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Reactions to Stress

Thursday, May 09, 2013

On Tuesday night I blogged about two kittens my Mr found on the roadside in a box. It would have been interesting to see what happened to my cortisol levels at the moment he walked in the door and I heard their little cries. If stress / crisis produces cortisol then my inner bits were drowning in it.

It is in these situations that I learn A LOT about myself and where I am on my wellness journey. IF any emotion sends me into the depths of my food addiction it would be stress/anxiety. I was in the thick of it on Tuesday night.

Here's what I learned -
My bodies first response was to shut down. I wasn't the least bit hungry or thirsty even though it had been a good 5 hours since I last ate. After the rush of adrenalin I still wasn't hungry but my mind was overwhelmed. The Mr went to bed leaving me to figure out the schedule for the night and left me alone with a stocked frig/pantry.

I took a moment to breath and then I fell apart. I cried the ugly cry. Then I wrote my blog on SP. Then I ate but with control and purpose.

That's progress kids!

Progress report on the wee ones:
We took them to the shelter yesterday and they were checked out. They are four weeks old and generally in good health. After hearing they had 45 other kittens in foster care we decided to foster the two we found. They supplied everything we would need for the next four weeks and off we went. Thankfully there are no more night feeds. They are adorable and will steal your heart. Our older cats are getting along great with the change too.

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SGRAY478 5/13/2013 5:02PM

    I am glad to hear about your positive reactions to stress! Also my heart is so happy with the news you are fostering. After spending so much time working at the vet clinic and various animal shelters I can tell you that good fosters are the reason the tiny helpless ones can thrive! You are truly doing a good thing friend!

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JENJESS48 5/10/2013 9:51AM

    I'm so proud of you, KT! Stress eating is my demon, too, and I'm super impressed with how you handled it. And I'm glad the fluffballs are doing well - and that you're getting more sleep!

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TRENTDREAMER 5/9/2013 11:40PM


I very rarely get stressed out to the point that I can't eat. It's happened, but not often.

"Then I ate but with control and purpose. That's progress kids! "
* It totally is. I am really happy for you.

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HOLLYS_NEW_LIFE 5/9/2013 9:13PM

    Good for you, being able to keep it together. Like you said, THAT'S progress!

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PURPLE180 5/9/2013 6:09PM

    emoticon and way to keep things under control. emoticon

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EDENFELL 5/9/2013 5:19PM

    The kittens sound adorable. I hear you on the stress leading to overeating bit. I've been slowly getting out of that mode weirdly enough by not stressing about how much I eat (if I measure every last bit, I get stressed out and eat more so relaxing is definitely the way to go)..way to go with coping with anxiety in a healthy way. Sounds like you're doing very well! emoticon

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A blog about life in the moment and how to deal with it -

Wednesday, May 08, 2013

We live in a city that has a no kill, no judgment shelter. So why does the Mr find two baby (3 weeks, maybe) kitties in a box on the side of the street? My heart is so heavy and sad. I rushed them down to the Pet Food Express, due our Vet Clinic and Shelter being closed, and those fine folks stepped up and without question donated ALL the supplies necessary to get me & those babies through the night - well over a $100 worth of products. They bottle fed both babies before I left the store too. What does a soft hearted, animal loving woman do ... scream, cry and love like she never has before. *OVERWHELMED*

All my pent up emotions came flooding to the service once the Mr went to bed. Ya, he has to be up at 4:15 a.m. so I'm the one caring for the wee ones. They are napping now that their little tummies are full.

It really does pain my heart to know that we have to turn them over to the shelter. It really pains my heart to know people can toss away animals.
It really pains my heart to know my two boys - Irie and Road - are stressed tonight because there really is something in the bathroom.

I guess I'll cry a little more and know that within a few hours I'll have to say good bye to two little guys that instantly stole my heart. Sometimes doing the right thing hurts ...

