School is Frustrating...

Monday, October 18, 2010

I'm so frustrated I'm about to blow my top! I work so so hard in school only to be marked down because of unclear instructions. I know my material front to back. Where do I get marked down? On the FORMATTING of my paper! What's really disappointing is that I can study 3-4 hours PER DAY and know my material but because of the way my paper was written I can receive a D. Seriously?
We're required to write in APA format...for those who don't know what that is, it's just a pain. LOL. Anyway, we're given an exercise lab assignment with numbered questions and are told to answer each question. This is the first assignment I've received in the last 5 weeks that does not require APA format. So I type it up, send it in. My material is correct. I get a 60% because it is not in APA format. Are you joking me???
I don't care how it sounds and I'm not gonna candy coat it, I'm an A student. That's the quality I produce. And the frustration that comes from unclear guidelines is ridiculous. In my last class I received accolades for my writing and particularly formatting. Now, what helped me receive 100% assignments is producing D-quality work? No no.
I will not be bringing an apple to class for my teacher any time soon! This week has been so disappointing. I wouldn't care if I gave half an effort but I sacrifice for my education. My house doesn't look so pretty and you know, if I gave half an effort in school my house could be pristine and my kids could go outside everyday instead of having to be in several days a week because "Mommy has school" but I'm not the type to squeak by. I hate that. Perhaps I take life too seriously? I don't know. But I want to excel! I don't wanna be this mediocre run-of-the mill person when it comes to my career! Sigh...So today, I get to clean up the mess.
I emailed my teacher for some clarity. I've gotta revamp my entire house and do laundry til I smell like dryer sheets and get these kiddies out and about. I think I'm going to skip studying today and just focus on getting life back on track. What an unbelievable mess.
And the exercising? Well I got in about 3 days this week. Which is better than the last 2 weeks where I did nothing. The eating? Not the greatest. I'm letting my emotions hit me too much. This week has to be better. HAS TO BE.
Oy!

  

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DONNYBELLE 11/1/2010 10:15AM

OMG DUDE I've been writing in effing APA format since freshman year in college. My sophomore year, I got this professor who literally would get out a RULER for margins and then would nitpick at EVERY SINGLE THING. Oh man, and referencing??? SUCKSSSSSSSSSSS She actually was my thesis advisor and I turned in my thesis to her in January of 2006; she made corrections back and forth and back and forth on emails, etc... She didn't give me a grade until MAY 2006. FIVE EFFING MONTHS because there was this problem and that problem and WHO THE EVERLOVINGHELLBALLS cares?????? No one cares except psycho teachers who get there dumb things published. And having to include stats in an APA paper blows even more. I TOTALLY feel your pain. So sorry you have to go through it though!!!!!!!!!! YOU CAN DO THIS!!!!! Report Inappropriate Comment

MAGPIE17 10/19/2010 10:54AM

Ouch! Hope things get better, Chantelle! Report Inappropriate Comment

I CAN do this! I'm a FIGHTER!

Friday, October 15, 2010

You know what? I've been guilty of letting stress hit me pretty hard lately. Usually I'm one of the toughest life-fighters that I know (when things get tough) but the last month I've just let things hit me and it's reeked havoc on my body and my mind. Which is totally dumb because I'm a naturally optimistic person and so I'm sure you can imagine how i've felt with these negative feelings rolling around....AWFUL!
I even let my weight go up to 162! I blogged about that a week or so ago and I have since returned to 157 (YAY:) but I still haven't kicked the "this is gonna take forever" feeling I've been letting reside inside me for the last month...until today.
I read my bible this morning and was really encouraged and not only that but I went to my sweet sparkfriends pages for some motivation...and boy did I get it! You guys are awesome! Breaking through weight barriers, conquering binges and negative thinking and here I am succumbing to it! Why? Nothing but a big fat ol PITY PARTY!
But you know what? To have that pity party I have to stop being MYSELF! Well I'm sorry, but I refuse to be fake, depressed, woe is me...that's not who I am! I'm a FIGHTER!!! I look negativity in the face and show it who's in control.
Well today, I'm kickin this funk. On to bigger and better things! I'm back to bein me and ready for round 2! Ding ding ding!!!
Victory is up to me!

