Getting a little frustrated

Thursday, June 12, 2008

I am feeling a little frustrated right now because nothing is happening. I am working my butt off, not eating horribly and I'm not losing inches or weight.

I know it's not just going to fall off of me and I know I shouldn't get discouraged. But it's hard to keep doing something over and over, feeling sore and tired from it and hoping in return you will see a positive change, and you don't.

I think that some of my issues would be solved very quickly by watching my carbs. Being insulin resistant, I shouldn't be eating very many. When I was on the South Beach diet, weight was just coming off of me because my body could manage the food I put into it. But doing that is a lot of work.

I just need to get over this pity-party and keep at it because no matter if I do see results or not, what I am doing is healthy and maybe it won't happen at first, but if I keep it up maybe I will change.

It just kind of depressed me looking at my spark page and seeing "Member since 4/28/06" and realizing I've been trying to get myself to do it for this long and I haven't ever followed through. Maybe because I get so easily discouraged. But I want to be one of those people who succeed at weight loss. I have succeeded at everything else in my life except at this challenge.

  

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NASCARGIRL3 6/13/2008 7:12AM

After reading your first 2 paragraphs I feel like I wrote them. I'm going through some of the same things as you are. I'm going to just stick with it and hope the results will come. Hang in there, we can do this! ~Wendy Report Inappropriate Comment

HEARTOFCHRIST 6/12/2008 10:36PM

Don't get discouraged, we all go through this part! It will pass, I promse! Report Inappropriate Comment

JANNAH11 6/12/2008 12:15PM

I know how you feel. I too have to stick with the South Beach Diet. With insulin resistance it is the only one that works for me. And it is hard. Here's a tip... this was the best $13 I've spent in a long time. http://www.cnn.com/video/pl ayer/player.html?url=/video/bes toftv/2007/04/28/intv.think.you rself.thin.beck.cnn It is about changing your thought process, the way you look at food, dieting, yourself... everything. You can also visit her site at www.beckdietsolution.com. Ho pe this helps. And don't lose heart. This is a long journey for many of us... and the only way to get there is one step at a time. Report Inappropriate Comment

I didn't barf!

Saturday, June 07, 2008

I did my exercise dvd tonight from 9:15--9:45 and I didn't barf like I though I would. And I actually did it!

Haha...I'm surprising myself more and more each day.

  

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HEARTOFCHRIST 6/8/2008 12:25AM

Great job!!! Report Inappropriate Comment

Join a Challenge (or two) and other thoughts...

Saturday, June 07, 2008

So I wrote out this whole blog yesterday and SP decided to delete it. How fun.

I wanted to share with everyone the effect that joing challenges has done to me! I'm doing a "Jumpin' into June" challenge with my PCOS team--setting a fitness minute goal and tracking every few days, and a 30 Day Shred Challenge--doing Jillian Michaels' DVD program for 30 days.

So, I had a long day yesterday and ended up doing my Nia class at 4:30. I got home, ate dinner and was lounging around on the couch. 9pm rolled around and I didn't want to do my 30 Day Shred. But I though to myself, "I made a commitment to myself and I'm going to log my minutes. This is what healthy people do--they don't make excuses!" So I got off my behind and did my exercise video at 9:00 in the evening.

I never would have done this usually! I was so proud of myself!

But then there's today.......

I got up around 9am this morning. After showering and breakfast, I didn't do my shred in the morning since I had done it 12 hours before.

I went to work (I'm a massage therapist--for now) and my boss/owner of the place where I work was out of town. So that means I get more massages then normal. I usually do 1 or 2 a day. Today I did 4 and 3 of those were deep tissue. Ugh!

So I'm sore from all the exercise, tired from work and what do I do? I think to myself, "Oh, I've been really good all week, I can have a splurge meal." So I probably ate 2000 calories. And now I feel horrible and like I'm going to pop.

And I still want to do my exercise video, but I think that might make me barf....which might not be a bad idea....hahahaha! (I'm just kidding, I've never made myself throw up on purpose.)

So I need to stop rewarding myself with food. And I encourage everyone to join some kind of challenge. Because it's that little bit of extra motivation that makes me want to get off the couch and do it--the extra accountability!

