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My Dreams and Premonitions--5

Monday, April 11, 2011

The culmination of our Pilgrimage was yet to come---and it happened at the Ultimate Shrine--Badrinath!!We reached this Shrine after a 2.30 hour Journey from "Jyothir Math" or "Joshi Math" as it is locally called---reaching Badrinath at 12 noon.This last leg of our Pilgrimage was the worst---sometimes the Road was just wide enough to accomodate our Bus!!We were told that the Temple was closed for Lunch---and would re-open at 4 p.m.---so many Members of our Party got busy with offering Ablutions and performing the Rites---thus paying Homage to their Ancestors.
Sudhir as usual was restless---and suggested walking down to the Temple----and the 2 of us as well as the Girls set off.Reaching the Temple we were surprised to find a crowd of Pilgrims waiting there---it seems the Temple Doors are thrown open for just 30 minutes after the Deity is offered Lunch!!Excited we joined the Queue---and just then an old Priest---very thin and emaciated struck up a conversation with Sudhir.He wanted to know who we were,from where had we come and our Caste and "Gotra"---things about our Lineage!!Finally he very casually asked us whether we wanted to offer Food as "Prasad" or Offering to the Diety??We were very happy and overjoyed---people book their turns to do this months in advance---and here we were being given this Opportunity---I was literally over the Moon!!So we asked him how much would be the charges---he in turn asked Sudhir to put his hand in his pocket and withdraw the Cash at hand.Sudhir did as asked and withdrew notes of Rs.100/,Rs.50/,Rs.20/,Rs.10/,Rs.5/,Rs.2/ in exactly that order.The Priest asked to be handed the two Red notes---Rs.20/ and Rs.2/ and asked us to meet him after paying Homage in the Temple---he said he'd wait for us in the Temple Courtyard---and that his name was "Vaachas Pati".The Doors opened and we were pushed into the Temple---there we were right next to the Railing--looking at Badrinath Himself---standing just a foot away from Him----but I do not remember what He looks like----my mind is a total blank about this "Darshan"!!
Slowly we too walked out as the people filed out---not really expecting to see Vaachas Pati---but there he was--with a huge Copper Cauldron next to him waiting for us---in the Temple Courtyard as he had promised!!
He gave us the Sweet Saffron Rice on the Lid as "Prasad" to carry back to the Hotel with us---and asked us to distribute the Plain Steamed Rice in the Cauldron as Alms to the Poor waiting in a line with some Money--to help them buy Dal and Vegetable Curry to eat it with.This Rice was steaming hot---but Sudhir was serving it with his bare hands---not affected by it's Temperature!!Finally the line in the Temple ended but the Cauldron was still half full---so the 4 of us walked into the Hotels surrounding the Street at the Entrance---literally distributing the Rice and Money---till finally an hour later all the Rice was gone!!We returned to the Temple with the Cauldron---only to be confronted by the Temple Authorities---anxiously wanting to know how we managed to catch hold of the Brass Cauldron?? Sudhir related the entire Incident---and they looked dazed and stunned!!The Reason??They had no Priest named Vaachas Pati amongst them----but it was a name of Vishnu----one that I uttered daily while reciting the 1000 names of Vishnu--His "Sahasra Naamaavali"!!Our Pilgrimage was blessed by the Lord Himself---and while I do not remember what Lord Badrinath looked like---the reed thin Visage of Vaachas Pati is clearly imprinted on my mind---indelibly!!

  
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PARM01 4/12/2011 3:18AM

  Speechless!Incredible!Beautiful!

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ZANNACHAN 4/11/2011 6:21PM

    Fantastic story--what an incredible experience.

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MILLISMA 4/11/2011 4:52PM

    What a beautiful story!

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RATHIMANI 4/11/2011 4:02PM

    WOW...I got goosebumps from just reading this...I can only imagine how you guys must have felt after realizing what just happened...you are truly blessed :)

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RATIONAL_EATER 4/11/2011 2:08PM

    I am out of words !!

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SAASHA17 4/11/2011 1:40PM

    Wow..I have been telling mom about ur experiences, this is def one to tell her too.

