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Goodbye Abbott

Thursday, May 17, 2012

Three years ago I walked into Bangor Child Development Center to start my job as a Training and Curriculum Specialist. I was escorted to the teachers lounge to meet the staff and it was there that I first met you. What caught my attention was your beautiful smile and the way you could roll an r, vowel or consonant. It was freakin amazing. You spoke so fast! You welcomed me with open arms and insisted that I grab a plate and break bread with you. I thought to myself, I like this crazy woman.
After my first training session you came up to me and told me, my training was the best you had ever had and that I was good at my job. That's when I fell in love with you. We had our moments. You always had candy in your pocket and would bribe the children into behaving. I constantly had to correct you on that habit and you would always promise to stop and then I would catch you again. It drove me crazy, but you never did. That's when I knew for sure I was in love with you.
You have shown love and compassion to children for over twenty years. The children at the CDC always honored you and would come running to you when they saw you. You always had a hug for me and kind words of encouragement. I even enjoyed the way you loosened up when I taught the class on child sexual development. Honestly, I was worried about how you would respond since you appeared to be quite conservative. Little did I know you had a little bit of "freak" in you. I love the story of when one of your guest at home mentioned that your husband had a big beautiful dick. Of course with her accent that's how it came out. She was actually complementing your husband on the beautiful big deck he had just built for you. I still crack up when I replay that story.
You decided to retire after 25 years of teaching young children and just into your retirement, you were diagnosed with cancer. You always took care of everyone but yourself. I used to scold you about it too. We almost lost you then. Your husband called us at work and said we all needed to come and say goodbye. We did and after we all left you decided that you were going to fight and fight you did. God honored our prayers and gave you back to us for two more years.
Tonight your husband called again. I rushed up to see you. This time I know there will not be a second chance. This time you are ready to go and you have made peace with the wonderful life you had here on this earth. Your children are well and successful, your husband is doing better with his health. You are free to finally just rest and be with God. Abbott, I don't want to say goodbye but I know I have to, for real this time. I was able to sing to you your favorite song, stroke your beautiful face, hold your hand, and tell you just how much I love you. I hated to leave you tonight. I hate that our relationship has to end this way. But until we meet again in the spirit realm and in The presence of our King, I send my love with you for your next journey. Thanks for loving me, and for being my friend. I miss you already.

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CASE4GRACE 9/14/2012 5:08PM

    I am in tears after reading this. What a special friendship you had, and how sad for it to end the way it did. You are a beautiful person to pour yourself out and honor your friend with such a tribute at the end of her life. I know it has been monghts since you wrote this, but sending you a hug for comfort as I'm sure the ache in your heart missing her lingers on.
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CHUBRUB3 5/21/2012 7:15PM

    Oh Tamara big hugs my friend on the loss of your friend. It is always so hard.
We are blessed by the Angels among us and you will be reunited again.
Love and prayers,

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BBAMMOM 5/21/2012 9:56AM

    Tamara, I just read this beautiful tribute to your special friend. I hope you find peace in the special memories that you will carry for the rest of your life. Sending you hugs, strength and love.

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LITTLETEAPOT17 5/19/2012 11:01AM

    Beautiful words and beautiful friendship Tamara. Love you my friend.

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PURESTILLWATER 5/17/2012 11:40PM

    Sorry for your loss my friend but what peace being able to say goodbye.

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WIO_ALISA 5/17/2012 10:31PM

    Beautiful! Thank you for sharing your friendship.

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MDGARDENGIRL 5/17/2012 10:31PM

    Oh Tamara..... I hurt for you and your wonderful friend Abbott. How sad that she lost her fight to such a wicked disease. I pray that she goes peacefully.

God sends us Angels on Earth to remind us how precious Life really is and we should not waste it being unkind or frivolous. Love you my dear dear friend..... xoxoxo Marg

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Back to the gym.

