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Me vs. Sick ... Sick won

Friday, November 12, 2010

I just received the last e-mail update for the Mermaid Run in San Francisco. Tomorrow the Mr and I will drive into the city to 1) find the location 2) pick up my race packet and 3) find the parking lots available. I anticipate Sunday morning will be a bit crazy down there and parking is at least 15/20 minute walk from the start line. I'm okay with the walk, it'll be part of my warm-up, what I'm trying to avoid is race day panic in trying to find parking and the actual location.

Yesterday the boss decided to close down early, Yippie! I walked over to the gym. Arriving at the gym 3 hours earlier than normal was odd at best and I discovered new and interesting people there. I ran for 21 minutes at a faster pace than normal and it felt great. I also worked the elliptical for 35 minutes, it's still my favorite machine. The weather was great yesterday making my walk home enjoyable.

I took Mr to the doctor, he's been down and out since Monday. Ends up that he has the flu. (sigh) Not much to do but rest and recover. He got a flu shot, his first ever, and we headed home.

This morning our new ball of joy, Roadrunner, had me up at 6:00 and I knew from the start something wasn't right. In the fight of Me vs. Sick, Sick won. My head is foggy, throat scratchy, nose & eyes runny and a slight chill. The two fur balls ate breakfast while I took a snooze on the sofa. I woke up in time to make a little something for breakfast and get ready for work. I've been drinking hot green tea all morning trying to get that scratchy throat to calm down. The glands have returned to normal size so that's a plus and it doesn't feel like I'm drinking shards of glass anymore. I plan to leave the office a tiny bit early today to go home and nap. Stupid Cold!

My weight is up today but at this point I just see it for what it is, a number and it will change next week for the better. Too many factors are contributing to the rise and I can't do diddly to change what was but I can control how I react to it. Keeping working hard and be accountable.

We have a packed weekend and it's not the time to be sick! Tonight we are going to the Usher concert. Tomorrow into the city for a look around and I might work a little. Sunday morning is the race it starts at 8:45 a.m. (I'll be at the start line on Sunday regardless, I won't miss this race), and then in the afternoon a party at a friends house (our hairstylist comes and we all get our haircut). If needed I'll pass on work on Saturday to rest.

EDIT AFTER POST: I've been taking my Vit C & D this afternoon which has help A LOT with energy. The throat is better and the nose is tender from all the blowing - LOL. I'm on the road to recovery?! LOL

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KITHKINCAID 11/12/2010 9:52PM

    Glad you're feeling a little bit better tonight. Good luck on your race on Sunday!!!

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MANLEYSANDY 11/12/2010 3:05PM

    Feel better and have fun at the race!

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I am NOT sick!

Thursday, November 11, 2010

Monday I felt off. The kind of off that affects your workday, your mood, your workout. I figured I was recovering from my fun filled weekend of out town and that my lungs were recovering from all the second hand smoke. After a discouraging run, cut way too short, I wrapped my brain around the fact that my lungs were really in pain from the smoke which made everything a bit harder.

I certainly was not sick!

Tuesday I felt a little better. I even ran a 5K, logged 20-minutes on the elliptical and a mile walk to and from the gym. After my workout my energy was off the charts. I did some house work and stayed up late playing with Roadrunner.

See, I'm not sick!

Wednesday I could have napped at my desk at work. The kind of nap where you lay your head down, drool on the desk and snore a bit because your that far gone. I didn't. My throat felt awful all tight and tender and when I drank water if felt like I was drinking shards of glass. After work I went to the grocery store. I felt guilty for a hot minute for skipping the gym until I went home put the groceries on the counter, sat down on the sofa and promptly fell asleep for an hour. I even went to bed earlier than usual, skipped reading and fell asleep with the cutest little kitty snuggled up beside me.

I CAN NOT be sick, I have a race on Sunday!

That cutest little kitty woke up at 5:55 this morning - he's always the first one up and loves a good pounce. We quickly exited the bedroom before he could pounce on Mr's head (it's happened before). When taking my pre-breakfast supplements my throat was on fire and glands felt like golf balls - well, that's not normal. (sigh) I whipped up a glass of hot salt water and started to gargle, that calmed the flames. Within the first hour of being awake I fed the two fur balls, they fought (still trying to adjust to each other), I ate a bit, and then I promptly fell asleep on the sofa.

I am NOT sick!

Hot tea and Tylenol has helped. It's a slow day at the office, thankfully, so I can go a bit slower myself. I'm determined to go to the gym tonight, if anything to workout on the elliptical.

I am NOT sick ... I can NOT be sick ... I have a race on Sunday! I will not miss the race. Come ran or shine, sickness or health I will be at the starting line and I will run.

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SINCEKINDER 11/11/2010 10:36PM

    Good luck with your race. You have such a great attitude.

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ENDUROVET 11/11/2010 8:50PM

    Mega doses of Vit C! High doses of Vit D if you're not already taking that (3 - 5000 IU)

Rest as much as you can, but conventional wisdom holds that as long as you're not febrile, you can run...

