Sunday, April 11, 2010
I made an unhealthy choice yesterday but not without a struggle.
My Saturday job is an eating nightmare. The front desk usually has a full candy dish and my bosses "food cabinet" generally will have a large 5 lbs. bag of Peanut M&M's and Kettle chips stashed there. Yesterday was no different.
The bag 5 lbs. bag of M&M's was placed on the counter and I resisted as long as I could. I fought the good fight and then I lost . . . I ate those tasty little candies and I enjoyed them.
However, I noticed this:
1) I stopped short of a binge,
2) my body screamed they were sweet - oh to sweet,
3) I decided the handfuls of M&M's I consumed would not rule the day,
4) I ate a healthy snack later and then a healthy portioned dinner.
5) Logged EVERYTHING, no matter how ugly the truth really was.
One slip does NOT rule the day. One slip does NOT dictate that the rest of the day is shot. One slip does NOT give me permission to loose complete control.
The candy wrapper says it all . . .
Yup, my calorie bank was overdrawn yesterday. Yup, I ate a high quantity of sugar. Yup, I made an unhealthy choice.
Ah, I'm human and these things will happen. Acceptance is key, accountability is necessary and to move forward with forgiveness is vital - I have done all three.
Failure is not an option! I'm off to the gym now to sweat it out.
Friday, April 09, 2010
The sun is out and the day is just beautiful here. I took myself out to lunch for a yummy salad and some needed alone time - it was fabulous. While I soaked up the sun all could think about was taking a cat nap.
I love naps!
Thursday, April 08, 2010
I have a choice to either Sink or Swim.
Today, the current in the world is strong and wants to take me under. I will not sink into that darkness. With failure not being an option I choose to Swim. I will fight the current, fight to the surface and break free from all that drags me under.
Today, I could sink but I will Swim. My life depends on it and I shall not fail.
Wednesday, April 07, 2010
I keep having to educate myself while on this weight loss journey and when I have bits of time I do that by searching the internet. While discussing my latest situation with my boss, who by the way is very supportive, a question about pounds vs. inches came up.
He was surprised to hear that I have not lost any additional weight but that I've lost a combined six inches in my waist and stomach since February. When asked how can it be that I have lost inches but not weight I realized I couldn't really answer that question so I did some snooping around on the internet.
I found an article by LaRue E. Cook, BS, MHA, JD that summed it up nicely.
"...since a pound is of muscle weighs the same as a pound of fat --- but takes up less space, your increased muscle, reduced body fat, and healthier body composition could mean little change in the number on the scale that many people use as their measure of success."
The entire article can be found at this link:
I feel better having this knowledge in my pocket. Plus, it will help me stop focusing on the scale a wee tiny bit.
Tuesday, April 06, 2010
I took a deep breath this morning and told myself to repeat the following,
"The scale is not my enemy, the scale is not my enemy!"
We all measure our successes in different ways, using different tools. And, when I say "we" I mean the world.
The scale is one of those tools and it is important for many, many reasons. However, until Doc and I figure out what in the world is going on with my body I can't use that as the main tool. If I do, I will go insane.
So, after I weighed myself this morning, I chuckled, took a deep breath and repeated the above quote - A LOT! Then I decided to measure my success in a different way.
Here's what that looks like:
Previous measurements in February 8, 2010:
Stomach measurement: 52 inches
Waist measurement: 40 inches
Measurements on March 8, 2010:
Stomach Measurement: 50 inches
Waist Measurement: 38
Measurements on April 6, 2010:
Stomach Measurements: 49 inches
Waist Measurement: 37
I found my happy place after I found my measuring tape!
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