Tuesday, January 03, 2012

Today was my first time back to Curves since my surgery. I was so excited to get there and sweat some. Boy was that hard! Eight weeks is a long time to be away from the gym. I pray I won't be too sore. It felt good and looking forward to going back tomorrow. The timing could not have been better. I spent the New Years holiday in the hospital,with my step dad. He is quite ill and his heart is only operating at 20%. He is in good spirits and bossing me around (as only he can do). It is a very scary time for me but this is out of my control and I will just let God do what God does. In the meantime, I am preparing his home to be comfortable for him when and if, he returns to it. If for some reason he is unable to return home, I am packing things up for a quick pack out. Such a odd space to be in. The hour I spent at curves allowed me to not think about the situation and all I did was focus on me. It was wonderful. Now I am on my way to visit with him for a few minutes before going home to crash and prepare for the next day.

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KTOWNGIRL02 1/4/2012 10:27PM

    Thank you all. I woke up this morning and very little soreness. I went again tonight and it was a little easier. I figure it will take a few weeks to build up stamina. I have to get there because I will start up my walks again in February with a 5K snowshoe race. I can't wait!! Of course, the way I am loosing inches, I need a new ski jacket. My coat is way too big which is a good thing!
My step daddy was released to a nursing rehabilitation center today so he is on his way to recovery. Hopefully, he will build up his strength enough to go back to his apartment. Thanks for all of the support.

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BOOK0WL 1/4/2012 8:52AM

    I love my Curves - glad to know that you're getting back to your routine, and that it's helping you with some of the stress of dealing with your step-dad's health. You are doing FANTASTIC!!


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FITWITHIN 1/3/2012 11:34PM

    Take it slow and welcome back.

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STRENGTH2BEATMS 1/3/2012 11:16PM

    great progress. good luck in the future, and i hope you don't get so sore!

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Thursday, December 29, 2011

Just received a note from my primary doctor and it appears that my body is responding to my weight loss.
My main goal had been to lower my A1C numbers. My number preop was 6.2 which is right in that pre diabetes range. Today my number is 5.6. Normal ranges from 4.8 to 5.6. I am on cloud nine!! emoticon

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Feeling quite annoyed!

Monday, December 26, 2011

I understand that blogging is a public forum and if People choose to put their business out there, They may receive -/+ feedback. With that said, I think most people have good intentions when they want to share their feelings and/ or concerns,but at the same time, I think there are better ways to voice opinions . Is it really necessary to get on your soap box when visiting the blog of someone else? There seems to be a group of people that have strong options regarding weight loss surgeries. Most people conduct thorough research before having this type of help for obesity. For some, this is a last chance to leading a healthy life. Nothing in this world is safe. I had a friend die from getting her teeth cleaned. Does that mean I should tell people to not go to the dentist? My mother died from the effects of chemotherapy but her life was extended six additional years. Should I have told her not to go through chemo because of the dangers? People that have such strong options need to blog on their own page. Please leave the pages of others alone. It is disrespectful and frankly makes you look silly.

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MDGARDENGIRL 12/28/2011 7:19PM

    I agree !!! You know they are out there, but when you read what they have to say..... it's almost shocking how evil they are. And they think it's ok to spew hate on YOUR page! That's what gets me! It's all I can do to not go to their page and tell them how ignorant they are..... but that brings me to their low level of taste. So take the high road and know that you are in control of your health. Not them.

xoxoxo's..... Marg

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VLDUTOIT 12/27/2011 1:31PM

    I so agree with you. Obviously we didn't start this journey yesterday, nor did we just wake up with the band. MY life is just that, MY life and the choices I make to make my life better are MY choices.
Just remember garbage in, garbage out. My question is this to those people, "If you disagree with this process, why are you looking at our group pages and blogs??"
Do not get discouraged; you have an entire host of people who support you and your decisions.

Have a blessed day!

