Tuesday, August 17, 2010
Okay, so here's my dilemma....
I've discovered, for positive, over the past few years that My body doesn't like Milk, now let me say that I seem to handle cheese, yogurt, and butter fine, but I can't seem to drink a glass of milk or just eat it with cereal without issues, I also seem to have this problem with milk based smoothies. If I drink one small glass of milk my belly will swell up like I'm 6 months pregnant and well, the sounds or smells that may seep out of me are not pretty...just sayin'...
So I switched to Soy milk 2 years ago and I have to say that while it took some getting used to and there are brands I don't care for, and I don't care for the full soy, I prefer the light brands, specifically Silk, I hadn't really noticed any issues in my body. I know there are estrogen problems reported but I didnt' think I was having any of those issues. Or have i? Maybe I have and I am not aware that those are the reason for minor issues...such as abnormal spotting for an entire week before starting my actually period, constant breast tenderness...a little more aggravated pms or fatigue during the necessary times., yet it's never consistent, it seems to fluctuate a bit. Is this because of the soy? Or is the just my own bodies fluctuations? Honestly, I have no idea. Then there are the other issues they claim as dangers to Soy milk....sigh...
Than there is Almond Milk, which I love but dislike the lack of protein in it. I feel like it can't be an adequate alternative because of the lack of protein. And while I haven't found any "dangers or ill affects" to almond milk, it's pretty pricey to use all the time, I use it only for certain things. I did learn that bitter almonds mixed with water causes the release of cyanide, if this is true, than that seems pretty scary, I mean how do we know that Almond Breeze is positive that they don't have so many bitter almonds in the bunch??
And than there is Lactose Free milk, Hmm....this could be an interesting idea, however while I was looking at it at the store today, and reading the nutrition label, I was annoyed at how much higher in cals it was and the amount of sugar in it! Okay, so I was aware that Milk was fairly comparable, but the fat free lactaid (not only is it extremely expensive, my soy is cheaper) had 90 cals and 12 sugars for an 8 oz glass....hmmmm.....My soy plain light only has 70 and 6 sugars....they had a store brand on the shelf too which was comparably cheaper but the ingredients list completely outweighed the Lactaid brand, I mean lactaid only had 3 ingredients, the store brand had maybe 10, I don't understand that one either....
And than there's all the hormones and such they talk bout in milk to begin with, is it really much different than soy? SIGH....I'm so confused....
You see I went on this venture because my husband will be gone for most of the year, and my daughter rarely drinks milk, she just doesn't care for it, well unless there is hershey's in it, or it's in her cereal bowl. So instead of buying reg milk,(which I purchase 1% for them) and having it go to waste all the time, I thought maybe I could compromise and purchase lactose free milk and her and I could share it instead of buying two different kinds. You know as a means to save money, cause I assumed my silk and lactaid would be comparable in price. Well I was wrong but I'm sure i can find other alternatives.
So this is what started me on my quest to educate myself even more and try to determine what would be the best healthiest thing I can purchase for both myself and my daughter....any thoughts? Ideas? What do you think? What would be the best option? Most cost effective? Do I really want to add extra calories and sugars into my daily diet by changing my milks? Ugghhh...HELP!!!!
Sunday, August 15, 2010
Okay, first off, if anyone reading this is on my FB list, please do not discuss this on my page...I would really appreciate it...there are a few that I'm not trying to share with on my page...And I'd like to keep it that way. Thank you!
Let's see, where to start....
School started for Alyssa this past week, it's been slightly difficult to adjust to a 6 am wake up, but we have managed. I've also been able to get us up by 730 on Sat and Sun to keep us on a similar schedule. this is hard, trust me cause I could sleep til 9 easily! LOL Anyway, I've been so exhausted that I have been asleep by 10 every night, this is a great step for me, cause I am such a nightowl, that this is a great thing for me!
So Wed, which was the the start of school, I started the C25K, it went super well. I was actually surprised that it was a bit easier than I anticipated. The podcasts really helps get you through it and keeps you going. I was surprisingly sore the next day, so I was okay with taking Thursday off. Than Friday when DL got home we all, including Alyssa when to a local middle school and ran the track. I've been waiting 2 years for this moment, to get them to participate with me, and it's finally happening....I did my C25K and Alyssa kept up for a bit and than sorta roamed around but it was good for her to get out and do this. DL would run have the track and walk half...he's training for a fitness test that he has to pass here real soon. He has to be able to run 1.5 miles in 14.5 mins. He hasn't ran since high school...so he's trying, but he's struggling. I'm trying to help him with pointers and such but well, you know how men can be. At least he's out there doing it and trying. So today I need to finish my day 3, but I'm thinking I might do it tomorrow after lyss goes to school so that it will put me on a m, w, f schedule. We shall see!
