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where did I go?

Wednesday, August 01, 2012

This time last month, I was really progressing with exercise,and starting to lose weight consistently again, and then life hit. Where did i go?

Its amazing how a few events can throw you off trackk, and no matter what this website or anyone tells you, it is up to you, and you alone to get or keep the motivation to get through and continue toward your goals, or let it derail you completely, or just put you at a standstill.

I was just halted, when my family suffered two deaths in the family days apart, in my family and then in my husbands. Not to mention we are struggling so much with our finances, as is most of the middle working class, and then after that, I managed to get the worst summer sinus infection i think i have ever had. well the list could go on and on. They could be called excuses , but drama can stop all progress, or you can fight it. This month i did not fight it , I let it stop all of my progress , and try to reverse engines.

Anyway what I have learned over over the past few weeks, is that i need to fight for everything if i truly want it, and what i do have i need to truly be thankful for. and this is in all aspects of life not just my continuing fight with diet and exercise. it just happened to be my diet and exercise that suffered over the last month. So when life happens at its hardest, I need to keep going and let event be momentum to go further no more derailment.

Today i am back and I cleared out all my monthly comfort foods, and called my trainer and apologized profusely for not calling. Believe it or not, I havent gained any weight over the month, I just lost out on momentum, consistency, and a flow of looking leaner and feeling better, which would have carried my thru had I let it in the first place.

So where did i go? I am not sure, but i am back for more , and we will not have to ask this question again:)

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JOYCECAIN 8/20/2012 10:50AM

    DEBK0923 is correct, and so are you. We also had loses. It is very difficult for us all to have loses, but the refrigerator can be a great friend. I know if I hadn't been in this situation living with my sister, I probably would have gained all my weight back on.

Put some time for you alone each day, to think, pray, meditate, whatever, just for you.. Throw all your troubles behind you, so you can think only of today.

You are #1. We are all here for you if needed. Love Joyce emoticon

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DEBK0923 8/1/2012 12:23PM

    I know first hand what you have experienced with loss of family, money difficulties etc... I lost my son, my cat, my dog, my mother, and my job in a five year period. I did great losing as well as you until all of this, I gained it all and more. You are correct we are the ones to control our emotions and not slide but we must grieve as well. after 5 years of grieving I told myself " what are you doing to yourself girlfriend " I started meditating to find who or what I wanted now that my life has changed. I then began a daily relaxation to calm me down, for tears flowed more frequent after my losses. After I mastered that I began my new journey through life, and it's a fight til the end. What I want to say is your downfall from schedule is from grief, it will pass but not forgotten, then pick yourself up and start again. I'm cheering for you. emoticon

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My variety!

Sunday, July 01, 2012

I am so proud of my self this week. On monday i swam laps at a friends house, Tuesday I saw my trainer, and stayed an extra hour on the treadmill. On Wednesday I took my first outside run since high school, ( would you believe i actually ran track in high school), and lasted more than a half hours. On thursday and friday I saw my trainer, and today I am starting my own dumbbell routine, which he would be so proud. I love working out. but usually its the trainer and the treadmill. This week i maintained 5 days , and finally added variety. Its the variety that keeps your body guessing.

I am finally realizing that it is not the weight anymore. i feel amazing, and instead of losing pounds I am losing inches, and i feel better, tighter, in shape, and that is an amazing feeling to have. So thank you to variety!

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MISSY455 7/2/2012 12:24AM

    emoticon emoticon Go girl!!!

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    LOVE this blog! Sounds like an amazing, healthy week! So many times we get into a RUT and that causes us to abandon our good behaviors just to seek out change(often unhealthy change). Keep up the good work - sounds like it is VERY worth it.

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Monday, June 11, 2012

So I have been gone for a while, and for some reason i lost all motivation in my diet. I call it stress of living, constant working, and worrying about finances. I call it life. But it creates inconsistency in what i really want to do with myself, my body my healthy lifestyle down the road.

The funny thing. even thought i couldn't put the fork down the last several weeks, i have made it to the gym to see my trainer every week. And when i hopped on the scale last week, I ealized I hadn't gained or lost a pound. This is what i want to able to do at my goal weight, but not right now. But i now realize that exercise is truly the key for maintaining.

