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A New Ah-ha moment

Thursday, May 05, 2011

This week I have been riding my bike for 10 minutes a day. Not much but I promised myself that I would do this. And I am so happiness to me. Then I remembered how much I loved yoga, I'm in a yoga group here on SP, and missed my daily yoga. So I ran to my library and picked up Baron Baptiste's Power Yoga level 1. Because I have his two books and can't figure out how to go from one pose to another. I need a visual aid. So I am all excited I watch the first little bit of it and decide that just like my bike I need to start smaller than the DVD does. So away I go with the breathing and I realized just how out of shape my WHOLE body is. Not just what you can see on the outside, but the inside as well. My lungs, my heart, even my mind is out of shape these days. So I sat down getting ready to have a pity party with myself and a bag of chips when this happy little voice inside my head said: "It's okay! It will all be okay, don't worry it won't happen over night but it will happen. Small steps and before you know it you will be at the finish line."
So I put my chips away and started to take stock of what I have going for me. The big one is that I already have good muscle tone. Granted it is all hidden under the fat suit that I am wearing right now. But it is there when you feel for it. Just waiting to come out of hiding and say hi to the world.
So I CAN do this. One short little 10 minute session at a time. I CAN and I WILL find the zipper to the suit I put myself in.

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KRISTINA42 5/5/2011 4:11PM

    I so agree with what you are saying. I think the other big thing I might blog about this next is that we (women) need to come to realize that we are worth the extra time. It doesn't make us bad people to take some time for us.

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IBSHAUN 5/5/2011 3:51PM

    Yes, you can do it! You will build on what you started but your foundation is so important! I had a little chat with myself about a year ago, probably a month or so into SP and I told myself that I didn't put the weight on in a few months, why would I expect it to come off that way too? I set small, attainable goals for myself and starting small was the best way for me, too. It's about changing our lives, not just reaching the goal. We need to make changes, start habits that will continue for the rest of our lives. Sounds to me like you are going the right way!

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Started reading this weekend

Monday, April 25, 2011

I found a copy of The Spark at my library. I couldn't face the hubs after buying one more diet book. So I get to read it this way and not have to deal with "the look" I am working on setting a few goals. This is harder than I thought it would be. I have spent so long just existing. I wonder if anyone else has ever been in that point. Where you are just numb. And the only reason you are breathing is because you don't have to think about it. So I guess that I have more thinking than I thought I did. I thought that I had a good reason to stay motivated but after getting the flu I just never got back into my working out. I wonder if I started doing to much to soon. So I am off to think even more about this existence that I call a life.

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DELLAJWAHL 4/28/2011 4:51PM

  I went to the library looking for the book, but it was checked out so I purchased online. I'm very excited about recommiting myself to the program after getting sick in March for three weeks. I have started and stopped, started and stopped. I'm just tried of failing I really want to succeed this time. The book has started that fire for me. I hope it will for you. Keep on reading and start with your goals. Good luck. emoticon

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Thoughts for the day

Thursday, February 03, 2011

Last night I had an eye opening thought as I was sitting in the middle of a fight with hubby. For any of this to work, changing your lifestyle, eating, loosing weight and keeping it off, hell going back to school and even keeping hubby and the kids happy, all of it! For any of it to work for longer than a few days to a few weeks you have to believe that you are worth it. That you are worth the extra time it might take to make a healthy dinner instead of hot dogs, that you are worth the time it takes to workout. That there is nothing more important than your health. If you don't have that belief then you will end up sabotaging (did i spell that right?) yourself. And that little voice that tells you over and over again how awful you are wins again. It has just one more thing to throw up when you start something new.

So does anyone know how to gag that little b*&^% and shove him in a closet?

Now I have to go fight some inner demons. But I think that is part of the whole reason why 98% of us have weight issues to begin with. At some point in time it became easier to eat and not feel than it was to feel. Why does making yourself healthy have to mean dragging all the skeletons out of the closet and tossing them out? Guess I gotta clean that darn closet after I get all the bones out of it.

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    As we emotionally 'declutter' we can 'declutter' our bodies, too. I'm going to work on cleaning my closet, too. Thanks for helping me look at it that way. Give yourself time and lots of hugs and step by step you'll get to where you want to be. And you are worth it - every single effort! And that little voice, drown it out with telling yourself all those things you mentioned! Or try what Jessica does in this video:

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Just a down kind of day

Monday, January 31, 2011

Today has started out as a bad day and it is just getting worse. I am SO sleepy and the only reason I can come up with is that it is cold and gloomy outside today. My legs hurt so that has made me not want to work out today Whine Whine Whine I just need to get up and do something. Anything would be better than sitting here thinking about all the unfair things in life. (that is where I am at today)
The funny thing is that when I am feeling like this I can sit down and write page after page on paper when I sit down to type it out I can't get it out. How funny is that?
Guess the biggest downer of today is that I had to listen to my hubby tell me all weekend that I was not working hard enough that I needed to do more than I was doing, and do it harder and faster. I had to listen to the fact that it didn't matter that I can ride 10 miles on my bike in less than an hour because I was not working hard enough to be extra sweaty, lets not factor in at all that it was only 50 outside and today it is even colder than that.
I came across a pic of myself that I took when I was at my heaviest of 250. I don't remember why I took it I am guessing that it was for some crazy diet scheme that I ran across. But there it was and I couldn't lie to myself any longer. You know that lie.... "I carry my weight great for someone as heavy as I am". Nope I was not hiding 250 in any way shape or form. I am only 5'1" so when I was looking at that pic I realized that around my middle was almost the same measurement of how tall I was in inches.
My son made my day yesterday when he looked up at me working in the kitchen and asked when did I start to get skinny. OH how I love the Innocence of child hood.



Saturday, January 29, 2011

Yep I want chocolate. For two days I have wanted it. And for three days my eating has not been all that great. So I am thinking that the bad eating is fueling the PMS chocolate craving. I like the working out but I know that just because I am working out doesn't give me the ok to eat everything I want.

I am up to 40 min a day with my cardio. Next week I will bump it up to 50 and so on until I hit 60 a day. After I read the article that was talking about if you are trying to loose weight you need 60 mins a day.

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FATHINSN 1/29/2011 11:08PM

    I usually wait for few days to see if I can curb my craving or should I just eat so that the craving not getting worse. I guess it depends on the situation and what food am i craving. Usually, I need to eat some chocolates (mostly dark) coz I know chocolate craving (for me) will get worse. But for chips or other junk foods and fast food, I can just simply ignore after few days as the craving will just pass away, hehe.

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    emoticonalways gets my attention and that's why I just had to check out your blog. Maybe you could have a small amount and move on, rather than just eating other stuff until you get what you really want. Works for me, but maybe not for everyone. Good Luck!

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