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PURPLE180 5/8/2013 9:30AM

    You (and your "Mr.") are very loving. I hate to see animals being mistreated and thrown away like garbage. I hope they find a good home, they are adorable. emoticon

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JENJESS48 5/8/2013 8:56AM

    DH and I rescued a kitten a couple years back and it was wrenching. But our cats hated the little guy and we found a good home for him almost immediately. You did the right thing, KT, and I'm sure the little fluffballs will find good homes quickly. As for hating your spouse temporarily because you're sleep deprived, don't feel bad - night feedings do that to all of us at one time or another. :)

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FITANDFIFTY2 5/8/2013 1:04AM

    We have also taken care of baby kittens!! It is so sad!! It was a lot of work (4 kitties) but it was worth every second!!! The next time it was for just one kitty. It was so hard when we gave them to their new forever homes as I had grown to love each one of them. Bless you for having such a wonderful and kind heart to care for these little innocent animals. emoticon (I have pics of a few of them on my spark page)

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Walking my path to a new destination

Monday, May 06, 2013

I've been trying to write a blog entry for a week now. I write. I delete. I write again and again I delete. My thoughts seem fragmented.

What's new:

I've come to realization that I "want" to run due to having the mentality of I'm "only" walking. In short, after I had this realization I told myself to get over myself. Oh, I also told myself to remove the word ONLY! I walk, on average 6 miles a day now. That's nothing to degrade and that's exactly what I was doing. WALK.ON...WALK.ON!!

On top of that I have started thinking about training to walk a half marathon. WHAT?! Ya, that's right. I've committed to nothing as yet but I'm giving it serious consideration.

Again, on top of all this I've started a new project that keeps me moving. I'm a professed workaholic with my butt firmly planted in the chair 5 days a week, 9 hours a day. That madness has stopped. Oh, I'm still a workaholic and I get it down but I now do it within my PAID 8-hour day and I leave the office for an hour. To keep things interesting I've combined a few things to keep it all interesting ... photography, walking and San Francisco. I am on instagram because I document just about everything with photo's. My username is the_irie_road if anyone is interested in following. ANYWAY, on my lunch break I walk the streets of SF and along the way I snap a few photo's for posting. At the end of the calendar year I'll be putting together a photo-book of my city adventures.

I'm also using a new app that helps motivate my competitive nature. The app is called Striiv. It tracks among other things your steps, minutes of activity, calories burned, miles walked. There are built in challenges that can be accepted or ignored. I'm often on a walking challenge when I'm up and out of the chair. You can even invite friends so you can compete with them. My fitness friend and I have a great time poking at each other to keep it moving.

As many know, I'm on another craptastic plateau. Both Doc and my nutritionist think it's time to have my thyroid tested - get poked for a full panel workup. I've resisted. Not anymore. Tomorrow I go in to get the paperwork for the blood test and away we go. I worry about the cost financially but I also worry about the physical and mental cost.

In other news: Water! I drink and drink and drink my water now. An on-line blogger that I follow really inspired me to take this on. Wow, what a mighty change I've seen. Wanna know what happens when you drink 120+ ounces a day ... try it! O_o It's all good but you'll need a few days for your body to regulate to the intake.

Good Times! I'm always trying to find things that keep it fresh and interesting. I hope you are as well.

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MANLEYSANDY 5/8/2013 12:33PM

    Great job! Cheers to you my fellow walker!!!

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ENDUROVET 5/6/2013 10:19PM

    Great job! I have been swept up in an off-SP challenge (courtesy of Allan @ almostgastricbypass2.blogspot.com/) : photographing my intake & "owning up" by publishing on-line.
mtcvet.blogspot.com/>It's been quite the interesting experience for the 6 short days I've been meeting the challenge, uncovering the many ways I find to sabotage my own success!
NOW you've almost got me convinced to sign up for Instagram ;-)

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FLANAGANSH 5/6/2013 8:27PM

    Great words of inspiration! Good luck with everything :)

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Tuesday, April 16, 2013

Awhile back I thought I would try to get up early and have a bit of a workout before going into the office. I even went as far as to pinup a ST band exercise chart to follow. In two words ... EPIC FAIL. I like my sleep and I would rather snuggle down an extra 10 minutes then get up for an ST/cardio session any day, or rather every day. O_O

Sunday I started working out again. That felt awesome! To tell ya the truth, I was getting a bit worried about that respiratory funk that I had going on. Glad that's passed without a visit to the doctor.

Yesterday I decided that I need to use my free resources and take time for me. I started to actually leave the office during the day and head outside for a 30 minute walk. yup, I'm that worker-bee that gets to the office at 8:30 doesn't leave until 5:45 p.m. JUST.NOT.HEALTHY!

