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The True Test

Monday, March 29, 2010

Today I woke up to cooler temps and a light drizzle. I hesitated at the front door, questioning if I should go back and grab the car keys or just set out by foot to the office. Finally, reality set in and I walked. The reality is: I don't melt in rain, it wasn't a down pour, I didn't need an umbrella or hood and the walk would feel good. And, it did!

The true test will be tonight. I'll see if my friend, who volunteered (without prompting) to do the interval training with me, will actually show up or if I'll go it alone. Either way, I'll either be in the rain or in the gym doing my intervals.

Intervals will be: 1 minute of running (compare me to others & I'm simply jogging - brutal nonetheless) and then a fast pace walk (recovery time from running), repeat until I've completed 60 minutes or fall on the ground in a puddle.

Confession 1: I can do Everything the new Doc asked me to do but the new workout plan (7 days a week) really is a mind bender. On Friday night, I kept asking myself - "what if I can't do this? What if it really is too hard? What if I just give up? What if it really is to hard? What if, what if, what if!" I mean I was really freaking out. I'm spending A LOT of money to get my body in a "zen" place but I HAVE to put in the workout effort too and I can't simply fail on that part or become complacent with it. Do it all or do nothing!

Confession 2: When I ran (jogged) on the treadmill (for the 1st time) on Saturday morning I realized I CAN do this. Grant it, it took 2 naps during the day to recover but I CAN do this! I've really not pushed my body hard enough and it's time. I love a challenge and this is a big one - Bring it On!

I need to revamp my MP3 player and come to terms with clock watching at the gym. I can and will do this . . .


Failure is not an option!

Ah, my friend (true to form) is not able to come and do interval training with me tonight or on Friday night. I can't say that I'm shocked but I am a little disappointed. So, off to the gym I'll go . . . I hope my legs holdup. SIGH!
My husband was shocked to hear I was going to the gym tonight, it's Monday after all and I don't workout on Monday's as he kindly reminded me. I smiled and told him that was the old and this is the new. Plus, Doc said I must go, so I'll go. He wished me luck but didn't offer to attend with me - Chicken. I have a feeling my legs will be sturdy on my walk there but a little wobbly on the way home. OH MY!

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SINCEKINDER 3/29/2010 8:39PM

    Good for you for following through, even if it meant going at it all alone. Kudos to you!!!

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I'm a Clock Watcher

Saturday, March 27, 2010

It was time ... I gathered up my strength this morning and walked to the gym. This would be my official first day back to the gym after speaking to my new doctor. Today, I would start the new workout plan he has suggested.

I discovered a lot of things or maybe I'm just now willing to admit them - either way it was an eye opening experience.

I walked to the gym. It's a 15 minute walk and a pleasant one at that. This walk is what the doctor calls a "recreational walk." I consider it my warm up. The sun is out and a cool breeze blows, I was loving it. Once I got to the nearly empty gym I took the treadmill. I started off at an incline of 2.5 and a speed of 3.7 - I was clipping along at that pace.

I kept hearing Doc's voice in my head - you've got to get to pace where you can't carry on a conversation and your going all out. I got there quick!

I finally settled in at an incline of 1.5 and alternated between a speed of 3.7 and 4.1 - my short legs were working it out.

I discovered, again, that I'm a clock watcher in the gym. I can't read while at this pace and I didn't even try that. I just kept watching people go in and out of the tea shop across the way and watching the count down on the machine. Time literally crawled by unless I took a 5 second break and that ended in a blink of an eye. At one point I thought, okay, you only have 10 minutes left, no big deal. Then it dawned on me, Ah No, you have 20 minutes left! I nearly fainted. To take it up a notch I ended up trotting/jogging 11 minutes of the 40. Now, that was truly amazing!

Again, I heard Doc's voice in my head . . . "Most people don't enjoy working out until they're fit." REALLY!? I can't imagine why - me being sarcastic.

I finished my 40 minutes of time and did a few minutes of cool down on the machine. I took a drink of water and then went to sit down on a bench. I could feel my legs & feet talking to me. Well, okay my feet were talking, my thighs were (still are) screaming at me. After a few minutes I decided I had a 15 minute walk home so I should hit the road. Ten minutes into the walk not only were my feet talking, my thighs screaming but my gluts started to whisper. OMG!

I stopped along the way to take a look a the stairs I'll be doing for my interval training outside. They don't look so brutal today but come Monday afternoon I'm going to be hating them. At least there won't be a clock to watch!

