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Monday, May 20, 2013

Sitting at the Computer for a while is a pain---literally!!After suffering for over a month I finally went to the Doctor.Result?The start of Arthritis coupled with a Vitamin D2 and D3 deficiency---that's what was causing me to walk with a rolling gait,making it impossible to sit for long periods and yes I had to reduce my walks into small 10 minute stretches--but doggedly walk I did!!Anyway there are Pills to help control the pain and bring the levels back to normal.Tomorrow I go back to the Doctor with all the Reports and let's see what he says besides the Physiotherapy and Diathermy that have already been advised.So wish me Luck Folks--that pain's driving me nuts--besides making me crabby!!

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CHERIRIDDELL 5/22/2013 11:48PM

    Good Luck Komal I am so sorry to hear you are suffering from arthritis that is one thing I wish we did not share ! I hate my arthritis.I see the doctor Friday .

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REKHAKAKR 5/21/2013 12:03PM

    Oh. ... Hope you are feeling better now emoticon .

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SONPARI1 5/21/2013 7:46AM

    emoticon Keep us posted on your progress, good luck!

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ANU_20 5/21/2013 2:07AM

    Sorry to hear that! I know how painful it is...have been seeing my mom suffer since so many years now. Although very challenging in this condition, the best way to not let it become worse is to just keep moving...how much ever you can manage! Best wishes n Take care!

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BOVEY63 5/20/2013 4:52PM

    Prayers that all goes well and the doctor finds a solution for your pain.

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LOOKINGUP2012 5/20/2013 3:07PM

    Sorry to hear this illness has attacked you. Sending emoticon and prayers.

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RIDMYCOCOON 5/20/2013 12:09PM

    BEST of luck! emoticon

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MILLISMA 5/20/2013 11:36AM

    Hope things work out and you get some relief. Wishing you luck and keeping you in my prayers. emoticon emoticon

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RAIN454 5/20/2013 10:04AM

    Good luck and hope you feel better soon. Sounds painful. Good going on getting in some walk time. Thats awesome!

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SAASHA17 5/20/2013 8:41AM

    Good luck Komal and keep us posted!!


