Instead of diving head first into a vat of chocolate and peanut butter or an XL pizza I'll blog it out and then be done. Okay, maybe not done but I'll feel better.
The gym I workout at allows me to bring a guest everyday, twice a day, once month or once a year ... basically if I'm in the gym my guest can be there too. SOOOO, I offered this to my workout friend that works down the street with me. I never asked her to help me with my gym membership but to simply show up and workout on the days we schedule to do so. It appeared to be a win win situation. UNTIL it is not.
We generally attend a class of five that is lead by Trainer Janet on Tuesday and Wednesday evenings. I LOVE the class but if I can go workout during my lunch hour with Trainer Janet I would do so. To accommodate my friends schedule we go at night these two days. UNTIL we don't.
Today, at 3:00 p.m. I received a text message saying she couldn't make tonight. I was already having a hard day and that text just hit me wrong. She made choice to NOT workout and waited till later in the day to tell me which tossed me into a mind freak. It was too late to workout at lunch ... I'd already taken one and I don't relish in the thought of going there after hours. Yup, color me angry and having a bit of fit. It happens. Feel what you feel! Call a thing a thing!
I've become comfortable "waiting" for someone to workout with and that has become destructive. From now on, I'll be heading to the gym when I feel like ... not when it fits their schedule. Lunch time workouts fit ... I'm in and out ... and I get home at a reasonable hour. Done and Done!!
Before I get into the race details I want to send out a big THANK YOU to my SP friend HOLLYS_NEW_LIFE for responding to my distress call and encouraging me to go to this race. Thank you Holly ... in a moment of insecurity and self doubt you reached out and help me accomplish what I started.
I initially thought I'd be doing this race alone ... ends up that my Mr and my workout partner came along. This was the FIRST race the Mr came to witness ... I think it had something to do with the mud, LOL! My workout partner found a groupon that allowed an affordable entry fee for her. YES!!
Saturday morning was cold ... like see your breathe kinda cold! We arrived at the race site around 7:30 a.m. and quickly got our packets. The race organizers were fantastic, along with all the volunteers.
The Mr armed with is smartphone walked the course to take candid photo's ... we had our on paparazzi. In the event that he might not be able to get to all the obstacles I brought a one time use camera and had it in a zip-lock baggy. He made it to all the obstacles and in the end he used the camera when his phone battery died.
This race was fun, fabulous and yes DIRTY! We headed out in one of the early waves but forgot to make note of when we actually crossed the start line. The race isn't timed so we didn't much care ... it was more about the experience and the laughs.
I think the photo's tell it best:
A clean girl
Me and the Mr
Me and Christina showing the universal "help" sign
We bounced and giggled our way to the bottom. What fun - I felt like a little kid again!
A perfect landing.
Welcome to the Pit! The water/mud was extremely cold.
I never thought I'd do this in a million years ...
The H2O tank
I made a BIG splash! Loved this one ... I zoomed down sooo fast and oh my did I giggle.
SCARY!!! This might look like an easy one but it scared me to no end. That wall is TINY and my hands were slippery. Scary... Scary... Scary...
BUT, I made it up and over!
"HEY, LOOK AT ME I'M At the top and ringing the bell!"
We donated our shoes ... they clean them and give them to those in need
Dirty then Clean.
The cleanup area was great. If you don't like public "women only" nudity it might be a bit stressful for you. I'm not shy so I was cleaned up in no time.
We do have photos of us crossing the finish line but they are on the one time use camera. The Mr did a great job capturing the moments.
This was the best time ever!! We laughed and giggled the whole way through. The Mr skyed a friend of ours in Jamaica so she could see too. FUN!
We were happy to have been one of the first waves ... the lines later in the morning were crazy. We didn't wait at all. This was one of the best organized races I've ever attended.
I've decided to try something new and it's a bit scary.
Many of my waking hours are spent thinking about food and what I should and shouldn't consume. Admittedly, it gets exhausting. It can also feel very confining. I've been on this journey since 2006 ... yes it's been that long. A lifestyle like so many others, it has comes with pot-holes and rainbows alike. Sometimes I rejoice. Sometimes I kick rocks. It really depends on the day or rather the minute.
I've not been concentrating on the scale of late. The numbers are fluctuating and that can just be exhausting. My clothes are comfortable and I've purchased a few smaller sizes. I've also noticed a pair of my 16 jeans are bit more snug in the waistline. I took note of that yesterday - they are fine when I stand but restricting when I sit.