Another busy thing I've been working on is a Job, which I have gotten as long as my background check comes back. Which I see no reason for it not to come back clean cause I haven't been in trouble or anything....it's for little money and it's only 17.5 hrs a week, but I won't have to worry bout daycare at all, so I feel like that totally evens things out. I will be working for a local K-8 school in my district being a Hott Lunch Lady! LOL
My Husband leaves Sept 15 for 9 weeks for a huge new change to secure our families future, than he will be gone again for about 15 wks, so it will just be Lyss and I for most of her 1st grade year. It's gonna be a huge change in our lives but a positive one in the long run!
So that is bout the just of it right now....Lots of new positives coming up, and while I've been super busy, and am not able to focus on SP a lot, Please know that I support your efforts everyday and am thankful for your support as well! Keep on Sparking!!
Tuesday, August 03, 2010
Well my summer is coming to an end...it's been a crazy one at that. Two visits from my mom, 4 days a week at Sylvan with my daughter, swim lessons, and a month long visit from my son. DL and I got Married and in Sept he is a starting a huge life changing career for us all! Lots of changes and more coming. I am pleased to say that through it all I still lost a small amount of weight and without physically tracking one bite of food that went into my mouth, and have been able to maintain that past few weeks when my activity has dropped a bit and my workouts started lacking this past two weeks. I have not been hard on myself, cause I know it's a temp thing as far as my workouts go. In fact, I WILL WORKOUT TONIGHT!!! Even if it's Yoga, or shred or a walking DVD, I WILL GET BACK ON TRACK!!! I PROMISE THIS TO MYSELF AND EVERYONE ELSE!!
Sometimes we get stuck in the perception of ourselves. I Don't really see myself as small, but than someone comes around and reminds me or points it out. I'm only trying to be happy and healthy, and well I was not any of those when I was so overweight. Does it annoy me that I'm still sitting in the overweight category on the BMI? Ugghhh....yes..but whatever...I'm an athletic built person, it is what it is and that stupid chart doesn't define me. I am 151 lbs, and can wear anything from a size 10 to a 6, yeah, I said 6! I cant' believe it...maybe they are cut bigger to make women feel better...who cares, they said 6 and I was not walking out of the store without them! LOL I can wear a med top in misses...wow, I used to not even been able to wear an XL in misses...I've come a long way. It's been slow and steady with a few setbacks but I'm doing good and it's a way of life now...a way I intend to live for the rest of my life!
I was going through old pics with a friend of mine...and I came across one that made my stomach hurt...it's from my highest weight ever....right before DL and I got back together at the end of 2002...I was approx 230 lbs...I swear my cheeks are trying to eat my face...I just didnt' see myself as big as I was.
it was truly a reminder of how far I'd come and how I never want to go back to that....even if I get stuck at this current weight, I will always be better off here that I ever was there!!
Now at 151 lbs
I truly thank Spark for guiding me, supporting me and helping me reach this life change of mine....without all of you, I wouldn't of been able to keep going, stay on track or get back on when I went the wrong way! It's bout our health, happiness and loving ourselves! Never stop loving yourself and show it by doing for you!!!
Friday, July 23, 2010
Do you ever feel like you have to be or act a certain way when you are out and about in the world? Do you feel watched by others, maybe even judged? Does it sit with you? Bother you? Affect you? or are you one of those people that is oblivious to the others around you? If you are, than I envy you....
I'm a serious observer in the world....I am a people watcher through and through. I have a strong curiosity bout what makes people tick, why they live the way the do, what propels them to be who they are or how they are. Some would call that nosey...maybe I am, but I just find it fascinating how we are all different and driven in our daily lives to be who we are. Do I make my own judgments off the bat bout others...well, I'd be lying to say I didn't. I don't care what you say, we all have a thought in our head at first glance, just some are more willing to admit it than others. BUT that is what feeds my curiosity, it makes me want to understand or overturn that first thought in my head and understand it. I guess I believe there is a reason for everything...so I always want to know that reason. So while that initial thought might be in my head, I look for anything and everything to change that thought....make sense? Okay...maybe not....
