Saturday, February 13, 2010
Day 6 is coming to a close and it was a success.
After watching the opening ceremony of the Olympics I expected to sleep-in but my eyes opened at 7:30 and I was up and ready to go.
On my to do list was to return a few jars of spaghetti sauce that I bought right before the decision to kick sugar. I am still amazed that they add sugar to these products. I returned those jars and replaced them with blueberries. What and exchange, HA.
Weekends are tough for me when it comes to staying on track. Today was even more difficult due to being alone for most of the day. I can really be my own worst enemy when it comes to food! I did it though, I stayed on track and I kept the promises listed in yesterday's blog. I repeat them here in the hopes I have a repeat tomorrow . . .
I promise myself to do the following for this holiday weekend is:
1) I will eat regularly
2) I will enter my food/work-outs with SP
3) I will stay focused
4) I will drink all of my water
5) I will get out and get involved
When I went to the natural grocery store I checked the freezer section for my most favorite sweet treat - Coconut Bliss Ice cream - it is soooooo DE-Licious!!!! To my amazement they had a new flavor . . . Peanut Butter! Side Note: I LOVE peanut butter - by the spoon full. I checked the label and there was NO added sugar - YES. I grabbed a pint and off I went. Side Note: I usually don't keep this product in the house because 1) I can and have eaten a whole pint in one sitting, 2) it costs $5.99 a pint. Today however, I decided I would buy it, why not - I mean I do deserve it. Then reality set in, a light bulb moment if you will, when I looked a the label again. Still no added sugar but one serving is 250 calories and there are four servings per container. I quickly decided I couldn't afford (physically) to buy this product. Not now, not anytime soon - I put it back and walked away, okay I quickly walked away.
I noticed today, which is different from past Saturdays, that I was not preoccupied with what was in my kitchen or what I was going to eat next. My body told me when it was hungry and I listened. It's different when it's your body and not your mind talking about food.
Another childhood memory came to me today:
While having dinner with my immediate family my brother looked up and said to me, "you know, you would be pretty if you were thinner." He might as well have slapped me in the face. I was completely crushed and humiliated. The table fell silent . . . I just kept eating. As a preteen that statement registered as, "you are ugly, fat is ugly and that's you." It wasn't until recently that I was able to recover from the statement . . . a lifetime I've carried that around and I finally got tired. Tired enough to ask for help! Words can hurt and when followed by silence of others it can leave a wound that may never heal.
Tomorrow, is another "high risk" day but I am feeling motivated! Without thecravings and a clear head I really think this is doable.