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A Silken Skein--1

Tuesday, May 14, 2013

Yesterday afternoon I got an extremely pleasant surprise.One of my very close childhood friends Anita--known to our group as "Pony' called up from Chandigarh just because a burst of sudden Summer Showers reminded her of me and our childhood and adolescence together.It was a wonderful half hour--reminiscing and chatting about the Past but it completely renewed and refreshed my jaded soul--bored to death in this sweltering humid heat!!A Silken Skein of forgotten Memories opened up----and those days came alive once more in my memory.
We were a motley group of friends studying in the same School,same Grade and living within a few minutes of each other.We shared many things---including a Cycle Rickshaw run by a fellow called "Moti" to ferry us to and from School in both Summers and Winters.During the Monsoons, the heavy downpours meant that Moti needed to make a greater number of trips to ensure that all of us reached both School and home sufficiently dry!!During the fine Weather there would be about 8-10 of us stashed into the Rickshaw---a tight fit but great Fun--for we would irritate poor Moti by teasing him about many things---but mainly the size of his Rickshaw and the tight fit!!!Moti stayed in our Bungalow--Daddy had taken a liking to him and given him the Outhouse as he preferred to call the Servants Quarter built to one side.A few years later Daddy managed to get him a job as a Peon in the Government Office and Moti became a permanent fixture in our home.Moti was a Bengali and skilled at cooking up Bengali Sweets and Savouries--hence an asset whenever we had Parties--he'd help out the Cook to prepare the stuff.Later when Sohan Singh left, Moti stepped in as general factotum to help around the House. Moti would eat his Meals with us--and considered all three of us his wards---Sudhir as the "Jamaaee Babu" or son-in-law was placed on a very high pedestal!!In 1973 my parents shifted to Mauritius on deputation and that was the last time he visited us in Bombay.However I digress---initially Moti was just a Rickshaw Walla--though a very popular and beloved one.
We were a group of 5 friends--Pony,Neelu,Gauri,Arunima and me.Of all of us it was Neelu's home we loved to converge in.Her grandparents--- Ammaji and Baaujee---- would spend the six months of the Summer and Monsoon with her in Chandigarh.We all waited eagerly for them to arrive--for that meant a Summer Vacation filled with a lot of Love and pampering for all of us equally--there would be no favourites!!Ammaji would bring with her so many Goodies from their ancestral Land in Bareilly--Sweet Pickles called "Murabbas",spicy Vegetable Pickles and above all for me a special bottle of yummy,spicy Bamboo and Dill Pickle--which I hoarded and treated like Gold much to Mummy's irritation!!I'd change the hiding place of my bottle at least 3 times each day---and howl like a Banshee when I finished it about 6 months later!!Both Ammaji and Baaujee were the quintessential grandparents I used to dream of having--cuddly,warm,approachable and infinitely lovable!!!I never knew my paternal Grandpa for he died long before I was even thought of--and my maternal grandpa Aazoba was exactly like Baaujee--but both my maternal and paternal Grandmas were not the types one cuddled upto!!Though warm and loving ,neither encouraged physical contact and preferred showing their love by cooking up their Specialities for us whenever they visited us or we them.That is one trait that I have inherited---I too prefer to keep my distance!!Ammajee was a dumpling of a woman--petite,round and warm!!For us girls she'd have innumerable stories from the Past--married off at age 10 she grew up with Baaujee 5 years her senior--and both were very attached to each other.Ammajee's arrival meant wonderful "Ambi Panna" as she called Green Mango Squash.She'd make it fresh for us daily--roasting the Green Mangoes in the embers of the Coal Fires till charred--and then peeling and mashing these well before adding ground "Misri" or Rock Sugar to it along with a few drops of finely ground Mint Juice and roasted Cumin Powder.Jugfuls of this mixture would be mixed with Water and she ensured we drank plenty of it throughout the day---this Summer drink is the perfect Summer Cooler and helps combat the Indian version of "Mistral" Wind of the Indian Plains called the "Loo"!!Yuuuuuuum!!
Another thing that I loved was the wonderful Dal she'd make.she insisted on all of us assisting her while she cooked--and many of my Vegetarian dishes have been taught by her---but no matter how hard I try somehow I cannot replicate the remembered taste.All of us would stay over at Neelu's whenever Ammajee was there--lured by the fabulous taste of her cooking.Her Recipes were simple and rustic for light everyday fare---not heavy with Ghee or Spices but somehow so lusciously mouthwatering that we all could never really get enough of them!!The first Summer Showers would be celebrated with huge amounts of fried Vegetable "Pakodas" or Fritters served with tangy Green Chutney ground with Green Mango,Mint,Fresh Coriander,spicy Green Chillies ,Black Salt and a pinch of Sugar to accompany it.There would also be large cups or glasses of strong,fragrant,sweet "Masala Chai" quaffed in generous amounts--to welcome the sudden dropping of the high tempratures!!
We were encouraged to soak in these first Showers---and most often these would be Hail Storms.All of us would rush out with our volumnious skirts outstretched to catch those tiny balls of Ice hurtling down in a deafening tattoo from the thunderous Sky above-----beating on our necks and backs with a sizeable thumping sound!!Crunching these under our teeth sitting on the slushy ground while more poured down is one of the simple pleasures of Summer that I miss here in Mumbai--not that I have the energy to rush out and eat these today--but those associations are so good and infinitely satisfying!!

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CHERIRIDDELL 5/22/2013 11:45PM

    My mouth waters when I read some of your memories LOL! They remind me of my own.I took Kayleigh and her friends to our favourite Indian restaurant for her birthday and I amused the owner.She knows I am familiar with all the delicacies and I have a shall we say "spicier " palate than most North Americans and they ask my advice and I tell them things are mild and I am piling my plate with them and they look like they have consumed flaming embers after a mouthful of what I have been chucking down happily ....I am always nice enough to advise them to order a mango lassi in case their taste for spice is not as developped as mine LOL!