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PURESTILLWATER 12/26/2011 2:15PM

    Great blog. One of my big annoyances too is all the opinions people have on our choice. We are not idiots. You for example went to our support group for many months before your surgery, your eyes were fully open.


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The First fill

Wednesday, December 21, 2011

First fill.... It was almost drama free :-) So...... I get there, get comfortable and she feels around for the port. She goes to stick the needle and all that goes fine. She went to draw out the 2ccs that were placed during surgery and nothing happens. She re-sticks and moves the needle around tries to draw again and nothing. She says to me, "I hope your port didn't flip" I panic thinking I have followed all of the rules how could this have happened to me. She tries it again and with no luck. She leaves and tells me she is going to get one of her colleagues to come and take a look at me. A few minutes later my surgeon walks in and says that he is going to take a look. I teared up and told him I had followed his instructions exactly and I didn't mean to make the port flip. He said, "I know you have followed directions. Your port has not flipped" He pushed around and told the other person to get everything ready to go. He also said that there was still a lot of scar tissue and took the needle and inserted it and said, "There you go" The other staff said I did that, too and in the same area but there was no fluid. Dr. M said draw it up and see what happens..... and there wa s the 2ccs of fluid. He walks out and told me to have a good day and she just looked shocked. She removed the primer fill and put in 4ccs. I kept expecting to feel something but never did. The port area is a little sore but I figure that is because of all the needle sticks and pushing. What a day. I have survived (yippee!!) emoticon

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MDGARDENGIRL 12/22/2011 8:56PM

    So glad it all worked out in the end! The first fill is always full of drama and then when it's all over, you wonder why you got all worked up about it! And you listen to Miss Laurie! She will keep you straight.... darn tootin!!!

Merry Christmas/Hanukah to you KTown and your family! I hope you don't fret over the lapband and dieting. This is the time to celebrate!!

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KTOWNGIRL02 12/22/2011 11:12AM

    Hi Laurie. All in all it was a good experience. I think the PA will do fine the next time I need a fill. I told her now that the Dr. Demonstrated where to aim I will only ask for her so I don't have to get poked multiple times. I am sure as scar tissue calms down the port may shift again. It's all good. I actually went through Swedish Weight Loss Services through Swedish Hospital. They have a great team and I have been pleased with the education, support and care of the medical staff. I know from being a part of Obesity Help the many negative comments that get thrown around. That is why I spend more time on Spark People. I am so confident in this procedure. Initially I did not want to do it and my primary doc, whom I have been with since he was a resident, suggested that I seriously think about weight loss surgery. I fought him for many years but at the same time was researching the heck out of the many procedures. Then I connected with a support group a year before surgery and basically sat and listened to their successes and failures. I took a lot of mental notes on what my life would be like after this procedure. Gblackwell2 was sharing their concern for me and I appreciate that. I know that this procedure does not work for everyone. Sometimes our bodies can't accept the foreign objects that are in place to help us. As a Christian I have prayed and asked God to approve and bless this procedure for me. I also am following directions faithfully and not doing things to sabotage the process. So far so good. As research and study continue, they will continue to improve and perfect all weight loss surgeries. I have a fantastic surgeon and trust his skills. Merry Christmas and/or Happy Chanukah (I celebrate both) to you as well.

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    Hello, again,

You had first-time jitters. The good news is that you'll never have them again. Sometimes the port is a little difficult to find, as various factors affect it position. Sometimes it takes more than one stick to get it, a nuisance certainly, but not the worst thing that can happen to a person. You sound calm about it now that it's over, which is good. Knowing what to expect as far as the needle stick itself will make future appointments less worrisome. The nurse will know more about your port next time, but don't hesitate to remind her if she has some trouble again. You're fine.

Above all, pay no attention to the doom-and-gloom comments. They usually come from people who have no knowledge and misinterpret whatever they may hear. You were jittery but don't sound as though your experience was of the tragic magnitude of "had to go through this."

Did you by any chance have your surgery at NWWLS?

Happy holidays.

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