  

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DONNYBELLE 10/15/2010 2:33PM

i'm not gonna lie, i started humming the tune to christina aguilera's "Fighter" lol...nice blog and KEEP GOING- you're amazing and i know nothing can stop that fighter inside of you!!!! Report Inappropriate Comment

SPIFFYCAT 10/15/2010 12:33PM

Great stuff come out of that corner fighting Report Inappropriate Comment

MAGPIE17 10/15/2010 11:21AM

Round two is yours, Chantelle!! Take it! :) Report Inappropriate Comment

Catching up!!! Missed you guys!

Thursday, October 14, 2010

So I wake up this morning feeling extra groggy but extra skinny....so i step on the scale and I'm down to 157 YESSSS.....pretty good for being 162 less than 2 wks ago...back on track.
ALSO....TOM was over 2 weeks late this time...but came today! (Insert sigh of relief here)
And so I'm thinking if I'm 157 with TOM perhaps when it's over I'll be even lighter? My fingers are crossed! 155 would be soooooooooo wonderful b/c then I'll hit my 20lb loss mark since starting SP! YAY!

School is coming along...getting on top of the "information OVERLOAD" and I have 2 chapters and one video left to watch :) then 2 papers to write and a quiz but that's not due til Sunday. So good! YAY! (I'm schooling online if you're wondering about the wonky due dates:)

Also getting over bronchitis...the nights are tougher than the days at this point b/c my house gets so so dry. But i've got the humidifier out for tonight...ready to go! And mucinex has become my very best friend :)

Oh and I have tv now! I never ever watch tv and neither did my hubby but someone gave me us a converter box so I watched Oprah this morning.....love Oprah....and uh, Sister Wives? Different yes? Hmmm....

Oh its that time of year where coffee mate re-releases my fave flavor PUMPKIN SPICE!!!! YUM!!! So I indulged in 2 cups of coffee this morning ....usually I only have one:)

Today has been a great day so far and it's just starting. Feels pretty good:)
Gotta go Sparkfriendlies! Off to get my study on!
Have a gorgeous day!!!
Chantelle

  

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GEOGIRL 10/14/2010 4:20PM

Sounds like you really have it all under control! Congrats on seeing the loss and keeping up with all the school work (I totally know what thats like!) Enjoy your Pumpkin Spice! Report Inappropriate Comment

KAYLAP101 10/14/2010 1:19PM

Glad school is going well and that you are back on track! I have found that its so hard to stay active on Spark since school has started because all my free time is spent on readings and studying!!! Glad your having a great spark day! Hope you get over your illness soon!!! :D Report Inappropriate Comment

MAGPIE17 10/14/2010 12:23PM

WTG, Chantelle, I'm sure you'll see a lower number after TOM is gone! :) Report Inappropriate Comment

What a week!

Saturday, October 09, 2010

Gosh...this week was nuts! I got the honor of being in the delivery room with my bff on wednesday night-thursday morning and she delivered a beautiful baby girl Savana Nicole Hoover 7lbs 11 ounces 21 inches long. Full head of dark brown hair! What a beautiful girl!! Looks like her mama! But then when she starts moving her face and making different expressions she's her daddy's girl all the way! Mary and I have been talking about the day that we would have kids and they would play together since we were kids! I'm so proud and excited for her:) I was excited to be able to help her too. She had a natural childbirth (no epidural/drugs whatsoever) and so every contraction after she reached 6cm dilated she wanted me to apply counter pressure to her back. This lasted for 5 hours! Hence...I am VERY sore! LOL! What a rush though seeing all of this and being a part. What an amazing experience and HONOR!
So after she delivered I slept one hour before going home and staying up for another entire day! LOL...i was so exhausted I caught my kids cold...so that was fun! NOT! Yesterday felt like a bit of a train wreck but today is much much much better:) So now I gotta catch up on my schooling for the week to close out my Professional Development class....gettin an A....planning to keep it that way :) I start Exercise Psychology on Monday...so excited!!! The books I got in the mail are HUGE! I got my textbook for that class along with all of my ACE training materials. OH BOY! I'm excited for this next phase of my life and i'm looking forward to all the rewards that come with it!
Well sparkies i got to go...Oh btw...bloating is down. I'm at 160 for now...gonna be back to 156 shortly! Love you all! Have a great weekend!
Chantelle

