Sunday, October 12, 2014
Wow. So I always seem to find my way back to Spark People, I think simply because of the positively. Since my son has been born, I've told myself that I "was ready to get fit again," but my actions spoke louder than my words.
I had been stuck in a place in my career and my life that just seemed bad, didn't make sense and I was having a hard time processing it. So what do I do to make myself feel better? EAT! That has always been a defense mechanism of mine and a darn self-destructive one at that.
So what has changed?
Actually a TON!
In May 2014, I started applying for teaching positions for a change of scenery. Two were close to where my parents built their retirement home far north of San Antonio(that they are at during some weekends) and and one was in Houston, but a lot closer to where our home was. I was able to get 3 interviews! One was in New Braunfels, about 45 minutes away from my parent's place in SA, and one was in the sprawling town of Bulverde, about 25 minutes away in Comal ISD. The third was close to my house in Houston.
I had the Comal interview first and loved what I heard--345 kids at the school (my school in Houston was re-zoned and got bumped up to 1250), supportive parents and a close-knit community. The second interview was a bigger school, further away in New Braunfels, and a similar population of students that I had taught for the last 6 years. The third interview I took a couple days later after coming back to Houston.
Now let me tell, you....I am NOT the "squeaky wheel" type of person usually, but I REALLY needed to find a different place to teach. As I was driving home from the Houston interview, they called me and offered me the position, saying "they almost didn't let me leave" because they felt I would do really well there. I was torn though, because I was so interested in moving to the Hill Country. I was as squeaky as I could be, and I GOT THE JOB I WANTED!!
It was so nice to be able to choose where I wanted to teach, though terrifying to think about moving our family 3 hours away. But it was an adventure. We put our house on the market in Houston (my hubby's a realtor) and had an almost full-price offer on it in 12 days and financially came out really well! We were ELATED!
My parents told us to move in to their home since it was vacant most of the time and we did that at the beginning of August. We were then able to really get to know the area before we bought our own home. Now let me tell you--it is nice not paying a mortgage!
We did actually find a house in the same neighborhood as my parents and found that everything close to my school is really expensive. But we got a great house in our budget that will appreciate in value over time, though I just have to drive about 25 minutes. Which I've done since I started working, but I had just hoped to have little-to-no commute with the new job.
I started teaching mid-August and haven't looked back yet. I am so excited that I actually get to teach MUSIC instead of discipline or "how a normal human acts" and my students are delightful. I have also had many people, my principal included, telling me that they have heard great things from the students and kids about how much they like me, my class and are learning. I feel so blessed.
Something that is different -but cool- is since we have so few students, for a class period during the day, I go assist in the 4th grade math class, and it has been fun being in the academic classroom. Also, on Wednesday, we combine all the grade level in PE and the art teacher and I assist the PE teacher in leading a large-group (which is what I'm used to) PE class. I love being active and competitive with the students and they love when I play with them too!
Our awesome PE teacher stays after on Monday and Wednesday to lead a boot camp filled with burpees, squats, lunges and the like. For once I am not just doing cardio consistently but doing the strength training too. I also got myself a Fitbit and have been motivated to move throughout the day with it. On a PE Wednesday where I do boot camp after school, I can get 15,000+ step and even logged 19,000 one day. WOW!
On top of the structured fitness, we have a lady from the community coming in to weigh us for a weight-loss challenge. She asked for me to log my food on MyFitnessPal (which I like less then SP) but I figured, I can log there for her and copy/paste my stats here, as well as check in with others here and stay motivated.
I honestly think that for the past almost three years, since Austin was born, I've been so stressed out in my job, balancing work and home, with less sleep and less "me" time. The idea of having another baby is a mixed one, because I feel Austin needs a sibling, but just the idea of all the time/work/sleep-deprivation....I think I was kind of sabotaging myself so pregnancy wouldn't even BE an option. If another child is in God's will or not is up to him, but even if it isn't, I need to stop letting that blessing/fear keep me from being healthy.
