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It's okay to be hungry!

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

Even as I type that title, my inner two year old (you know, the one who likes to have hissy fits about wanting it now!) is screaming "What? You want me to starve? What are you thinking?" (Heavy sigh)

It's not been a good week for me so far, and it's only Wednesday. I sabatoged myself over the weekend and I've been spending everyday since trying to make up for it. I am in a FSC challenge and I don't want to let my team down.......makes me sick to think about it.

Why did I do it? I don't know......that is like the million dollar question. I guess in the back of my mind I thought, one day isn't going to hurt me....it's one meal.....I'll make up for it tomorrow. Well, tomorrow never came over the weekend and I went out to eat 5 times! I KNOW better than that. Well needless to say, I gained 4 lbs. from that indulgence.

I've been doing a lot of reading lately, trying to get a handle on why I eat what I do and how to change those behaviors. The common theme is that you really need to retrain your body and mind to think and act like a thin person. I've been practicing some techniques that have been challenging and frustrating at the same time. Techniques like delaying meals, having smaller meals...denying myself snacks. You should try it sometime. It's an interesting experiment.

It's hard to tell your body and mind, that it's okay to be hungry......you don't have to act on it. It's NOT an emergency. There are times that I feel like (very overboard I realize; but my mind is mine) I'm gonna die if I don't eat something or at the very least I'll pass out from being so weak! (That will show me!!!!) And low and behold it passes and turns out; I'm just fine. Yes, that's right......I'm fine.....in no danger of dying from starvation or passing out from weakness.

Yes, it's okay to be hungry....it's kind of like a right of passage. This IS the door I have to go through to achieve my goals and be the thin, healthy person I miss. It's working, I've lost two of those nasty pounds and I am positive I will lose the rest plus more.

But.....I'm still hungry.............

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ID_VANDAL 9/16/2009 3:08PM

    Hi KO, First of all GIVE YOURSELF CREDIT for recognizing a destructive pattern. You will get through this and be stronger for it.

That inner voice (2 year old) that you talk about is a real killer unless you get it working for you. There is an article on the motivation page today talking about self-talk and I'll send it to you.

Oh hunger by the way - I drink a 5 oz can of low sodium V8 and add a tablespoon or so of ground flaxseed. That always seems to help me get past the hunger pangs.

You keep going and take care of yourself!



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AMBERROGUE 9/16/2009 1:51PM

    I totally feel ya! Hang in there!

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KIM0422 9/16/2009 12:32PM

    My mother always said that "good food won't make you fat", and you know what? She is right! If you are truly hungry, eat a piece of fruit or some veggies, even a single serve bag of low-fat popcorn. If you tell yourself that there is ALWAYS something you can eat (if you really want to) you will be amazed at how quickly the "cravings" go away!

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KELLYC_14FAN 9/16/2009 10:48AM

    I eat three meals and two snacks a day. At the end of the day if I am still hungry I eat something small like some almonds or fruit. Or a glass of low fat milk works well for me too. You are doing great though!! I ate fast food this weekend too and my stomach paid for it!!! I realized, I cannot eat whopper jr's and fries anymore!! The mini-meals idea from ONEMORETHING is a good idea as well. Maybe you can try that? Keep up the good work though, you are doing great!!

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LISAM2301 9/16/2009 10:32AM

    You know what I feel the SAME way.....my trick is to sometimes have a can of seltzer and a 100 calorie snack.......that way i feel like Im MUNCHING!!!!!!! LOL....Keep going strong!!!!

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ONEMORETHING 9/16/2009 10:21AM

    YOu know if you are still hungry I would think it would cause you to eat more and then feel even worst cause you know you ate the wrong things?If I am hungry then I eat I tried to eat foods that are low in calories I watch my portions but I am not as strong as you and I will be eating something so why not have healthy good tasting snacks to help you out? Those 100 calories works for me and they taste good I make myself drink water and lots of it and I eat more slowly too which seems to be helping me out more but it seems to me you are not a quitter you will not give up and you will go on loosing weight but if you ever need support we are here for you but I think eating mini meals all through the day may help you out eat more of fruit that may help too? Remember you are not perfect and you will make mistakes but you know what you are doing and I think you are going to do a good job!

