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Test Results are in and the Consultation with Doc Complete

Tuesday, January 17, 2012

The test results from my most resent functional adrenal test came in today. As soon as I got the email I scheduled a phone consult with Doc. We just finished.

My cortisol levels are now registering normal when I wake in the morning. My previous test showed my cortisol was HIGH. This means things have improved.
My cortisol levels at noon stayed the same as the last time. They were normal then which means they are normal now.
My cortisol levels in the afternoon dropped below normal. Last time they were normal.
My cortisol levels at night are extremely high. Doc was initially concerned until he found out my workout schedule. I took the test on a night I have a marathon session at the gym (4 hours). He was shocked at my schedule but did not want me to change anything if I enjoyed the *rush*. (More on this to come)
My DHEA levels dropped from a 2.3 to 1.13 - he didn't like that much.

The results were a mixture of good and not so good. *PALM/FOREHEAD*

My test results show that I have a high stress life. (IMAGING THAT) He asked if life in general was stressful. I chuckled. Really Doc? I work in two law firms, I had a 10% reduction in pay, I'm married, my cat died and I'm fat. Ya, life is a little stressful. It was his turn to chuckle.

He asked what I was doing to combat my stress. Aww, a question I can answer. I told him about my goals for 2012 as far as getting rid of clutter, negative energy and weighing myself once a month, instead of once a week and that I've taken up yoga. He was loving every bit of it and equally loved that I have already started to implement my plan.

We both agreed that using my *skinny* jeans as a marker for weight gain or loss might be mentally healthier than stepping on a scale. I'll freshly launder those bad boys before I slip them on and see how I feel and take note.

He also noted that I could be looking thinner due to building lien muscle which is denser and heavier. If that's the case, my fat cells are shrinking. YA!

He was impressed with my workout schedule and intensity. Again, he said if I love it go for it. I asked him what, if anything, I could about the high levels of cortisol in the evenings after my workouts. Amazingly there is a simple solution that is totally doable. For five minutes a night I should go into childs pose making sure my forehead is touching something - I can not move for that five minutes. This will effectively shut down the production of cortisol. I love this solution!!! Not only will it shut down the production of cortisol but it will allow me to relax prior to going to bed. I can already envision this happening - me + yoga mat, a dimly lit room, me in childs pose and soft music playing - five minutes of nothing but peace.

I'm going back on a modified supplement regimen to support my adrenals. I had three options; 1) do nothing, 2) take drops, 3) go for a full blown regimen of pills and drops. #1 was not an option for me. #3 was just too intense and costly. I'm trying to simplify not maximize. #2 just seemed right. Moving forward!!

As always he invited me to send up flares, smoke signals, phone calls or emails if things went to hell in a hand basket. Otherwise, we'll touch base again in six months.

I feel positive.
I like the simple approach.
I'm keeping is simple and taking control.

  
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MANLEYSANDY 1/20/2012 1:42PM

    I like it too! I am a firm believer in weighing in once a month!

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ENDUROVET 1/18/2012 1:56PM

    If only child's pose didn't hurt my knees! (It's savasana for me baby - corpse pose!)

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FITNESSMONSTER8 1/18/2012 10:39AM

    5 minutes of childs pose in the evening sounds nice. I hope it helps.

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HOLLYS_NEW_LIFE 1/18/2012 7:36AM

    Even though, there was good and bad, I'm glad there is a way to help. LOVE the child's pose, I may try that myself. As for the skinny jeans test, LOVE that even more. What a great way to measure success without the scale!

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ABB698 1/17/2012 10:14PM

    Glad you have some answers and solutions! Also glad he didn't take your schedule away since it brings you so many good endorphins! I agree about the skinny jeans, trash the grumpy pants and rock the skinny jeans KT! emoticon

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TRENTDREAMER 1/17/2012 7:50PM

    Really glad to hear that some of the previously not-so-good numbers are getting better. Sorry to hear about the numbers that aren't going so well.

Really glad to hear that you are combating the stress and that you may have a good 5 minute solution to the evening cortisol issues.

I really hope that you have a great 2012 that leads to an even better 2013. I very much look forward to this journey with you and our friends :)

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Grumpy Pants - Take them off, throw them on the ground & stomp on them!

Monday, January 16, 2012

This morning I grabbed a pair of dress pants for work, slid them on and then looked in the mirror. What I saw in the mirror made me instantly grumpy. I took them off, threw them down and stomped on them. TAKE THAT!

