Tuesday, October 20, 2009
It really is time to wake up and manage my weight and daily activities, which includes eating.
My doctor's visit today opened my eyes to the fact that - yes, I have put on a few pounds - 6 to be exact! I am never sure of the numbers, only get a peek when I go to the doctor and they insist on weighing me in.
I knew, inside my own head, that I had put on a few pounds when I finally admitted that I was "policing" photograph's of me. I never said anything out loud, mostly because I wanted to believe my husband and friends when they kept telling me I look fabulous and MUST be loosing more weight. Secretly I knew, it was not true, I had not lost more weight.
I can't eat everything, it's not a secret in my world and moderation with some foods does not exist. Not with me. I have trigger foods and I need to stay far away from them but I push it sometimes and go there anyway. There are foods I just shouldn't eat because my doctor tells me my body is allergic but I push it sometimes and go there .... waiting to see. My husband doesn't really eat veggies so I either cook them for myself or not, lately it's been not. Which is really stupid because I love veggies and they take no time at all to cook.
The one thing I have never let up on is my attendance at the gym. I have my set days and my set classes and I go! I love the work-outs and I love seeing the regular people. This dedication might be my one saving grace to only finding 6 pounds instead of 26! HA!
Really, I have lost sight of who I am and what I made myself into and where I want to be! I blinded myself and today I started to rip off the blindfold. Enough!
I promise myself to use SP more than FB.
I promise cook and eat my veggies.
I promise to stay away from the foods that trigger me into being an eating machine.
I promise to stay away from the foods that my body just can't tolerate.
I promise to stop policing my photo's and to embrace who I am today!
I promise to put my health first to wake up!
Watch me go ...