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Ten Tough Days

Saturday, August 11, 2012

I just got back from a week and a half on the road for work. It was harder than I thought it would be and between working really long hours and going out at night with colleagues, I didnít meet my goals. I only managed to work out once and I went over my calorie goals for 7 out of ten of those days.

I did have a good talk with my doctorís office and they said I could go ahead and work out, as long as I didnít run and wasnít having too much pain. So, I plan to ride my bike instead and I feel good about that.

Work has been incredibly stressful lately. Other things in my life have also been stressful. But I know I canít let either of those situations stand as barriers to achieving my person goals. Iím not traveling again until the end of the month, and during that time I pledge to focus on myself and my goals, one day at a time.

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BUNNYCATS 9/6/2012 2:11PM

    You inspired me to go out and get a new bike, too. I really like bicycling. It really helps me feel more relaxed being outdoors and enjoying the scenery.

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NELLJONES 8/11/2012 9:10AM

    It sure is hard to eat right when traveling. Good luck.

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Bad News

Tuesday, July 31, 2012

I went to the doctor yesterday and he thinks I have a torn meniscus. Basically, torn cartilage in my knee and I probably need arthroscopic surgery.

I know when I did it. I ran a 10 mile race in April and got my best time in 10 years. I didn't feel a thing when I was running, but it hasn't been the same since I woke up the next morning.

Very depressing. It hurts to run and really to walk or ride my bike too. I was kind of upset and forgot to ask him whether I should stop exercising completely, but my mom had the surgery and she says I should stop exercising until it's done and I've recovered. I'm going to check with the doc, but I'm pretty sure she's right.

So I'm going to try to do upper body strength training, core work and hatha yoga which is very gentle. But while those things might build strength and muscle, they don't burn much in the way of calories. Last time I had a health issue, I couldn't exercise for three months and gained 15 pounds. I don't want that to happen again, so this is really going to test my self-discipline.

And I'm going to count my blessings. It could be worse. I am lucky to have health insurance, and to have a job that has sick leave. I'm lucky to have someone to help me out when I'm recovering. I'm lucky it's a pretty minor injury, as injuries go.

Getting ready to do 10 days of work travel, hopefully by the time I get back, all the insurance hoop-jumping will be taken care of, and I can get on with it.

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JANEDOE12345 8/5/2012 12:29PM

    My daughter had a similar injury and it was amazing how quickly sh recovered. The physical therapist had her on her feet the next day (with crutches) and she was not very long in getting a full recovery. The PT is extremely important.
I wish you well.


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VERONICAVW_140 8/1/2012 2:13PM

    Eeekkk! I'm sorry to hear this. I hope that you heal up soon!

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BUNNYCATS 8/1/2012 10:32AM

    Sorry about your knee injury. I'm glad that you have health insurance. Keep up that positve attitude. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon Sending flowers and sunshine to help with pain and recovery. emoticon emoticon

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HIPPICHICK1 7/31/2012 10:10PM

    You are lucky! It sucks to be injured, but to head off weight gain at the pass, start by reducing your caloric intake about 40-50 calories every 4-5 days or to compensate the lack of exercise you are about to experience. While it's true that strength training doesn't burn many calories, the muscle you will build will use up more calories. Take some comfort in that and the fact that you will bounce back more quickly after your little surgery because of the strength training. You can also do a lot of seated exercises for cardio and I'm sure you can find a whole bunch of videos here on Spark. When I was 260lbs at the start of my journey I used to play Wii boxing for cardio and all that punching really got me going!!
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DJ4HEALTH 7/31/2012 9:52PM

    It depends on how bad it is and yes get your doctors approval for doing lower body work out. he may have you do gentle exercises to strengthen the knee

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Getting Back on Track

Sunday, July 29, 2012

Today, I got a new bike! This will be a great way to make sure I get my cardio, since whatever is wrong with my knee is keeping me from running, which has been not just exercise but a great stress reliever as well. Looking forward to getting out and riding, although since I'll be doing a lot of work travel for the next week and a half, it might have to wait a little.

