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Friday, August 31, 2012

The Condominium Garden and Vegetable Patch next to it

The World outside my Bedroom Window
The Weather outside is simply beautiful and the scene outside my Bedroom Window just breathtaking--various shades of Green spread out in wild abandon with a vengeance!!!Both of us would spend our early mornings just picking out the changes that would occur overnight--and believe me there used to be plenty!!We were lucky in finding this Flat----given it's beautiful environments and sleepy ambience--something one can't find in a busy Metropolis!!!For me it was the perfect home--a link with the prolific abundance of Nature I had grown up with in my childhood.
Sudhir and I loved looking out on moonlit nights after the girls went to sleep---watching the rising Moon playing hide and seek amongst the waving Coconut fronds----now revealing itself in it's silvery glory or now just teasingly peeping through!!The most we loved was the Full Moon nights--specially the Harvest Moon in October/November just before Diwali our Festival of Lights----we call it the "Kojagiri or Sharad Pournima" and it is considered to be the most beautiful one of the entire year!!!On those nights the Moon would bathe the entire Patch in silvery gleams--and even the tiny Leaves of the Greens growing in the Patch would have a silvery sheen!!!The biggest regret I have today is that I never took a Picture of it---it would have been great to share it here!!!
It is now that I'm alone finally that I'm actually coming to terms with the fact that Sudhir is gone.It is just me and my Memories--something which offers a very bitter sweet feeling--these console me as well as highlight my loneliness too!!However Sudhir has truly won over from across the divide--his Love surrounds me in the way he has put everything in order for me to continue living as I did before---and I'm now trying to find my feet--but after 42 years together it IS a bit difficult!!

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JUDYAMK 9/3/2012 4:02PM

    What a beautiful scene to wake up to. The comfort you have in knowing your husband had every thing in order for you is a blessing also.There are so many that when one of the spouses pass away they are not left with the comforts they had together. I feel one must think of those things & have things in order. My husband & I have since the first day we were married. Take care

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BOVEY63 9/3/2012 3:05PM

    What a beautiful view! May your memories bring more comfort than pain.

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RIDMYCOCOON 9/1/2012 10:58PM

    emoticon a great love!

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    You have sent yourself on adventure after adventure this year. It seems to be time to sit, contemplate, remember and plan.
Take it easy for a few weeks then start working on those plans for your new life. Discover what you can do to help yourself and others.

I'm not quite in your shoes but also am feeling the effects of the world settling down after my loss.We are strong women, we will get by nicely. emoticon

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SAASHA17 9/1/2012 7:17AM

    Tat is so beautiful.

Take care

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*MADHU* 9/1/2012 6:27AM

    The best kind of love - "he has put everything in order for me to continue living as I did before"
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ZANNACHAN 9/1/2012 2:08AM

    Oh my that view is gorgeous! I wish you had been able to capture the moon, too, but cameras probably wouldn't do it justice. So beautiful.

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A Journey too late!!

Friday, August 31, 2012

Sudhir and I both loved the Monsoons--specially the days when it poured incessantly--even Mumbai would turn pleasant during those days!!On those days it poured, we would go for long drives to the outskirts of Bombay--places like Aarey Milk Colony,Panvel,Karjat and such just to enjoy the sound of the Rain beating a tattoo on the roof of our Car!!!We had non-airconditioned Cars then and would just park under the thickly wooded Roadside--just soaking in the visual pleasures of the lush,strikingly Green Vegetation!!Sometimes it would be one of Bombay's Beaches--watching the Sea flecked with Surf dancing with wild abandon to the drumming of the Thunder overhead----but these were the easily accessible regular haunts--not the ones we wanted to visit.
We would make Plans for a Trip to Goa and Kolhapur during the Monsoon-----each time somehow these Plans would get shelved because of a.)Sudhir's extremely busy schedule--or b.) the heavy flooding in the low lying areas of Bombay enroute would put paid to our Trip.This year however it was thanks to Lotta that I made the Journey--alone with only my Memories accompanying me.I am now realising the utter desolation of Loneliness--for that can strike one even when one is completely surrounded by the entire World--it is like being stranded on a Desert Island!!
I constantly miss Sudhir's company but this was even sharper than the other Trips I've taken after he passed away.This time I was passing through familiar well beloved Territory---and I cannot explain the depths of the stark desolation that I felt during that Week!!This trip made me weep---and feel guilty for being alive,for being there without him----the sheer Beauty of Nature just somehow sharpened and heightened my loss!!

