Sunday, December 20, 2009
OMG, I'm so frustrated, because I just can't seem to get the hang of this dieting thing. It's too much work. All day long I think about what I can and cannot/should and should not eat and it's stressing me out and all I want to do is eat.
OMG, I'm going to a dinner party and I'm scared. I know that I probably won't make the wisest food choices and I'm afraid that this will put me over the edge.
OMG, I overate yesterday and today I already polished off an entire bag of potato chips. Help, I can't stop eating!
OMG, I fell off the wagon and can't get back on!
OMG, I already went over my calorie allotment today, so what the heck, might as well blow it entirely. What's the difference?
OK, I'll start over tomorrow. Well, maybe on Monday... Well, maybe the first of next month...
When I'm browsing SP, I read quite a few posts like that and I'm not laughing. I have been there for years. Been there to the point where panic set in and there really was no light at the end of the tunnel. Utter desperation. Doom and gloom. Every Monday was good and it went downhill from there. By Friday I was bingeing and for years I was a complete yo-yo.
And more than effecting the body, this stuff is really hard on the mind! Running in circles, getting nowhere!
And then one day, while desperately searching for yet another miracle weight loss cure, I found SP. I was browsing, I was reading, I was logging, I was exercising, I was posting. In short, I was part of the team and NOBODY judged me. Everybody is here for one thing - weight loss. Well, not really! While that is certainly a big part and the ultimate goal for most, it is so much more! Seems that in order to achieve this weight loss a couple of other things need to fall into place as well. SP calls it lifestyle change.
To me that means: Get your act together! Stop feeling sorry for yourself! Get up in the morning and get dressed! Get out of the house! Talk to somebody! Start that load of laundry! Put those walking shoes on and get out there! Mop that floor. Fix a real dinner! Get off the couch! Get to the gym!
And then I realized that 'Lose that weight!' is not on the list! Instead 'Lose that weight' is a direct result of implementing the above. Thoughts shift away from 'Must lose weight'. Amazing!
It's really a short learning curve to figure out the right foods to eat and we all know that exercise (any kind of exercise) is very beneficial. Beyond that thinking about it is counterproductive for me.
Yes, the fear is gone! I put the ball in motion, now I'm letting it roll.