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LUCKYDUCK2
10/13/2009 12:21PM
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Keri, you are a valued friend and member on our team and so many times your blogs speak to me and help me help MYSELF. You have insites you share and you are so supportive of us. I am so glad you are here on this journey to good health with all of us. Hugs Sweetie   
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BUDDY_LOVE
10/13/2009 11:15AM
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It's people exactly like you that make sparkpeople what it is. If we don't pick each other up when they're down...who else is gonna do it?
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P316LEIA
10/13/2009 10:19AM
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Bless you too Keri! We'll make it through this journey together!  Hugs, Kimi Report Inappropriate Comment |
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ELLENIRENE
10/13/2009 9:49AM
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That cherished friend poem is beautiful. Thanks Report Inappropriate Comment |
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MRSBIGGLESWORTH
10/13/2009 5:02AM
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What a sweet message Keri! You're what makes Spark a great place to be!! Glad to have met you and lucky to be your friend!
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MSLZZY
10/13/2009 12:06AM
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Have a good night!
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ID_VANDAL
10/12/2009 10:39PM
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You know what Keri - Deegirl is right - you've been there for us when we were down. That's what it's all about (hey that could be a song!!) But seriously you have been a friend and as long as we work to improve ourselves the rest of the sparkers will be there offer suggestions, help, and encouragement. We all need that to succeed in this battle. You are a WONDERFUL lady and I'm glad we connected! Stay in the marathon - it's a life long race but one worth winning! Vandal 
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DEEGIRL50
10/12/2009 7:48PM
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To have a friend -- you need to be a friend!! I hope you know how highly appreciated your friendship has been too!! We like you!! We really, really like you!! 
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POSITIVELY_EB
10/12/2009 4:32PM
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Any time! Hugs! Beverly Report Inappropriate Comment |
This is a hard blog to write......
It's embarrassing and humiliating really.
I'm doing a challenge and one of the assignments is blogging about 5 things that help motivate you to stick to your goals and plan. I have put it off about as long as I could.
To tell the truth ......I don't think I have found those 5 things. I could tell you that these are my 5 motivation points:
1. I want to be healthy. I am on so many drugs for various malfunctions it's practically a meal!
2. I want to go for long walks and hikes with my hubby! We have always enjoyed that and in the last year my back hasn't really allowed for any lengthy walking.
3. I want to keep up with my grandkids and nieces and nephews. I don't want to be the fat grandma, auntie.
4. I want to look more professional. I just don't feel I project a winning disposition like this.
5. I want to have more energy to do the things I want to do.
What more motivation could I need?
But there seems to be a switch stuck between my desires and my reality. I hate it! I can't seem to control myself when that subliminal message comes at me saying it's okay to eat the wrong thing or do the wrong thing. I keep hoping that something is going to change and become the thing I need to get this done.
But I just don't know.....if breaks my heart to tell you the truth. Feeling like a failure is just something I don't enjoy. So to ask me what motivates me to stick to my plan.....I guess nothing at the moment. I guess I still haven't hit that no return button.
I wish I knew what to do............
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BUDDY_LOVE
10/10/2009 7:07PM
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OMGoodness. Now you're reading my mind! I could have written this blog myself. You just have to keep taking it one day at a time. Keep track of your calories, fat sodium, protein...whatever your worry of the day is. Mine is calories & sodium, and fiber is a biggie for me too. If i keep those down within range, everthing else falls into place on it's own. And once I get to my limit of calories & sodium for the day...that's it. I really seriously question everything I put into my mouth after I reach that limit, no matter what time of day it is. Is it worth it, to eat it? sometimes it is. sometimes it isn't. and sometimes I just don't care & do it anyway. why do I do this? why do I have the cravings? Why does it FEEL like I can't control it, instead it controls me? Lack of motivation? I don't think so. I AM motivated to lose weight. I AM losing weight. I WANT to do this. Lack of will power? I don't think so. I quit a 26 yr smoking habit. I quit a 20 yr drinking habit. No, it's not lack of motivation or will power. It's a craving for something and I don't think I'll ever find it in food. But that's what I chose to take solace in. Food. I think when I'm willing to be able to figure out why I do that...I think my motivation will find me. but until then, I have to have something to keep me from over doing it every day. To eat these things that seem to live in my brain and grow until I ackowledge it by eating that particular food item. You know what I'm talking about, because I could have written that blog. I think the 5 you listed is