On way from Kolhapur to Goa

A Village Hamlet on the way

The Moti Talao at Saawant Waadi

In Amboli--a tiny Hill station enroute

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JUDYAMK 9/3/2012 4:18PM

    Your beloved husband would want you to continue on & enjoy the beautiful places you both seen together over the many years.Your loneliness must be devastating. Turn to God's Word for comfort & peace.He gives that to us..Trust in the Lord with all thine heart we need to lean on him when we are weary & broken hearted. Take Care

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MIRFA71 9/2/2012 12:48PM

    beautiful memories to be cherished throughout your life..

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    He is with you every time you think of him!

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BOVEY63 8/31/2012 5:07PM

    Sending so many hugs your way!
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Beautiful photos! No wonder you loved going there s much!

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RIDMYCOCOON 8/31/2012 12:57PM

    Oh dear friend. I feel for you. I can see how one's heart could be firmly traced inside the lines of these photos. I can only imagine the actual drive through the land shared so deeply. My heart goes to you and your precious memories. Thank you for having them and thank you for sharing emoticon I believe in no guilt for having loved one so. Even if tho gone physically he lives on through you, your children and through this wondrous landscape. How else would I see and hear such stories if not for you and him always.

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SAASHA17 8/31/2012 7:49AM

    that is so beautiful...he is with u komal...He lives through u..so dont ever feel that way...

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DMF2012 8/31/2012 5:48AM

    What beautiful memories you have - thank you for sharing!

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*MADHU* 8/31/2012 5:17AM

    You brought back memories of my beloved Mumbai in the monsoon...I just visited in June & already feel like coming back again to pay a visit.
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A Tumultous Roller Coaster--Pictures!!

Thursday, August 30, 2012

Monsoon Skies on way to Goa

The thick Jungle bordering the Road in The Ghats

The Winding road in The Ghats

En Route to Goa

The Ghats

Lush Green Paddy fields on the way to Goa

The Sri Shanta Durga Temple,Kavale,Ponda

The Goddess Shanta Durga

The Mahalsa Temple,Mardol,Goa

Inside Mahalsa Temple

The Goddess Mahalsa Narayani

Sri Mangueshi Temple,Mardol-Priol,Goa

Lord Sri Manguesh

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    I want to go too!
Road trip!

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BOVEY63 8/30/2012 1:06PM

    Stunning photos! Thank you so much for sharing!

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RIDMYCOCOON 8/30/2012 12:35PM

    I have one (well, two) things to say:



That second picture of the monsoon is so magical! Heck, all of these pictures look magical. It beacons!

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A Tumultous Roller Coaster--Pictures!!!

Thursday, August 30, 2012

Hotel Opal,Kolhapur

The Garden at Opal

The Mahalakshmi Temple,Kolhapur

The Mahalakshmi Temple

The Goddess Mahalakshmi

The Goddess in Oil Lamp Light

The New Palace at Kolhapur

The Shalini Palace

Inside The Shalini Palace

The Rankala Lake beside The Shalini Palace

On way to Panhaalaa Fort

Clouds overhead

Views from the Ramparts of The Fort

The Granary at The Fort

In The Fort

Inside The Granary

The Buildings inside the Fort

The Famous Hot and Spicy Kolhapuri Food

The World Famous Kolhapuri Foot Wear

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*MADHU* 8/31/2012 5:25AM

    emoticonpics...definitely a place to check out soon!

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RIDMYCOCOON 8/30/2012 12:23PM

    The palaces are incredible! I can't believe such pretty granaries and forts are built! Beautiful. I wish I was sitting down to that meal right now!


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SRITHI97 8/30/2012 12:10PM

    Awesome! nice pics!

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SAASHA17 8/30/2012 11:59AM

    Yum..of all the pix the food caught my fancy...hahaha..JK...love the pix..i want to go see the mahalakshmi temple..she looks so splendorous.

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DIBANANA 8/30/2012 11:54AM

  How exciting! I love to travel.

Looks like great fun!

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Wallowing in Nostalgia!!