Hang in there, I was feeling ragged today after another piss-poor night's sleep (hubby's snoring drove me to the couch @ 2:45 AM), so I gave myself a rest day...

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TRENTDREAMER 11/11/2010 8:39PM

    "I am NOT sick ... I can NOT be sick ... I have a race on Sunday! I will not miss the race. Come ran or shine, sickness or health I will be at the starting line and I will run. "
* Best of fortune to you on the race. Hope that you don't get sick.

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ANGIESDIET2 11/11/2010 4:53PM

  I hope that you are not getting sick and can make the race. Be strong and good luck!

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KITHKINCAID 11/11/2010 3:01PM

    Poor chica! I had the same fear before my race, but it sounds like you really might be coming down with something. I use a natural remedy called Congaplex. You may need to ask your doc about it, but I SWEAR by it. Even if you already have a cold, it moves it through your system WAY faster (a horrible cold I had a year ago was gone in 2 days after I started on it). And it's natural, so it's not loaded with chemicals and anti-biotics like Zicam or any of those other ones. I started taking it 2 days before my race last week and so far I've had no throat tickles at all. That tightness in my chest last week went away totally. Hope you feel better!

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SHIMMYHIP 11/11/2010 2:15PM

    Hopefully you can make your race. Just take great care til then. emoticon

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BFMONICA 11/11/2010 2:11PM

    I'm pushing through a sinus infection and back muscle spasms. Right now I feel like I'll never get better. I like your positive attitude. emoticon

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I was a hot mess of anger and bitterness as I worked out

Tuesday, November 09, 2010

Last night the dark side of life sucked me in and I still can't put my finger on the trigger! I was a hot mess of anger and bitterness as I worked out. Everything seemed harder and to take longer. I ran 1.1 miles and then finished up on the elliptical. I was discouraged by the run - it should have gone better and I should have been faster.

I keep picturing Meg Ryan's character in "You've Got Mail" as she flits around the back of her shop, fist pumping in the air, saying "fight, fight, fight!"

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TEDDYBABE 11/10/2010 9:46PM

    Great blog, thanks for sharing this honesty. I think we have all been there!

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KITHKINCAID 11/9/2010 5:52PM

    i had a not-so-great run this morning too. it's hard not to get mad at yourself for it, but you gotta "fight, fight, fight" through it :)

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ENDUROVET 11/9/2010 5:07PM

    The weirdest bubbles of emotion burst out of me nowadays when I am working out...
I'm not joking when I call it "my therapy"!

I broke out in tears today on the elliptical, watching an old episode of Law & Order... A character reminded me of MIL #1, whom I keep on pledging to get BACK in contact with - now she's old & sick & very fragile; I don't have much more time.

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I'm focused on what's in front of me, not behind me.

Monday, November 08, 2010

Wow, what a weekend! Mr and I picked up a rental car on Saturday morning so we could head out of town ... destination, Reno, Nevada. Originally we were to drive a Kia Senata but ended up with a Dodge Journey. I am soooo happy we ended up with the Dodge. I'd rent that vehicle again!

The drive to Reno takes just under 4-hours by freeway. It was a beautiful fall day. We packed snacks, drinks and music for the trip - all the comforts of home. At 9:30 a.m. we hit the road and never looked back. It was an easy drive and Mr took us all the way there.

Mr was excited to go - his first trip to Reno, his first trip to Nevada, we were meeting up with cousins he adored AND Reno is a casino town. We booked our hotel room in advance, staying at Circus Circus. My first choice was the Peppermill, a bit classier at the same price but it was already sold out. Circus Circus ended up working out just fine - clean rooms, multiple restaurants and two floors of Casino/Midway fun.

It felt so good to get out of the car and walk around after that long drive! Mr loves to explore so off we went for hours of walking and talking. The weather continued to be beautiful in Reno.

Cousins arrived late afternoon and we all got settled in our rooms and then took off for food and gambling. We had a great time catching up on all the latest and I asked lots of questions about their 2-week road trip that they just started. They live in Seattle so we don't get to see each other as much, in fact it's about once a year that we get together.

The food was good, not super great. I did my best to keep the portions in control and even found a sugar free dessert that was really good.

I'm usually the odd man out when it comes to gambling. It usually produces more anxiety than fun for me so I end up walking around watching the people. The slot machines didn't seem to be paying out very well for anyone, including the Mr. He had loads of fun anyway and always plays responsibly. By the nights end I played roulette and came out ahead. When the anxiety got caught in my throat I stopped. LOL!

The next morning we got up to a gray, raining, windy day. We ate a great breakfast, again I did my best to order reasonably. Oddly enough the cousins wanted to hit the road early so we said our good-byes. Seemed like a short visit for such a long way for both of us but they were on an adventure so I understood.

Check-out time wasn't until noon so Mr and I went exploring again. He ended up on a slot machine and I at a roulette table. He gave his donation to the casino and I walked away a winner again.

The casino's are still a smoking environment so my lungs and sinus were unhappy. Living a smoke free lifestyle in California makes it hard to enter places that allow it. I was happy for the fresh air when we walked to the truck.