It tough to look at, but I am about 10 pounds away from where I was when I was 9 months pregnant with Austin and about 20 pounds away from my heaviest weight ever. BUT------I can already tell that my muscles are stronger than they've EVER been with the strength training, and I have a network to help keep me motivated.
Mentally, I am still dealing with some depression, but it's not NEARLY as bad as it has been and everyone in my little family seems to be going well. I do butt heads with my almost 3 year-old, because he's a very dominant little boy and likes to put his foot down, but we're working on it. That, and potty training....
Sunday, September 08, 2013
I've written this blog many times, about being "back" after a long time, re-dedicating myself to my health journey....only to disappear for months, rinse & repeat.
So why is this different? I'm actually asking for help, which is not easy for me.
One thing that made me successful in losing the 65lbs I did, (before I gained most if that back during pregnancy....I'm about 30lbs from pre-baby weight, and about 60lbs away from the"healthy" on charts, though I might not want to lose that much) was the people here on SP cheering me on, inspiring me, and supporting me.
The thing is, when I disappeared, so did many of them. I am not one of those people that need 2394 friends to feel validated or liked, but I want a small group of like-minded, dedicated, POSITIVE (with the occasional rant...we all have them now & them) people to help nge add some gasoline to my spark.
Anyone want to join up?!
Friday, July 26, 2013
Hello Spark Land!
I have not been a very good SparkFriend....staying away from the site for so long. I was looking at old blog posts, old friends and just realizing that though you may not think about it, life moves on weather you are there to notice it or not. Many of my friends on my list, like me have been MIA or have just never come back. I wonder where they are, how they are doing. It makes me reflect on my own journey, why I was gone, and how my weight loss is.
Honestly, since my last post, I did do the Paleo 30 Day Challenge with eating clean food and not cheating and had great success--I dropped 10lbs and 11" around my body. But to me, it was just such an extreme (and the 30 day challenge was not meant to be continued on forever) that I gained back the 10lbs plus 5 more. Sigh.
For the past 2 weeks, I've been using a food tracker called Noom on my phone, because I was pissed off to find out that since I ended up deleting my SP tracker on my phone (my phone has NO memory storage, and I wasn't using it, so I deleted SP...I know, UHHH!) that now the SP app is like $3. I am just stingy in paying for something I already had, lol.
I have also gotten serious about my exercise again and have been pretty good about doing cardio (I've been walking with my son and mom to the park, she lets him play bc she has some knee issues, and I walk/jog a little on my own) and then doing some ST DVD's.
It's been tough for me--after the Paleo challenge, the end of the school year was pretty rough. I was stuffing my face, there were lots of sweets/junk offered at work and I didn't have good will-power.
Austin has been growing like crazy--he's 20 months old right now and a little firecracker! He has a pretty huge vocabulary, and though he prefers his daddy (ok, I have to admit that this makes me jealous) I have been having a good summer home with him.
I have about 3 weeks of my summer vacation left before I head back for the new school year at the same school. I was REALLY hoping to transfer within the district closer to my home (I'm at the furthest school on the west side of my district, and I live on the opposite side, and it's a big district---it's Texas, y'all) but that hasn't happened. And the two other districts I applied to really haven't given me the time of day. Part of me wonders what is up with that, like if someone (for some stupid reason, because I feel that I am really good at what I do) gave me a bad recommendation or something? One of my supervisors and I don't quite get each other....but anyway....
So I'm going to try to devote some more time to SP, because I feel like the support here and the encouragement is vital, and there are so many kick-butt people here that I want to keep up with. I feel like I need to go through my spark friends, and clear out some people who haven't seen the light of day in forever (I mean, I have some friends with no log-in/update in over 1500 days...) and maybe update my page with some new stuff.
I may even splurge for the SP app again...ohh...watch out!
I hope you are all doing well on your own journeys--stop by and say hi!