  

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MAGPIE17 10/12/2010 12:39PM

I hope you're feeling better, and you have a slightly more relaxing week this week :) Report Inappropriate Comment

AKMAMA08 10/9/2010 4:25PM

That's so awesome of you to be such a great labor support! You should look into becoming a doula. ;) I'm sure she'll be forever thankful for your help. All natural labor is no walk in the park; I did it too, all 27 hrs of it @ home. My doula was late and didn't come until just before it was time to push! Better late than never I suppose..she cleaned my entire house, cooked us a meal & did a load of laundry, so no complaints! Happy studying! It's always exciting to learn about things of interest and passion. Enjoy your weekend and get some rest! Report Inappropriate Comment

SPIFFYCAT 10/9/2010 3:19PM

FANTASTIC what a great week Report Inappropriate Comment

Coming Clean

Tuesday, October 05, 2010

This week has been especially difficult for me emotionally. And I totally went off my diet/exercise program. It's literally been 1 week since I worked out last. And it would come as no surprise to me that I don't have my period on time once again. This time, I'm 5 days late. I've gone up to 2 months late but the symptoms are awful including moodiness and extreme bloating. Put it this way...A week and a half ago I was a happy 156...this morning I'm 162. My plan for the rest of the week I am working on de-bloating...going back on food/exercise plan with a daily weigh in to keep me accountable. I mean i've been so off I haven't even been drinking as much water as I should. Drinking water...that's usually the EASIEST thing for me. Sigh...I'm not going to go in the personal details of it all but this week has been a doozey. Taking it slow and getting back on track. I'm expecting the bloat-weight to come off quickly...then on to the fat :) Have a great week all! I'll check in tomorrow!

  

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NATKITA 10/10/2010 10:00PM

I truly feel your pain...but I am confident you'll have your gorgeous head (and your cute little UN-bloated body) back in the game very soon! Report Inappropriate Comment

DONNYBELLE 10/6/2010 11:58AM

hey now, don't be hard on yourself bc you're still a freakin rockstar (and one of my fav sparkies). it happens to all of us, and i think it was hard for everyone last week for some reason bc i'm reading a lot of blogs like yours on my friend feed. the best thing is that you know where you went wrong and you have already committed yourself to righting that wrong and hopping back on track. i'm going to agree with MOTIVATEDMB and say you should push yourself to weighing only once a week or a least a lot less than once a day LOL. I know how it is- i get the SAME way about weighing myself and have to remind myself that there is a natural fluctuation each day and throughout the day. Don't make yourself feel worse by weighing yourself everyday =) We all heart you!!! how's school going? Report Inappropriate Comment

MOTIVATEDMB 10/6/2010 7:20AM

Okay, you are in the midst of your disappointment and don't let that fog who you are and the way you normally go about this journey of GETTING HEALTHY. Do you normally weigh in daily? If not, I wouldn't do it cause you are at that point of almost desperation adn just HOPING that each day will show a drop in wt. I was there and can get there easily, but you told me a while ago about not letting it take control. James 4:17. RE read it. Christ will get your through thisjust rely on Him. Don't rely soley on your efforts. He has given you the ability to do all of it, but allow Him to metnally strengtheneth you. You know what you have to do such as drinking, eating right and exercising in moderation. If it's stressing you out then don't do it, but find a way to destress. Take a bubble bath and read. Just an idea. Consistancy is the key and I have to keep telling myself that. I think we need to have a conversation about maybe encouraging eachother and doing this as sisters in Christ together. Seriously, I will call you on the phone sometime and we can talk. Maybe that will help. I know it hleps me. Remember I am wlaking through htis at the same time. I just came off of it though. I have the reprocussions of gaining 7.5 lbs in 5 weeks though. So we can be of support to one another. Hugs.... Report Inappropriate Comment

KAYLAP101 10/5/2010 1:30PM

We all have our hard times and its okay for us to slip up, because we are human. But whats really important is that you have acknowledged your slip up and now you are going to go back to your plan! Congratulations! Your amazing! Your going to do awesome this week!! Report Inappropriate Comment