We were about a mile outside Reno when we noticed that the road signs were saying that chains were required on Donner Pass. CRAP! So the snow had fallen on the pass over night! There was no place to rent chains so we had to stop and buy a pair - for the rental, which was not a 4x4. Chains are expensive and even more so when the station has you by the shorties. I checked the gas gauge, we had half a tank of gas - plenty to make it back home but not if we got stuck on The Pass. Growing up in rural Iowa we never let the gas tank fall below half on winter days - it was a recipe for disaster if we got stranded.

It was slow going over the pass, lots of bumper to bumper traffic and some drivers just going way too fast. I did great not to eat the snacks in the car due to my "hidden" anxiety! Mr was driving - his first real experience driving in rain, sleet and snow. He did Fantastic!!!!

After shelling out the expense for the chains we never had to use them. We both got a little cranky about it but in the end decided it was better to have them and not need them. I'll try to sell them on Craigslist soon or keep them if we think we might go to snow later in the ski season. We didn't need that extra bit of gas either - but again, better safe than sorry when dealing with the elements.

It was great to get back home. It's always hard for me to leave Sara, the 16-year old cat and it proved even harder to leave her and Roadrunner, the 9-week old kitty. Plus, Roadrunner is still in bedroom jail until his shots and Sara gives her approval. Sara gave us the cold shoulder when we got home but warmed up later. Roadrunner was over the top excited. He played and played and played. His excitement carried on for three hours!

I get caught up in the rat race, work issues, food issues, running issues, workout issues, all kinds of issues. Yeah, I wasn't perfect with my food intake this weekend and I drank some soda - life won't end and my healthy lifestyle and weight loss didn't stop because of it. Learning to balance it all is important. I've come along way in my journey and I know that keeping perspective and the ability to not judge myself so harshly are key components in this thing called life and wellness journey.

I don't regret a choice I made this weekend and I know I'll work hard this week to balance it out. Sunday is race day for me so I'm focused on what's in front of me, not behind me.

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MANLEYSANDY 11/8/2010 4:38PM

    Sounds like a great trip!

You hit the nail on the head, getting to that balance...being perfect on vacation is no fun...but when you have your goals insight always, then I think going overboard becomes something that is no fun!

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KITHKINCAID 11/8/2010 4:10PM

    Sounds like a great trip. I too am always excited to get home to my fur babies though :)

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Today I have perspective

Friday, November 05, 2010

It's been a long week here at the office. Any potential problem became a problem and tensions ran high. We all survived - no one cried or yelled so we all won - and everything worked itself out. It's Friday and I'm watching the clock today ... I'm heading out of town tomorrow morning with the Mr, we are very excited. I've already preplanned my snacks and drinks for the road trip which takes some pressure off. Eating out shouldn't be problem either. I'll keep it lite and simple.

Last night instead of the gym I went for a walk on the beach again - it was a beautiful night and the Mr was able to join me. The sunset was amazing!! We walked at his pace (very, very fast) for 50 minutes in the wet sand. During the walk we kept trying to come up with my new workout schedule since Doc recommends a maximum of 12 hours of working out a week and a minimum of 10 hours. Best I could think of was an hour before I go to work and an hour after work, six days a week. I can't imagine spending 2 hours at the gym after a workday, that just seems like a recipe for burnout. By Monday morning I'll know what I will want to try.

My TOM is here and I've not enjoyed the mood swings (Cranky!) this week. I'll freely admit no one else around me has enjoyed them either. The physical symptoms are all but gone and I figure that's due to avoiding gluten, eggs, soy, dairy, sugar and soda. I'm not a 100% clean but darn close. I have even managed to workout everyday, I usually skip during this time but have had enough energy to go. I have also managed to stay within my calorie range every day as well. All good!

With it being Friday, I weighed in when I got up. Before I got the weigh-in I had a pep talk with myself about the likelihood of a gain this week. I can feel that my hands are puffy which means I'm holding water. As suspected, I did gain - 2.5 pounds.

In the past I'd get all moody, dark and bitter about it but not now, not today. Today I have perspective on the situation. Next week it will be different. My goals haven't changed nor has my outlook. I'll continue my journey of wellness and fret not over a 2.5 lbs gain I can't control. Next week it will be different - TOM will be gone.

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TEDDYBABE 11/7/2010 7:05PM

    Enjoyed your blog! Thanks for sharing.

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ENDUROVET 11/5/2010 10:12PM

    Yeah, I USED to be one of those women who curled her lip skeptically at other women, who bitched n' moaned about their TOM... Now that I'm sneaking up on menopause, I KNOW what PMS is now! Damn hormones...

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KITHKINCAID 11/5/2010 3:07PM

    Jealous. It's COLD here and I would LOVE to walk on the beach. Enjoy it while you can! Your northern friends are envious :)

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SGRAY478 11/5/2010 2:47PM

    Good luck with your new workout regime. And congrats on gaining perspective, that has been one of the hardest things for me to deal with personally!

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