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MILLISMA 5/14/2013 9:04PM

    What a great surprise!!!! Thanks for sharing.

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RAIN454 5/14/2013 6:31PM

    Im hungry for pickle now. Growing up in the US, the only pickle I ever knew existed were lemon and mango. I remember my uncle made me some cranberry pickle once and I was flabbergasted by the idea that there were other pickles out there and since have been on the lookout to try as many as I can find. Ive tasted a few now but none of the ones you mentioned (wait..dill but then thats a totally different kind of pickle hehe). Recently I tasted shrimp pickle..not so great but different. Wow, all this talk of pickles and I can't help my mouth from watering. I have a sudden urge for a slice of lemon now :)

Btw, so Pony, Moti...did you ever have a nickname??? Just curious :D

Mines "Baby" and its so embarrassing growing up hearing it from everyone. My uncles official name is Baby so he had it worse...and he's 20 years younger than my dad (my dad was the oldest and he was the youngest) so he's closer to our age (and lived here in the US longer than his siblings) so we get a kick out of embarrassing our Baby Uncle...

okay, that was a long post, sorry for taking up so much room on here! Hope you are doing well Komal. Have a good summer.

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BOVEY63 5/14/2013 1:08PM

    Another wonderful surprise visitor!
Enjoyed hearing more of your memories.

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SAASHA17 5/14/2013 7:31AM

    That is so awesome...it s always fun to meet ur friends from childhood. thats how i felt when i went to India after 5 years..good old days...yum!! on the achars and everything...my Hoard was from my Gujju neighbor..lots of CHunda....Yum!! I still remember the taste:)...

take care and love u..

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WEARINGTHIN 5/14/2013 4:18AM

    The food and friendships in your life sound very memorable. You're lucky to have all of those postivie memories. Good luck to you, Glenn

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ZRIE014 5/14/2013 12:54AM

  that is nice

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Monday, May 13, 2013

Last night my cousin dropped by with his son for a visit.Shekhar or "Chhotu" as he is known is my favourite maternal aunt, Vidya Maushi's son.He was in the area to attend an Engagement Ceremony and recognising the landmarks ambled over to visit us---it was one of the fabulous impromptu Get Togethers that leave one feeling refreshed and chirpy!!
Mummy was the oldest among a clutch of 5 siblings---and Vidya Maushi was number 3.She was maybe 15 years old when I was born--and being the first Grandchild in Mummy's family I was very pampered and cosseted.For me Vidya Maushi was the epitome of Motherly Love while I was growing up--specially the 6 months we spent in Bombay during Mikki's birth---she acted as the barrier between Mummy and me for we never did see eye to eye on anything and everything!!I was spoilt,extremely willful and stubborn---and Mummy lacked the Patience to deal with me--specially in a heavily pregnant,bed ridden state!!It fell to Vidya Maushi to bathe me,feed me and generally keep me out of Mummy's way--something that was relatively easy in that huge sprawling old Flat.Vidya Maushi has sat with me in the Balcony for hours----singing to me,talking to me,cajoling me to eat my Meals by stringing stories around the Crows,the Pigeons and the Sparrows that populated the curved cast Iron awnings above the Iron balustrade.We'd sit there all day---catching the Breeze and gazing down at the crowded street below--the Trams ambling along with a clatter and the Red Double Decker BEST Buses making my heart flutter each time they turned the corner--they'd tilt so much on their sides that I expected any one of these to keel over and fall flat on it's side!!
An extremely beautiful young lady,she was perhaps the most beautiful woman I've seen---and while my mother and her other 2 sisters too classified under the beautiful tab none of them could hold a candle to Vidya Maushi.To my fanciful eyes she was the perfect candidate to play "Helen of Troy"!!Like all extremely beautiful women she was highly sought after in the Marriage Market---many eligible suitors beating a path to my Grandpa's door.Her heart however was already pledged---to another relative we called Subhash Mama.Now he came from a reputable family ,was a highly qualified Engineer and belonged to the same caste--but there was a "BUT"!!Vidya Maushi was 6 years older than him--and this was what the parents on both sides frowned upon.Both had to struggle to win parental approval but finally they were married in May 1965---unfortunately 6 months after my Grandpa passed away.
Both she and Subhash Mama made an extremely striking couple--she very,very beautiful and he so very dashingly handsome---they complemented each other so very beautifully.Subhash Mama had joined the Indian Army and because of this their Postings took them along the length and breadth of India.As I married very early both, Vidya maushi's sons feel like they were my nephews instead of my cousins---and their offspring are accordingly like my grandkids to me!!Vidya Maushi passed away in April 2011---a little before Sudhir---and another chapter in my life ended with her death.Keeping in touch with my cousins has kept her alive---but the person I knew was so very different from the one they were familiar with!!Spending time last night with Rohan and Chhotu sent a feeler to the Past once more----leaving me bathed in the warm glow of some wonderful, treasured childhood moments of my life!!