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Disgusted with Disrespect

Monday, September 14, 2009

You have probably already heard about the major disrespect shown to Taylor Swift last night by Kayne West at the VMA's last night. I'm not going to rehash the whole thing, but what a shmuck!

It is just unbelieveable to me that people can do things like that. He felt he was righting an injustice, yet he committed a bigger disrespect in the process. Unreal!

And while we are on it, I have never seen such disrespect to a President during a congressional speech! What's up with that? Have we become a society of sore losers?

Are we so unable to accept things when they don't go our way? Are we so afraid of change?

It seems like it is no longer popular to have manners or respect for others. So we are becoming a society of bullies. How sad! I am not wired that way. Thank God!

It was refreshing to see Beyonce and Taylor last night. Taylor for not defending herself or justifying his tirad and Beyonce for doing the only thing she could by righting the wrong. I will forever remember how they responded rather than how "he who will not be named by me again" reacted.

Something to ponder....

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ID_VANDAL 9/15/2009 1:30PM

    Wow - now this is a great blog! and I agree with you and everyone else who has commented. We have become a society of total oblivons - we don't notice or, if we do notice, don't seem to care about anyone's comfort or safety. It's all about us.

Just look at the road rage we endure or how impatient we are at having to wait.

I know there are a lot of great people out there - it's the rude ones that get noticed and they seem to thrive on it!

Just my humble opinion.


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KING*GET*FIT 9/15/2009 9:32AM

    He has probably lost all respect by the media gods and may have damaged his career. One can only hope because in my opinion that is what he deserves for his outburst.

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LUCKYDUCK2 9/15/2009 12:14AM

    I agree too. Beyounce was a total Lady and this young woman Taylor Swift showed so much maturity.

He who shall not be named got booed and rightly so.

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ELEGANT_PHOENIX 9/14/2009 5:09PM

    Agreed. The lack of manners in today's society is alarming. This is a huge soapbox for me. Hopefully more people will be as distressed as I am and instill proper manners in their children. I shudder to this that this is what my three are being exposed to. All I can do is teach common courtesy, proper manners, RESPECT!!, and graciousness.

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POSITIVELY_EB 9/14/2009 4:55PM

    emoticon I totally agree!

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MRE1956 9/14/2009 4:37PM

    We as a society have completely lost sight of the sense of "class" in one's day-to-day behavior, to say nothing of the increasing lack of common sense or personal responsibility in actions and behavior; it's as if we've come to claim a perceived "divine right" to egregious, irresponsible and self-centered behaviors whenever the whim suits us. Somehow the concept of "other people" has gone right out the proverbial window.....all I can say to Kanye West and his ilk is..... "karma, baby, KARMA".

I just laid my mother to rest today; I must sadly say that I'm glad that she is no longer a part of this deteriorating society.....


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DENISEUTAH 9/14/2009 4:15PM

    I agree - what happened to basic manners ?

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FSC Challenge Assignment

Monday, September 14, 2009

18. Blog about your biggest food problem & what steps you are doing this week to overcome it. (3 pts)

I think the biggest food problem I have is snacking. Especially if no one is home...... Nobody watching.........I'll just have one.........No one will know......No big deal. BIG DEAL. Big problem...

I am determined to write everything down this week and be accountable. I am scheduling everything so it shouldn't leave anytime for excess snacking. Also, busy hands don't have time to snack, I am keeping my schedule fairly full. We will see how that goes.

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    I know what you mean! I'm home all day and that's tough....I just try to keep busy and keep my water bottle by me all the time. If I have a snack, it's better to have one's available (and put into baggies if needed in the correct proportions) to just grab....like our own "100 calorie packs" (much cheaper to do it yourself).

Good luck - it sounds like you have a plan....and that's always good!

Hugs, Brenda

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SAPPHIREBLUE4 9/14/2009 4:15PM

    I know that you can do it...