She was telling me about a dream she had where she saw the Devi last week in full splendor and that too when I was about to tell her about your vision of Devi..

So now my mom is reading the Lalitha sahasranamam. She does the Vishnu one regularly. She has been since 7th grade. I used to do it too but stopped nowadays. need to start again. Love reading it esp with MS subbalakshmi in the background..

Have a nice week

Manasa

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My Dreams and Premonitions--4

Monday, April 11, 2011

By 1987 I was totally engrossed in Worship----would spend hours following the Rituals--though my Meditation had decreased it had not stopped totally.I spent hours scrubbing and polishing all the Vessels need for Worship---in fact bought wholes Sets of Copper first---and then of Silver---it was the Lamps---2 sets of these---which needed the greatest Care.I would personally scrub and polish these daily----and fill them with Oil and light the Cotton Wicks---ensuring that they burnt all 23-24 hours each day!!Not just that I would read my Religious Chants aloud rhythmically every evening---from 6p.m.---7.30 p.m.----deaf and blind to the World---my entire being concentrated on the Words!!!It was left to Sudhir and the Girls to cater to whichever Visitors may drop by---I would be oblivious to all!!
In May 1987 we decided to take Mummy along with us on our Summer Vacation.We had planned on visiting Kashmir Valley---instead we got an opportunity to join Sudhir's Best Friend Narayan on a Pilgrimage---to 4 of our Holiest of Holies----called "The Chaar Dhaam Yatra".It happened by chance---he had arranged for a group of 25 of his Relatives and Friends----and 5 people had dropped out at the nth minute---hence the 5 of us fit in beautifully---it was as if it was destined for us to go!!Mummy was over the Moon---all her Life she'd wanted to visit these Shrines and here was the opportunity to do so handed to us so unexpectedly---Kashmir Vally paled into insignificance before this!!So starting fom the first Step----Haridwaar on the banks of The Ganges---we proceeded further into the Himalayas---the Grandeur and the Beauty of these magnificent Range is indescribable!!
We went to the Sources of the Rivers Ganga(Ganges)and Yamuna---the Temples dedicated to these two Rivers are situated at a height of 3048 Meters (12,220 Ft.) for the Gangotri Temple and at 3291 Meters(10,804 Ft.) is situated the Yamunotri Temple.Both Rivers arise from Glaciers higher up---The Ganga from the "Goumukh" or Cow's Mouth Glacier lies at 4120-7756 Meters(12960 Ft.---25446 Ft.)and The Yamuna from the Champasar Glacier lies at 6387 Meters(20955 Ft.)---the lower level of the "Goumukh"Glacier is reachable but the Champasar Glacier is not---hence the Temples were built at a lower level for the Pilgrims to pay homage. The Shrines--Kedarnath dedicated to Lord Shiva and Badrinath dedicated to Lord Vishnu--both at a height of 3584 Metres (11750 Ft.)and 3133 Metres (10,248 Ft.) respectively.
Sudhir is a firm believer in God---but not the trappings and Rituals involved in the usual way of Worship. After an accident that could have been fatal on the way to Yamunotri he wanted to pull out from the Pilgrimage.We were all riding on Horses or trekking on the way up to Yamunotri---a stretch of 13 Kms.---and the Path we were using was barely 18" wide---and had people climbing up to the Shrine as well as returning from it using it----plenty of Traffic on this as this Path was the only approach!!On our descent to the Base after we finished paying our Homage to the Diety,the Horse on which a young boy from our Party was riding slipped off the narrow Path and hung over the Precipice----overlooking a deep Gorge---maybe 5000 Ft. deep!!!The child instantly grabbed the Horse's neck and clung on with all his might---while our Guide quickly lifted him off the Horse whose hind legs were waving in Space!!The rest of the Horsekeepers quickly got together and pulled the Horse to safety too!!The entire Incident took a mere 5-6 minutes but even today the memory of that near miss sends a shiver down my Spine!!Sudhir too was badly upset after this Incident---and decided to pull out of the "Yatra"----and in a trice many elderly members of our Party too joined him!!
This upset me terribly and I had a huge fight in my mind with God---asking Him if this was not to be completed---why did He begin the Journey at all??At 3.30 a.m. Sudhir shook me awake and said that we'd be going ahead---it seems that he just felt an irreprissible urge to continue on the "Yatra"!!His exact words to me were---"Please tell God that I'm not pulling out---He wouldn't even let me sleep in Peace last night!!!" and we continued onwards.Each place gave me a deep satisfaction---a feeling of being blessed pervaded my consciousness and my Soul and as we proceeded I began attaining a state of extreme Euphoria----I just cannot explain that exalted feeling in Words!!
One Incident I must relate here---something that really cleared my Vision!!At Kedarnath there is a 14 Kms. Trek to the Shrine----and since it was an impossible climb for Mummy and other elderly Ladies we hired "Dolies" or Palanquins to carry us up---I needed one because I weighed a huge 90 kgs. at the time---Sudhir and the Girls rode up---walking in between to stretch their legs.While climbing there were a lot of these Mendicants on the lower slopes---bodies smeared with Ash--asking for Alms.We ignored them and the parting shot they sent our way was that they expected to be dealt with on the way back.The next day on our downward Journey these people began heckling us for Alms---and if we didn't oblige--threatening us with dire Consequences instead!!This had my Temper up in a flash---and making the Bearers stop I had them lower me to the Ground---and I stepped onto the Path.Marching up to them I asked them as to what they meant---something they didn't expect a Pilgrim---and a very fat woman at that---to do!!The Fellow I approached again cursed me---that did it---I began firing him Right,Left and Center---creating such a ruckus that emboldened by me many Pilgrims too joined in---till those B******s had to turn tail and flee----I hadn't come so far just to be fleeced---and to be cursed roundly if I didn't pay!!Finally flushed and triumphant I climbed back into my "Doli" to be carried down the Path---floating on the Praise and Thanks of the other Pilgrims!!I still remember Mummy's face---first incredulous--then plaintively begging me to ignore it---and finally resigned and helpless---as if wondering where she went wrong---in my upbringing???One of my favourite Moments to remember--whenever I need a good laugh!!