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CHERIRIDDELL 5/22/2013 11:35PM

    What a lovely surprise !

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BOVEY63 5/14/2013 1:04PM

    What a wonderful surprise!

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MILLISMA 5/13/2013 8:26PM

    What a wonderful time that had to have been.....with such wonderful memories. I can see where it would have warmed your heart and your soul.

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LOOKINGUP2012 5/13/2013 10:02AM

    Thank you for sharing this lovely story of another treasured relative. Real life is so much richer than the television many kids have for memories. You were blessed.

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Mother's Day!!!

Sunday, May 12, 2013

My mother was never wished on Mother's Day--we just never celebrated it while we were growing up in India.We were brought up on the old principle that we owe a debt of Life to our parents for giving us birth,nurturing and raising us into responsible Human beings and for that we were indebted to them for life!!Parents were to be always put on a pedestal and venerated.There is a tiny Legend which commemorates this.once Lord Vitthala visited Pundalik while he was attending to his parents' need.Pundalik threw Lord Vitthala a brick and asked him to stand on it and wait till he finished his duties!!I think this tale signifies the importance of Parents in the Indian way of Life---for our generation Parents were to be revered--never to be questioned!!
By the time I became a Mother things were gradually changing--and Western influences were slowly beginning to colour our perceptions.My daughters were very attached to their father--and because I was the disciplinarian--they'd wish him Mother's Day way before me--teasing me mercilessly about how he made a far better mother than me!!Father's Day was entirely his and even now those memories bring a smile to my lips and a twinkle to my eye.After they moved away they'd call and wish Sudhir before they wished me--and Sayali would order some Gifts online for me--mostly Flowers--which would cost her a pretty penny but arrive home bedraggled and half dead at unearthly hours of the morning till I finally put a stop to it.It was in 2007 during my Cancer Treatment that she sent me a cache of 4 Books as a Gift.while I recieved 2 of these the other two were supposedly out of stock--and have not made an appearance till date--despite having been fully paid for!!!That was the last straw---'Phone Calls were enough I decided when I put my foot down--Flowers and Gifts ordered and bought online were totally OUT!!
This year it has been a trifle disappointing--the Traders went on a Strike--resulting in the entire last week passing by with the Shops and Establishments closed due to a protest against a new Tax Bill.Hence we in Mumbai have spent a week that dragged by--done in by the sweltering,humid Heat,closed Shops and a soporofic effect on the Afternoon Siestas----even our rugged Vegetable and Fruit Vendors too have given up on selling between 2.00 p.m. and 4.30 p.m.----it is stiflingly hot on the Streets during that period!!So everywhere one goes it is all about Roadside Stalls covered with soaked Gunny Bags to keep the Fruit and Vegetables underneath fresh!!Today the Shops have re-opened again--so I guess it truly is a Happy Mother's Day for the Economy of Mumbai today!!!

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BOVEY63 5/14/2013 1:03PM

    I enjoyed you mother's day memory with the girls.

