Monday, May 09, 2011
Today marks my 2 year anniversary with Sparks. I am healthier in mind, body and soul since joining SP. I haven't dropped much weight, but the mental weight I've dropped is monumental!
My mind has cleared on this journey. I see more clearly now that holding onto or engaging in a mental battle against myself, my weight and sometimes the world is wasted energy. Acceptance but not settling is key to my journey. I can accept that I'm "fluffier" than I need to be but I won't settle. I can accept that I'm not perfect when it comes to eating but I won't settle. I can accept that I don't always want to workout but I won't settle.
My body has changed on this journey. I used to weigh 325 lbs. and I now weigh 237 lbs. Yup, I dropped 88 lbs and I've fought for the past three years to keep that weight off. It has been a struggle because my body finally hit its breaking point and would release no more. As I found out, you can only abuse your body so much before it breaks down under the pressure. Yet, I'm stronger now than I ever was. I log countless hours at the gym every week because I enjoy it. I choose to walk daily when it would be just as easy to be carried. June 2010 I ran/walked my first 5K ... I did it on a whim. Since then I've competed in two more 5K's. June 2011 I will revisit the course from last year and Run ... it's a special anniversary. I learned to push myself in June 2010 - it was a turning point. In November I'll run/walk a 10K ... another turning point I'm looking forward too.
My soul has been cleansed on this journey. How could it not with all the other positives that surround me.
If you don't like something change it; if you can't change it, change the way you think about it. ~Mary Engelbreit