in there, my friend! :)

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GAYLE119 7/12/2012 3:56PM

    emoticon You are in my prayers! emoticon

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C25K revisited

Friday, May 23, 2008

Got on the scale this am and it wasn't good. I am back up to 188.6! This is just totally unacceptable. I have worked too hard. I really have to get myself back on track! So, I am restarting coolrunning.com's beginner running program again.

Beginning stats (from Tanita Body Comp Monitor)
188.6 pounds
38.9% body fat
43.2% water
8 rating of visceral fat
108.2 lbs muscle
5.8 lbs bone
2462 BMR
Will get major measurements in the AM.

The first run (treadmill 2% incline):
5 min warmup walk at 3.6 mph (off the treadmill to stretch)
60/90 sec intervals at 5/3.7-4 mph
total time for 3.1 miles: 44:22

I intend to stick to the schedule, the only changes being that I will do the distance rather than the time and I will do it everyother day to cut down on the time for completion. (shooting for a graduation day of July 14th) I will adhere to their recommendations for the intervals, I will just do it so that I complete the 3.1 mile distance each time.

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W8WATCHER4LIFE 5/23/2008 11:51PM

  I've been up again this week too... it happens to all of us. But we can get back on track! Remember, Success consists of getting up once oftener than you fall! (Mary Engelbreit) You haven't given up, so you will make it! Blessings!

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    I like your attitude!
Just don't give up and you will succeed.
Hugs, Alice

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Time for Me

Tuesday, May 20, 2008

As I sit here this morning, I am reflecting on the past year, the past several years actually. My Richie graduates from High School Sunday and he started to work yesterday. We were very fortunate to get him to this point. He is a very smart kid, but he's just always hated school and after his accident in October, I really had a difficult time getting him to go back. Fortunately, the public school system in our county has an alternative ed. program that I was able to get him enrolled in and it was just what he needed. He was able to work on 2 subjects a day and had much more one-on-one interaction with his teachers, and the classes were at a different campus, so he didn't have to deal with a lot of the "drama" that goes on at regular school. Just what he needed.

He will be working and staying in Tennessee thru the week and coming home on the weekends and when he left Sunday, I really felt the empty nest syndrome. I couldn't help but cry, even though he's not really moved out, he's my baby. I can only imagine what it's gonna be like Sunday when he walks across that stage and gets his diploma....I am very proud of him.

As far as my plan to get back on track with my weight loss journey, it's coming along slowly. It's been difficult to get back into a routine and I have just been lazy. I have been having some hip pain and I have been using that as my excuse for not getting my exercise in when I know that it's not really bad enough to keep me from walking. I have to get back on track, and I am doing better. Now I just have to be consistant. That's the key. I am still working on losing the 10 pounds I gained during tax season. It's discouraging, because it seemed to have taken forever to lose those 10 pounds the first time. I have set myself back several months. But I DID lose them and I CAN lose them again. No more excuses...It's time to put ME at the top of the list of things to do.

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JEWEL-LEE 5/20/2008 2:24PM

    It has been an eventful year for us hasn't it? I empathize with what you are going through with your son leaving home. I still have around 8 more years till my first born moves out and I am NOT looking forward to it at all. I'm glad he did get to finish school at a more comfortable place. That's good. :)

As for the weight loss, yes you WILL lose it again. I know the agony of seeing the scale take forever and a day to move in the right direction but I also know that it will not stay that way forever. Just keep doing what you know you need to do and your body will follow suit. Hang in there, my friend. :)

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    My kids are both grown and gone too and I agree at first it is really hard to see them 'leave'.
But I'm sure you can handle it.
Take care.
Hugs, Alice

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W8WATCHER4LIFE 5/20/2008 7:26AM

  It's funny how many people I'm running into here who have issues just like mine...
I too have a son who's graduating this year (I'm claiming it), who hates school, and is in alternate education. His counselor had called and said that he's behind on his work and she's afraid that he won't graduate. He insists he will and claims that the more I "nag" him about it, the less motivated he is to finish. Too bad he doesn't realize how this will affect his future! He is also very intelligent... a chess and computer whiz... I'm trusting that he will still do very well in life.
I cried in the store last week, as I purchased the card for his 19th birthday. These things are natural. As disappointing as it is, probably so is the weight gain, with all that's going on. I've been having my days too, and bouncing back and forth within the same 4 pounds for a month or two now.
Yes, it's time to take care of you... as best you can, as you deal with these natural stressors in your life right now. Don't beat yourself up for bad choices, but just pick yourself up and move on. Success is getting up once oftener than you fall! You can do it, and you WILL! Thank God that life is full of do-overs.
I'm glad to be a part of your team!

