Thursday, March 21, 2013
My weight stalled, again. I've been bouncing around the same five pounds for about three months now. *FRUSTRATING*
Doc's office pinged me about a month ago to remind me to have my adrenals tested again. I had to wait and save the money for the cost of test and consultation to review the results. These tests aren't cheap kids!!
Cortisol levels will muck up your weight loss along with other fun stuff on the inside and I've been treating my adrenals for the better part of two years. I've tested multiple times and the results, this time, show a marked improvement but that support is still needed.
Prior to my consult with Doc I emailed him the facts about my diet and workouts which included a list of questions. On average I consume 900 to 1200 calories a day. On average I strength train three days a week with each session lasting 30 minutes. I've recently added back cardio (C25K) three days a week with a maximum of 45 minutes.
Doc agreed that the strength training was an excellent addition and to keep the cardio limited to 45 minutes on my off ST days. My system does NOT process high amounts of cardio well, as in, I'll gain weight. It happens regardless of what the "other professionals" tell ya. *FACE/PALM*
He asked if I'm hungry all the time based on my calorie intake to which I replied no due to all the protein and natural fiber I take in. He asked what I generally eat to which I listed my proteins and veg ... no push back from him. As I suspected, he asked if I ever "cheated" and I answered, yes. Gotta tell your doctor the truth boys and girls! I told him before it was once a week and now it's down to once a month. He wasn't surprised by the admission based on the average numbers but admitted even those cheat episodes would NOT stop the weight loss. *THANK YOU*
In the end, he is concerned that we are missing something. As he said, you can't consume that little, burn that much and NOT drop the lbs. Again, *THANK YOU!*
My latest assignments:
+ Stay the course with the adrenal support
+ Have a digestive test completed - that involves a stool test (this one will make three)
+ Thyroid test ... a full panel to be ordered by my General Physician.
The last two tests are super expensive and with a looming job lose it might take a hot minute for me to save those funds. *SIGH*
I'm down a total of 125 lbs, on another plateau but fitter and healthier than I've been in my 42 years of life. I'll fight the good fight and continue to push forward on this wellness journey of mine.
I was a little surprised that Doc mentioned that I only need to drop another 30 lbs. In my mind I have it more like 50 lbs. I guess I'll reevaluate when I get to his number and see what I see. Admittedly, 30 sounds a heck of a lot better than 50! I'd either weigh 175 or 155 ... well, I won't worry my little head over this number now. I got me bigger things to dwell on.
Monday, March 18, 2013
I climbed out of my comfort zone this past weekend and traveled out of town so I could participate in a race. I NEVER thought I'd do that but now that I've broken that barrier there's no telling what will happen. HA!
My fitness friend and I left Friday afternoon to travel to Sacramento. We didn't want to leave home at 4:30 a.m. on race day and we wanted to have a bit of girl fun too.
We found the Fleet Feet Sports with relative ease that afternoon and picked up our race bib, timing chip and shirt. After the pick up we made our rounds in the store and I touched and admired EVERYTHING. They even had a boutique shop adjacent to which they gave us a coupon that I used. Shiny new things were bound to be mine and at a discount!
I wondered back to the Fleet Feet store to try and find a belt that would hold my cell phone, key and ID while out running the streets. While there I ran into Dan from The Biggest Loser, season five. He and his mom were in town as the "celebrities" for the race.
Me and Dan
He really is a great guy; very down to earth and happy. We didn't talk much, he was shopping for new shiny stuff for his marathon the next day. I finally found and purchased a belt! I used it during the 5K and adore it.
Race Day! We were up and out of the hotel room by 6:00 a.m. I had peanut butter, water and coffee to get me through. I noted that my fitness friend is NOT a morning person, HA! No worries, I kept my chatter down and she perked up when the sun came up.
There were 2,000 participants for the race. It was clear that everyone was so excited to be there. The volunteers were amazing! And I do mean amazing!! This was one of the best organized races I've been too and everyone had a smile on their face the whole time.
We started at 8:00 a.m. sharp and the course took us through part of Old Sacramento and looped around from there. There were a couple of inclines that I wasn't expecting but didn't stop me at all. Our weather was cool and dry for the entire race. There were three sections on the course where they had music playing and one of those was a live band. At each mile marker they had inspirational quotes on banners that really spoke to ya when you were moving on by. The volunteers to cheer us on where again wonderful and throughout the course. Lots of high fives, shout outs and cheers.
I used the race as a training day so ran/walked the entire thing. It seemed like my running parts always came up when there was an incline ... FEEL.THE.BURN!
My fitness friend wanted to do the intervals with me which made me nervous. I suspected all along that she was quicker than I am when it comes to running and that proved to be correct. At each running interval she would take off like a rocket and I'd plug along behind. Of course, my recovery time was a lot quicker than hers and she admitted she doesn't know how to pace herself.
We began the race outside Raley Field and ended the race inside the stadium. When we neared the end I told my friend just book it and not look back to which she did. I finished strong and felt good!
Me at post race...
After the race we walked around to take a look at vendors and watch others cross the finish line. Many participants were first timers and just oozed with happiness. *LOVE*
While walking around I ran into Jackie, season five, contestant and mom to Dan. It is clear that she and Dan are committed to a healthy lifestyle and have stayed fit even after their time at the Biggest Loser ranch.
Jackie and Me
All the professional photo's taken during and after the race will be emailed to us and downloadable for free. Seriously, how cool is that! That email should be rolling in later this week and I'm looking forward to seeing what shots they took of me.
This was the first Biggest Loser race in Sacramento and if it happens again next year, I'm there! I'm not a hug supporter of the actual show for many reasons but I am a supporter of activities that gets us and keeps us moving.