perfect motivation. My motivation is my anger. An anger at a dr who insists my back pain, my fibromyalgia, and the other numerous & too many to name illness's are all obesities fault. Even though I only take 4 medications, my b/p is fine...my problems all lie within my weight, so he says (before that, it was smoking). so I'm losing weight and excercising to prove my dr wrong. I have a long way to go to prove this dr wrong so we'll see. If he even lasts that long as my dr. I have a very long journey. We'll see :) If you feel those aren't true motivations, then just do it because you know it's good for you. that's what I tell myself evertime I eat a vegetable I havn't eaten in 40 yrs. Like pea's. Yuck. but I'm eating them! and spinich. And I'm liking it. (not really, but I'm telling myself I do). I wanted to eat unhealthy today. I really wanted a whopper with cheese, fries and a shake or something sweet. I instead took out of the freezer, some leftover asian curried shrimp & fried rice, any other time I would have thrown that away but I saved it this last time we ordered it and I'm glad I did!...it was a pretty good sized amount (like 3 cups) and I used a 3/4ths of cup serving. while that was heating up in the oven, I ate 3 snickers fun size bars. approx 300+ cals...but it's better than the whopper & fries I would have had (surely!). I NIBBLED on those while my shrimp & rice heated up. I looked through an old magazine also. took my mind off eating! I added a 1/2 cup of pea's to the curried shrimp dish. after that, All thoughts of driving 2 blocks to burger king had exited my mind. what I ate was more or less healthy. I havn't gone over anything in my daily nutrient count and I still have 300 calores & 1000mg of sodium to spend! You can do this. I really wanted that whopper. 750 calories. I'm not even gonna elaborate on the sodium. 750 said it all. Instead I had a spicy asian shrimp dish and 3 wonderful bite size candy bars. and it tasted way better than that whopper! I gave up questioning why I have these cravings. I just accept them. I try to circumvent them by offering myself a different healthier food option. sometimes I win, sometimes I don't. And when I don't win. I pick myself up and dust myself off. (I've heard spicy will cancel out food cravings and it seems to work for me!). But I think it's just an old wives tale, LOL. Comment edited on: 10/10/2009 7:13:27 PM Report Inappropriate Comment |
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LUCKYDUCK2
10/9/2009 10:55PM
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WHEN does this subliminal message talk to you? Are you bored, stressed, happy or sad? These messages come in front of a trigger and a learned response to eat because of it. This is more then calories in and calories out. That is a diet. Here, you are successful also if you can identify the trigger that wants you to eat. The next time it hits..stop and ask yourself am I physically hungry? How long ago did I eat? If it has been over three hours..let yourself have a snack. Is it a trigger response? What is happening right now...what am I feeling and why? If you can identify where the craving is coming from and why, you can come up with a plan of action to fight back. Start with a good mini-goal and build on it one week at a time. When you feel the craving...have a glass of water first. This is not to fill yourself up but because our body sends out the same signal when it is thirsty or hungry. It may be a signal for water or liquid. Don't be hard on yourself..this takes time. Old habits and triggers go out kicking and screaming and many times when we think we have control..they try again. Your not alone here with this. I fight and win...fight and lose. The key is to keep trying and one day it all falls into place. Hugs Report Inappropriate Comment |
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POSITIVELY_EB
10/9/2009 2:57PM
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Oh, Keri! I have been in and out of that stage so many times - I know how discouraging it can be! Sometimes you just have to wait it out. Not a nice thing to hear, I know, but keep working a plan - any plan is better than none at all! And keep active in your teams! Love ya, sweetie! Beverly Report Inappropriate Comment |
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ID_VANDAL
10/9/2009 10:13AM
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Hi KO - I hear your pain and I think lots of us go though this so you are NOT ALONE - that's what makes this site go great you can put the feelings down and that sometimes helps focus you and then you can get ideas like Quarky's and then see what works for you. Here's another idea - sometimes maybe you don't need to feel motivated - just do the small things right because it's the right thing to do. I struggled for years trying to understand math until one of my teachers said you don't really need to understand it all just use the formula - someone else has already done the behind the scenes stuff - just use the formula. I know that's probably over simplifying it but sometimes it works. Stay in the game with us and READ YOUR BECK'S cards - that really helps me. Vandal
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QUARKY
10/8/2009 5:19PM
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Why don't you start really small, and make tiny changes to your lifestyle which will then become habit. This is what I've been doing, because I have huge difficulty with organisation and planning. I started by drinking a barleygrass drink every morning - a teaspoon of barleygrass powder in water. I now do this every morning. Then I bought a mini trampoline, and I jump on that every day, even if just for a couple of minutes. It's about establishing a routine that you can build on.
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