  
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PARM01 4/12/2011 3:26AM

  Komal, awesome!!!---Thank you for sharing!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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ZANNACHAN 4/11/2011 6:19PM

    Wow, what another incredible experience.

I must say that I'm glad that not only was the child rescued, but the horse as well, though! That must have been really scary.

I was raised in a religious denomination that doesn't have a lot a lot of elaborate ritual trappings, but there are times when the more elaborate rituals of other denominations (and faiths) appeals.

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EACHDAYAGIFT 4/11/2011 11:58AM

    You are so awesome!! Love it, love your gumption! Don't you just love when God provides something so perfectly by surprise to fulfill a dream? Exactly five openings, no more mo less. Stuff like that makes me feel so known and cared for by God!

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SAASHA17 4/11/2011 11:41AM

    hehehe...I hear ya on that....Well i hear
its a beautiful journey...I hope I can do it one day:)

Manasa

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MAGIK0731 4/11/2011 8:57AM

    Definitely fiesty but rightfully so!

Isn't it amazing how some we can recall some memories like they just happened?

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My Dreams and Premonitions--3

Friday, April 08, 2011

Both my Daughters share certain aspects of this Lineage---after we shifted to this Flat I loved the feeling it gave me---the Flat made me feel safe,loved and very Welcome---it sort of embraced us all and took us into it's safekeeping------it had very Positive Vibes.That's why I was surprised when both my daughters refused to sleep in their Bedroom---in fact they were adamant about it---scared at the "Old Man" sitting in a corner!!!Lotta saw him in the North West Corner and Sayali said he sat in the North East Corner of the Room---though the posture in which he sat was identical to both!!!Now I was at a loss to understand---for my Antenna had not picked up any such Presence---in fact I loved being in that Room!!So finally to reassure them I shifted our Family Temple into their Bedroom---to no avail---they both were adamant against sleeping there!!!Added to this was the huge "Peepul" Tree outside the window---and it cast a large Shadow on the Wall opposite the Bed---it's Leaves would make weird Shadows during the Monsoon---shaken by the Wind and Rain.So we got a low Double Bed with wheels specially made----this would slide beneath our Bed during the day and be pulled out night for the girls to sleep on!!They continued to sleep in our Room!!
After we shifted here I formed a friendship and close bond with 3 ladies---all much older than me!!Of these Pushpa is 10 years older ,Vahini 15 years older and Jacob Aunty 17 years older---and since I was just 21 years old when we moved here---these 3 took me literally under their wing!!In 1982 my friend Vahini--asked me to accompany her to pay obeisance to the "Palkhi" of "Sri Gajanan Maharaj" of Shegaon---a town near Nagpur.He was a Saint who lived at the turn of the Century and I am a staunch follower of my "Trimurti" or Triumvirate of Saints---Sri Swami Samartha of Akkalkot,Sri Gajanan Maharaj of Shegaon and Sri Sai Baba of Shirdi---in fact I regularly read their Biographies!!So one afternoon both of us went and worshipped at the tiny Shrine bearing his Golden Mask---this had come directly from his "Ashram" at Shegaon.As a Blessing I was handed a beautiful Photograph of the Saint and a tiny Booklet printed with a Synopsis of his Life.I got the Photograph framed and decided to add it to the other Photographs in the Family Shrine. Both the girls came to take a look at the new addition---and just froze---their mouths hanging open in shock!!!"Ma---THIS is the Old Man who's in this Room" they both said incredulously!!Was I relieved to hear that-----that explained the wonderful Vibes I felt here!!!That very night they shifted to their Bedroom---and next morning claimed that they'd slept the best sleep of their lives---and even today still prefer His company to ours whenever they visit us!!