I feel great everytime I leave the gym after a really hard workout. so I realized that maybe i am a little more consistent than i thought. and with that thought in my head over the last fews days, i decided it was time to put the fork down and get back to it. If i can keep my workouts going without even thinking about it, then i can do the same for the rest of my lifestyle. So today I went and ran 5 miles(on the teadmill of course, lets not get crazy:)), something this smoker has never done, and I feel great. so maybe this go around will finally pay off and i will finally reach that dream goal!!

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MISSY455 6/12/2012 2:29AM

    emoticon on making it to the gym every week! The eating part really is a pain in the behind sometimes. It is for me at least. I am starting a new challenge in a couple of weeks, and am changing up my "diet" for it. I feel like I am in a food rut. so am going to eat closer to the Mediterranean style. More plant based, will see how that goes.

I hope you find the motivation you need to keep you reaching for that dream goal. I know it is all about choices, so do you.

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New motivation

Tuesday, April 24, 2012

I have new motivation to whittle my waist ,, I am a bridesmaid!! My friend is getting my married in October so I want to fit in the crazy, but cute dress that she wants us to wear!! I love how other factors can motivate you to keep going.

My motivation besides that comes from the goals sitting on my wall, and everyday I work.

Most people know I work at a steak house, but it can not only be a negative influence, it can also be a motivator. Some of my guests just astound me at what they order and what they eat. Like Sunday night my table of 2 ordered our 1700 calorie cheese fries, had two giant sides of ranch with them, ate 3 loaves of our 600 calorie bread, and went on to have porterhouses, and topped it off with dessert. To the estimating in your head and that is around 3,000 calories, and that is low balling it. As I bring out the 3rd loaf, I m like I can not let this be me ,,,, ever.

Ooooh on the positive side of things. I can now fit into single digit jeans again!!! My friends from work are bringing me new work jeans because mine are falling off, and one of them brought me a pair of 8s, and they fit. Granted they created a new muffin top , but that is only more motivation for me!!!

So whats your motivation that comes from outside of the box?

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MISSY455 4/25/2012 1:25AM

    emoticon emoticon on the new jean size!!!

My motivation has been waning, but I just keep plugging away!

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1CRAZYDOG 4/24/2012 11:49AM

    Isn't it amazing how our perception changes when we mentally start calculating the nutrition of the portion sizes we see! YIKES! Man, if I ate that many calories @ a sitting I'd need a wheelbarrow to get me out!

Have fun with the wedding! Isn't there a law somewhere that says that bridesmaids dresses are something we wouldn't normally wear! Good luck and have fun.

Congrats on the shrinking jean size!

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Spring Break

Tuesday, April 03, 2012

No not me on spring break, I have forgotten what a vacation is ,,,, but my trainer went on spring break with his little girl, and I am left to fend for myself. The going to work out part is fine, but what i realized at the gym this morning, is that I can't seem to torture myself as much as he can. I did most of the stuff he does during a session, but there was a lack of sweat and a lack of thoughts of Omg i could pass out. So the thought comes to mind, is it the support I am paying for to motivate me harder, to make me push myself, or is the actual working out? When I hit my goal weight, and tweak my workouts so that I can save a little money by not paying him, will I be able to keep up the intensity and strive just as hard. I just don't have that kind of support around me.

I have my husband who I adore, but who has the metabolism of a 5 year old, and the ability to eat anything and never gain an ounce, he has looked the same for 7 years. He makes sure that I get to my workouts, and that I get my time to do what i need to do during the day, but he has never worked out with me, nor has he ever got in to my new healthy lifestyle of eating. so when I am at the grocery store , the bill is double because I am supporting two diets. He is very encouraging with words, but isnt supportive when I am having a staring match with a few drinks or a giant piece of cookie cake. You get the picture...

I have other people who are enthused about what I am doing and are very encouraging. But these are the same people who are either already at their goal and dont worry about every calorie, people who do the opposite, as they tell me i can do it, or those who preach every single way to lose a lb. and I really should be doing.

Then I have my family here at SparkPeople, whose support is unbelievable, but I cant see your beautiful faces, and that equals less accountability on my part. Out of sight out of mind..

So maybe I am paying for the extra support and for now that is fine by me, but now my biggest future concern is not losing weight, but gaining the right support that I need and can't afford to go on a spring break.


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