So I guess cause I tend to think this way, I feel others think this way about me too. It puts me on guard, i want to show that I am a good person, cause I am, i care more about others than I should, cause I do and that while I may look all goody goody on the other side, well I have my demons too...Hell, we all do. I guess at the end of the day, I just want to be accepted by anyone and everyone, just as I'm willing to accept them....
I'm learning that is extremely impossible....u see, when your "fat" the "skinny" people look down on you, when your "skinny" the "fat" people look down at you. I had this idea in my head that I would get treated better by others cause I wasn't "fat" anymore....ummm...yeah, that's not true....sure I get attention from a group of people that would of never looked my way before, and let me tell you, it's extremely overwhelming....but I also get looked down on by the one group that accepted me for so long. The overweight clerk at JcPenny's won't look me in the eye or even smile at me now...yet two years ago, she would of most likely chatted with me at the counter smiling. Then there's the clerk at Abercrombie & Finch that wouldn't of even acknowledged me 2 yrs ago if I walked into their store,who is now stumbling over the display to help me. The cute guy in the food court line that is trying to get my attention and smile at me, would of never even saw me standing there before. Or 2 yrs ago if I walked into the Subway, the team would of never raised their heads to say hello and now I get the most amazing customer service from the moment I open the door. LIke I said it's extremely overwhelming....faltering, sickening, yet overwhelming....I guess the roles have been reversed....
I don't see myself very different than I did 2 yrs ago. Except that I am a happier healthier me. I'm different in certain ways, but at the heart of it, I'm still the same person. I try so hard to be open to everyone and accept everyone for who they are, big or small. Unless you prove to me what an awful person you are, well than I could care less bout you.
I've spent so much time worrying bout what others think of me that I am finally learning that I could care less of what they think, especially certain people from my past that seemed to matter so much, only to find out they dont' matter at all. Big or small, curly hair or straight hair (cause yeah, I actually get treated differently depending on whether it's curly that day or not, amazing I know!), t-shirt and shorts or a sundress....all that matters is how I feel bout me, and my happiness is not bout what others think or whether I am accepted by others or not. I know who my true friends are, I know who truly supports me and loves me. THAT is WHAT matters....nothing else!!!
To the ones in my life that have always been there, always will be, and love me not matter what....I thank you from the bottom of my heart...you will never understand how much I truly I love you!
Thursday, July 08, 2010
Hey All! Boy has this summer been nuts, I thought last year was crazy with my trip, but this year takes the cake by far! I am so exhausted, I barely log into the computer, if it wasn't for my phone I wouldnt' be able to keep in touch with anyone at all. My mom traveled with my son last week. She stayed for 6 days, it was wonderful seeing her. We found a great little private salon and finally got my hair done. It's way different, a little bit more maintenance but that's okay, its' way cooler for this head we have had...I love it and I feel like a completely different person! Here's a pic of my mom and I....
She will be back on the 24th for a few more days and than will fly my son back to WA on the 28th. So far, we have been having a nice visit. Very minor issues, and I hope it stays that way. He hates his decision bout choosing to go to his dad's to live but we told him he couldnt' go back on it, he had to stick it out. And we are sticking to it. Of course I would love to have him home, however, when we made a decision in life, we usually can't just change our mind. So I told him he needs to stick it out and survive through this, and hopefully learn to grow up. Here's a pic of the two of us together...he's getting so tall...I can't believe he's 15 1/2, of course, he's kinda 12 in his behavior and maturity...but we are making progress!
We had a nice 4th of July, minus DL. His job made him work at the last minute so he didn't get to celebrate with us. It was not cool, but that is sorta what his job does to him, constantly. We are working on making some huge changes bout this situation. So come Sept, there will be HUGE changes in our house...
Well, I keep plugging away at my weight loss...I'm so close, I missed a few days of workouts when my mom was here, we did get a walk in. SO Yesterday I did a 40 min Jackie Warner circuit workout, and I'm hurting bad today, but that's okay, I needed it. I took a break today cause I'm so exhausted and sore but will do a workout tomorrow. I am really liking my every other day plan, it is working out pretty well for me, and it seems less stressful as far as OMG, I got to fit this in. It's just planned for every other day, and I make it happen. I've only slacked when My mom was here.
So that is where I am at, at this point...I am sorry I am so distant on here, I just haven't had time to log into the computer. I miss you all and I hope you are going strong! Keep up the great work! I will leave you with a pic of my daughter and me....
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