Robbin emoticon

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AMBERROGUE 9/14/2009 4:11PM

    You can do it!!

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Things I used to do before I had a computer

Friday, September 11, 2009

I realized back in 1999, that I was a technology junkie! I have a computer, a laptop, an I-pod, an old xbox, and a wii; all equally entertaining. Earlier this year, I decided I didn't need so many books laying around the house and invested in a Kindle, which is an awesome thing to travel with.

Today, I have to admit that I have given up a lot in becoming so fascinated with technology. I used to crochet. I still have an afghan that is 3/4 complete. I love to stamp. I used to make cards a lot. I'm also a movie buff, but lately I listen to more movies than I actually watch.

I am not so blind to think that my situation is unique, but it really makes me wonder. If this generation is the technology generation, what hope is there for the future? We want everything easier and faster.

What things are becoming extinct because of the rise in technology? Will we be sorry some day that the old ways are gone and did the ones before us feel the same? It's no wonder we are becoming a society of couch potatoes! No wonder I'm overweight.

Microsoft realized the problem with this and developed the wii--I guess its okay to sit in front a TV all day as long as your holding controls and moving. Hmmm.....

As I start to develop my plans for scheduling my life, I have determined that I want to limit my time with technology and get back to some basics. I want to plan time to take up my old hobbies again, to play board and card games with my family and hey, let's get crazy and make a card of two. Now don't go thinking that I'm gonna go all crazy on this and that you won't get to read my silly rants any more.

I won't give up my technology, I enjoy it too much. But I can have the courage to put it where it belongs and focus on what's important......my family.....my health.......and my creativity.

And I thought scheduling my life was going to be sooooooo easy!

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PEGUS63 9/13/2009 7:46AM

    It consumes a lot of my time, but at least Im educating myself and not watching TV.

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KING*GET*FIT 9/12/2009 4:26PM

    I stayed away from computers for a long time. Now I'm making up for it. lol

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FROGGEE 9/12/2009 8:08AM

    I loved your blog. I think about that occasionally. I have to have an end time for computer time so it doesn't overrun the other things I want to spend my time on.

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NANCY- 9/12/2009 12:27AM

    What your schedule isn't on your computer???? LOL
Enjoy getting back to real life.

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WLROSIE 9/11/2009 9:35PM

    There was life before computers? Before SparkPeople?

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FORMYDARLINGS 9/11/2009 8:40PM

    I spend sooo much time wishing I was better at tech. but I have such a love of books and music and hands on things that I never did catch up. I rhink , now, I'm happy where I am. Am I getting old?


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LUCKYDUCK2 9/11/2009 8:37PM

    Boy, do I understand what you are saying here. I cannot imagine NOT having a computer! I don't do any of the other things yet.

My Grandson is a techno junkie and he is only eight. It is a real struggle to pull the DS out of his hands or the Playstation3 and get his buns outside. Once out there, he does not know what to do with himself.

I remember imagination and what a great playmate she was. SIGH

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VGIMLET 9/11/2009 5:28PM

    Great blog, and I agree. You made me think about how much I'm on the computer instead of doing other things. Yes, including rubber stamping, LOL.

Hmm, I agree, maybe time to make some room for other things again.

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POSITIVELY_EB 9/11/2009 5:27PM

    I LOVE your "rants!' This is probably one of the BEST ones I've read anywhere! And I would have to agree with you! What price are we paying for all this techno-stuff?

Hugs! Beverly

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This, that, and the other thing......

Tuesday, September 08, 2009

Life has been such a hodge podge of circumstances lately. My youngest left the nest to live on his own and he is having a tough time of it. He moved into an apartment with his best friend and the best friends girlfriend. It's not going too well. There has been a lot of selfishness and imaturity going on. My heart goes out to him, not a great first experience living on his own. He is definitely learning from it. It is hard being the parent and not be able to swoop in and make it all better.

My step son is going through a divorce. That threw us for a loop. We didn't see it coming and it have been very hard on my husband. My hubby has been divorced twice and we are concerned that our son is making too light of marriage. They have been married 8 years and have a two year old. The divorce has been very amicable but I know his ex is having a hard time.