This is going to be interesting! My previous workouts now feel like a walk in the park.

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JENNYBETHIN 3/27/2010 8:12PM

    Buy an MP3 player, and load it with Gloria Estephan, and other fast upbeat music! emoticon

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SYELLICO 3/27/2010 5:38PM

    I hear ya - I can NOT do treadmill because I watch the clock just waiting to be done!!

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Thursday, March 25, 2010

News Flash: I was totally overwhelmed after the consultation with the new doctor yesterday. With the amount of information given, in such a short amount of time, it was hard to digest it all at once. I didn't feel better for hours!

I now know the cost to get started - it's a difficult number but it can be done. Right now it's a 3 month process and then retesting. I'll pay monthly for now. Some of the supplements will likely stop in three months, others added and some just cut down - so there is an end, it really isn't forever. One of the tests we are going to wait on, it costs A LOT and isn't needed to get me started but will need to be done - I'll be saving my pennies.

I brainstormed with a friend about the rigorous workout schedule. It ended with some days in the gym and some days outside. That interval training is what had me perplexed, with a plan of action, I'm feeling much better about it.

I can totally due this! I love a challenge and will take this one on fully.

I receive the first round of supplements tomorrow via UPS. Today I started a home test (I'll do this test for 25) that will give the doctor information about my thyroid.

I'm ready, no longer overwhelmed and will make this happen. I did my body wrong - it's time to do it right now!

Love Me!


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FIERCE_FABULOUS 3/25/2010 11:31AM

    You can do this, and you will be a stronger, healthier, and better person in the end. Nothing is more important than your health. So go get it girl, and try not to worry about cost. I know it is hard not to, but this is your health. This isn't something that isn't neccessity. So good luck to you on this journey. My thoughts and prayers are with you. emoticon

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Dr. Consultation .... OH MY!

Wednesday, March 24, 2010

I'm just off my phone consultation with the Doctor - I think, I'm in shock so I'm blogging to take off the edge. No, I'm not dieing and no it's not all bad news. Yes, it is fixable!

First, he Validated everything I've been complaining about for the past two years. I'm not crazy! Well, that feels good.

Second, I've got some work to do!
We revamped my workouts dramatically. He confirmed what someone else told me - I need more activity. SERIOUSLY! is all I heard in my head but once that voice shut up I realized, he's right, they're right - shut up and take notes.
So, here is the NEW plan of action:

The 7 Day a week planning:
1 day a week is my "rest" day BUT I still have to participate in a yoga, dance, or recreational walk for 60 minutes.
3 days a week I am going to build up an aerobic base workout. Which includes, at first, a 10 minute warm up, 40 minutes of intense aerobics (can't talk), 10 minute cool down.
3 days a week I'm going to do intervals (these are the days that shall kick my a$$). To start off, I will do a 10 minute warm up, then 1 minute of extreme cardio (sprinting likely), then a 9 minute cool/rest period (walking & trying not to vomit) ... repeat until I've reached 60 minutes.
I have to switch up my aerobic base workouts with the interval days so my body stays confused.
In addition to that, he wants me to continue my recreational walking to & from work daily - this doesn't really count as a "work out" but I'm still active.
He would LOVE for me to work up to 90 minutes a day . . . baby steps, doctor, baby steps. I'm already going to be heaving at the side of road on those interval days, let's just get me used to this new way of life, then we'll add more.

So, what's really wrong with me?!

Based on the lab work and other documentation I provided the doc believes I'm in stage 3 of adrenal gland failure. That sounds scary but it's fixable. What it really means is that my body is in a chronic stress response mode. I need to support the adrenal glands, calm those babies down which we'll do with supplements for the next three months.

Also, I need to test again for Ova & parasites in the gut. I tested positive for blastocystis Hominis and took measures to kill it off in late 2008. We didn't retest to see if that course of action worked so we are going to do that now. If the blastocystis Hominis is still present I'll need to take a course of supplements to finally kill it off.

Continuing on, he wants me to test my thyroid function. That I do at home. Based on the test he can determine if there is a thyroid issue. Side note: Traditional tests don't always show a thyroid problem - I've had that test done, it came back that I have no thyroid problem. We'll see.

I'll also be adding "carnitine" into my system.

We didn't spend much, if any time, on "food." Based on my food journals, from SP, he believes I've got a handle on food. He also believes that a daily calorie range of 1500-1700, for me, is perfect. I was told to expect to be more hungry on the interval training days and to eat a small carb snack right after the workout to help with the body. I'll have to figure out what that carb snack will be.