All that being said I've decided to insert a high calorie/carb day into my life. My first one was on Saturday ... it was enjoyable but I need to tweak the mindset. Such as ... I don't NEED to eat it just because it's there and that I have permission to do so. A few treats throughout the day are fine but I don't need to go over the top. As I said, I enjoyed the carefree feeling and I enjoyed every bite!
Sunday I got up and returned to regular scheduled programing. A high protein breakfast, lots of water throughout the day, a protein spinach drink and a sensible dinner.
Some may wonder why it's scary to add this into my routine ... well, as a person who is prone to binge eating I have to still be mindful of what I'm eating. This is not a day to let things get out of hand but rather enjoy a sweet and/or salty treat I may have passed up during the week.
I also have an appointment with one of my doctors to discuss a blood test that will reveal which foods I may be intolerant too and/or allergic too. I already have a list ... soy, dairy and gluten but I know there are more. The test is expensive so I'm hoping for a favorable payment plan. Once the results are in I'll be adjusting my diet again.
I'm up and down on the scale ...
I'm trying not to get all wacko-a-doodle about it due to knowing I'm doing the best I can at this given point. Admittedly, it's still difficult not to let THAT number define me.
Taking care of me ...
I'm back on my Adrenal program and feeling much much better. Adrenals are amazing!
I switched my thyroid medication from evening to mornings again. I believe my body has now adjusted to the meds so I don't feel like I'm catching on fire after taking it in the morning.
I spoke to Doc today about my meds/supplements. He STRONGLY recommends staying on the Adrenal support ... clearly bad things happen when I go off of them after deciding "I feel better." He also recommends only staying on the thyroid meds for a year and then stopping them for awhile. There's a lot of science behind that ... I won't cover that here. I'll follow his advice instead of my own made up stuff this time. o_O
I am attending classes at the gym on a regular basis and have enjoyed them A LOT. Although I seem to be taking a short break for a hot minute. *SHRUGS* Sometimes I'm just tired and I honor that.
I am getting out and doing things I love again. I tend to be a shut-in when things get a bit much but I've been forcing myself out of the house lately. Sometimes it takes me a hot minute to warm up to the outside world and those who seem to live there but I get to the fun part ... eventually.
Over the weekend I bought new frames. I went vintage! I will have the new pair in two weeks and then I'll post pictures. Yup, I'm excited and a little scared. It's a whole new ME.
Today I went across the street and bought a new dress - an XL. I'll have a photo to post soon enough. That dress in the window was the ONLY reason I crossed the stores threshold. Funny enough ... the sales woman was over the moon about the dress I am currently wearing along with my shoes ... I laugh because I bought both at Good Will when they were having a 50% off sale. Mama loves a discount!!
Oh and last month ... I changed my hairstyle. I went with a more dramatic cut and lets just say I'm having fun with it.
I'm also saying no, no thanks and I'd prefer we do it this way ... amazing how all of those can affect my life. I can be a people pleaser and sometimes passive/aggressive *GASP* so I'm working on just being pleased with me and stopping there. It's a lot less draining.
Best gift received to date ... a 2 hour massage with my favorite massage person of all times. I'm looking forward to that experience!
How's life in your corner of the world?
I'm all about Self-Care right now. It's the only way I'm going to get back to me. And let's face it ... Self-Care is soooooooooooooo important.
I found my workout bliss ... and it hurts so good.
After my first circuit class at the gym (Wednesday) I made this note on FB ~
Dear Trainer Janet: I hate you! My legs hate you! The End.
P.S. See you Tuesday and Wednesday night. *Air Kisses*
Today (Friday) I made this note ~
Dear Trainer Janet: My quads and arms are on FIRE! See you for Abs class at noon ... please don't kill me.
Trainer Janet is amazing. She's not MY personal trainer but might as well be due to her classes at the gym being limited to a handful of people. Two days after the circuit class I'm sore ... the kind of sore that makes you cringe when you have to walk or just move - I.LOVE.IT!!
At lunch I went to her abs class. WOW! We did multiple planks for multiple minutes. A variety of ab moves that left us all crumpled in pain. LOL. One of exercises I couldn't keep my legs straight up so she held them in place so I could feel "it." She smiled down at me as I pushed on.
Next week I'm scheduled for five more classes with her ...
Mama needs a soak in a hot Epson salt bath tonight!!