Thursday, March 10, 2011
If you eat your emotion, you'll never feel it.
Emotions can be uncomfortable .. . Sadness. Anger. Loneliness. Desperate. Numb. Sickness. Guilt. Shame.
Emotions can be comforting ... Happiness. Joy. Euphoria. Relief. Love.
Emotions can be indifferent ... Numbness.
Emotion - if we always feed it we'll never know what real hunger is.
Feed the hunger not the emotion.
Wednesday, March 09, 2011
Step, one, two, three, turn. Zumba, Step, Belly Dancing - Oh My.
I love my classes, as much as anyone can love a workout class. It's a force feed workout. Go here. Do this. Jump. How High? The music. The energy. It can all carry us away. Sending us to a world of euphoria as we twist, bend and pump it up. The daily question is: Will I set the gym on fire and let it burn or let is simmer?
Step, one, two, three, turn. Tonight I'll set the gym on fire & let it burn.
Monday, March 07, 2011
I learned a few things about myself this weekend.
1) I love good food done right.
2) My passion for cooking is being wasted on a daily basis.
3) I love to eat good food done right.
4) I workout hard.
5) Young men watching me or any where near me while I workout makes me uncomfortable - to the point of distraction.
6) I am no longer a manic trying to get it "all right" for when guests come over.
7) I finally live the line, "They are here to see me/us, not how clean my house is."
8) Social gatherings at someones home + eating = death my calorie intake. (I got some work to do)
9) I'm aware and I live in the moment, sometimes that makes the big picture fuzzy.
10) With every misstep there is a lesson, should I choose to listen.
I'm not sure where number 5 stems from but in all honesty its crippling. I believe this is why I fear running outside and why I become distracted and almost angry when I'm at the gym. I need to explore and then let go.
Number 8 is a problem. I don't have any problems going out to eat and I can say no without regret. Number 8 becomes a problem when I'm socializing at someones home and there is food for the masses. I just eat. Being aware is half the battle, walking away and putting the food down is the part of the battle. I don't want social situations to be about food ... I want it to be about the people. Their company, their stories, lives, and laughter. Next month, at my friends monthly party I shall do better and mind my calories better.
My journey is one step at a time. When I fall down, and I do sometimes, I want to sit for a moment while the dust settles so I can see why I fell and how I can recover best. Sometimes learning can be uncomfortable ...
Wednesday, March 02, 2011
Cupcakes and Birthday wishes, OH MY! I faced off with a red velvet cupcake with cream cheese frosting and lived to tell the tail. Yes, worlds did collide.
I certainly don't want to stop living life or be "that" person who always turns down something because of this or that. I also don't wish to be the person who accepts tasty treats only to toss them behind closed doors. Thin or Thick I'll eat a treat once in awhile!
I ate that cupcake and drank a cup of hot tea - It was delicious.
I ate it, I logged it. I'll eat less for dinner tonight so not to overdraw my calorie bank. I'll work harder in zumba class too.
Today it was a sweet treat to have worlds collide! I always want to live out loud!
Tuesday, March 01, 2011
Match or better my monthly mile totals. (TOTAL: 48.3)
Bootcamp for minimum of 28 days.
Sit-ups = 10 a day for the 1st week, 20 a day for the 2nd week, 30 a day for the 3rd & 4th week.
February Fitness Results:
48.95 miles by foot (walking/running/elliptical)
33 bootcamp sessions
Attended 4 out 4 step classes
Attended 2 out of 2 zumba classes
I am quit happy with my fitness for January and February. March will be an exciting month as I'm going to continue to explore zumba and continue with my strength training.
Even with all my success listed above, my weight remains the same. I'll meet with Doc again this month to and see what he thinks. Although at this point I feel like I'm looking into a black hole. I do keep thinking somethings gotta give - I'm not meant to be this weight forever.
Match or better my February mile totals
Match or better my February sit-ups, 60 a day minimum
Push-ups on the exercise ball, 20 a day minimum
Complete SP Bootcamp sessions, 4 sessions a week minimum
Attend 5 of 5 step classes
Attend a minimum of 14 zumba classes
Attend one belly dancing class
Meet with Doc to discuss current supplement program - it's not working, again
Become an absolute task master when it comes to consuming/logging food intake
*I ran last night for a half a mile and it felt good. I stopped before my legs/feet got fatigued hoping that would help with the night cramps. It worked. I'll go slowly this month working on distance first (building from a half a mile) and speed later. I might not be fast but I have determination and I'll run again. I have plenty of time to get ready to run the 5K in June without physical complications and then the 10K in November.
Possible Rewards in March:
An Hour Massage
Mini Chair Massage
My favorite Greek Salad (NOM NOM NOM)
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