Vahini's has perhaps been the strongest influence on me----she is extremely religious and that rubbed off on me too!!She taught me the basic rituals involved in performing "Pooja"---and also got me started on my "Aadhyaatmik" or Spiritual Journey.I have always been deeply religious---in performing various Fasts like the 16 Mondays dedicated to Lord Shiva---and have performed this Fast at least 5-6 times----it is a very difficult Fast calling for severe Rituals.I used to fast each consecutive Monday till the completion of the number 16---these would spread over 6-7 months because those Mondays that fell between the 1-5 days of the Menstrual Period were not counted---being considered "Unclean" despite adhering to the same pattern of Fasting as on other Mondays.I performed these by fasting without Food or Water for 24 hours--I'd brush my teeth too at midnight Monday began---that's the kind of a stickler to Rituals I was----taking only 1 Glass of Water and a tiny piece of Crystalised Sugar or "Khadee Saakhar/Misri" at 7p.m. each Monday!!As my dedication to performing the religious activities grew---so did my recitation of "Aum/Om" the ultimate Chant!!!Thanks to this my perceptions of the "other" kind heightened and intensified immensely.I began dreaming of strange things---and finally one day I felt a sensation in myself---a tingling started in my head during my ritual chant of "Aum"---this tingling grew and spread right down to my toes---and a huge Ball of immense Light exploded in my Mind---leaving me exhiliarated but scared----Mummy said it was my "Kundalini waking up" or my "extra Sensory Perception" becoming heightened !!I began feeling detached from my daily Life---thanks to my heightened sensitivity I could smell the Scented Atmosphere of a Temple,hear the rhythmic tinkling of musical Anklets---as if someone was walking around in the house----filling it with Peace and Traquility!!
One incident however put a stop to all this-----one night it was raining heavily and I had a very strange Dream.I dreamt that somebody rang the Door Bell.I opened the inside Door---we have two Doors---a solid Wood one and a Grilled Safety Door as well---and all I could see outside the Safety Door was a Radiant Female form---dressed in a Dark Green nineyard Sari,wearing lots of Gold and Precious Stone studded Jewellery,thick Black hair cascading down Her back---Her very Being exuding a wonderfully perfumed Presence!!She calmly passed through Safety Door and taking my hand led me into the a particulr Corner of my Living Room.There She passed Her Hand over my head and murmured---"Continue on the Path you are walking only if you want to become a Recluse and renounce the World----cutting away all bonds of the flesh---if not, pull back now---for I do not accept half hearted disciples.If you pull back now I will understand and will stay here with you---when you need me just close your eyes and think of me---I will be there!!" and She disappeared.I awoke with a start---to find myself in the Living Room where She led me---and the Front Door wide open!!!Brought to my senses I decided to draw back as She must have known I would and went back to bed.The next morning Lotta startled me by asking me as why I was walking around the House in the middle of the night----it seems the tapping of my thick,heavy Silver Toerings woke her up!!Till today I've not understood whether it was a Dream or a Vision!!

