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Yeah, thatís right Iím in - all in!

Thursday, July 14, 2011

My latest urine tests results are in. Iím clean. HA! Just joking. Doc has had me take tests after starting me on a new supplement program and today I got back results from the 3rd test. My serotonin and dopamine levels have regulated and stabilized. The lab suggested more severe tweaks with the supplements and then to test again in a week. Doc was not impressed with that recommendation and advised against further urine tests. YES! The tests and supplements arenít cheap so I was happy to be done with the tests.

We are going to tweak the supplement intake ever so slightly though. Iím in tune with my body enough that I can tell when things work and donít work within a matter of days so we are going to rely on my body vs. science.

Things to watch for:

Energy levels
I used to sleep 10 - 12 hours a day and then cry in the afternoons due to the fatigue being so bad. I now sleep 8 hours a day and can fully function throughout the day without the aid of a nap, caffeine or other wake me ups.

Sleep Quality
Even though I was sleeping up to 10 - 12 hours a day I would wake up at the drop of hat or if I heard an ant walk across the carpet. Interrupted sleeps sucks. I now sleep soundly and rarely wake up unless the little fur ball needs something or I have to pee.

Although I could stay within my calorie range daily, it proved difficult. My body was always craving something. Sure part of that was a sugar, soda and carb addiction but mostly it was my inner bits and brain chemistry being messed up. Iíve cut soda out, sugars are less and less daily and I try not to carb load - my body loves its protein. Between a diet adjustment and the supplements my appetite has diminished. Often I have to remind myself to eat or if Iím having a ďcraving,Ē I sit all quietly within myself to ask, ďare you mentally hungry or physically hungry?Ē A lot of times itís mental and Iím training myself to leave it alone when mental hunger comes along.

Weight loss
Doc recommends a 2 to 4 pound loss a month. Yes, you read that right - 2 to 4 pound loss a month. Any faster than that and the body can turn on ya. Iíd like to be at the 4-pound weight loss for the month. My weight stalled out in 2007 and Iíve been in hovering in the 230/240's since then. It sucks! That being said - Iíve seen the dark side of 325 too.

If any of these things change, Iíll know that our tweaks took me in the wrong direction and we adjust again.

My boss knows most of whatís going on and has been around long enough to see me at 325 and now at 234. Heís witnessed the tears of desperation when my fatigue was so bad I just wanted to go to sleep and never wake up. Heís witnessed the tears of desperation when my weight loss stalled and I had no idea why. Heís witnessed the good. The bad. The ugly. When I need support, heís there and when I need tough love heís there. Today I told him I was finish with testing. He asked what that meant so I explained. He then asked what was my goal weight. I smiled and said I have about 68.5 pounds to go. At which point a perplexing look came over his face because he couldnít imagine me going down that much more. I smiled. As he tilted his head ever so slightly he asked, ďwhat do you weigh today?Ē *INTERNAL GASP* I smiled and proudly said, 234. Yeah, Iím all about full disclosure when Iím with people who support me. He stood silently for a moment and then told me he never would have guessed I weighed that amount, he would have thought much less.

In other news . . .

I have decided I will attend the kick boxing / boxing class at the gym. The Mr and I talked about it. I emailed my friend Yvonne who responded to answer all my open-ended questions. I already know class is going to be tough. Tougher than running. Tougher than Step and Zumba. I do love a challenge.

Hereís my reply to Yvonne today - ďYup, class looks overwhelming and scary. Yet, I like a challenge and I hate being strangled by fear. That being said Ö Iím in!Ē

Yeah, thatís right Iím in - all in!

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ENDUROVET 7/16/2011 12:07PM

    How's that old John Wayne quote go?

"Courage is being scared to death but saddling up anyway"

I'm so proud of you honey.

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ABB698 7/15/2011 2:06AM

    You're IN and ready to win! Cuz that's how KT rolls! emoticon
That's awesome you have that relationship with your boss. Have a Fab Friday, can't wait to hear all about the boxing class Monday! emoticon

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BRAINYBLONDE5 7/14/2011 8:24PM

    kickboxing is INTENSE. my experience: you start and you love the challenge of the class; half-way through you are tired and are like whoa, this sucks; the end FINALLY comes. and next week YOU GO RIGHT BACK TO CLASS BECAUSE EVEN THOUGH YOU HATED IT YOU DID IT AND YOU CAN KEEP DOING IT! you GOT this! you can fight through this challenge :)

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When the universe eavesdrops be ready ...

