I ran last night before step class. I felt strong in my new runners and decided to skip day 3, week 4 of C25K and go straight to day 1 of week 5. I did not disappoint! My top speed was 4.5 which is lightening fast compared to the 3.8 I used to jog. I loved the sweat. I loved the speed. I even loved when I was sucking wind when finished. My new runners were great - last night was the first time out of the box. Friday night I'm running my SP 5K and I'm prepared to take it a bit slower if I need too. It'll be the first 5K in two months.
A few weeks back I decided on double workout days - which was last night (2 mile run, 45 min. Step class) I will use some of my daily calories on Gatorade. I generally stay away from those types of drinks due to the calories but thought maybe the content would aid in reducing the leg cramps I experience. So far, so good.
I feel like I'm running strong now. I feel like the 5K race in June won't be overwhelming AND that I'll be totally prepared for the 10K in November.
For anyone reading this who might wonder what happened with Doc the other day I can report all is well but won't go into great specifics right now. Yes, a new action plan has been talked about. When I can wrap my brain around it all I'll likely blog about it. Until then, know my journey continues and I'm at peace with it. To repair the years of damage I caused may take longer than I ever imagined ... if that's the case I'm settling in for the long haul. I'm a fighter!
This weekend was the final weekend for See Jane Run's anniversary sale. I was determined to get there to buy new runners and see what they had for curvy women runners. I was not disappointed.
It took me three hours to try on shoes and clothes. I was determined to do it right and didn't care about the time. I tried on five different types/styles of shoes. I walked and ran outside, inside and on the treadmill with all the different shoes. I even mixed and matched them. I discovered that I need stability shoes. I discovered that with higher end runners I wear a sized 9.5 - still hard to believe - that's up from a 8.5. I discovered my feet love New Balance shoes and will only tolerate other brands for so long. I discovered (again) that I need a bit of extra support but too much make my feet feel funny.
Although they do carry running clothes for women with curves the variety was lacking when compared to the rest of the store. Yet, I was happy with the variety I had to pick from and they had color! I was happy to invest in a pair of running pants and shirt that were a size smaller than before. Of course, my mind was playing tricks on me so I made the Mr. go back to the store with me the next day and check me out in the outfit I bought and the outfit that was a size larger.
I stayed with the original purchase.
I ran on Sunday afternoon. Making it to the gym for extended periods of time on a Sunday is easier now that the Mr is going with me. (Insert Happy sigh) It was a running day for me so I ran. What I discovered at the gym is that I am running at a higher speed now and my breathing is in sync. I finished week four of my revived C25K training and felt fantastic after. What I also discovered is that I didn't feel like hiding in the women only part of the gym to complete my 100 sit-ups. I did those out amongst the general public.
Last night I was exhausted from the weekend and ended up crawling into bed 90 minutes early. What I discovered three hours later is that the youngest fur ball should NOT go to bed with me when I turn in 90 minutes early. He "napped" with me and then woke up three hours later wanting to play and eat. OH MY. He bounced around the bedroom and nudged me a few times after which I finally got up and took him silently into the living room where the Mr. played with him until he was exhausted. I didn't feel his little whiskers again until 5:33 this morning.
Also this weekend I discovered that I am really angry about the process of healing my body and Doc's approach. I knew it wasn't working and I stopped it all cold in its tracks. I'm sure Doc was shacking his head at me but I didn't care - I just knew. After receiving the test results back on Friday afternoon I discovered not much had changed on the inside. I had to keep the anger in check this weekend and not let it over take me. Tomorrow a.m. I consult with Doc ... maybe for the last time, maybe not. Something needs to change and I don't want that to be just my declining checkbook balance. A post about it tomorrow will come soon enough.
I finally have the test results in my hand from the Stool Culture for Pathogens. When I compare it to the previous test is reads similar. Due to not being a doctor or even playing one on TV I have set the all important appointment to meet with Doc on Tuesday morning, April 12th.
From what I see on the report, things haven't changed much on the inside. The Blastocystis Hominis is still present (I've been treated TWICE) and some other nastiness has popped up. (sigh)
Are these reasons why my weight loss has stopped? Why now? Why still? How expensive will the treatment be this time around? What to do to prevent? Do I need a complete overhaul of my diet? So many questions flood my mind at this late Friday afternoon, none of which will be answered until Tuesday morning.
I have no control over it so I breath, keep moving and live. Tuesday will arrive soon enough. I'm willing to do whatever it takes to just move on from this nightmare.
I started running, again. The nightly leg cramps and foot pain started, again. This after I signed up for a 5K & 10K for 2011. I told myself to find a solution - stopping is not an option.
The solution thus far is:
1) Go back to C25K plan. I did. I started week 4 last night. I find no shame in repeating what worked for me in the beginning.
2) Stretch like my life depends on it. I am now stretching an hour+ each night after running. It helps. I can feel the pull of the leg muscles & I know if I move the wrong way my legs WILL spasm.
3) Run three days a week - no more, no less - until my legs/feet are ready for more.
4) Keep cross training with all strength training, Zumba, Step class and walking. These activities can only make me stronger.
5) Take one day off a week. I choose Friday. It seems odd to do for the first 5 minutes and then I settle in and relax.
6) Obtain the right gear. I bought sox and inserts so far. I'm looking for new runners right now - I believe I need New Balance shoes and I bought another brand before. Yup, it makes a difference to my feet. Lesson learned.
7) Stay mentally strong. A poor attitude can only result in a poor performance. Positive energy from me to the universe can only empower me.
8) Trust in Me.
9) Invest in Me.
10) Remember this is a life time goal not for a hot minute. Slow and steady is just fine.
I keep searching. Looking. Scouting. Lurking. I keep finding Lost on my journey to be Found
To each dead-end I raise my face to the sky to ask why? Then I turn around and find a way out. Yet, I keep finding my way to Lost.
I get Lost in my workouts.
I get Lost in my quest for health.
I get Lost in the big picture.
I get Lost when searching.
I get Lost in the pain.
I get Lost in the journey.
I was Lost last night in a slumber so sweet. I got Lost when I was awaken by a leg cramps so severe I couldn't even breath. I got Lost in my dreams about running; a victory so sweet I wept inside that dream. I got Lost in the foot pain when I made my way out of the bed today. I got Lost in the details of C25K and C210K.
When trying to find my way, I Find Lost.
Soon my circles will stop spiraling and I shall find my out of Lost and find the glory in Found.
To Find. To be Found. It is an amazing journey. Am I truly Lost - merely feeling around in the darkness? Maybe not. I'll never stop. I'll never give up. I have an endless supply of drive and spirit. I won't be stopped!