Monday, August 27, 2012

It is so funny the way memories are linked to so many things--people,places,smells,foods and texture---each of these has a way of bringing back crystal clear recall of various stages of the Past and life we have lived.Yesterday was one such day---a huge chunk of the Past came flooding back!!!
Mummy and Prabha Maushi--or Praa Maushi as I used to call her, got married a year apart.Both were young Marathi women who belonged to Bombay and were thrust from a bustling City life into rural India--that too into the very back of beyond!!! It was this feeling of initial discomfort in adjusting to a completely different environment that formed a very strong bond between the two of them--so strong that in a short while they became as close as sisters.Luckily for the two of them Daddy and Madhukar Kaka shared many similar interests and this cemented the relationship into one of bonds that last---and even today we think of them as a very beloved Aunt and Uncle--an integral part of our lives.
All 6 of us were born within a year of each other--Anju came along a year after me,Rahul a year after Mikki and Gauri a year after Ritu.Those days we children bonded as siblings--and since Rahul was the only boy amongst us it was his privilege to act pricey at both "Rakhi" and "Bhau Beej" the two Festivals on which brothers are felicitated.Anju and I were very close---being just a year apart made us both friends and confidantes to each other---besides we thought that we were actually "first" cousins--the truth that we were not related at all dawned on us much later in life!!!I married early and shifted to Bombay---but because Sudhir too fell in love with the magic of Chandigarh we were frequent visitors there before my parents shifted to Mauritius.Later we still visited Chandigarh with the Girls and it was an accepted arrangement that we lived with Praa Maushi for the times we did.
Sudhir was a introvert and very cautious when it came to forming deep friendships.While on the surface he was extremely charming and friendly, he also had a "thus far no further" quality before accepting someone as a true friend--and to date Sunil remains his one true friend with whom he shared a fifty seven year old friendship--they became fast friends at their ages of 10 years in School!!I on the other hand reacted according to my "gut feelings".My like or dislike of a person would be instant----and lasting!!!Luckily for me this has always stood me in good stead-----and I have large circle of really good friends who do care for me!!!However I digress---so back to the topic on hand.
Both Anju and Gauri had come over from Pune just to meet and spend time with me--since both lived abroad--Anju in Dubai and Gauri in Muscat.The last time they had come home I was in L.A. with Lotta so this visit was actually a Condolence visit.Just seeing them brought back a wave of Memories--my childhood and adolescence,the early years of our marriage when we'd visit Chandigarh--the fun times we'd all had together and most of all the Get Together Gauri's husband Shekhar had organised in August last year in Pune for Gauri's Fiftieth Birthday---a Party that Sudhir had been insistent we attend!!Yesterday was a day to recall our lives--while both Anju and I are almost 60 and our siblings all into their 50s-----we still connect on the same level as we have always done--Time and Distance haven't made a dent in our relationship!!There are Plans afoot to visit Chandigarh together and revisit our childhood and the places which even today are etched into our memories--how and when the Trip materialises only Time will tell!!

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RIDMYCOCOON 8/30/2012 12:30PM

    How lovely to have such ties. I am so happy you had this opportunity to visit and recall. I hope you do take that trip and I look forward to hearing about it. How lucky Rahul was!

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RAIN454 8/30/2012 10:32AM

    Its funny. My best friend growing up was my cousin who's name was also Anju. I think his mom wanted a girl though and settled with the name because to this day, i have never met another boy named Anju. Okay, I digress. Anyways, he was actually my first cousin lol and we were inseparable. We'd spend all day together and then go home and call each other and spend the rest of the day together. So just reading this made me put him in mind as I read from beginning to end. Your friendships with Anju and Gauri and all the kids from that time is just beautiful. You have been so blessed to have met so many good people in this world and such dedication to keep such friendships alive for so many years is admirable. A lot of us, because of whatever reason, lack the effort it takes to keep those type of friendships going. Its not easy. I have a friend who says that there is no such thing as a forever friend...that all friendships are seasonal. I disagree and you just proved it! :)
Luv ya! Take care.

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    Enjoy those friendships and enjoy talking about the past.

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EACHDAYAGIFT 8/28/2012 7:33PM

    A return to Chandigarh to revisit childhood memories sounds wonderful.
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BOVEY63 8/27/2012 1:01PM

    Lifetime friends like those are priceless. So happy you were able to spend time with them.

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SAASHA17 8/27/2012 6:36AM

    I am glad u guys have such friendships....makes life worthwhile..

take care...I know everytime u meet such people...everything comes into focus so sharply...take care of urself....have a nice trip to Chandigrah....which I hope is soon:)


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ZANNACHAN 8/27/2012 12:24AM

    You are really lucky to have a close and dear friend like that.... How cool that you have been able to stay so close, so connected, for so long!

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