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I'm looking forward to healthy and rewarding 2013

Wednesday, January 02, 2013

Happy New Year friends. I hope everyone celebrated responsibly. I went a little crazy-pants with chocolate but other than that it was tame.

My update is this:

2012 Goals: where did I end up?

1) Pay off 75% of our current debt. emoticon

2) Read 13 books. emoticon

3) Bump up my savings account. emoticon

4) Family Planning. emoticon

5) Clear the Clutter. emoticon

6) Be more authentic. emoticon

7) Reconnect with my job. emoticon

8) The Scale. emoticon (It no longer controls me)

9) Recycle, Reuse, Repurpose. emoticon

10) Moving. emoticon

11) Save Money for a Retirement Home. emoticon

12) Fitness: Log 18,000 fitness minutes. emoticon

I did great with my 2012 goals. As for #10 & 12 ... they are a push. 10. We are still in our cramped apartment because we have no ambition to pay more rent. 12. I stopped logging fitness minutes so I have no idea what my number is but I can tell you it is under 18K. I'm okay with that too.

I'm not listing out any 2013 goals. My main objectives this year will be to live healthier, eat well and concentrate on what is important in life ... me, family & friends and my lil fur balls. I recognized over the last 12 months that I'm off balance ... spending too much time (mentally & physically) on things that really shouldn't matter that much.

I enlisted a friend to start-up strength training sessions with me three days a week at the gym. Our sessions started in December and we've had a lot of fun with it. They only last about 20-25 minutes and we are sore for days after so I know we are doing something right. We don't do repeat workouts and we make sure to giggle. I intend to add a light ST before work too - situps & arms - that will increase my progress too.

I started the Whole30 program which mirrors the other program I've been following since April of 2012. I let too much sugar and dairy back in my diet so out they go again. Ultimately, my body doesn't process either one very well so I need to keep them out. I also don't eat a lot of processed foods and hit the farmers market once a week to buy seasonal veggies. I can already tell a difference in my energy now that sugar & dairy are out ... amazing how that happens.

I'm looking forward to healthy and rewarding 2013.

  
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KAB7801 3/28/2013 11:13PM

    Right on!

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ABB698 1/3/2013 12:15AM

    I know you will rock 2013!! emoticon

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MANLEYSANDY 1/2/2013 3:52PM

    Good for you, you did great on your goals!

Happy New Year dear friend, can't wait to see what 2013 holds for you!

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Looking back at the journey (photos). Then to Now.

Monday, November 12, 2012

When I need a little perspective I take a look at where I started ...

When I turned 30 I weighed 325+ pounds.


When I saw the photo's of myself after my birthday/college graduation party I took my broken self image, angry, bitter self to therapy and got some perspective. That folks saved me from suffocating in my own fat.

Things started changing.


Then I got stuck. I almost lost hope but I kept pushing ... myself and my doctors for answers.

This is me in Jamaica in 2008 at 245 pounds. (The Mr called me chubby then. That always made me giggle ... "chubby" at 245 lbs, okay! Love him!)


I still struggle with binge eating. I still struggle to find my "thin." I still struggle but I have NEVER given up on myself.

This is me now ... at age 42. Ya, it's been a long journey but worth every step.


I love my Spark Peeps and I love my life ... now and then. I didn't take the fast track to 199.1 lbs and I still haven't found the expressway to "thin." Yet, I know my path - with all the bumps and broken hearted moments - has given me the strength to find wellness without hiding.

To Be Continued ...

  
  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

BELAFUNK1985 12/11/2012 10:44AM

    WOW! You have been and always be my number one motivation. Congrats to you and all of your hard work!!!

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TRENTDREAMER 11/13/2012 8:48PM

    "I still struggle with binge eating. I still struggle to find my "thin." I still struggle but I have NEVER given up on myself. "
* Amen! Thank you for your friendship.

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MANLEYSANDY 11/13/2012 11:28AM

    You just plan ole ROCK! I am honored that I can share this with you because I truly care about you and your struggles!!

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JENJESS48 11/13/2012 9:08AM

    Healthy and radiant are better than thin any day - and you have achieved those, which are harder anyway! You look younger now than you did at 30! You're truly an inspiration, KT.

