Tuesday, May 08, 2012
Life after a four-year plateau is a mysterious place.
On May 1st I walked into my newest doctorís office anticipating the scale to take a downward turn but expecting the same old hangup with the scale and my body. Then it happened the magic number of 228.8 flashed on the scale and it was a solid number. As tears filled my eyes, I stood still and silently looked at the number, my nutritionist gently touched my arm and asked if everything was okay. As the tears breached, I was suddenly enveloped with some fierce emotions. I was elated to finally see the lighter side of the 230's. I was relieved that what I had battle for for so long and had wanted so desperately to achieve had been reached. And then I was scared and overwhelmed. What if it wasnít real? What if it was another cruel joke and the following week I was back up again? Finally, I reminded myself to breathe and to enjoy the moment. Thatís when I finally smiled a little smile. I had done it! I had broken through the plateau that had weighed me down both mentally and physically for four years. Yet, I had carried on believing someday Iíd find the key to unlock the door that had shut so many years ago. I had fought the odds and I had won!
My motto is: Never give up! Always fight for it!
The question I always ask: How bad do ya want it?! (Song by Tim McGraw)
Currently I am sugar, gluten, dairy, soy free and soda free.
I crave water. Iím learning to love a good lettuce salad with a simple white vinegar or apple cider vinegar dressing. My ďotherĒ veggie consumption is off the charts and I now like mushrooms when I prepare them at home.
At 225 Iíll be 100 pounds lighter. Iíve seen that number before and then my entire system went off-line and Iíve been fighting the good fight to reach it again and go the distance. *Never give up! Always fight for it!*
I sleep now instead of waking up a 1,000 times a night. I eat with purpose and not desperation. I workout because I want to not because itís a chore. My energy levels are off the charts - I wake up well before my alarm and my energy carries me through my day. Stress? Sure I have it but it seems manageable now and I no longer feel like I might destroy the world if something is out of place. Iím emotional but for all the right reasons. I no longer feel like a hostage in my own body.
*Never give up! Always fight for it!*
Life after a four-year Plateau . . . yay, it feels amazing.
Tuesday, April 17, 2012
I make it no secret that a four year plateau has taken me to the edge of insanity. I've slipped in and out of depression, cried, been angry and bitter BUT I've never given up. Sidestepping the negative side of the plateau I've learned how to manage a weight loss of 75ish pounds for four years. I've learned the value in food, the value in myself, the value in working out and most important the value in my mental health around food and personal acceptance. Plateau's while frustrating can lend themselves to some valuable life lessons and personal growth.
I'm on the edge ... of the plateau, again. I posted a 9 pounds loss which puts me back to the tipping point. If I dip into the 220's I'll have broken the plateau. I can again taste the victory that's just a mere 6 pounds away. Everyday is a victory in my world and every work out is cherished. I will say this, everything will brighten into techno color when I break the plateau and mark my words - IT WILL HAPPEN.
Wednesday, April 11, 2012
I was moved to tears today when I read one of my e-mails. In part it said this:
The SparkPeople Community thinks you are a motivation to others!
SparkPeople Members can vote for SparkPages that are motivational, based on Community involvement, personal accomplishments and more. You have received enough votes to become a "SparkPeople Motivator."
My wellness journey is well documented here and I feel blessed that so many feel I'm a motivator. Sometimes I feel alone & scared on this journey but now I realize all I have to do is reach out & say hello I might need you today.
ďIf you have faith in yourself, you will accept changes easily. You wonít be afraid of who you might become.Ē
Thank you for allowing me to have faith in myself. Thank you for being there in the front row watching, listening and lending a helping hand, a shoulder to cry on or an ear to bend as my life unfolds and I reinvent myself.
Friday, March 30, 2012
I've hit my breaking point with this plateau of mine. I've done my time, I've paid for my past sins and it's time to get out. If I have to dig my way out with a toothpick, I will and I'm gonna make it!!
I went to a workshop last night at a new Chiropractors office to learn more about their wellness program and support system. Today, I'm contacting Doc to let him know that I want to try a new program, with New Doc. *GASP* I am also contacting Doc to have him review the new program and lend his thoughts. I'm very interested to see what he has to say. Honestly, unless he tells me it will 1) kill me or 2) cause great bodily harm I will move forward. In fact, I have a consultation already set up for April 14th.
Working out, on average, 10 hours a week and eating, on average, 1,500 calories a day and seeing little improvement in my physical body is a mind tweak. I don't want a fad diet or a crash diet, I want something that is healthy and nutritious and has support. I told the Mr early this morning, "I can't be this fat for much longer. I'm done."
I've got to keep trying. Keep searching. I will find my Lightning in a bottle . . .
"The universe has a plan. Be still, listen and then embrace it."
Thursday, March 29, 2012
May 1st and beyond I'll be commuting and won't be able to return home for lunch to cook me something fancy and healthy - I've had it good for 12+ years. In preparation for this life changing event I'm planning to buy a fabulous lunch bag with containers to carry all my yummy lunches and snacks. Here's where I ask for your help . . . I need great lunch ideas. I'll have a microwave and a small frig to help me out. I'd like to put together five or more complete lunch ideas so I'll never be caught without options or be forced to eat out.
So, WOW me with your go-to portable lunches!! All ideas are welcome, I'll modify for my food restrictions.
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