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MILLISMA 5/12/2013 8:15PM

    I remember listening to my grandparents talking about how things were for them, then my parents and now me. Yes, the times to continue to change and I wish we all still lived closer together like when I was a child.

Hope you had a very Happy Mother's Day and glad things have improved in Mumbai.

hugs....Mary Anne

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    Happy Mpother's Day my friend. I like that every day parents should be celebrated by their children but alas, as you said, times have changed.
For good or bad the nuclear family has spread out to the far away and I don't know where that will lead. As I cared for my parents my children tease they will care for me too and promise they will not put pink bows in my hair should I become dottering in my old age!

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CHERIRIDDELL 5/12/2013 1:25AM

    A very Happy Mother's Day to you Komal I don't believe for a minute that you were not a fabulous Mum , I too was saddled with the yolk of disciplinarian as Al being military was often away. Yet now when she is older I hear when I was in the hospital and he tried to read her stories ,she would say "Do the voices like Mummy " or to his total and abject horror when I was in hospital in Nova Scotia (we had only been there a short while and I had to have an adjustment to the screws in my knee joints ) Kayleigh calmly said "I don't want McDonald's Daddy I want Palak paneer and paneer stuffed naan ,hot " Al madly searched through the phone book only to find there was no Indian takeaway in Greenwood !

