Friday, July 16, 2010
So I went to the dr. today because of the "strange feelings" in my legs. She said it's a mild case of neuropathy. I don't have diabetes...at least my tests have all been normal..but she wants to do the 2 hour blood glucose test. I guess a lot of people have neuropathy with unknown origins.
I have to tell you I burst into tears! With all that has happened in the last year I just thought "why this?" There isn't a cure. I suppose you can slow the progression, but all I could think of was that I would be in a wheelchair and/or in a ton of pain (right now, I don't really have pain, just odd feelings). The dr. said that I SHOULD NOT WORRY. But, that's hard not to do.
I still have other tests to go through, so I'm trying not to get too upset or anxious about this. I've started to look at websites and spark teams to get support.
Of course, what's the best way to slow the progression? Lose weight, exercise every day and eat right! Ahhhh!
Monday, July 12, 2010
If I didn't know before, I know it now. There's always something. Always some excuse to go off plan, to sabotauge your efforts, to eat out of an emotional place. I realize now (and you think I would learn this at a younger age) that it's all excuses.
We had to put our dog to sleep yesterday. We knew it was coming. She was old and had a hard time getting around. I always said that when she stopped eating we would take her in. Well, that happened and now she's gone.
I can't believe how much I cried. Even though we were totally prepared for this, it's still so sad. But, did this mean I should drink a half a bottle of wine? Or eat a ton of chips. Someone might say that the eating and drinking aren't important now...but I think that this is when it's MOST important. I need to deal with the sadness in another way.
My brother and i were talking yesterday and we were saying how it's been an incredibly emotional year starting with my husband's colon cancer surgery last July...his complications (he's doing fine now), my mothers huge ordeal (see past blogs), my cousins death, my daughter moving away...and on and on.
I think I need to prepared for the next "thing." I want to be healthy and strong and able to handle what comes my way.
I guess this is a lesson I need to learn and relearn.
Friday, June 25, 2010
My mother's HOME!
She had a follow up appt. with her surgeon and she asked if she could go home and he said yes! The last time she actually stepped foot into her own home was in February. Since then, she's been in Skilled Nursing Facilities....some of them not so skilled!
She has a long road ahead of her and my parents still need a lot of help, but her spirits are high and I believe that her good attitude will help her through.
It's been tough (and going to be tough) for me because I'll be spending half of my time with them. But I'll hang in there, too. It's so good to see her home.
Monday, June 14, 2010
It's been a while since I posted a blog, or even done real "sparkpeople" work. Yes, I've logged on most days. I read my emails. I play the trivia. Sometimes I huddle sometimes I don't. Is it surprising to me that I've gained a few pounds in the last few weeks.
I'm tempted to say it's because of the ongoing stress of my mother's recovery. Or to blame it on the end of the school year and the parties and celebrations that come with that. But, as all of you know, THERE'S ALWAYS SOMETHING.
So, as I ask myself what it is I really, really want I KNOW there are a couple of things.
1. I want to be at a healthier weight. I know that won't happen unless I work at it.
2. I want to be able to do the things I want to do when I'm older. Hiking, camping, playing with future grandkids, etc. One thing I've learned from my mom's injury is that if she had been stronger before she fell, her recovery may have been quicker. I don't know that for sure, but I can bet it's true.
So with that being said, I know that I need to do the work to make it happen. But, if I go whole hog today, I'll probably fail. So I'm going to work on 2 things this week....
1. Watch my portions (I already eat pretty healthfully...that's second nature to me now). I have my measuring spoons and my scale ready for action. I need to retrain my eyes.
2. I MUST incorporate some kind of strength training into my life. I have weights, I have that rubber thing you step on. I have dvds, fit tv on demand, and 2 sons that know something about weight lifting. I just need to learn what's right for me. I'll start off light and go from there.
It's funny, when I thought about writing this blog today I was preparing to go though the many excuses that I so often share. I can't do that anymore...not if I want to reach my goals.
Monday, May 10, 2010
So I went to the dr. for a blood pressure check and, in that department , I'm in control. But I've been having problems with my legs recently and don't really think it's restless leg syndrome. My dr. gave me a referral for a neurologist. That, I'm grateful for.
But, she also ordered blood work and a urinalysis. (mind you, I just had this done in February and everything looked really good.) But I got a call the other day that we need to do the test again. I guess they found some protein in the urine. (In Feb. it was fine) And, they want my blood test to be fasting. Am I finally facing a Type 2 Diabetes diagnosis? I can handle that, if it happens. But, what scares me is, do I already have neuropathy and kidney involvement? How can that be? I've never been diagnosed...but my dr. and I have watched this pretty carefully (because of my risk factors).
I suppose the only thing I can do is wait for the newer results. Looking on the internet is scary because of all the doom and gloom. I also wonder about the accuracy of the urine test because I was on my period at the time. Could that skew the results? Oh boy. Something more to worry about.
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