  
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PARM01 4/9/2011 4:53AM

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FRAN0426 4/8/2011 9:32PM

    A fantastic blog to read, thoughly mesmerized thoughout your blog, thanks for sharing it.

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MILLISMA 4/8/2011 4:40PM

    Your writings are always so beautiful. Thanks for posting.

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BOVEY63 4/8/2011 1:09PM

    How amazing!

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SAASHA17 4/8/2011 12:11PM

    Wow u are lucky to see The swamiji. I strongly believe in Shirdi baba and do his parayan and all. I even wrote the charitra once...Its amazing to know even in this world, u could see his forms...And ofcourse the all knowing Devi...you are really blessed Komal:)

Manasa

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*MADHU* 4/8/2011 11:23AM

    Beautiful emoticon

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ZANNACHAN 4/8/2011 10:46AM

    Dreams, visions, must they be mutually exclusive? It sounds like a pretty powerful and meaningful experience, either way.

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My Dreams and Premonitions--2

Wednesday, April 06, 2011

Of all my Attributes Premonitions scare me the most!!!However Daddy's deal with God worked---he died and I lived----facing a lot of Health problems through the years---but then I have a very high threshold of Pain----so as long as it is me bodily and personally,who has the Problems---it's quite okay by me!!Dreams are a different kettle of Fish altogether!!
During my Preganancies I used to dream of visiting an Ancient Temple Compound.The moment I stepped intoo this Compound I'd be confronted by a shiny Golden Cobra---and I'd start running for my Life---since I'm terrified of Snakes!!This Cobra would chase me to a small Shiva Temple in a remote Corner of Temple Compound----and would wait there while I worshipped at the "Shivalinga"---and would just sit there keeping it's beady eyes focussed on me!!I'd wake up with my heart beating rapidly as well as sweating profusely in fear---and bad Cramps in the calves of both my legs---as if I'd actually been running!!!During the second Preganancy the Dream repeated itself with a slight difference---this time there were 2 Golden Cobras instead of the earlier single one!!!The moment my daughters were born---the Dreams stopped!!Mummy used to say that this Dream was an indication of me being under Divine Protection---maybeso----but since Sayali's birth I've never dreamt it again!!Each time my Deliveries have been terribly complicated and long winded---so I guess I'm inclined to agree with Mummy!!The best is yet to come---a few years earlier I accompanied Mummy to her Cousin's home.When we were leaving after our visit this aunt of mine came down to see us off---and gestured to an Ancient Shrine nearby---suggesting that since it was Monday---a day dedicated to Lord Shiva--why didn't we pay a visit there??We agreed and the moment I stepped into the Compound I froze!!!It was the same Shrine I used to dream about during my Preganancies---but luckily minus the Snakes!!!
Another Dream that has stayed vividly with me concerns my Father.We shifted to our present home 6 months after he died---since Mummy's Flat wasn't ready then---they too moved in with me.On Daddy's birthday I had a Dream---early in the morning around 4 a.m.----I remember the hour because I woke up very excited!!I dreamt that it was early morning and the doorbell rang.When I opened the Door---daddy stood there smiling at me with his usual lopsided smile---and I just flung myself at him in joy!!!"Daddy you're still alive---you're not dead!!" I cried clinging to him!!He patted me gently on my back and said"No I'm not---but I've come to see your new Home---won't you show it to me?" and he walked into the house,through all the rooms---commenting on the Decor and Furnishings--and finally settled down on the Sofa in the Living Room and stretched out his legs the way he used to do.Looking at me he said"I loved your Flat and the way you have done it up----be very happy here!!Remember that I love you all--any time you feel scared just think of me and I'll be there--always!!"
and he just faded away!!I woke up all excited for the Dream was very real----I had actually felt the touch of Daddy's skin under my hands---and ran through the rooms looking for him but to no avail!!Later when I told Mummy about this she said he'd been very worried about me and was talking about calling me up seconds before he died.His death was very peaceful and sudden---he died of a massive Heart Attack mercifully brief---for one moment he was alive---the next dead!!
My Sayali has a lot of his habits---uncannily like him in certain things---that sometimes I wonder who lived and who died at that perticular moment Sayali suffered that Convulsion?Sayali's early growth was pretty fast---she began speaking early,walking early---even insisted on drinking her Milk from a glass instead of a baby bottle as early as 7 months!!Not just that she was very attached to and possessive about Mummy---so much so that she used to insist on Mummy applying a Red Dot on her forehead---Mummy'd stopped wearing it after Daddy died---but Sayali would insist that she looked funny without it---not just that,Sayali insisted on Ritu removing Daddy's Watch---saying that the Watch was hers and that Ritu had no business wearing her things!!She was barely a year old then!!She also told me where the Lucky Farthing that Daddy carried in his Wallet always was kept---- in fact she pointed out the exact position of it was in his Wallet!!!As she grew up these things ceased and now she does not remember any of it!!She has inherited his Stamina and single mindedness of Purpose----not just that I admire her for the efficiency she possesses---she has turned into an extra efficient Wife while being Professionally successful too---all the things Daddy felt were needed in an intelligent Woman!!!He'd tell Mummy jokingly sometimes that he'd have taught her a thing or two about being an efficient housekeeper had he been a woman!!