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My Beliefs

Thursday, May 02, 2013

I was enrolled in my beloved Carmel Convent School when it was but a fledgeling Institution---and my Roll No. in the School Register was 103.I still remember being petrified of Mother Marcia--and in love with Mrs. Samuels--my first class teacher.Mrs. Samuels remained my favourite all through my School years--and Mother Marcia the disciplinarian Ogre till the very end!! How I loved that Aeroplane shaped Building set in a huge Compound filled with thick Banyan and Mango trees.The circular Montessori building came up much later but the basic serenity of our School environments rarely changed.
We grew up in an Era when many old beliefs and superstitions clung to the Society of that time.The back Gate of the School faced a huge Park--which was dotted with many big trees--Peepul,Banyan,Jaamun to name a few.We were strictly forbidden to come to this Park during both the Short and Lunch Breaks for there were fears of Kidnappers lurking in there.Many a times we'd see the gnarled roots of the Peepul or Banyan Trees spread with a Red coloured square cloth--a sure sign that the Tantriks lurked there!!We were young enough to be petrified at the sight---and when that happened we'd insist on the Rickshaw pullers who were contracted to ferry us to and from School to bring the Cycle Rickshaws in----no one wanted to end up as a victim of those Tantriks!!Funny thing is we never ever saw one--but the fear was very real and almost physically palpable!!Superstition mixed with Black Magic creates a very potent Cocktail!!
In my case my nanny Amma, was a very superstitious Hill women--firmly believing in Good as well as Evil.Her fearful,grudging respect of Black Magic rubbed off on my impressionable mind.Around the same time my seeing a Ghost in the Circuit House in Kasauli and an encounter with her "Ojha" or Exorcist firmly fixed the thought that we are all susceptible to both Good and Evil and only our personal mental strength can help us combat the forces of Evil.India was still firmly entrenched in the Ancient beliefs and though today I still respect some of these Beliefs, during my childhood these were very real possibilities and a force to reckon with.From Amma I learnt to revere Nature or "Kudrat" as she called it as a very real Power--for according to her anyone who broke the basic Laws of Nature would get their just retribution meted out to them during the course of their lives!!I think she was right--for Mother Nature is meting out her Justice to Mankind for having abused her generosity today!!
I was an extremely fanciful child with a very vivid imagination---day dreaming most of the time in School---a cause of concern to both parents and teachers alike.Despite being very popular I was basically a loner--and loved my own company a lot.Maybe this is why I've been able to maintain a normalcy since Sudhir died-----one can never have any Best Friend like oneself!!
Another legacy she gave me was a deep core of unshakeable Faith in The Almighty.He/She has always been and will always be the very base of my existence--God/Goddess was larger than Life,very,very real and tangible.Amma indulged in a lot of things--Poojas,Fasts and feeding the poor.The one thing that we all enjoyed the most was her "Nirjali" Ekadashi Fast at the height of Summer."Nirjali" means Waterless in Sanskrit and Ekadashi is the 11th. day of the Lunar Calendar.During this Fast she would not drink even Water for an entire 24 hours---instead would dole out cold sugared Water to passers by during the day.We lived in Sector 7 and right behind us one of the huge arterial roads lay--- running North to South.It was
called the Sarovar Path leading to the man made Sukhna Lake.There were a large number of shady Trees bordering this Road--blessed with a very thick foliage and it was under these Trees that we'd set up a tub of Drinking Water sweetened with raw Brown sugar and cooled with huge blocks of Ice.The aim was to serve the maximum number of passers by--but given the excruciating heat of June there would be very few of those--and we children would end up drinking the delicious Concoction by the litres---in fact at times we'd hear it sploshing around in our tummies!!
Amma actually believed in the genuineness of the Mendicants that came to the door----she'd pour a generous quantity of Whole Wheat Flour or Rice into their "Jholies" or Cloth Bags while sincerely asking them to bless her "Sa'ab and Bibiji" with a son to ease their way to their Afterlife and Infinity!!All the "Sa'ab and the Bibiji" acquired were two more daughters during the course of the next few years---but no "Moksha" giving son!!In Amma's room there was this luridly coloured Poster--showing the various stages of Hell a Human Spirit passes through after Death--a truly frightening depiction of a chain of Events!!Very earnestly she'd tell us with total conviction that this is what we'd have to endure if we were "bad" children--literally frightening us into becoming good girls!!Not that it was a bad theory--a deterrent always works!!Despite this Poster Amma's room was one of the most peaceful havens I encountered in my early life.Filled with the smoky scent of Incense and the scent of Jasmine Flowers,I'd be lying on the Grass Mat with my eyes closed---listening to Amma recite her numerous Prayers and Invocations to various Gods gave me the feeling of being in a Temple.The soft cadences of her voice rose and fell with an almost hypnotising musical lilt-----and these are some of the moments that I escape to during my Meditation Sessions.They refresh me and help me to face my life ahead with a semblance of Peace.
Over the years I acquired a questioning mind while studying the basic fundamental Ideas that form my Religious Beliefs.I am a product of a devout Hindu upbringing with a large sprinkling of Catholicism thrown in thanks to the Nuns--and later acquiring a healthy respect for many other Religions of my beloved Sub-Continent thanks to the people practicing those and with whom I came in close contact.Today I believe in looking at Humans and doing the best I can to help people I come in contact with---for there is nothing like giving of yourself and your means freely to Society.Today I follow what my heart and my head preach to the inner me----the positive tenets of a mix of Religions that appeal to me.Though loosely I can still be classified as a Hindu, I am more of a follower of the Religion of Humanity--absorbing the best that each Religion has to offer!!

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CHERIRIDDELL 5/12/2013 12:55AM

    I am in agreement with you .I have what many people consider an odd mixture of beliefs stemming from contact with various religions and a Mum who believed in according respect to all. That and a best friend called Gheeta when I was in school whose Mum always helped me learn all about the Hindu festivals !

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IMEMINE1 5/7/2013 12:26PM

    Your blog are always so interesting. Thank you. emoticon

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IMEMINE1 5/7/2013 12:25PM

    Your blogs are always so interesting. Thank you so much .

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BOVEY63 5/2/2013 12:49PM

    The beliefs of others have always intrigued and fascinated me. Thanks for sharing.

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LOOKINGUP2012 5/2/2013 8:47AM

    I believe in respect to all persons and doing good also. As far as religion, while I would do no harm to others, I am a part of a nation that is always at war thus causing much harm. I belive Christ spoke the universe into being and his death atones for our much sin against ourselves, others, and nature. Thank you again for a fascinating blog.

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    I am in alignment with you. All people are treated with the same respect no matter their religion. Mine is simply to do good and treat others as I wish to be treated!
Not sure about higher powers, though.

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