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Swimsuit Boot Camp-Beginning Stats

Monday, May 05, 2008

Weight ~ 184.6
Waist ~ 36.25"
Hips ~ 40.75"
Upper Arm ~ 13.25"
Thigh ~ 23.50"
Bust ~ 43.00"


I WILL reach my goals!

Thursday, May 01, 2008

Well, tax season's been over two weeks but the work really hadn't slowed any with all the 1st quarter stuff that had to be done by yesterday. I took off today and tomorrow...very much needed days.

Today is a new month. With the change of a month always comes the renewal of goals and commitments. I still want to reach my goal of 1000 aerobic miles by my first sparkiversary, but in order to reach that goal, I am looking at averaging over 7 miles a day and I just don't think that is going to happen, although I will give it my best shot. I have walked 650 aerobic miles since June 16th and that leaves 350 to go.

I didn't reach Wichita by the end of tax season like I vowed to do, but when I made that goal, I didn't know we were going to become shorthanded at work and that I was going to have to put in so many hours on the job. "Virtually" I am currently in the eastern suburbs of KC....780 miles from little 'ole Castlewood VA. I have to plug my sparkteam here. What started out as a misunderstood post on another message board back in November, turned into a small little challenge thread called "Virtual Walk to Meet a Fellow Sparker" challenge, which then turned into a full fledged team with 118 members so far. Members from all over the US, including Hawaii, members in Canada, New Zeland and the UK. I really love this team. I have said it before, but I am pretty sure if I hadn't been leading this team, I would probably have fallen completely off the wagon by now.

I am 10.5 months into my lifestyle change. That's a long time for me to actually stick with something other than not caring for myself. And that's really it in a nutshell. I spent my 20's and 30's taking care of everyone but myself. My 40's are going to be different. The past almost year has been incredible. I have learned so much from this site. I have learned that my body is an amazing thing. I never thought I could be a runner until I gave my body chance to run and learned to do it the right way with the C25k program. I have learned that I CAN eat healthy. I CAN still eat the things that I like...in moderation. I CAN exercise. I CAN train my body. I CAN keep in control in times of major stress. I CAN motivate others and be an inspiration. I CAN take care of myself and my loved ones. I Don't have to neglect myself in order to do that.

Now to my goals: and let me tell ya....if you become lax on exercise after having been very active...your body won't like it and it will tell you about it...getting back into exercise these past two weeks has been painful...but it is getting better.

Goal #1 -- Water (less coffee)

Goal #2 -- Plan and log food...every day...every bite

Goal #3 -- Cardio Exercise - need to increase my walking distance again. Three days a week, I will do the Curves circuit.

Goal #4 -- Get back to losing weight. I have some ground to make up.

These are simple goals. I have done this before with much success. And as of May 1st, I rededicate myself to me! I might be a little late, it might take longer than I want it to, but I WILL reach my goals! I will NOT give up on myself! I have come too far!

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GRAMMABENJI 5/2/2008 11:15PM

    i know how hard it is to get back into walking i also started on the 1st after about 2 weeks off. gosh it felt good too. never thought i would be saying that. congrats on the job you have done so far. talk with you soon

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JEWEL-LEE 5/1/2008 8:25PM

    Woohoo! You're back! I'm so excited! I also need to get more water in and less coffee/soda. That will be my goal for this month. :)

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    Sounds like you are doing a great job.
Keep up the good work.
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W8WATCHER4LIFE 5/1/2008 6:28PM

  Yes you will! Yes you can! I have recommitted today also! Gonna go look at your sparkpage... neat ideas for challenges! You are going to have great success!

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