Friday, June 08, 2012
Yesterday I stepped back into the City gym with a fresh attitude.
As the minutes of the day passed I felt that old jumpy, gotta get moving, it's almost gym time feeling come over me. I was craving yoga and I wouldn't be stopped! LOVE this feeling!!
In the past I have made a mad dash through the gym to get to the yoga studio. After all I didn't want anyone to notice me. Not this time! I walked with purpose and I looked at people, not past them. I smiled as I approached and they responded in kind.
As I entered the yoga studio I noticed the back row had already filled. Aak, my hiding spot was taken. After all if I stayed in the back no one would notice me. As I took a deep breath and set my things down I noticed a different spot in the middle a little to the left - that's where I set up camp.
While I relaxed on my mat I wondered ... is it ME vs. THEM or ME vs. ME? These people aren't the enemy. I have no proof that they wish me ill will. I have no proof that they dislike me because I'm fluffy and they aren't. Somehow I had made this perfectly nice gym into a mental war zone. What the What! I projected all those inner negatives onto the THEM and I allowed them to become the enemy.
There is no war here. There is no ME vs. THEM. They have come here, like me, to do a job - get their sweat on and work out/off their aggressions. I am but another person breathing in the same oxygen as them and working on similar goals. In the end, it really is ME vs. ME?
What is your purpose? That is the question at the beginning of yoga. Remember your purpose. This is the statement to bring us back to center.
My purpose, in that moment, in that hour, was to learn & remember I am the only person in my own way. My purpose ... to remember who I am, where I've come from, where I want to be and why in this moment I am here.