Wednesday, September 24, 2008
Well, I haven't been on SP too much recently. I can tell and feel it. The new job I have as a teacher is so different from when I was a massage therapist, I miss it dearly. I was able to take 4 Nia classes and schedule work when I wanted it. Now I'm here from 7:30--3:30 every day.
I guess that's not too bad, I could work until 7 or something. But I've been VERY stressed out with my job. It's my first year teaching and it's be a struggle every day.
On top of that, my husband and I got into a car wreck Labor Day weekend. We still haven't settled with the insurance company and they are jerking us around right now. Luckily my dad has been out of the country so we've been borrowing my parent's car.
And then Ike decided to show up. We didn't have too much damage to our home, but as of now we still don't have electricity on. We've been sleeping at my husband's grandmother's house on an air mattress in the middle of her living room. She has 3 cats and we have one...they chase each other around and play while we're trying to sleep. My husband's cousin lives there too and is totally inconsiderate towards us--stays up late, waits until we're trying to sleep to do laundry and he comes in and out of the house. I've TOTALLY appreciated what they have done for us and all, but I JUST WANT TO SLEEP IN MY OWN BED!!!!!!!!!
All this stress has been adding up on me and I got to work this morning and almost cried. Luckily my mom got power and she's up at her lake house, so we're going to go crash on her bed.
I haven't been exercising and that was a major stress relief for me. It's just that by the time I'm done with school, I'm so spaced out I just want to sit and relax, not go exercise. If I did it before work, I'd have to get up around or before 5am.
I do love getting a consistent pay check with benefits though and hope that things get sorted out SOON!
I've been thinking about reallllly taking my weight loss seriously and really doing something about it. This time for good. I've considered starting a new Spark page to start fresh. I have always had such a negative attitude and think that that might be why I have a hard time getting things accomplished.
I want to have a family. I want to not be diabetic. I want to live a long healthy life with my amazing husband. I want more energy. I want to feel sexy. And I want to feel good about the way I look.
Saturday, June 07, 2008
I did my exercise dvd tonight from 9:15--9:45 and I didn't barf like I though I would. And I actually did it!
Haha...I'm surprising myself more and more each day.
Saturday, June 07, 2008
So I wrote out this whole blog yesterday and SP decided to delete it. How fun.
I wanted to share with everyone the effect that joing challenges has done to me! I'm doing a "Jumpin' into June" challenge with my PCOS team--setting a fitness minute goal and tracking every few days, and a 30 Day Shred Challenge--doing Jillian Michaels' DVD program for 30 days.
So, I had a long day yesterday and ended up doing my Nia class at 4:30. I got home, ate dinner and was lounging around on the couch. 9pm rolled around and I didn't want to do my 30 Day Shred. But I though to myself, "I made a commitment to myself and I'm going to log my minutes. This is what healthy people do--they don't make excuses!" So I got off my behind and did my exercise video at 9:00 in the evening.
I never would have done this usually! I was so proud of myself!
But then there's today.......
I got up around 9am this morning. After showering and breakfast, I didn't do my shred in the morning since I had done it 12 hours before.
I went to work (I'm a massage therapist--for now) and my boss/owner of the place where I work was out of town. So that means I get more massages then normal. I usually do 1 or 2 a day. Today I did 4 and 3 of those were deep tissue. Ugh!
So I'm sore from all the exercise, tired from work and what do I do? I think to myself, "Oh, I've been really good all week, I can have a splurge meal." So I probably ate 2000 calories. And now I feel horrible and like I'm going to pop.
And I still want to do my exercise video, but I think that might make me barf....which might not be a bad idea....hahahaha! (I'm just kidding, I've never made myself throw up on purpose.)
So I need to stop rewarding myself with food. And I encourage everyone to join some kind of challenge. Because it's that little bit of extra motivation that makes me want to get off the couch and do it--the extra accountability!
Another funny thing was that I've been logging my fitness minutes into SP and it told me, "You have far exceeded your fitness minutes for the week. You might want to change your calorie range." That made me laugh a little bit.
I'm not really seeing changes (ggrrrr!) but I know it takes time. So I'm going to be patient. Kind of.
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