In three years I've lost ZERO pounds AND ZERO inches. The reality of that equally makes me grumpy. It's not for lack of trying and running myself into the ground either. I workout for a minimum of 12 hours a week. AND, I'm not talking about the barely-break-a-sweat kind of workouts either. My workouts have been proven to send other grown folks exiting the gym shaking their heads asking why anyone would want to endure such a workout. My body craves the workout and I give it all I got, even if my feet are screaming to stop.

I digress, back to this mornings events of displeasure. So, I slid the pants on and notice, or rather - finally admit they are ill fitting. Even with the lack of movement on the scale and/or tape measure my body has changed shape. Things have shifted - often giving the illusion that I've lost weight or inches - and things just don't fit the same. Some things fit better than they did while others just look ridiculous. Today I found the ridiculous staring back at me. BOO! I tried to look past it but couldn't so I ripped them off and stomped on them.

I've been quiet today and my boss has noticed, only because it makes him nervous when I get quiet (he has a irrational fear that I'm going to up and quit on him). How do you explain to someone that you found your grumpy pants today and decided to stomp on them instead of settling to wear them and be uncomfortable all day. Ya, you don't. So I didn't. I figure he can put on his big boy pants and deal with the quiet side of me while I self reflect.

The Mr commented today that I've seemed angry for the last few weeks. HUH?! Me angry, more disappointed and feeling like I have a split personality really. Still, how do you explain to the one that loves you for who you are and what you look like that you just can't bare to wear the grumpy pants anymore acting like every.thing.in.the.world.is.fine when it really isn't? Ya, it's hard to find the words so he'll get it. I tried. I got the blank stare and all too familiar - "babe you look fine" feedback. Ya, thanks - love you too, but I'm darn tired of being as fat as I am and working hard to change it only to have the world spin in the other direction so that my hard work is suddenly undone. I'm not angry, I'm tired.

I anticipate within a week I'll be setting up a consultation with Doc to review my latest saliva test. I might actually loose my mind if he tells me my body needs more time to recover from the past. I just might scream into the phone like a wild animal caught in a trap because I find myself feeling hopeless and trapped at this time in my journey.

Follow the rules and good things will happen - HA! - not so much. Eat well, drink your water and workout and you'll loose weight - HA! - not so much. Track your food, track your water and put in your fitness minutes and you'll loose weight - HA! - not so much.

I decided in a fit of aggression that I can no longer "wait" to buy a few new pairs of pants. I must make it a priority to search out pants that hug my curves and make me feel as beautiful as I am. I can no longer endure the baggy, saggy, tuck and pull pants I have now. I will no longer wait to buy until I've dropped a few pounds - that doesn't seem a reality at this point. Buy for who I am now, not for who I want or strive to be!

My wellness journey sure isn't full of unicorns and rainbows. I need to find a few of them though so I can move forward instead of sideways.

  
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MANLEYSANDY 1/17/2012 2:51PM

    I feel your frustration and hope a virtual hug will help a little!! You work so hard and I can imagine at times that it feels like a futial effort!! But you have come such a long way and work dedication to working is truly AMAZING!

Sometimes you just gotta stomp on the pants and be grumpy, your entitled!!!

Hang in there!

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Yoga and Cupcakes

Thursday, January 12, 2012

This was my post on FB on Wednesday Morning:
I love how yoga calms your mind, *gently* stretches your muscles and even challenges you in the moment. Then you wake up the next morning only to realize what it was really doing . . . silently kicking you ass! Thanks yoga.

It still amazes me how much yoga can/will do for the body. While I'm in class I'm all rainbows and unicorns and I wonder as I'm leaving why I'm really there because I don't really break a sweat, unless I'm wearing my heavier sweatshirt - which I do because the yoga studio is C.O.L.D. Then I wake up the next morning and I'm reminded why I go and love it. Ya, yoga kicks your butt.

I went into this weeks season wondering why we don't work on our upper body strength. It seems we concentrate a lot on core (good) and lower body (equally good) but I want to build up my arms and upper back too. Seems the instructor has a small window to peak into my mind - I never knew and will be more careful about what I think about next time! We worked our upper body, core and did lots of stretching (I love, love, love the stretching).

When I got up on Wednesday I felt the all to familiar sore muscles. As the day progressed I felt the *sore* set in and by the time I reached the gym that night my arms, chest and back were on fire. Okay, not on fire but sore and in need of a warmup and more stretching. I think I cringed for the first 20 minutes of Zumba. HA!