Tuesday, July 12, 2011

Last night I spoke to a guy named Joe at my gym. I initially thought he was the boxing instructor, he is not. I learned he is a boxer and is willing to meet with me on Saturday morning 30 minutes prior to Zumba class to go over the basics. I agreed.

When I came to work today I received an email from a woman I'm friendly with at the gym about boxing. She had overheard my conversation with Joe and asked if she could persuade me to attend the gyms boxing class with her on Monday & Wednesday evenings from 8:05 till 9:30.

The universe was clearly eavesdropping last night. *GIGGLES*

It has taken me 7 hours to reply to Yvonne's e-mail. The fear of the unknown really took hold of me and was suffocating. I was full of questions. Anxiety. Fear. Excitement. I even came up with many excuses to say, thank you but no to Yvonne. In the end, I reply with a reserved yes. Yes, I'll give it a try. *DEEP BREATH*

Sure, I'll be the new kid on the block tomorrow night and I can handle that. I can handle the challenge of the workout too. My challenge will be to not let the fear win. The fear of the unknown. The fear of being in a class that is dominated by men. The fear of being in a class with women who are rock hard. The fear of doing it wrong. The fear of sucking wind or falling down. Ya, it's all there and I'm carrying it around with me today. It's heavy baggage, that exhausts me so I'm putting it down now and moving forward. YES, I will attend the class!

IF I can concur this fear my whole workout schedule will change again. I'm okay with that.

WHEN I can concur this fear I will dominate!

UPDATE SINCE POSTING: The boxing/kick boxing class has been cancelled for tomorrow night. Looks like I'll be starting on Monday, if all goes well.

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WILD22 7/14/2011 11:40AM

    knock'em dead! hehe

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ABB698 7/13/2011 8:18PM

    Awesome! I know you will show them the strong, amazing woman you are! Have fun!

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DESERTFLOWER8 7/12/2011 9:56PM

    Of all the challenges we face, I somehow think conquering the fear is by far the most significant. Don't you think the weight has been a means of avoiding scary things? I am SO proud of you for facing it all head on!! You are a warrior, woman!!!

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SGRAY478 7/12/2011 7:37PM

    Good Luck!! I absolutely LOVE boxing (although kickboxing is more my thing!)
Have fun with it!!


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Mental Note(s) to Self

Monday, July 11, 2011

I am officially passed the sore butt stage of riding my bike.

I giggle A LOT when I workout and I like it!

My legs are much stronger than last year.

Right now, running does not bring me joy. I took it up because someone I love told me I was too fat to do it.

I love Zumba and have unleashed my dancing diva.

I miss soda but not what it does to my inner bits.

I crave and seek out outdoor adventures ...
First, The Water Park
Next, Kayaking
Then, a return to the rapids - Whitewater rafting!

My calorie bank was overdrawn this weekend - I choose that. Today, I get a new start and a new balance.


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TRENTDREAMER 7/11/2011 6:30PM

    go u!!

Thanks for your friendship and support.

I'm going to do zumba tonite.

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ABB698 7/11/2011 6:06PM

    You are a rockstar! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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SGRAY478 7/11/2011 3:32PM

    Love the bit about running. I start so many things for that reason and then prove them wrong and in the process fall in love with what I'm doing!!

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WILD22 7/11/2011 2:42PM

    I love that you are not afraid of trying new things!! Well you might be scared you concur everything you try. You are a champion like no other. Keep up the great work!!

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KINSBAILE 7/11/2011 2:05PM

    You're absolutely right! I just wish my extracirricular activities have not been behind a book and studying!

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JENJESS48 7/11/2011 2:04PM

    emoticon You're doing so well! I admire how varied your fitness routine is and how you are constantly doing new stuff.

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Fun in the Sun at the Water Park (Photo Blog)

Friday, July 08, 2011

Today, July 8th, marks two years that the Mr has lived in the states. We decided to celebrate this occasion by going to a water park for an entire day and just play like kids.

I decided a few days ago that I just couldn't go to a water park in my "going to the pool" bathing suit. I HAD to have board shorts. Okay, not really but we toured Sears and Target to take a look see. At Sears I found the board shorts, as did the Mr, and they were on sale. We had a gift card so they cost us nothing! Then we headed to Target where I found the tankini top that match perfectly. I was a happy woman at the water park in my put together water wear.

I also stopped and bought new sunscreen because I did NOT want another burn, thank you very much. The Mr sprayed me down so well throughout the day that the sun did not stand a chance this time around.

The day begins ...

Armed with new sunblock and the Mr applying it often I was all shinning but never burnt.

Lunch wasn't an issue for my healthy eating lifestyle either. Amongst the junk food options I found a fresh green salad with chicken and as always ate it without the dressing. My biggest concern was caving in and having a soda but I opted for a lemonade and then water for the balance of the day. It was all good!