Another funny thing was that I've been logging my fitness minutes into SP and it told me, "You have far exceeded your fitness minutes for the week. You might want to change your calorie range." That made me laugh a little bit.

I'm not really seeing changes (ggrrrr!) but I know it takes time. So I'm going to be patient. Kind of.

  

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HEARTOFCHRIST 6/8/2008 12:24AM

Be careful that you don't exercise too much or that you eat enough to cover the deficit. You want to be healthy instead of just losing weight. You are doing a great job and your commitment is awesome! Report Inappropriate Comment

Good and Bad

Friday, May 30, 2008

Well another weekend is about to begin and I did my TGIF Nia class again. Wow, they made us work up a sweat.

Although it was followed up with a lovely Mexican dinner at the Cadillac Bar and Grill. Woops.

I had had 700 calories up to that point, so putting in my dinner brought me up quite a bit, but I'm not sure of the accuracy of what I added.

I don't like doing such healthy things (exercising) and then such bad thing (mmmmm....cheese!) because it's not good.

I have stopped this week doing the 30 day shred due to a bum knee, but it's getting better. It did very well during Nia today and I think it helped too.

I think I'm going to take the rest of the weekend off to let the knee have some rest and then hit the 30 day shred hard on Monday.

Sadly on my way out of town last weekend our stupid cat managed to jump up on the bed and proceeded to pee on our brand new king comforter, sheets and mattress pad (it didn't get down to the actual mattress *pfew*) but running out the door I didn't grab my video. If I had and stuck to it, I would be half way done right now!

I'm going to commit to doing the whole thing--though I might die trying--but I had already seen some small changes in the 4 days that I had done it.

  

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HEARTOFCHRIST 5/30/2008 11:06PM

Keep up the great work! It is okay to splurge once in a while, just don't let it happen every day. I believe that splurging keeps us from over-doing it when we finally do get to eat something special! Report Inappropriate Comment

Just keep swimming, just keep swimming....

Friday, May 23, 2008

So since my air conditioning has been broken for 2 1/2 days, I didn't do my 30 day shred yesterday....it was like a sauna in the house. But after the guys installed the new coil last night, I told myself I would jump back on and do my exercise DVD. But let me tell you---it was not easy. It was probably easier going from day 1 to day 2 than taking a day off and not doing it. Maybe that's part of how it works....it builds upon itself.

But I'm proud that I pushed through and did it. I needed to! I have been feeling small changes in my body and that is awesome! But my mind is still wandering. Two nights ago the DH and I went out to Beef 'n Bun (BBQ place) for the brisket poboy basket filled with fries and calories. I ate most of it. But barely went over my calorie range. Yesterday for brunch (I woke up late after a sleepless night with no ac, so didn't eat breakfast) I ate Chipotle....granted I ate half of it at 11 and then the other part at 4, but I still stayed in my calorie range.

I just don't like justifying not healthy choices if I can "stay within my calorie range." I'm addicted to bad food so that is giving me an out to go get it. During my work-out this morning I was sitting there thinking, "what can I hit on the way back from dropping off the movies from Blockbuster?" I mean....here I'm sweating my butt off thinking about food. Yikes!

Saturday is my 24th birthday and I'm forseeing cake and ice cream. I'll have a little bit but not pig out. We are going to my parent's retirement house (they're still in their 50's but bought the land and built the house to start paying it off) out near San Antonio. It should be a fun weekend. I'm bringing my exercise video with me too.

I'm just proud that I'm seeing progress and I'm sticking to it, and not saying the old, "well, I messed up once, I guess I should give up." I liked the brushing your teeth analogy....it was a good one!

Anyway, I need to hit the showers and do my errands.

  

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HEARTOFCHRIST 5/24/2008 9:25AM

You are doing great! I understand about the "staying within your range but eating crap" part...I do the same thing. The only way I can get past that is to get healthy meals and snacks at the beginning of the week and having it on hand all the time--including at work. This helps me to only eat a LITTLE of the bad stuff! The past few weeks have been hard because $$ is getting tight with the prices of everything going up so fast but I am determined to do my best with what I have. I think it's great that you are celebrating your birthday AND have pre-planned to enjoy but behave. I hope you have a great time and keep up the great work! Report Inappropriate Comment