I work in San Francisco's financial district and have plenty of inclines to climb and wonderful alley's and streets to explore. With Spring here the weather has been just perfect for walking. Today I headed UP, UP, UP hill and didn't stop until I reached the top. I was breathing deep and my legs were burning. *LOVE* Between the wind and hills I had plenty of residence going on.

It's healthier for me to get out in the fresh air and sun once a day. I have to just do it. I have to walk away from my desk and the piles of papers that need to be dealt with. I have to stop making that my excuse for doing something healthy for myself.

At the end of the day I'm walking a total of 90 minutes. Last night was actually tired at bedtime and I contributed a lot of that to the extra walking and fresh air. *SMILES*

I'm leaving a pair of my walking shoes under my desk now and I've set an alarm on my phone to remind me to walk and have lunch. Yup, I actually need an alarm to remind me to do this. Of course, this is the same woman who needs an alarm to remind me to wrap it up and go home. *WORKAHOLIC*

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LORI2562 6/7/2013 11:51AM

    I can totally relate - workaholic too! I am trying to motivate myself to get up and back to walking on a regular basis. Keep word right now is TRYING!

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UNSWEETMAMA 4/23/2013 6:10PM

    I love walking during breaks at work. It helps me in so many ways.

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MAMADWARF 4/17/2013 12:03PM

    Good for you! Great weather coming u in the next week too!

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ENDUROVET 4/17/2013 9:30AM

    I guess I'm the opposite of a workaholic, since I'm generally watching that clock & chompin' at the bit to GET OUT!
I had so many big plans for these early days of Z's FB practices, but it seems like the most productive thing I've accomplished is perfecting the fine art of napping in my car ;-) !!!

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MANLEYSANDY 4/16/2013 7:24PM

    Love it! I used to get up early and exercise before work, but when I became an empty nester, I said, not gonna do it!

That is the beauty of California and what I miss the most, I used to walk everywhere...Glad you are enjoying it!


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Conflicting Feelings

Friday, April 12, 2013

I have been fighting off a respiratory funk for about two weeks and can report now that's almost gone. YA! The cough that accompanied it/is brutal. One night I had to exit the commuter bus on my way home due to a coughing fit and go to the drugstore across the street to buy water and then call the Mr to come pick me up. It just wasn't pretty. Boo! The guy staring me down on the bus as tears streaked my face and the cough got worse ... *AWKWARD!*

Workouts have been put on hold. Running has not been an option. So what is the conflicting feelings? Running. To run or not to run. I'm always conflicted about this activity. On many levels I enjoy it. I enjoy pushing myself and the knowing I did it. Of course, it's easier now that I've lost an additional 40 lbs. which makes it even more fun. The flip side ... running does not promote weight loss and can actually hinder the process. *SIGH* That doesn't mean it's not a good workout or a calorie burner.

This next week ST sessions will be back in my schedule and that will feel good. I'm toying with keeping interval runs in my schedule - walk/runs for a maximum of 30-minutes a few days a week. This should satisfy my urge to become a runner but keep things in check for continued weight loss.

I'm trying to find balance; yet, I'm always feeling unbalanced.

My constant is change.

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TRENTDREAMER 4/12/2013 9:41PM


Sorry to hear.

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MANLEYSANDY 4/12/2013 4:33PM

    I used to run and I hated it, but I did it anyways. I was on the 5k circuit for a while but then I started REALLY hating it, and then I avoided it, which led me to avoid exercise altogether because I "used" to have an all or nothing attitude. Now, I do what is best in terms of fitness and consistency, which for me is walking, and I still lose weight.

I have been toying with the idea of walking a half marathon for about 6 months. I started to train in September of last year to compete in January 2013, but realized that financially the entry fee was to much. I still think I wanna do it, but I am still toying...But my point to all this is about me, (rude right, it always comes back to me) is that it might take me longer but I burn a lot of calories when I do a long distance walk on the weekends, and I get a lot of satisfaction out of the process. Also, I use the incline on the treadmill to pump up my work out, all walking!!!

Just something to toy with, walking is great and you can change it up!!!

Hang in there, you are going to keep doing your thing! I know you will!

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