Monday, May 03, 2010
Over the weekend my mood, temporarily, went dark and cold. I realized while talking to my husband that my 10+ year dream of going to Australia for my 40th birthday is not going to be realized. Funny how one comment or conversation can change a mood so drastically.
It has been a life long dream of mine to go explore Australia, even high school friends remember my passion for going down under as early as grade school. Finally, as a young adult making mere pennies I decided to set up an Australia savings account and feed that account whenever I could. It grew and grew as did my hopes and dreams. I protected that account against all odds!
After hours of silence I finally looked at my husband and with tears in my eyes and shaky voice I told him that I must create a new vision because my old dream had just died. The account still exists - I'll continue to protect it - but it will not be used on my 40th birthday.
I still get a little teary eyed when I think of my lost dream but today I decided to turn it around and create a new vision. I'm not sure what it will look like, yet, but I've started to explore.
At the top of the list is white water rafting up North - a class 3/4 trip, if possible. I've been before, many a year ago, but my husband has not. The possibilities are endless and I shall create a new vision and celebrate my 40th in style!