  
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EACHDAYAGIFT 4/7/2011 10:53AM

    My mom did when I was 17, but the first night each of my newborn children were home, I had the identical dream of my Mom standing silently in the same spot by the crib, looking down at her new grandchild. I've also had some disturbing and just odd premonitions that came true. In high school I bought this odd little creature that hung on a spring for a friend who had a birthday a week apart from mine. I had never seen one in any other store. From the moment I took it to the cashier until she unwrapped it, I had this strong sense : "She got you the same thing."Sure enough, when we exchanged gifts, it was true. I didn't tell her...it was too eerie. When my sister announced her first pregnancy, I was so excited, I called a florist to have flowers delivered to her. I had the strongest sense of "Don't do this. She is going to have a miscarriage". It proved true, and she never did carry a baby to term. I felt so creeped out that I knew ahead of time, almost like I partly caused it, although I know that was not true. There have been other instances with my daughter, but never anything with someone I wasn't close to.

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RATHIMANI 4/7/2011 10:24AM

    Amazing!!! I loved reading this :)

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PARM01 4/7/2011 2:49AM

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ZANNACHAN 4/6/2011 6:48PM

    How cool that you saw your father again in a dream and go to show him your new flat.

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BOVEY63 4/6/2011 4:40PM

    What an amazing dream of your father visiting your new home. I love hearing of the bond you had with him.
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I would have been so terrified if I had the dreams you had - I am also terrified of snakes of any size. I don't believe you could have gotten me into shrine.

Keep on writing - I so enjoy reading your blogs.

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SAASHA17 4/6/2011 12:24PM

    emoticon That must have been wonderful to see your father come and approve ur flat and all. take care and I always tell anyone who will listen that, You are an amazing woman , so strong. I dont think I know anyone who can handle everything with such strength. I am blessed to have you as a friend Komal.

