Wednesday, March 31, 2010
I am SURE I'm not the only person out there in the world that has "That FRIEND." You know, the one friend who wants to be apart of everything, commits to doing it all and then fails to show up. The support is there in theory but the follow through just lands short.
I keep asking; I keep offering; I keep the door open but I keep doing it alone.
The issue isn't that I do it alone, the issue is that if you're going to be apart of something then be apart of it. Put your big girl pants on let's go.
Don't let me sway you in the direction that I can't or won't do things alone. I most certainly will . . . my mother & father darn well made sure of that. Wait on no one. Be your own person. If you want it, go for it. Sit on the sideline only if you want to not because you don't have the courage to stand alone. I heard it all, took it all in and I'm one strong, go it alone - if I have to - kind of person.
With all that said, every now and then I ask myself . . . "Wouldn't it just be nice to have someone follow through. Show up when they are supposed to, without excuse number 2, 321. Wouldn't it be nice to laugh with a fellow friend instead of a stranger standing next to me?" The answer is yes.
Well, "That FRIEND" of mine has found the 2, 322 excuse as to why she can't keep her commitment tonight. I wash my hands of it all. For now, I'm done being excited to have someone join me and then have the let down come later.
Going it alone isn't so bad, I've got a lot of great memories, but being with someone to experience the fun is priceless.
Wednesday, March 31, 2010
At Step class last night I found out that our instructor is moving on and in two weeks we will have someone new leading us into sweaty bliss. I'm told she has 14 years of experience, which is a relief. Sometimes my gym goes cheap and hires just anybody off the street that can walk.
I didn't feel like I worked as hard in Step class but I know I did due to sucking air at one point. All my leg and butt muscles were firing and talking loudly. I listened but didn't slow down. After class I normally hit the road for my walk home but last night I went directly to the elliptical machine and clocked in 10 minutes. All I could hear was Doc's voice ... "On aerobics day, you have to do at least 40 minutes, going all out." When I finished I rested on a bench wondering how long it would take me to crawl home. HA!
After arriving home I took all my supplements and went wide eyed into the kitchen looking for FOOD. I ate and enjoyed every bit of what I put in my mouth, I didn't even consider the calorie count (okay, I did a little). The next step was logging ALL that I ate, OH BOY. Amazingly, I was still within my calories! WOO HOO.
Today, is a new day. I woke up with the alarm - sleeping has not been an issue with this new workout schedule - and took my temp. I have to take my temp before getting out of bed so Doc can tell me if I have a Thyroid issue. I'm averaging 97.6 and I have no idea what that means. After that was over, it takes 10 minutes, I slipped out of bed waiting for my legs to start grumbling. I waited and moved slowly. Finally when the sleepiness lifted I noticed that my legs are no longer yelling. They have returned to a quiet whisper. The walk to work was nice again today.
Could this be a turning point? I won't know for a couple more days. Tonight is my "rest" night, which really means I get to go to my belly dancing class and workout there for 60 minutes. It will be Thursday and Friday (aerobics & interval training) that will really tell the story.
It's nice to walk without cringing!
Monday, March 29, 2010
Today I woke up to cooler temps and a light drizzle. I hesitated at the front door, questioning if I should go back and grab the car keys or just set out by foot to the office. Finally, reality set in and I walked. The reality is: I don't melt in rain, it wasn't a down pour, I didn't need an umbrella or hood and the walk would feel good. And, it did!
The true test will be tonight. I'll see if my friend, who volunteered (without prompting) to do the interval training with me, will actually show up or if I'll go it alone. Either way, I'll either be in the rain or in the gym doing my intervals.
Intervals will be: 1 minute of running (compare me to others & I'm simply jogging - brutal nonetheless) and then a fast pace walk (recovery time from running), repeat until I've completed 60 minutes or fall on the ground in a puddle.
Confession 1: I can do Everything the new Doc asked me to do but the new workout plan (7 days a week) really is a mind bender. On Friday night, I kept asking myself - "what if I can't do this? What if it really is too hard? What if I just give up? What if it really is to hard? What if, what if, what if!" I mean I was really freaking out. I'm spending A LOT of money to get my body in a "zen" place but I HAVE to put in the workout effort too and I can't simply fail on that part or become complacent with it. Do it all or do nothing!
Confession 2: When I ran (jogged) on the treadmill (for the 1st time) on Saturday morning I realized I CAN do this. Grant it, it took 2 naps during the day to recover but I CAN do this! I've really not pushed my body hard enough and it's time. I love a challenge and this is a big one - Bring it On!
I need to revamp my MP3 player and come to terms with clock watching at the gym. I can and will do this . . .
Failure is not an option!
EDIT AFTER POSTING:
Ah, my friend (true to form) is not able to come and do interval training with me tonight or on Friday night. I can't say that I'm shocked but I am a little disappointed. So, off to the gym I'll go . . . I hope my legs holdup. SIGH!
My husband was shocked to hear I was going to the gym tonight, it's Monday after all and I don't workout on Monday's as he kindly reminded me. I smiled and told him that was the old and this is the new. Plus, Doc said I must go, so I'll go. He wished me luck but didn't offer to attend with me - Chicken. I have a feeling my legs will be sturdy on my walk there but a little wobbly on the way home. OH MY!
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