Cupcakes are the evil little bits of round cake with yummy frosting to dress them up. I like a good cupcake. Well, let's be honest, I like cake too. Since my sparing partner was determined (that word doesn't even begin to describe her enthusiasms) to bring a cake to boxing last night because it was our trainers birthday in the end I persuaded her to bring cupcakes. Let's face it, unless they are made for a giant (some are) they are portion controlled and easy to carry. The cupcakes she brought were made for a baby giant and everyone was happy to have just one.

I took mine to go thinking I would eat dinner and then have it for dessert. Ends up it was my dinner. Don't judge - it happens! :) The cupcake was good, not outstanding like I thought a $5 cupcake should taste (yes she paid that much per cupcake) but the frosting was dangerous. I'm glad they don't sell it by the bag full with a spoon to go - I'd be in trouble! The world didn't end because I ate a cupcake for dinner last night and I didn't gain 5 lbs either. Upon waking up this morning I didn't have any cravings for more of said cupcakes or want to eat my way through a large tub of frosting. I'll consider it a win, win.

Yoga, yes please!
Cupcakes, I've had my fill of you!

  
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ABB698 1/12/2012 10:30PM

    Frosting can be dangerous! emoticonSo it was dinner, it's not like it's your daily dinner,. Enjoy yoga!!

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PANDASUE2 1/12/2012 8:11PM

    My boyfriend works above a cupcakery and asks me weekly if I want him to bring some home. NO! Stop asking because one of these times i'm gonna have a week moment and give in!! He brought one home that they had extra in the office and it sat on the counter... taunting me! But I didn't give in :-)

The yoga sounds amazing... I need to start!

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Letting Go

Tuesday, January 10, 2012

I've let go! A friend of mine who is morbidly obese has made noise for over a year about "getting healthy" and finding her groove with working out. I support her and I worry about her health conditions. Her body is literally breaking down under her weight and lack of healthy eating. Her body chemistry is so far out of whack that she has to regulate it with medication. Many of her issues could be turned around with the proper diet and movement - something her medical doctor has told her. Oh how I worry!

Last week she committed to coming to a Zumba class with me. Thirty minutes before the class started I received a text saying she was leaving Target - it's 20 minutes away WITHOUT traffic, she was leaving at rush hour. She didn't make it. Again she tried to commit to another trip to the gym only to give me an excuse minutes before she was to arrive. Then she invited me to her home asking me to do pilates/yoga with her - I said yes. An hour before I was to walk to her home I got "THE TEXT with the 4,679 excuse as to why she couldn't go forward.

When I wanted to throw my cell phone at the wall I realized it was time I let go. This is her journey. I've got mine. I can't keep expending this type of energy.

I took a deep breath and sent the following text: You have an open invitation to join me at the gym. If you can't pay the $5 I'll pay it for you. I'm there six days a week. When you are ready to join me please let me know until then I'll be mute on the subject. I love and adore you - KT

Some times letting go is hard. That was hard. Before it's too late, I hope she finds her wellness path and takes the first step. I'll be her cheerleader all the way and I'll be the one with band-aids if she falls!

  
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ROCHELLE62 1/12/2012 3:34AM

    Great response. Hopefully she will see if for what it is and use the open door when she is ready.

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SGRAY478 1/11/2012 2:09PM

    It is hard to put yourself and your journey above someone else. When she is ready to change, she'll come. Kudos to you for being a good friend!

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FITNESSMONSTER8 1/11/2012 10:42AM

    You are a great friend! You did the right thing by letting go. Hopefully in time your friend will come around.

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PANDASUE2 1/11/2012 9:48AM

    Its awesome that you'll be there for her if she finally comes around. You did the right thing. Wish I had a friend like you!!

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-MOJOJOJO- 1/11/2012 8:22AM

    You are strong to let go and I admire that! I wish I had that same strength! I deal with this (just not in getting someone to workout but other things for life bettering) I keep hoping that some of my family and friends could and would see the light and it kills me a little everyday to see anystruggle struggle...i know it affects me in a very negative way and at the same time I feel like it sooths me to at least think I am trying to help...it's a vicious cycle I can't seem to get out of :( ugh the life of a people pleaser emoticon

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ABB698 1/10/2012 10:58PM

    You are an amazing friend KT! What a beautiful heartfelt message. Sounds like she *wants* to take the step but can't just yet make herself do it. It's nice to know that you'll be there for her when she actually is. emoticon

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BEINGGUIDED 1/10/2012 9:50PM

    when I was lost, I wish I had a friend like you. You keep doing what you are doing and one day hopefully she will come around.

