Saturday, September 25, 2010
Two running goals I set for myself are to run outside once a month, starting in September and to complete C25K by the end of September. All morning I had a little talk with myself about running today. It was a pep talk about running outside AND completing W9D2 of C25K. My talk lasted for about 90 minutes. See, even though I have a big personality and don't mind attention from outside sources I hate being seen. It's hard to explain but sometimes it can choke me. So running outside is really a mental challenge for me. Yeah, crazy but in my mind all I can hear is, "if you run outside people will see you!" (sigh)
After dropping Mr off at work I drove over to a lovely trail to run .... outside. The day is full sunshine and promise so I was going to go for it. Mentally I just had to shut it off and get on the trail. I noted how many cars where in the parking lot and the busy road within view of the trail ... I had to quiet the whisper (they can see you) and just get moving.
I started running and within 60 seconds my breathing was like jagged glass and my lungs were on fire. WHAT?! I needed to calm my happy butt down or I was not going to make it. I finally found a pace and just kept pushing. The whisper came and went as the run progressed. Others on the trail acknowledged me with huge smiles and hello's which I returned.
With the sun baring down on me, my breathing labored, a pain in my left side I kept running. My path circled around to where the car sat so I could see my "finish line." That last bit was brutal! BRUTAL! I was in near tears when I reached the car. I was hot, sweaty, near to vomiting, in need of water and couldn't even walk to cool off. I grabbed for my iPod to check my time. My plan was to run for 30 minutes, that would allow me to mark off D2 of W9. I missed it the mark. I ran outside but I did not run for 30 minutes which means I can't mark off D2. I was disappointed until I did the math while driving home.
I started my run at 11:05 and ended it at 11:29 which means I ran for 24 minutes.
I ran 2.3 miles in 24 minutes - a personal best! Disappointment be gone!! YEAH!
Tomorrow I try again. Yeah, that's right I'm running it again tomorrow. I want to see what I can do!
Wednesday, September 22, 2010
Thanks to my fabulous SP friend KITHKINCAID I found my strength today!
Thanks to ALL my wonderful SP friends today I continued to fight the good fight. Your support lifts me when I feel down and makes me smile.
Leaving the office tonight I was a bit tired but I was determined. I walked to the gym with a new plan, I didn't know if it would work but I was sure going to try.
I found my treadmill and set the time at 60 minutes. My goal, 3.1 miles and if not that, 30 minute minimum run. Deep breath! Water! iPod! Treadmill set at 4.1! RUN! Today the time only mattered if my body started to shut down. Today I watched the distance ticker.
About 21 minutes into my run a step class friend came over and motioned to me that class was starting. I couldn't talk so I nodded. I kept running! I was a sweaty mess, exhaling with gusto, refusing to slow my pace, refusing to quit, I kept running. I pictured all the women I ran with at my first 5K with early this year surrounding me, I pictured my SP peeps cheering me on and running by my side - I kept running. I kept running!
And then it happened! W9D1 - COMPLETE
2.10 miles in 30:50 at a pace of 4.1 - a personal best!
After my run I walked over to step class and attended the last 35 minutes. I was a little wobbly but I kept moving. After step, 15 minute ST. Tomorrow my legs and feet will be tender ... I'll work a different plan then.
I AM A RUNNER!
Thank you KITHKINCAID, because of you I found my strength today! You will forever run with me here in my little corner of the world.
I AM A RUNNER!
Monday, September 20, 2010
Today I start week 9 of the C25K program.
I am a timed runner, not a "by distance" runner on the program and it seems to work well for me. After I finish W9 I'm going to keep increasing my time until I run 3.1 miles. After that the skies the limit!
My running goals:
1) Complete W9 of C25K - by end of September
2) Continue, by adding time, and run 3.1 on the treadmill - End of October is my quest
3) Run outside @ least once a month - starting in September
4) Run at least once on the outdoor track while on the cruise
It's numbers 3 & 4 that really put me outside my comfort zone. They are mental challenges, not physical.
EDIT AFTER POST AND GYM VISIT. I tried and tried to complete day 1 of week 9 but had to settle for a mile run and a brisk walk to complete my 30 minutes. It felt like no matter what speed the treadmill was on I was always falling behind. It was weird and I didn't want to hurt myself. I'll try again on Wednesday.
Friday, September 17, 2010
Last night I headed to the gym, a little tired but focused on the task ahead of me. The last four step classes I ditched to do some other type of workout so I was focused on step. I was going to nail that routine!
I was surprised to find when I arrived the instructor was setting up the room a bit differently so I stood back and watched for a moment. Then she announced it ... "No step class tonight, we're going to do boot camp." All I could do was smile!
Before last night I had never attended a boot camp so I was excited, my body was full of energy. This boot camp incorporated the steps we use in step class, an open floor area, mats and weights. We cycled through it all for an hour and I was loving every minute. Okay, maybe I wasn't loving 25 push ups or ALL the drills on the steps but I was pumped up.
At the end the instructor asked how it was for everyone. I smiled and responded, "When do we get to do it again?"
I was hot, sticky, sweaty mess at the end of that hour and I was on a high when I walked home. Today some of my muscles are cranky but I still ask, "When do I get to do it again!?"
Thursday, September 16, 2010
My Baby Steps in recovery.
First step, stop with the scale already!
I refused to get on my scale this morning, REFUSED! I realized earlier this week that I've been getting on her everyday for the last few weeks ... that's a no no in my world, it's a mental thing. My mood is severely altered by the number she flashes - I know this and I know better. To stop the madness today I went straight to the kitchen to take my supplements with two glasses of water. The first round of supplements require I take them 20 minutes before I eat. I won't get on the scale after drinking two glasses of water - again, it's a mental thing.
Second step, believe the people!
In the past two weeks I've had this question asked by two different men: "Are you SURE you aren't losing weight? It looks like you are." My step gets a pep when I take in this feed back. If my male friends are noticing and voicing it something has to be happening.
Plus, as I stood in all my glory last night the Mr couldn't help but blurt out, "You are getting skinny!"
In general, the men in my life say it how it is without the candy coating. I appreciate their honesty and their ability to just put it out there.
Third step, give credit!
I work my tail off, either in or out of the gym. I walk. I run. I use the elliptical. I go to step class. I ride my bike. I eat healthy. I stay away from my no no foods. I smile. I giggle. I work two jobs. I don't pretend to be who I am not. I allow myself mistakes and missteps. I am me.
I need to give myself credit for all I do and for all I am.
Fourth step, believe!
I need to believe in the process. I need to believe in my body and that it will change. I need to believe that all my hard work is worth every tear drop, every sweat drop, every minute, every dollar.
I need to believe that all the baby steps I'm taking now will land me at the finish line, MY finish line.
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