Love ya
Manasa

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My Dreams and Premonitions--1

Tuesday, April 05, 2011

My Aaji(maternal Grandma) was blessed with the "Second Sight"---she could see Ghosts!!!Mummy possessed "Sixth Sense" and she could dream of certain Events before they happened---and me---unfortunately I'm cursed with the earlier 2 and an addition---Premonition!!I hate all these 3 things---for it's more of a Curse than a Blessing!!Ghosts are not always seen---they can more often be felt---and this gives me the Goosebumps---and raises my Hackles!!!Still Ghosts are much preferable to Dreams and Premonitions ----because this "Feeling" is vague---no actual Time limit or any other Perimeter is set.
In 1973 Daddy was asked by the then Prime Minister Sir Ram Goolam to come to newly independent Mauritius to help design their new Buildings.In fact an Official Letter was sent to New Delhi---actually requesting the then Indian Prime Minister,Mrs.Indira Gandhi for a loan of Daddy's Skills by Sir Ram Goolam!!At the same time his appointment as Principal in his Alma Mater---Sir J.J. College of Architecture was in process---in fact we'd even gone and selected a Bungalow for him at the Kalina Campus of the University!!This Mautius thing however as too big an offer---besides considering the Source it came from----so automatically there was no reason to refuse it!!Daddy went there for the Negotiations and came back to Bombay on Cloud 9---they'd accepted all his terms!!So it was finally decided that my Parents and sisters would leave for Mauritius on the 3rd.November 1973---after celebrating Diwali with us in Bombay.
Since this Mauritius thing started I began feeling uneasy---I mean that something just wasn't right!!As their date of Departure neared I began feeling very sad and depressed---an unusaual thing for me----but this sense of Foreboding just wouldn't abate!!Things came to a head a day before they left----I started weeping incessantly---clinging to not only Daddy but also to Mummy---which was the most surprising developement of all!!The Floods of Tears grew worse till finally a very worried Daddy with a Security Guard in tow--- came back just to meet me after clearing Immigration!!!He asked me why I was crying so badly and out of the Blue I answered---Because this is our last meeting Daddy---one of is going to die soon"!!He was stunned at my answer but unhesitatingly came his reply"Then it will be me---I'll trade my Life for yours anytime---that's my solemn Promise to you!!!And if this is indeed our last Meeting---then remember-----being a Good Human Being is what counts the most-----not how rich or influential you are.If I consider myself to be in the Image of God---then so are others---Saute the God residing in their hearts!!".He hugged me and left---turning around often to wave to me till he disappeared from sight.My words were prophetic---it Was indeed the last time we met!!!He died in Mauritius on the 15th.October 1974!!The entire night after that I could feel my Father's presence in the doorway of my Bedroom---and by the time Mummy called at 5 a.m. in the morning to announce his death---I already knew he was no more!!

  
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RATHIMANI 4/7/2011 10:19AM

    Wow...sent me the chills and my eye got teary reading this...it must ve been a hard feeling...hugs!!!!

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ANITAS66 4/6/2011 9:21AM

    I felt the chill go up my spine. I am sorry about your father. I don't know what will I do without my parents. emoticon

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MILLISMA 4/5/2011 5:08PM

    This I do understand since I take after my grandmother. As a child, it was a little frightening. I also believe it is stronger when you are really close to the person as you were to your father. You are a special lady in so many ways. I have such great admiration for you.

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BOVEY63 4/5/2011 4:06PM

    So amazing and scary at the same time. What a beautiful last moment you were able to share with your beloved dad.
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EACHDAYAGIFT 4/5/2011 2:54PM

    Everything I read about your Dad makes me love him. I love that he didn't tell you your feelings were nonsense, that he took that opportunity to give you such memorable parting words, in case you were right. I imagine you treasure them, and the fact that he came to you after he died. The convulsion is interesting, making me think your daughter has inherited your sensitivity to these things?

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SAASHA17 4/5/2011 11:45AM

    Komal,

I have read this about your dad before, but this time, I could not stop myself from crying.. Dads are the best thing a daughter can ever have. and only a few are lucky to experience this.

take care and love ya...

Manasa

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ZANNACHAN 4/5/2011 10:35AM

    emoticonYeah, I can see that being a wee bit uncomfortable.

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ZANNACHAN 4/5/2011 10:35AM

    emoticonYeah, I can see that being a wee bit uncomfortable.

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*MADHU* 4/5/2011 9:33AM

    emoticonReading this gave the shivers emoticon emoticon

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