We giggled as we took turns on this one.

This was right before I went down a slight water fall backwards. *GIGGLES*

The Mr was all smiles on this one too.

I love these photos!

The wave pool ... one of my favorite locations of the day.

We took a short break to relax in the shade and cool off with some water and ice cream. Delicious!

Look Ma, 5.5 hours in the sun at a water park, no burn!

It's fun acting like a kid and having no worries for a few hours. Live Life!

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WILD22 7/11/2011 2:47PM

    I'm glad you had fun. Love that you didn't get a burn. It probably slicked you up so you went down the slides even faster. You tankini was perfect as well. You are LIVING the time of you life!!

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KINSBAILE 7/11/2011 2:04PM

    OMG you two are so CUTE! That's so awesome! Thank you for posting these!!!!

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ENDUROVET 7/9/2011 11:30PM

    What wonderful photos! I can hardly wait till I get my boy back & we can go back to the waterpark...
(Way behind on postings, but need to update re: brother-in-law + sister-in-law's reconciliation - speaking of being "back in the States"; cousin's funeral, P's new job & my dramatic struggle to get RIGHT BACK WHERE I STARTED FROM, but I'm off to NM in the AM!)
Virtual hugs!

Comment edited on: 7/9/2011 11:33:35 PM

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ABB698 7/9/2011 3:36PM

    What a great day! Love your tankini, it looks great on you with those vibrant colors :) What a fun way to celebrate! Glad you came away glowing, not burning! Loved the photos!!! Have a fab weekend!! emoticon

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JENJESS48 7/9/2011 11:49AM

    emoticon That looks like so much fun! I'm glad you got out and did it!

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TRENTDREAMER 7/9/2011 9:21AM

    glad u had a good time. Have a gr8 weekend.

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ITSHOWYOULIVE 7/8/2011 11:45PM

    Love the board shorts options, my fave also. Your put together outfit is absolutely adorable and looks like you had a blast!!

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PICKIE98 7/8/2011 6:41PM

    I really like that top,, it just looks like a swimsuit,, also, that hubby of yours looks pretty scared hanging on to that tube!! Isn't he cute? What a looker!!
You are so blessed and very smart to "Carpe` Diem"!!!! What fun!! I love that waterpark, where do you live?

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PJH2028 7/8/2011 6:36PM

    You look great! So happy, so summery, so waterpark-chic! Really! You're my HERO of the day!!!! Board-shorts!!! may be the answer for me as well!!

Keep on keeping on! And thanks for all your notes and nods and support this week!

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I may not weigh 229.5 today but I'm found my bliss anyway

Saturday, July 02, 2011

It seems the universe and my body did not get the memo that I wanted, wished, predicted, and/or demanded that I weigh 229.5 today. Instead, I weigh 232. If you think I'm disappointed in that think again. I did a little wiggle, smiled at myself and walked on. You see, I went shopping last night for nothing special and found, in the dressing room, something priceless! Size 16 jean shorts that fit like a glove. I was in heaven as I strutted my stuff around the store. Ya, my butt looked good! The sun dress in size 14 equally flattered my curves. I didn't walk out of that store, I floated out on cloud number 9.

I may not weigh 229.5 today but I'm found my bliss anyway.

Note to universe and body: 229.5 will be mine next Saturday! Yes, it will happen, without fail.

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WILD22 7/11/2011 2:48PM


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MANLEYSANDY 7/5/2011 1:16PM

    WOOT WOOT!! Awesome!!!

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TRENTDREAMER 7/3/2011 5:28PM

    Congrats and best of fortune to you next week :)

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JENJESS48 7/3/2011 3:41PM

    Oooh, smaller clothes feel SO GOOD! Congrats, lady! Your hard work is paying off! emoticon

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ABB698 7/3/2011 12:16PM

    Love it! So you didn't see the number you wanted on the scale, but you saw it in your awesome new clothes! Go girl emoticon

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ENDUROVET 7/2/2011 11:37PM

    Excellent! Today I bought myself 2 new pair of riding tights for NM; to me that's as big a treat as anything flouncy ;-)

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DESERTFLOWER8 7/2/2011 11:50AM

    AWESOME! I always enjoy your blogs...and you are doing SO well and have been, for SO long..you are an inspiration!! XO

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SKIPPY1311 7/2/2011 11:31AM

    Go you. Love your positivity and its good to think that the weight is just a number. Its how you feel that counts and im bet you did look a million dollars in your dress and shorts!

Well done!

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