Ideal weight loss is 2 to 4 pounds a month. This is healthy AND will allow my body to heal and repair itself. I'll need to wrap my head around that - that's 2-4 lbs. a MONTH, not a WEEK. So much for the traditional information I've been force feed over the years.

I'm still waiting for the e-mail that tells me how much all this is going to cost me. It won't be a pretty number and I'm going to have to figure out how to make it happen. SIGH! It has to be done or I'll stay in this cycle Forever. I can't do it anymore, a little piece of me crumbles every time I step on the scale and I see no results.

I must continue to keep egg, dairy, soy, gluten and sugar & sugar substitutes out of my diet.

I wrote down the following statement that the doc said (he's 45) which is in relation to weight & feeling good: "We're going to be dead soon, we should at least feel great."
An interesting statement . . . I've not felt great for some time, of course I have moments, but not on a daily basis. It really would be nice to "at least feel great!" regardless of the number on that scale.

So, yeah, I've got some work to do. It's overwhelming, mind blowing but at least I know I'm not making this stuff up and someone listened as is going to help me fix it!

emoticon of my new adventure starts today!

EDIT After Posting:
My new word today is "Whackadoodle" ... it just makes me smile. emoticon

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MRSSTRONGE 3/31/2010 2:23PM

    I've been away from the SP community for a while... been sick & not on computer... but I'm so glad you went to the Dr. and came up with a plan. My fingers are crossed for you! The plan looks daunting on paper, but I have full confidence that if you can change your mindset and avoid sugar... you are certainly strong enough to stick with this plan! :)

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    Wow! You're seriously on the journey of a lifetime and I can't wait to hear about all of your wonderful results. You should start a group for your workout routine...we can join and do it with you. Think about it...I'd love to be involved in this workout and help support you through it. Good luck. You're amazing, you can do it...scratch that....you WILL do it. Go girl.

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FAIRYDRAGON81 3/25/2010 10:28AM

    With the support of family and friends anything is possible. Keep up the hard work and you will hear the cheering from the side lines. emoticon

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JENNYBETHIN 3/25/2010 8:26AM

    Yay! At least now that you know you'll be able to work on it!

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ANGELJAM22 3/24/2010 6:57PM

    HI, Your routine has me tired already. It does explain why I'm not seeing the results as quickly as I want. Keep up the good (hard) work. I can't even begin to say I will be able to keep up but you certainly are a great inspiration emoticon

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TSEWARD 3/24/2010 6:46PM

    love the "whackadoodle"! I have been researching a lot on adrenal glands lately. It seems that fixing it requires excellent nutrition and balance in exercise, rest, etc.
I am tickled that you have a doctor that knows how you can be fixed. Correcting imbalances of any kind and letting the body heal itself takes such TIME and PATIENCE!!!! I hear you about the weight loss thing. AND the cost. but this is the best way to go. I am very very proud of you for stepping up and taking charge of your health. You are doing great!

And wow that is a lot of exercise. It makes sense that the body needs some surprise by interval training. Post workout snack...hmm. yogurt and an piece of fruit? Just an idea! I am no nurtitionist! I skipped my workout today and ate icecream.. So very brave and forward moving of me.

Keep up the great progress! you are an inspiration!

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3:02 a.m.

Friday, March 19, 2010

The alarm went off at 2:47 a.m. at which time I rolled out of bed to see if my husband was getting ready to head to the airport - he was.

At 3:02 a.m. I stood blurry eyed in our kitchen with a lemon cookie in my hand. I looked at it, I felt the texture of it and I smelled it again and again. I knew could eat it and no one would ever know - I could take it down in two bites. As I smelled it again, I took in the lemon scent and vast amounts of childhood memories connected to lemon flooded my mind and taste buds in mere seconds. Realty set in as I placed the cookie on the edge of our desk and walked away.

The cookie still stands! I resisted at 3:02 a.m. and walked away.

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JENNYBETHIN 3/19/2010 11:00PM

    Yay! Good job, sweetie!

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TSEWARD 3/19/2010 8:49PM

    That is totally awesome! A 3 am craving resisted is no small feat. You must be glowing with pride.

Thank you for setting such a good example and sharing your triumphs.
And thank you for your support!


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ALESHABEE 3/19/2010 4:26PM

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Mind over matter!!!


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