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MNGIRLIE 1/10/2012 9:25PM

    You did the right thing. Who knows... maybe she'll come around sooner than you think. I'm guessing that she's not going to feel obligated now that you've cut her loose with that text. She'll come to it in her own time.

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ERIKGN 1/10/2012 8:22PM

  You are being a good friend. You can only do what you can. You can lead a horse to water but you can't make them drink. Good job! YOu can only change yourself..

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TRUEREINVENTED 1/10/2012 8:16PM

    She is an adult. She gets to choose. Just like you do. You made the right choice, and your text was loving, caring and totally OK! You are a good friend.

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Blinding White Pain

Tuesday, January 10, 2012

Setting a goal to log 18,000 fitness was HUGE and it leaves little wiggle room for injury, laziness and any other bump in the road that might come along. Ya, I didn't factor that in when I set this one up but there are no take backs so I'm pushing forward - WITH A HEEL BRUISE.

I'll freely admit here that I'm a little obsessed with my workouts. I think it was the discovery of boxing last year that propelled me around the corner. All my other workouts just help prepare me not to collapse in boxing so I HAVE to go. HA!

The new yoga studio I go to is also running a close second on my list of favorites not only for the fantastic physical workouts but also for the mental ones too.

Monday and Wednesday nights are my long nights at the gym. I'm in the door by 6:00 and I leave to walk home (.75 miles) by 9:50. I attend three classes. Last night was no different, it was Monday. What I didn't expect was the blinding white pain that coursed through my body between zumba and pilates.

I made it through Zumba along with the other 60 people in the cramped little space - the newbies at the gym are out in full force! When I sat down to prepare for pilates class I decided to ease the tightness in my heel by giving it a bit of a massage. When I gently squeezed the heel I went ghost like and tried not to scream out like the girl I am as the blinding white pain flooded me. It was only temporary and the heel felt much better after the massage was over. I was a bit out of breath however. I welcomed the floor workout (my abs did not) for an hour -- NO IMPACT!

When it was time for boxing I excused myself from jumping rope knowing that was a recipe for disaster. I mean, I'm all for pushing through but I'm not crazy! I used the elliptical until it was time to stretch. Luck was not on my side last night as most of boxing ended up being kicks - not only on the heavy bag but on the floor as well. I did what I could for as long as could but had to cut the heavy bag portion in half (BOO!). Migel was my partner last night and he knew I had some discomfort so checked in with me frequently. Floor work was cut by 10 minutes due to my regular sparing partner nearly passing out and vomiting due to our intensity last night. Of course it didn't help that all she had in the afternoon prior to coming to the gym was a bowl of rice w/ mushrooms. SILLY WOMAN! That didn't mean class was over though. What we missed on the floor was made up with AB WORK! We did total of 150 crunches in four different positions. Ya, my abs just LOVED me.

The walk home was less than speedy but I made it without calling the Mr to pick me.

Amazingly enough, today my heel doesn't feel too bad. I'll ice it before I go to yoga tonight (I keep ice packs in the office freezer) and then again when I get home tonight.

For anyone reading this, my research has found that heel bruises can take many weeks to heal. Weeks I won't sit on the sideline - fitness goal or not. I've made adjustments to my shoes and I hold back when I need too. Further research shows, there isn't much if anything a doctor can do for this so why bother going unless I want to give away my money. (I'll keep it thanks!)

I'm thinking of treating/rewarding myself this weekend to a foot massage.

  
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ENDUROVET 1/18/2012 2:00PM

    I'll tell ya a funny story: 14 yrs ago, my mule bruised his hoof so badly, we thought he had fractured his coffin bone. (It wasn't so damn funny at the time; that kind of fracture would be a career-ending injury)
Radiographs were inconclusive, but fortunately what might have been a fracture line turned out to be a nutrient canal in the bone.
But it's true, bad bruises can take MONTHS to heal. Take care of yourself!

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TRENTDREAMER 1/10/2012 2:39PM

    Glad you had a great workout and that the really bad pain was only temporary.

Continued success to you on your workouts :)

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PICKIE98 1/10/2012 1:29PM

    Youch! You are doing the right things,, did you check it to make sure there is not a blood blister on that bruise? I think slamming that into something would send you into orbit!! Do you have a foot fixer with vibrating heated water flow? I had a hell bruise once and I used that, followed by the ice,, it felt great.

Great job on compensating with other moves!!

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