Wednesday, March 17, 2010
Captured on film and asking myself, REALLY?!
Last night I picked up a batch of photo's from a trip I took in July 2008 . . . I know, I know - talk about taking forever to get them developed (I'll spare you the long story of why). Anyway, the photo's were great - many were of my snorkeling adventures and climbing a waterfall. Yup, that's right, I snorkeled (love that activity) AND I climbed a waterfall (what an amazing and difficult adventure).
As a side note: I did these activities at probably 225 lbs+, weight has never stopped me from going on an adventure!
Anyway, I found myself completely ah struck by one of the photo's I am in - I sat and studied it for a good amount of time. All I could think was, I look awesome - I don't look like that anymore - but I looked awesome there. What's the difference? What happened? Where did that chick go? Did you leave her at the waterfall?
Well the thing is, I weighed about 10 lbs less (it makes a difference), I was tan, very tan (yes, I fake baked before my tropical adventures - I won't do it again) and I was on vacation - rested and having a fabulous time. SERIOUSLY, I miss that chick. She was a hottie ...
I found a new resolve last night, get back at it - find that hottie - set her free! She's in there waiting to get out and flaunt her curves. I had almost given up hope on the gym situation, I was disappointed in last nights step class, it was clear the instructor did not want to be there. I pushed forward and completed ALL of my work out & pushed through class though but left feeling it was time to say good-bye.
So, this blog wasn't really inspired by that photo, it was inspired by being captured on film at the dinner party I hosted on Saturday night. I scanned the digital camera and saw a couple of photo's of myself and thought, "AHHHH, no way, WTH!?" I did not look like that hottie climbing a waterfall - not even close.
Enough! I'm done with the self pity, being upset about the scale, and not being my own cheerleader. I need to take action or sit down and shut up. I'm putting together my work out routines TODAY, calling Dr. Kalish's office to set my appointment, setting rules for myself that include more sleep and getting this show on the road.
Being captured on film is just what I needed. I shall be that hottie again!
Update after post:
I viewed the photo's again from the dinner party (Ewwwwwwwwwwwwwwww) and YES, I've got some work to do! I'm ready, able and starting in 40 minutes.