Here's a picture of me with my new bike:

I feel skinnier just looking at it!

I'm trying to make some good preparations for the travel, since it's pretty challenging for me to stay on track while I'm traveling. I'm committed to staying within my calorie range but I know it will be hard. I plan to stock up on healthy snacks, dried fruit and nuts, apples and oranges. Also plan to bring workout gear and my bathing suit (I think there's a pool at the hotel). And my yoga mat cover -- it's no heavier than a towel -- so I can do yoga in my hotel room.

And tomorrow I'm going to the doctor to see what's up with my knee. Fingers crossed it's nothing too bad!


Wild Undiscipline and a Good Start

Tuesday, July 24, 2012

Since I posted my last blog about learning from my struggles, I have been wildly inconsistent and undisciplined. I've eaten too much and had too many drinks and not exercised at all.

But at the same time, I feel like Iíve moved forward.

I saw my SO and we had a good time together. We've had some tough times and then a lot of distance over the past two months, but we got together and he cooked me a wonderful dinner and we enjoyed being close. We agreed to talk and try to solve our problems and find a way to be together. So we shall see.

I went to the wedding of the daughter of two of my dearest friends, and saw so many old friends, including some I hadnít seen in years, shared memories and danced all night long. And all of the kids, all grown up and making their way in the world, kids Iíve known since they were very small getting ready to get married and have kids of their own! Really, a wonderful celebration! (and now that I think about it, I probably burned A LOT of calories on the dance floor!)

And now Iím on the road on business travel , which I enjoy. It takes me out of my routine, removes distractions and forces me to pay attention to what is important. And although it is definitely harder to eat well, it forces me to work at it and really commit.

So, I am ready to go.

One day at a time, I will rebuild good habits.

Today I will keep my calories under control.

Iíll practice yoga since I can do that anywhere. Thank you,!

I will meditate for 5 minutes.

And after I plan my presentation for todayís meeting and then give my presentation, I will do a half an hour on the elliptical.

Feels like a good start to me!

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LAURALITE 7/24/2012 4:43PM

Loving your positive attitude and portable intentions!

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DANCINGWILLOW87 7/24/2012 12:15PM

    Sounds like you have a plan!

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Struggling to Learn

Saturday, July 21, 2012

Struggling again. I feel like I keep getting myself stuck...

Iíve been really tired, almost unable to get enough sleep. Iím a little depressed because Iíve been having relationship problems with the guy Iíve been dating for almost a year, and I know I have to figure out whether we can make this work or whether I need to let go. So I havenít been seeing him and while I am glad to be free of his drama (too old for that kind of thing!), I miss him and his company. Still going through the emotions and trying real hard not to numb them with food and alcohol, and only having moderate success.

And I am sad because I feel like my body is betraying me. Iíve been running races for the past few years and while Iíve never been fast, I have a lot of endurance. Iíve done a bunch of ten mile races and in 2010 did my first half marathon. I was so proud! This year I set a goal of improving my time and running a ten mile race at a 10:10 mile pace, which would beat the time I did in my very first race ever when I was 41 (I didnít even know I was fast!). I did my first 10 mile race of the season in April and did a 10:35 mile which was halfway to my goal. I was so excited! But after that my knee started bothering me and over the past months Iíve tried resting it, not running for weeks at a time, sometimes cross-training, other times not, and the pain keeps coming back. Itís ok if I walk but Iím afraid if I run on it, Iíll cause permanent damage (or maybe I already have). I finally made an appointment with an orthopedist so I can find out whatís going on. (I also pulled a couple of muscles doing some bootcamp-type workouts and my beloved yoga. What?!) In the meantime, I am suffering because running is my sanity. I am trying swimming (hard and boring). Spin class (boring and the darkness weirds me out. Whatís that about?). Elliptical (always been ok as my fallback but cannot envision doing it for my main cardio). I keep trying to get on my bike which I actually like but havenít been able to do it yet.

