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And Yet Another Thing! ugh!

Friday, July 16, 2010

So I went to the dr. today because of the "strange feelings" in my legs. She said it's a mild case of neuropathy. I don't have diabetes...at least my tests have all been normal..but she wants to do the 2 hour blood glucose test. I guess a lot of people have neuropathy with unknown origins.

I have to tell you I burst into tears! With all that has happened in the last year I just thought "why this?" There isn't a cure. I suppose you can slow the progression, but all I could think of was that I would be in a wheelchair and/or in a ton of pain (right now, I don't really have pain, just odd feelings). The dr. said that I SHOULD NOT WORRY. But, that's hard not to do.

I still have other tests to go through, so I'm trying not to get too upset or anxious about this. I've started to look at websites and spark teams to get support.

Of course, what's the best way to slow the progression? Lose weight, exercise every day and eat right! Ahhhh!

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DOCTORWHO24 7/19/2010 8:41AM

    Stay strong! You'll be able to pull through this, just have confidence in yourself (which I know can be hard)! Don't give up though! emoticon

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DIANESNEWLIFE 7/16/2010 6:48PM

  It's way to early to get upset! No, there isn't a 'cure', but there are many things on the market-prescription and OTC-to make you more comfortable. Would you believe peppermint oil is a big help? There are also several creams that do a pretty good job of relieving the pain/tingling/discomfort. My neuropathy is worst in my feet, but it's progressing into my legs and hands. So far my legs aren't too bad unless I'm on my feet too much.
Hang in there, Katie! It may never even get much worse than it is now. And even then, it may take several years. Try to keep a positive attitude. One day at a time! emoticon


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I'm convinced

Monday, July 12, 2010

If I didn't know before, I know it now. There's always something. Always some excuse to go off plan, to sabotauge your efforts, to eat out of an emotional place. I realize now (and you think I would learn this at a younger age) that it's all excuses.

We had to put our dog to sleep yesterday. We knew it was coming. She was old and had a hard time getting around. I always said that when she stopped eating we would take her in. Well, that happened and now she's gone.

I can't believe how much I cried. Even though we were totally prepared for this, it's still so sad. But, did this mean I should drink a half a bottle of wine? Or eat a ton of chips. Someone might say that the eating and drinking aren't important now...but I think that this is when it's MOST important. I need to deal with the sadness in another way.

My brother and i were talking yesterday and we were saying how it's been an incredibly emotional year starting with my husband's colon cancer surgery last July...his complications (he's doing fine now), my mothers huge ordeal (see past blogs), my cousins death, my daughter moving away...and on and on.

I think I need to prepared for the next "thing." I want to be healthy and strong and able to handle what comes my way.

I guess this is a lesson I need to learn and relearn.

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DALMOMOF3 7/12/2010 3:57PM

    So sorry to hear about your dog. I feel your pain, I have two goldens and they really become part of your family. I hope things start looking up for you. There is only so much one family can take!! I will keep you in my prayers

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SHERYLDS 7/12/2010 3:50PM

    I'm so sorry for your family's loss, it sounds like she was loved by a very special family. Hope things turn around from now on. You are due for happy peaceful times.

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DOCTORWHO24 7/12/2010 3:12PM

    I'm sorry to hear about your dog. emoticon It's always hard to lose something close to you even a pet.

I think it's a lesson we all need to learn and relearn. I usually turn to food when I'm sad or upset and it's something I struggle with all the time.

I hope your year starts to look better and good luck! emoticon

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APATRICIAO521 7/12/2010 3:10PM

    Sorry to here abour your family's loss. There is no way to be totally prepared for events like this is life. Hope all gets better.

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Friday, June 25, 2010

My mother's HOME!

She had a follow up appt. with her surgeon and she asked if she could go home and he said yes! The last time she actually stepped foot into her own home was in February. Since then, she's been in Skilled Nursing Facilities....some of them not so skilled!

She has a long road ahead of her and my parents still need a lot of help, but her spirits are high and I believe that her good attitude will help her through.

It's been tough (and going to be tough) for me because I'll be spending half of my time with them. But I'll hang in there, too. It's so good to see her home.

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    Wonderful. Just wonderful.

I hope that home care goes well. As Zoolover says, be sure to take care of youself, too.

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ZOOLOVER 6/25/2010 1:16PM

  That's great. It's hard taking care of our parents as they age, but we do it gladly for all they've done for us. Make sure you take care of yourself. Don't put your needs on the back burner. Good luck with the home care.

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Rethinking Goals

Monday, June 14, 2010

It's been a while since I posted a blog, or even done real "sparkpeople" work. Yes, I've logged on most days. I read my emails. I play the trivia. Sometimes I huddle sometimes I don't. Is it surprising to me that I've gained a few pounds in the last few weeks.

I'm tempted to say it's because of the ongoing stress of my mother's recovery. Or to blame it on the end of the school year and the parties and celebrations that come with that. But, as all of you know, THERE'S ALWAYS SOMETHING.

So, as I ask myself what it is I really, really want I KNOW there are a couple of things.

1. I want to be at a healthier weight. I know that won't happen unless I work at it.
2. I want to be able to do the things I want to do when I'm older. Hiking, camping, playing with future grandkids, etc. One thing I've learned from my mom's injury is that if she had been stronger before she fell, her recovery may have been quicker. I don't know that for sure, but I can bet it's true.

So with that being said, I know that I need to do the work to make it happen. But, if I go whole hog today, I'll probably fail. So I'm going to work on 2 things this week....

1. Watch my portions (I already eat pretty healthfully...that's second nature to me now). I have my measuring spoons and my scale ready for action. I need to retrain my eyes.
2. I MUST incorporate some kind of strength training into my life. I have weights, I have that rubber thing you step on. I have dvds, fit tv on demand, and 2 sons that know something about weight lifting. I just need to learn what's right for me. I'll start off light and go from there.

It's funny, when I thought about writing this blog today I was preparing to go though the many excuses that I so often share. I can't do that anymore...not if I want to reach my goals.

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MAMA_PICANTE 6/14/2010 4:26PM

    Look at you girl! I too realized that although I am setting several goals, I need to take small staps and work on just a couple or so at a time! Thanks for the reminder and thanks for the honesty you shared with us today!

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Scary Test Results

Monday, May 10, 2010

So I went to the dr. for a blood pressure check and, in that department , I'm in control. But I've been having problems with my legs recently and don't really think it's restless leg syndrome. My dr. gave me a referral for a neurologist. That, I'm grateful for.

But, she also ordered blood work and a urinalysis. (mind you, I just had this done in February and everything looked really good.) But I got a call the other day that we need to do the test again. I guess they found some protein in the urine. (In Feb. it was fine) And, they want my blood test to be fasting. Am I finally facing a Type 2 Diabetes diagnosis? I can handle that, if it happens. But, what scares me is, do I already have neuropathy and kidney involvement? How can that be? I've never been diagnosed...but my dr. and I have watched this pretty carefully (because of my risk factors).

I suppose the only thing I can do is wait for the newer results. Looking on the internet is scary because of all the doom and gloom. I also wonder about the accuracy of the urine test because I was on my period at the time. Could that skew the results? Oh boy. Something more to worry about.

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SWEESIN 5/10/2010 1:05PM

    As a nurse, do not worry til there is really something to worry about. Yes being on your period could affect outcome of urinary test. Did you tell your doctor? Do not less pessimism destroy your postive steps toward good health.

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