Saturday, July 18, 2009
I hate dealing with this some days. I wish there were an easier way for someone with depression and no health insurance options (like myself) to get some kind of treatment. In my case it is necessary, and I am going to have to try to live paycheck to paycheck and foot the medical bill on my own. That really sucks.
After some deep thought on the matter, and a few "episodes" today I have decided that it is in my family's, and my own, best interest for me to get on some kind of treatment for it. I don't want my children to grow up feeling the same way about myself as I did with my mother. I guess its not really a fair comparison... me and my mother, but I still don't want that.
I have dealt well with having depression the past few years, and I have made some pretty dramatic improvements on my own, but there is only so much that I can do for myself. I honestly feel like I have come as far as I can on my own, and I need some help from here. I don't know if it should be therapy or medication, or even both, and I don't know what will work best for me. I will post on it again as soon as I know more.