One part of my life thatís going well now is my job Ė big project, leadership and lots of responsibility and clear measures of success.

But overall, it feels like Iím struggling, floundering. I go back and forth about the relationship, I lose a pound and gain two, I am not getting my heart rate up on a regular basis and I hurt myself when I try to work out.

Maybe I need to reframe and look at the situation from a different perspective: this is an opportunity to learn from my struggles what I need to change in order to move forward.

When I look for signs of forward progress over the long term, I see them.

ē I know I can set a course and stick to it, with weight loss and fitness. Iíve done it before and I can do it again. And I can apply the lessons learned to do it better this time.

ē Slowly but surely I am pulling my house together Ė it looks much better than it did 5 years ago Ė it looked like the rundown rental property it was when I moved in 6 years ago and now the inside is almost all painted in colors I love, and Iím getting ready to do the kitchen and (hopefully) two bathrooms. This makes a difference to me, both because I love it when my home is beautiful and Iím improving my investment.

ē I got my younger son through college and although heís back home again, with his freshly minted journalism degree, I am confident that heíll be on his own soon (thank God for restaurant skills!). My older son is happy with his work (again, thank God for restaurant skills) and back in school again. And they both appreciate their mom.

So thatís good. But I want to change the story here again. I want the story to be about me having a great and vibrant life and not settling for less. I want to be a high maintenance woman who puts herself and her needs first, who doesnít make excuses for the inexcusable.

I want to take care of myself like Iíve taken care of the people I love. Baby myself and be good to myself but at the same time practice self discipline so I can reach my goals.

And to do that, I need to readjust my course.

I need to find a way to work out that protects me from injury and allows me to find my edge without going over it.

I need to work out this relationship thing. There are some lessons there and I need to learn them. And make some decisions. I want to be happy, and Iíd rather be alone and contented with my life than with someone who brings turmoil and negativity.

And I need to get back to the things that work.

Regular yoga and meditation. Ommm.

Drawing or painting every once in awhile. Before, I said I would do that regularly but setting goals I canít meet just makes me feel less than successful. So I am changing that.

Oh and I almost forgot...purging and de-cluttering (thank you LAURALITE, for reminding me). It makes me happy to bring order into my life!

I will also try to blog more frequently. Writing used to be my sanity when I was much younger (that and going for long midnight walks!). I think I will try that again, and this is a good place to do it, with so much friendship and support all around.

Cheers, folks. Thanks for being there for me!

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LAURALITE 7/21/2012 6:54PM

    I'm struck by the power of your healthy self-caring, and your great clarity about who you are and what you do and do not want. You're an inspiration!!
And what a wonderful abundance of blessings that you are appreciating, in your boys, yourself and your home.
It sounds like you know exactly what many of the things you need to do are - you just need to move them from intention to action by getting very specific about precisely what you will do, when, how, and perhaps with whom. And you might want to set up some structure to hold yourself accountable for following through on an ongoing basis. (Accountability buddies can be a great help, as we talked about with the purging/organizing.) For starters, you said "I keep trying to get on my bike which I actually like but havenít been able to do it yet." Think of the wind in your hair, the sunshine on your face - perhaps the closest thing to running with less risk of injury to your knees - when will you hop on that bike and go for a fun ride?
You write eloquently and from the heart, and I look forward to many more blogs from you!

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SNOOPY-ACE 7/21/2012 11:38AM

    You can do it

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EDELWEISS33 7/21/2012 11:37AM

    good for recognizing and acting. I like to walk early in the morning to see the sun rise. I like drawing and painting and Just do that when I can finish it-maybe 20 minutes. So Decluttering and purging for 15 minutes with flylady is fun. and working on documenting what I eat so I can see how my weight fluctuates and figure out what to do next. I even started exercising with my hubbies af pt program. I am jogging about .25 miles and walking about 1 mile. I can do situps and pushups again!

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