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Tuesday, October 08, 2013

I'm up and down on the scale ...
I'm trying not to get all wacko-a-doodle about it due to knowing I'm doing the best I can at this given point. Admittedly, it's still difficult not to let THAT number define me.

Taking care of me ...

I'm back on my Adrenal program and feeling much much better. Adrenals are amazing!

I switched my thyroid medication from evening to mornings again. I believe my body has now adjusted to the meds so I don't feel like I'm catching on fire after taking it in the morning.

I spoke to Doc today about my meds/supplements. He STRONGLY recommends staying on the Adrenal support ... clearly bad things happen when I go off of them after deciding "I feel better." He also recommends only staying on the thyroid meds for a year and then stopping them for awhile. There's a lot of science behind that ... I won't cover that here. I'll follow his advice instead of my own made up stuff this time. o_O

I am attending classes at the gym on a regular basis and have enjoyed them A LOT. Although I seem to be taking a short break for a hot minute. *SHRUGS* Sometimes I'm just tired and I honor that.

I am getting out and doing things I love again. I tend to be a shut-in when things get a bit much but I've been forcing myself out of the house lately. Sometimes it takes me a hot minute to warm up to the outside world and those who seem to live there but I get to the fun part ... eventually.

Over the weekend I bought new frames. I went vintage! I will have the new pair in two weeks and then I'll post pictures. Yup, I'm excited and a little scared. It's a whole new ME.

Today I went across the street and bought a new dress - an XL. I'll have a photo to post soon enough. That dress in the window was the ONLY reason I crossed the stores threshold. Funny enough ... the sales woman was over the moon about the dress I am currently wearing along with my shoes ... I laugh because I bought both at Good Will when they were having a 50% off sale. Mama loves a discount!!

Oh and last month ... I changed my hairstyle. I went with a more dramatic cut and lets just say I'm having fun with it.

I'm also saying no, no thanks and I'd prefer we do it this way ... amazing how all of those can affect my life. I can be a people pleaser and sometimes passive/aggressive *GASP* so I'm working on just being pleased with me and stopping there. It's a lot less draining.

Best gift received to date ... a 2 hour massage with my favorite massage person of all times. I'm looking forward to that experience!

How's life in your corner of the world?

I'm all about Self-Care right now. It's the only way I'm going to get back to me. And let's face it ... Self-Care is soooooooooooooo important.

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MANLEYSANDY 10/10/2013 3:57PM

    Lots of changes going on! I tend to be a shut in to, so I can relate when you say doing things you "love", it is a feeling that comes back, life is not so black anymore, good for you!

Can't wait to see pictures of the new glasses and hair do!

Keep on trucking!!


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ARUNNINGKAT 10/9/2013 12:09PM

    Sounds like you are on a roll - a very good roll! Can't wait to see photos of your new dress and glasses! I am working on a little self-care, self-worth phase myself right now. Although I think you are a little further along than I am. Have a great week! emoticon

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ROBBIEY 10/8/2013 8:13PM

  Be yourself and take care of yourself.

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HOLLYS_NEW_LIFE 10/8/2013 7:54PM

    I hear a whole new KT coming out, and I'm diggin' it! I'm so happy that things are improving for you and I can't wait to see the pics of the new dress and glasses = )

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Mama needs a soak in a hot Epson salt bath tonight!!

Friday, September 27, 2013

I found my workout bliss ... and it hurts so good.

After my first circuit class at the gym (Wednesday) I made this note on FB ~
Dear Trainer Janet: I hate you! My legs hate you! The End.
P.S. See you Tuesday and Wednesday night. *Air Kisses*

Today (Friday) I made this note ~
Dear Trainer Janet: My quads and arms are on FIRE! See you for Abs class at noon ... please don't kill me.

Trainer Janet is amazing. She's not MY personal trainer but might as well be due to her classes at the gym being limited to a handful of people. Two days after the circuit class I'm sore ... the kind of sore that makes you cringe when you have to walk or just move - I.LOVE.IT!!