I'm looking forward to great race season and improving my time.
I placed 30th
Overall Placement 187
Chip Time 48:50.3
Logged a 15:45/M
Wednesday, March 06, 2013
For reasons I can't explain I am in love with the idea of running. To be a runner. To run. To strap on my kicks and head outside to run thrills me.
I have the heart of Jackrabbit but the ability to run like an elephant. I've said it before, and I'll say it again, I POUND the pavement. I am not, by any means, light on my feet and/or quick.
I've completed numerous races, some running some walk/running. I love race day. The start. The finish. The middle. The burn. The thrill. The energy. The everything. So I keep entering, showing up, participating and taking home my "Precious."
I stopped really trying to run. I stopped. Sure I walk. I walk quickly and I walk everywhere but I don't run. Not these days. Unless running for the bus to take me home counts?! No? Sure feels like ... *GIGGLES*
I've dropped some significant lbs since I stopped and with that comes the whisper. The one that says, try it again. Let's do this. The whisper has gotten loud enough for me to download the C25K program on my Ipod. It's now there taunting me ... daily. O_O
Last night I looked at my personal calendar trying to figure out where I can put in the time. The when! I already do three days a week of ST and that has got to stay on the calendar. ST really is where it's at for fat burning. We're currently readjusting the schedule as my partner is feeling like she needs a complete day off to do nothing but nothing so has proposed dropping Sunday ST and putting it on Tuesday night. I am agreeable as long as it stays on calendar.
I'm having a hard time figuring out when to fit in three days of running. Oh, that's just silly talk ... I KNOW!! *FACE/PALM*
Here's what I'm dealing with:
1. Sleep ... getting up earlier in the a.m. just doesn't work for me. Ya, sounds like an excuse but the reality is this ... I'm not a morning workout person (I've tried it any number of times) and to try force it sets me up to fail. *FAIL*
2. The Mr ... he is lacking in the support category. To hear him whine about my absence after work before he has to go to bed (he works at 4:30 AM) drives me to frustration.
IF my Sunday's free up and I don't have ST that day then I can get out there and start moving my feet. That leaves two days to fill. For beginners and I'll be a newbie again, it is recommended to have a break between running days. I guess, that leaves me Wednesday and Friday.
Here's the question I ask myself ...
"How bad do you want it?"
Bad enough to jump up and down and make it happen.
I'll be chasing the sun for awhile while I'm getting my running legs back.
Monday, March 04, 2013
When the bottom falls out from under you what do you do?
a) Hold on for dear life with broken fingers nails and white knuckles
d) Reach deep inside and find strength
e) ALL OF THE ABOVE
Ya, the answer is (e) all of the above.
After months of advising the owner of the firm that we were running on empty and new clients needed to be obtained somehow, someway he finally got the message last week. Albeit to late to save us.
Friday, afternoon, he let me know that we will be closing the doors for the final time at the end of March. THE.BOTTOM.FELL.OUT! O_O I sat stone faced and simply asked, "how do we prepare for that?"
Having seen the writing on the wall for months I wasn't all that surprised but it's still a shock to the system. I've spent 12 years of my life with this company. I don't like job changes so I hung through the best and worst of times. We've had partnership formations, break ups, embezzlement (by the owners wife), our corporate office was fire bombed by defendants in a case and we've hired/fired a few fantastic people and a few not so fantastic people.
I've been tasked with shutting it down but I'm not sure what that looks like. Gotta match and some gasoline? That should do it, right?! HA. I'd handle the task a lot better if I could get answers to my questions but Mr In Charge seems to be too busy to chat. *SHOCKING!*
My emotions are all over the map. The worst one yet, suddenly feeling insecure about my knowledge and know how of the business. That's a sinking feeling of all kinds of nastiness. *SHAKE.IT.OFF*
I'm also angry at Mr In Charge for not paying attention. For not listening. For always being the guy who dreams big but doesn't have a plan in place to make those dreams a reality. I'm equally angry at my Mr for being a spender. I told him months ago that things were grim and to stop the unnecessary spending. He didn't listen either.
I'm bitter at those around me for taking on my issue and making it theirs. I don't want to have to babysit someone else because they suddenly have a mental break due to my employment status. Really, this isn't about you! I tell them and then repeat ... this is why I don't share things because I suddenly have to be your rock and my own pillar of strength. I get the wide eyed stare and silence after that. Here's a thought ... ask me how I'm doing and if there's anything you can do. *VENTING*
I'm sad. It's been 12 years. TWELVE.YEARS!! I'm comfortable and I'm in charge.
I haven't found my happy place yet. I'm still looking!
Sure my Mr works but he makes just above minimum wage. He's been trying to get a new position with a higher wage but the market is competitive. Between his wage and my pending unemployment things will be TIGHT for awhile. Doable? Well, it's gonna have to be doable.
I'm holding on by my fingertips when it comes to my nutrition. I cannot afford to loose control. I can't slide into the blackness and allow binges to take over. Eat responsibly if nothing else right now. I can report I've not binged since the news. A couple of nights I felt the urge and knew if I stayed up after the Mr went to bed I'd be in trouble so off to bed I went to read. *CRISIS AVERTED*
Workouts are a must and I am sore to prove I put in the time. Saturday I was at the gym for Zumba and strength training and back again on Sunday. My workout friend is helping keep me focused and on task. For that I am eternally grateful.
This is a dark time for me right now and I'm trying to keep my head on straight. I'm looking for the next best thing and a soft place to land. I'm looking inward to find the strength I know I have and the power to push through.
When the bottom falls out ... what will you do?
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