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ABB698 11/12/2012 11:57PM

    Did I miss the blog about you reaching ONEDERLAND? Nevertheless, emoticon
You have come so far and are emoticon

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LANSELMO7 11/12/2012 10:14PM

    Thank you for sharing your journey!!!!!! You have given me a great motivation boost tonight, I needed it!!!!!!!!!! emoticon

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SGRAY478 11/12/2012 8:42PM

    So great to see your journey!
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RADIANTROBIN 11/12/2012 8:36PM

    Congrats on your weight loss! You are an inspiration!

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HOLLYS_NEW_LIFE 11/12/2012 8:21PM

    You said it sister! I wouldn't have changed a thing about my journey. Slow, stop, binge, whatever, I'm thankful for every minute of it. I'm not sure I'll ever find my thin... But I know I've found healthy! You look great, and I know you feel even better! *HUGS*

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JAMBABY0 11/12/2012 8:07PM

    Great pics thanks for sharing

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The Mermaid Series 5K/10K Race

Monday, November 12, 2012

This is my third Mermaid Series race. I've completed two 5Ks and one 10K with the Mermaids. It's a great course and organization!

As I've mentioned before I've found a fitness friend and we like to participate in races together. We have a lot of fun together and keep each other motivated. We tend not to take things too serious which makes for an easy going time.

This race we decided to have a little fun ... she made us tutu's. They are so adorable and fun to wear! We weren't the only ladies in tutu's but ours seemed to be the favorite on and off the course. YA!

We didn't race for time, more for fun. Even with that we both agreed that we are both in a place that running is a real option again. *SMILES*







It really was a great morning!
I am looking forward to seeing my finisher photo this time around. I was super animated compared to past races. :)

  
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JENJESS48 11/13/2012 9:16AM

    LOVE the tutu and the attitude!

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MAGGIENCALI 11/12/2012 9:59PM

    I emoticon your tutus!!! Sounds like you had a fun time and that the weather was picture perfect.

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PURPLE180 11/12/2012 9:06PM

    Cute pics...you look incredible. Love your smile. emoticon

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SGRAY478 11/12/2012 8:37PM

    LOVE that one of you in the field with the bridge in the back!

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MANLEYSANDY 11/12/2012 6:21PM

    So awesome and you both look beautiful!

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HOLLYS_NEW_LIFE 11/12/2012 5:54PM

    That's so exciting, and the tutus are SUPER cute!

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My new dress (Photo)

Saturday, November 03, 2012

With dwindling options in the closet and a wedding reception to attend tonight I headed out to try and find a new dress. I'm still training myself to walk away from the larger sizes so I had the sales person grabbing smaller sizes as I went along.

I settled on this dress in a Medium - I love it! The sales person said she was jealous of my curves. I even treated myself to new shoes which compliment the dress quit nicely.



*LOVE*

  
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BELAFUNK1985 11/12/2012 1:21PM

    WOW! KT you look fantastic... you are just the best motivation around. Congrads on looking amazing.
Oh... and I LOVE that dress

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RAYLIENET 11/11/2012 11:45AM

    You look amazing, gorgeous, strong, and healthy :)

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ENDUROVET 11/5/2012 10:41PM

    Awesome! You look fantastic babe!
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MANLEYSANDY 11/5/2012 11:25AM

    You look beautiful!

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ESHERRILL3 11/5/2012 8:26AM

    Snap! You are looking good!! emoticon

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ABB698 11/4/2012 3:24PM

    Look who's rockin her LBD! emoticon Go KT!!! emoticon

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JENJESS48 11/4/2012 12:10PM

    Absolutely gorgeous! And a medium to boot!!!! emoticon emoticon

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SGRAY478 11/3/2012 10:08PM

    Love your dress lady!

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HOLLYS_NEW_LIFE 11/3/2012 7:30PM

    I LOVE it! You look fatastic, and I think I have the same shoes = ) have fun!

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SANDYCRANE 11/3/2012 4:54PM

    You look great in that dress. Keep up the good work.