Wednesday, January 16, 2013
I was confused this morning when my inbox was flooded with SP mail messages. "Huh?" my fuzzy-non-awake brain thought. Then I saw it--I was reposted as Motivator of the Day.
This really reminded me how far I've come and where I am now. I've been on SP for a LONG time, I lost 65lbs, I gained 56lbs with my baby, and I am just recently getting serious again about making positive changes in my life.
Having a child has been hectic, but amazing. I used the many excuses that come with the commitment to justify why I was driving through the Golden Arches to get breakfast, even though I could have spent those 5 minutes to grab something better.
I'll be honest...I really did a number on myself during the holidays, and actually gained 10lbs! I just stopped making food choices that were good, and gave into the "gimme gimmes" in my brain.
But like a champ, I've jumped back on the wagon with my hubby and have taken a new approach....I've gone Paleo. It's a strict approach to food--you cut out processed foods, dairy, sugar and grains (what's left? you might be thinking--meats, veggies, fruits and fats) and it's an amazingly-strict-don't-eat-anything-off-th
e-plan, kind of diet. It's supposed to help heal your body from the processed chemicals and crud that's in our easy-to-eat food, and make you re-acquaint yourself with it.
So far I'm doing well--I've been 100% the past 3 days. No sneaking, or cheating. But man, I'm dragging today. I read that since I'm not giving my body super-easy sources of energy, it's having to readjust and it's going through detox. This should pass, and I've read that people who stick to the 30 day challenge seem to gain tons of energy and feel great...you just have to make it through the withdrawals. The tough part is that I'm not supposed to weigh/measure myself until after the 30 days is up--I liked to weigh myself often when I start a new plan, but I get the concept and just never had the discipline to follow through previously. I really like the restriction of the whole plan, I just wish I was good at following through with exercise.
It's tough right now for me to find time to exercise. I know I need to, but I have a lot of excuses--I'm exhausted, I don't have a ton of time after I get home from work, make dinner/lunch for the next day, feed the baby, zone out for a few minutes...and Austin wakes up super early too. When I'm ready I think I'll really commit, but right now I'm really trying hard to focus on my eating.
Speaking of Austin, he's grown like a weed! He's a very funny boy and my hubby and I have shared so many awesome moments with him. Here are some pictures!
Thanks for reminding me to get my butt back to SP--I feel like the times I've been most successful at weight loss was with a group of friends on here that rooted each other on! I hope everyone out in SparkLand is doing well, and I'll try to check in more often!
Monday, July 09, 2012
As I put my 7-month old down for his nap, I came in and saw a folder of pics from when he was first born. I started looking at him and I am amazed at how fast he's grown and how big he's gotten.
If I could have done the whole pregnancy over again, I would have watched more what I was eating, I would have done more exercise and I would have started both soon after he was born.
I sit with my body as it is post-pregnancy and I'm not super happy with it. But I am trying to change it. I tell myself that my body was the vessel that carried Austin into existence, and though it may take time, I can get it back to where it needs to be. A mother's sacrifice is a good one.
I kind of had a low spot yesterday because I uploaded all my exercise from my Polar heart rate monitor into the computer and was comparing it to the weight loss I've seen using SP. Now, I got my HRM 12/2008, and I've been on SP since like...2005 ish? Well, I started looking and comparing my activity and weight loss, and I realized that all I've ever been able to lose is maybe 1lb a week. I know this is normal and "good" and everything, but I was 30lbs away from being healthy before Austin, and then I gained 56lbs. I lost 25 within the first 3 months and then just stayed there. Since then I've lost 5. So I made the connection, that my rapid loss of the baby weight was over, and that it will literally take me a year of dedication to lose the 50 pounds I need to lose. And the irony in that, is that if we are to have Baby #2, we would try to conceive in about a year. So yeah. *Deep breath, turn it back positive again*
It's all about the journey and not the destination. If I suddenly woke up skinny, I wouldn't know how to manage/maintain it. So every calorie I burn, meal I track and even doughnut that sneaks into my mouth is all part of becoming healthy, and living life.
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