They are sharing custody but I can already see that the back and forth has been hard for their daughter. It is tough. There is also a new girlfriend (happened after the separation). My husband is having trouble accepting her, but I really like her. I understand my son's reasons for the divorce, even if personally I'm not an advocate of divorce, and I really care for his ex.

In addition to that my husband has been depressed and very negative for the past year. It has been very frustrating to be around some one who is negative all the time. We had a long talk about it this weekend. We usually like to take road trips. We have a great time talking and sharing. But in the last year, I have started taking my IPod and reading when we go places, because I get tired of being the sunshine on a cloudy day.

So we had a long talk and I agreed to limit the IPod and reading if he will try and can the negativity. I don't know how he can keep up the negative.....it's exhausting. We ended up having a great day. We were able to discuss everything without anger. I'm so glad as we were starting to drift apart a little; each doing our own thing. And we have never been that way. We have always been able to make each other laugh and have a good time.

So now, I'm trying to schedule my life more. I think living by schedule might be just what I need to ensure a good fitness routine. I also informed the hubby that he is going to have to learn to use the wii! He's a little old school and 11 years older than me. I think he'll like it as long as no one else knows about it!!! So this is my goal today. Organize and schedule-----eliminate some chaos! Is that possible? I guess we will see!

Lose weight today, ok?

P.S. Just to clarify--DH and I are okay, never in any danger. Just a little bump.

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FORMYDARLINGS 9/10/2009 1:34PM

    I hear you. Drifting apart after a lot of years happens and you have to catch it quickly. I'm so glad you and dh talked. It seems to me that so many people could solve so many problems if they would just take the time to talk and LISTEN. Great job on getting organized and it will help. I am trying to do the same. I am the old fashioned one with us. DH is very progressive. Take care and have fun on WII


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ORANGESERBERT 9/9/2009 11:16PM

    That is a lot! What does DH=? I noticed a lot of people seem to have this DH on sparkpeople.. o.O It's great you were able to talk to him. 11 years apart.. Rob and I are 11 years apart :) He is "old school" too lol. I think it's hilarious when he mentions something and I go huh because its a reference from his generation not mine. What fun you two must have on those "sunny" days. You can do a routine it may be difficult with all that's going on (I have that same issue when there is a lot going on) but I know you can do it!

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ELLENIRENE 9/9/2009 7:05AM

    It's good your DH and you can have open discussions. That is good.
Life always has to throw curves. I guess that makes us appreciate the good times.

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POSITIVELY_EB 9/8/2009 11:01PM

    We all have bumps in the road we have to deal with! You handled yours very well!

Hugs! Beverly

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LUCKYDUCK2 9/8/2009 10:50PM

    You and DH are more then OK...it sounds like a very solid relationship built on good communication skills by both of you. Awesome! You both talk and listened to each other.

I am so sorry to hear about your sons and what is happening. It is hard to stand back and watch. As parents, we do want to make their lives less bumpy too. I hope they listen and learn from both of you .

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AMBERROGUE 9/8/2009 5:40PM

    So glad you two were able to compromise! It's such an important part of a relationship.

So sorry to hear that your step-son is going through a divorce. Even if it's amicable, it's not an easy thing to go through. And your youngest with his growing pains will pull through, even if he has to resort to hiding his things or whatnot.

I roomed with my best friend after college and I maintain to this day that it was the worst possible move I could have ever done. We had a falling out and even though we talk now, we never did talk about what happened.

Live and learn, huh?

HUGS to you! I hope everything works out!

Brightest Blessings,

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MAINLADY 9/8/2009 5:03PM

    Sounds like you have a plan. It's always difficult when we see our kids unhappy or struggling, but we have to let them go and hope everything turns out okay. I'm glad that you and DH are able to talk things out. It's always sad to see marriages in trouble. Talking is the best medicine if we can do it without anger and really listen to each other. Hope things will continue to get better.


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P316LEIA 9/8/2009 4:53PM

    Glad you talked with your husband and are working through the issues. emoticon

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