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Vacation and personal growth

Monday, October 29, 2012

The back story:
In April 2011 the Mr and I traveled back to Iowa to see my parents. Things went horribly wrong as tempers flew and feelings got hurt. It seemly came out of no where but had to originate from something. It suddenly became a family divided and I felt cut off - not only by the physical miles between us but emotionally. That weekend was never talked about, the phone calls were strained and came less often. On a deep level, I was sad about what happened and too proud AND hurt to deal with it. On the surface, I was angry.

I love my family ... more than anyone can ever begin to imagine so this pain I was feeling cut deep to my soul. STILL, I remained headstrong as did my parents. *SIGH*

Time was passing quickly and I could tell my mom was wanting, needing, me to come home for a visit but we remained divided. Finally, a high school reunion came up and tickets were reasonable so I headed home.

Not knowing what the emotional temp's would be I politely asked the Mr to stay home. I had to explore the waters and see if I could put 2011 to rest. It would be easier if I went it alone.

Today:
I left earlier this month for Iowa, admittedly I was still bitter but open enough to figure out what happened. Either way it went, I was going to let "it" go.

My first morning there my mom sat down with me and immediately apologized for what happened. She said they - her and dad - were out of line, abrasive, judging and misspoke at every turn. Internally I took a deep breath and then we talked. We didn't rehash details, we both knew what had been said but we did talk about it coming out of nowhere. It was acknowledged that the relationship had been strained since then and that she missed me. Her apology meant more to me than I can express here. I accepted it without hesitation and we made amends.

This trip, I finally felt like the adult I am. I no longer felt like that awkward or like I was reverting back to my childhood self while under their roof. It was freeing.

Oddly enough, I am 42 pounds lighter than when they last saw me but nothing was mentioned about my continued weight loss. Even more odd, it felt great to just be and not have to explain my journey. I could just be. I could eat what I wanted, when I wanted without the questions.

I stuck to my wellness journey and eating healthy guidelines while I was there. I planned ahead for travel days, eating out and even desserts. It was a success and I lost 2.2 lbs while I was away.

I learned a lot about myself on this trip. *LOVE*

Me on the Farm:


I fell in love with this little one while there. It's a wonder I didn't smuggle him/her out of Iowa.




Mom and Me at the Tea Room


This is me, the day I came back to Cali. I was feeling sporty & fabulous!


  
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JENJESS48 10/31/2012 1:10PM

    I'm so happy for you, KT. Family can be so complicated - nobody can make us feel as bad or as good. We have all struggled with our families at one time or another. I also left the Midwestern farm and struck out on my own - and my family found that hard to accept. But we made it through and I think we're all better for it. Sounds like you and your folks are, too. Congrats!

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MANLEYSANDY 10/30/2012 11:56AM

    Good for you! You look beautiful!!!

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SPARKLEPIE 10/30/2012 8:43AM

    I love this blog....
Bravo for you for being open... it sounds like it was a healthy (mental) coming back together... with your family and I am so glad... that kind of riff can tear a person so emotionally for years... And super bravo for losing wieght, enjoying your time and sticking to better choices... You are truly amazing..

I love the pictures- you are so beautiful and look so healthful and happy.

Life's journey sure keeps us moving along to better versions of ourselves... you are truly amazing and lovely.


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ABB698 10/29/2012 11:57PM

    You look sporty and fabulous, and skinny!!! :) Glad you were able to work it all out with your parents. Was the Mr. okay with the outcome? Glad all is well!

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PURPLE180 10/29/2012 9:19PM

    Looking good....I am glad all seemed to work out for you. emoticon

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TRENTDREAMER 10/29/2012 8:35PM

    Glad that the trip went well and that you feel more like an adult in dealing with them. That is a big deal. Really glad to hear that amends were made.

Hope the reunion went well.

Life is one step at a time.

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HOLLYS_NEW_LIFE 10/29/2012 8:34PM

    I'm so glad it worked out with your family. And you look FABULOUS!

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KARIDIAN1 10/29/2012 8:29PM

    Glad your visit mended some fences and hurt feelings. Hopefully things will continue to improve on the home front with your parents.



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