At lunch I went to her abs class. WOW! We did multiple planks for multiple minutes. A variety of ab moves that left us all crumpled in pain. LOL. One of exercises I couldn't keep my legs straight up so she held them in place so I could feel "it." She smiled down at me as I pushed on.

Next week I'm scheduled for five more classes with her ...
Mama needs a soak in a hot Epson salt bath tonight!!

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EG8383 10/1/2013 4:33PM

  I'm so glad I came across this blog! Mama you're are just so freaking awesome! Like seriously, you make me smile and also cringe when I read about your fabulous pain that makes you feel powerful and amazingly tough! I like this Janet girl. I miss feeling pain when squating to pee, coughing, walk, or try to raising an arm. Keeping seeing Janet, she's a keeper ;-) You want to hate her but you can't help but love her lol

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Finding My Way Back One Step at a Time

Thursday, September 26, 2013

I can report that I'm taking steps to get my giggle back and that some of those steps are exhausting while others are awesomely wonderful.

My weight is holding steady and I'm okay with that ... for now. I don't have the brain power or energy to get all fussy about a number on the scale as long as it stays within a 3 to 5 lbs range. There's a lesson in this people and I take comfort in it.

I'm loving the gym and using it to aid in some self indulgent me time. On average I'm there four, if not five, days a week. Last night I attended a 30-minute circuit class lead by Trainer Janet. The class had four people and I learned that Trainer Janet is evil ... evil I say! HA HA To be honest I wondered what could be accomplished in 30 minutes ... silly, silly me!!

5 minutes in it was all fluffy and wonderful ... I've got this I thought
10 minutes in my quads were shacking ... I might need a minute I was thinking
15 minutes in I was sucking wind ... At this point I was praying
20 minutes in during a 50 squat rep I was silently killing Trainer Janet
30 minutes ... I was a hot, sweaty, sticky mess happily wobbling away.
35 minutes ... I was trying to figure out how to get up/down the stairs. It's only gotten worse today. :)

Today I've mapped out five classes to take with Trainer Janet that involve abs, 30-minute circuit and arms. All the classes are 5 people or less and last 30 minutes. She's a body builder - beautiful (inside and out) and a trainer ... she knows things. Things that cause pain ... LOL! I love her!!

I'm in full swing with my adrenal support and it's helped with the fatigue and foggy brain. This makes me very happy. My sleep quality is still abysmal but I have a feeling that's due to other stress in my life.

Another step I have taken is buying myself a few new pieces of clothing. I was feeling a bit frumpy and drab so I added some color and fun. My clothing size has dropped again which made me very very happy. Next step is to buy a beautiful raincoat and boots as well as a new pair of glasses.

People have noticed a difference not only in my appearance but general mood. I know I'm smiling and giggling more because I'm physically feeling better. I'm working on the other "stuff" to which has no easier answers but lessons to be learned.

One step at a time ...

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TRENTDREAMER 9/29/2013 7:21PM

    " There's a lesson in this people and I take comfort in it. "
* Amen.

"I learned that Trainer Janet is evil ... evil I say! HA HA To be honest I wondered what could be accomplished in 30 minutes ... silly, silly me!! "
* Yeah, I've been there with other trainers.

" She's a body builder - beautiful (inside and out) and a trainer ... she knows things. Things that cause pain ... LOL! I love her!! "
* Glad that you've found a good class/trainer.

"My sleep quality is still abysmal but I have a feeling that's due to other stress in my life. "
* emoticon

" My clothing size has dropped again which made me very very happy. "
* Congrats!!!

"One step at a time ... "
* Again, emoticon

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HOLLYS_NEW_LIFE 9/26/2013 6:14PM

    KT's getting her groove back! So glad to hear things are looking up = )

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MANLEYSANDY 9/26/2013 3:52PM

    Great stuff in here...I hope everything else is coming along...

As always, I am thinking about you!!!


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DEEGANA 9/26/2013 3:45PM

    Sounds like you rocked a killer workout. Great job!

