Thursday, September 30, 2010
Sometimes perspective is fleeting and today I am holding on with my fingertips and my knuckles are white. Last time I lost perspective I wrote a bitter email to Doc, he won't get one of those this time.
My perspective slipped last night at 6:21 pm when I almost destroyed the world when we couldn't get the bikes on the new bike rack. With fist raised to the sky, near tears and a clinched jaw I simply stated, "It shouldn't be this hard. It's a bike rack and 2 bikes. I just want to use the f'n rack!" Mr smiled as he locked the bikes up so we could go for a walk out by the bay. This morning I called George aka Macgyver at the bike shop and told him what happened. Tomorrow we meet again with the car, rack, and two bikes. Perspective slid back into place.
Scale perspective ... not so easy to recover from! I decided to weigh this morning so I got the scale out of the closet. I figured I would be a little, tiny bit high due to the heat this week and I anticipate TOM is coming too. Perspective was completely lost when I stepped on the scale and it showed 238 which is up from 232.5. HELLO?! The fact that I didn't smash it into little peaces is a miracle. I worked on getting perspective on this while I ate breakfast, walked to work, and now, while I'm typing this blog. I've not fully recovered. Seriously, I've eaten within my calorie range - ALL week, continue to be gluten free, continue to drink all my water, and I've worked out. So here's perspective ... I've not actually gained 5.5 lbs of fat. My body freaks out when the heat rises and when TOM is set to arrive. I don't like it and it screws around with my mind but I also won't accept this reality. I have not gained 5.5 lbs of fat in less than a week with all the work I've put in. Boo! Tomorrow is my official weigh in and I'll do the deed and change my ticker no matter what direction it goes. When the heat is finally gone, I start sleeping better at night and TOM arrives and departs I shall then see the results I have earned. I also vow not send that email to Doc today. SLOWLY my scale perspective is returning.
I recovered from my lost perspective at breakfast quick. I didn't have any fresh spinach which made it impossible to make my spinach smoothie. I had a 1/2 cup of oatmeal and 20 raisins instead. (I always smile when I count out 20 little raisins and toss them into the boiling water. I'm not sure why.)
Work perspective slipped this morning at 8:30 am when I walked up to the front door of the office and found the shade up and the door unlocked. Hmmm?! The bosses girlfriend asked me last night if I would leave it unlocked so her friend could come by and I allowed I would if she would take on the responsibility of locking it. She agreed. It didn't happen. Imagine this; computer equipment, accounting, client files, original documents, etc. all left for the taking or destroying. I was immediately tried to find my happy place. She has not apologized but simply said, "My big bad... You had asked me to lock it after Robbi showed up....." REALLY? I expect better. I've recovered and it seems we still have all our prized possessions.
Today is my challenge day. A day to challenge myself to keep things in perspective and know that this is all temporary. To accept that I have been doing it all and sometimes instant gratification isn't what this is all about. Today is my challenge day and I shall rise to the challenge. I will keep "it" in perspective!