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KACEYSW 9/26/2013 3:34PM

    Good for you with the positive attitude! You are worth it!

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144AUTUMN 9/26/2013 3:21PM

  you can do it!

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CAROL494 9/26/2013 3:20PM

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Monday blues or something more?

Monday, September 16, 2013

As I sat at my desk this morning I could feel the fatigue move over me like a storm cloud on a soon to be rainy day. It became heavy and troublesome. Motionless and powerless to what was happening I began to reflect ...

My weekend was calm and relaxed. I did what I wanted ... when I wanted. There was minimal stress and I slept. The fatigue has become apart of my life again and the dark cloud follows me everywhere I go.

Today a moment of clarity came and I remembered this storm cloud from years ago. I frantically scanned my brain and recalled all those moments of tired desperation and tears as I lived for years with constant fatigue that was crippling in the end. Just as a flash of lightening lights up the sky my brain flickered as I remembered it all ... MY ADRENALS!!

I've been off my adrenal support program of a good while ... you know because I "felt better." (FACE/PALM) Yup, I felt better for almost a year and now suddenly - okay, not so suddenly - they are crashing again.

I called Doc's office to review my chart and to review my symptoms. It would appear my "I feel better" moments have been depleted and I shall return to my adrenal program.

Admittedly, even though I've been working out and doing okay I've let my wellness program become a bit flat. I need to put myself first and move in a different direction. I started that today because it was the right thing to do not because it's a Monday.

... Now I'm off to the gym to sweat a bit ...

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TRENTDREAMER 9/18/2013 5:24PM

    Hope that you feel better soon!

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MANLEYSANDY 9/17/2013 11:27AM

    You have a lot going on in your life right now. Putting yourself first is the most important thing you can do right.

Hang in there!!


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JENJESS48 9/17/2013 8:37AM

    Good job recognizing the symptoms and stopping the problem before it got too advanced! Hope you feel better soon!

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ITSHOWYOULIVE 9/16/2013 6:24PM

    Glad you were able to know to process the things going on and put the pieces together. Glad you are in contact with your doctor and getting back on the program. Hope the gym went well and that Monday turned into a good day :).

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... Request for Information ...

Tuesday, September 10, 2013

Hey everyone ...

I have two requests:

First ...

I was told that my basal metabolic burn rate is 1469 and that I should eat less than 1469 calories in a day to burn fat. What I am wonder is this ... if I workout - ST or Cardio - in a day (let's say 30 minute sessions) should I not consume a few more calories? If yes, how much more?

Second ...

I'm looking for a tasty low carb, low sugar, low filler, great tasting high protein powder mix that I can add to a spinach/cucumber/fruit smoothy. Any success stories out there when it comes to high protein powder mixes.

Thanks in advance for any feedback you can and are willing to share.

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ENDUROVET 9/16/2013 4:36PM

    These days I am falling more & more into the "eat when you're hungry, JERF (Just Eat Real Food)" and I've been "maintaining" for these past 2 mos which is a hell of a lot better than roller-coastering up & down!

I like the Vitamin Shoppe store brand 100% Whey Pro-Amino powder - look for the little weightlifter on the jar... I think it's the best value for the $$$

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TRENTDREAMER 9/14/2013 10:31AM

    Not really sure on the first.

Unfortunately no real success stories on the second.

Hope that you are doing well!

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TRYSCHE13 9/13/2013 9:05AM

    Hi, I found a website simplegreensmoothies.com, they have a lot of good ideas, I use either EAS carb control, Muscle Milk light or Pure protein, right now I am looking for a non flavored one. I'm glad to see you are doing better!

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HOLLYS_NEW_LIFE 9/10/2013 2:14PM

    I use Genisoy Protein powder. I'm not sure if it's "high" in protein, but I like it! It's 12grms of protein for 30grms of powder. I've totally given up on the calories in vs calories out thing. Supposedly, if you workout, you should be able to eat more, and in some instances, you NEED to eat more, but no matter what I do, nothing seems to go my way, lol! Best of luck on that one!

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