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Note to self

Monday, August 31, 2009


This talk is long over due. It's gonna be tough for you to hear but I know you can take it. You are a smart woman who is devoted to her family and friends. There is nothing you wouldn't do for them. But I have to tell you..... you've neglected yourself. You know it......all you have to do is look in the mirror. Well, let me tell you missy, that stops now....... here and now!

I'm not talking about not getting enough bubble baths and or playing on your computer. I'm talking about your health and weight. You are out of shape and you could be a lot healthier. You have gotten out of control.

This is not a note to fill your head with the negative forces at work in your life. You see......love is not about negative things. It's about positive things. And from now on, I only want positive things for you and from you.

I want you to be able to run and play with your grandkids, to climb Crazy Horse with your hubby. I want you to look good and to feel good about yourself. So now you are going to follow my rules and take care of yourself.

You are going to:

1. Drink 8 glasses of water a day.
2. Incorporate more fruits and vegatables into your day.
3. You are going to read your positive list of reasons to lose weight every day.
4. You are going to eat slowly and mindfully.
5. You are going to exercise most days.
6. You are going to give yourself positive affirmation.
7. You are going to lose weight.

Do you hear me?

Cuz I love ya!

  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

ALMMOM 8/31/2009 10:48PM

    Go, go, go!!! You are on your way.

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ORANGESERBERT 8/31/2009 10:39PM

    emoticon YOU CAN DO IT!

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POSITIVELY_EB 8/31/2009 9:43PM

    Awesome! Simply awesome! We could all use a good self-talking to!

Hugs! Beverly

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LUCKYDUCK2 8/31/2009 5:23PM

    I LOVE THIS! Thanks so much for sharing this here. I needed to read this today.

Isn't it a great feeling the day we realize it is OK to include ourselves in the circle of friends and family we love? Thank you for reminding me to take time for me. Here's to self care and self love which is NOT selfish!

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Friday, August 28, 2009

I'm feeling a little restless this afternoon. I made the virtual model of myself, both before and after and what can I say...........I want it now! Yep! I want to be a spoiled brat who gets her way without having to do the work. Or maybe like a genie, who folds her arms and blinks to get her hearts desire.

But NOOOOOOOOO......I have to work at it. Seems so unfair. Wait!!!!!!! Don't say it.......I know you want to...........awww you did anyway! You're right! Life isn't fair, this isn't going to happen overnight, heck .....it won't even happen next week.

So I guess I'll keep plugging away and taking my small successes. (This is the part where I start kicking and screaming and holding my breath cuz I want to have my way!) Dang! That didn't work either. Well, you can't blame me for trying. Guess I'll go take a walk and burn off some of this frustration! Have a nice weekend!


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LUCKYDUCK2 8/31/2009 5:27PM

    LOL Keri! I am right there with you on the " I want it NOW" trip. Thank you for making me smile as I read this. I too have had my "blue in the face days" and had to throw a glass of water at the "brat". She back talks me allot lately. My inner child is getting set into a corner and time-out today. SIGH

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POSITIVELY_EB 8/28/2009 8:16PM

    Love your blog! You are a great writer!

I, too, have an inner 2 year old that constantly throws tantrums! I wonder if she will ever grow up. Probably not as she's been throwing tantrums for 40 years or more now! LOL!

Love having on FSC!

Hugs! Beverly

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GINILEE4 8/28/2009 4:46PM

    Ah, the inner 2 year old child. Mine is just such a pain. She screams and cries and sulks and throws things and nothing changes so we go one day at a time. She hates it! I however am getting used to one day at a time. Today was not a great day but I did avoid soe pitfalls like ice cream and cheery pie. Now I know I could have those things , even while I am losing weight, but I chose to go out to dinner tonight and maybe choose a little dessrt to share with DH. Maybe not. I can choose. I like that

Gini emoticon

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AMBERROGUE 8/28/2009 3:33PM

    I know how you feel!! I had to take those pictures down after I made them because I got so frustrated! But that's just me. emoticon

Have a great weekend!

Brightest Blessings,

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TALKIEBARB 8/28/2009 3:04PM

    I was thinking the same thing today towards the end of my walk, why can't we just wish the fat away. But all the wishes in the world do not work. It is one day at a time Keri. Best of luck to you in your weight loss journey.

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Better than you know what cake

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

I had to go out of town for work today. Which means I had to eat out. Boy were the temptations put in front of me. It wasn't a restaurant so I had to eat what was served.....a taco casserole and corn bread. I ate about a fourth of the casserole and two bites of corn bread. Then the waitress brought out "Better Than S**" Cake.

I thought, "How in the world am I going to resist this?" So I did the only thing I could do..................No, I didn't eat it.....all, anyway...........I had one small bite and pushed it aside. I tell you it was a very small thing, but I felt like a million bucks! I know two weeks ago, I would have eaten it. Yipee!

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LUCKYDUCK2 8/31/2009 5:31PM

    Congrats! You gave yourself permission and set a limit and followed through! That is so AWESOME and a huge achievement. You have just proven to yourself that you have control over food..even better then SH*** cake. emoticon

What you did here is going to help you avoid binges and breakdowns for cravings. This is REALLY GREAT!

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ELLENIRENE 8/27/2009 7:24AM

    great job! You can do it!!

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POSITIVELY_EB 8/26/2009 11:05PM

    emoticon Fantastic! That was awesome!!

Hugs! Beverly

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FRAN0426 8/26/2009 10:42PM

    terrific keep up the good work

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WASABI601 8/26/2009 9:48PM

    Okay, that's some serious will power!!!!!! Way to go!!!!! Portion controll!!!!

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ORANGESERBERT 8/26/2009 9:05PM

    WOW GOODJOB! I'm so proud of you!

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Monday, August 24, 2009

I like to pass time by reading blogs on Spark people. It does my heart good to hear all the good things and the struggles that everyone has; as many times they mirror mine. So this blog is devoted to all of you....my motivators. I want to be here to celebrate with you, give you encouragement when you need it, and join you in fun challenges that help us all with our task.

My main motivation is health. I have high blood pressure that have been very difficult to control. I am so allergic to so many medicines. I also have pre diabetes and I really want to change that.

My second motivation is my husband. He is 11 years older than me, but the rate I'm going, he has a better chance of out living me. We went on vacation this last week and we visited the Crazy Horse Monument. Every year they do a march up to the face of this monument. It is a 6.5 mile hike and we want to do it so bad. But we both know that there is no way I could handle 6.5 miles or the steep trail up to the top. I am determined to get there!

I was a grandmother at an early age, because my husband had been married twice before and had three kids. I love them and their children have always treated me as grandma. I am crazy about them and I love to do things with them. They need me to be on top of my game and I shouldn't deny them that.

Finally there is the most important person that gives me the motivation to do this. It's me...... I want to tie my shoes without bending my feet at wierd angles. I want to bolt up a flight a stairs without getting winded. I want to twist and turn in ways I haven't for so long. I want to wear normal clothes. I want to look forward to exercise. Is that possible? I hope so.

This has been so hard for me and I haven't seen a lot of progress yet. But I'm in it for the long haul and I know that if I need it, there is someone to help me through anything I am dealing with. All I have to do is put out an SOS and the wonderful spark people will be there to see me through.

Thank you so much for that. I need that the most. Happy weight loss!

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LUCKYDUCK2 8/26/2009 11:23AM

    Sharing and caring is so important and I am so glad you are here with and for us also. Hugs and have a healthy Wed!

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ELLENIRENE 8/25/2009 9:26AM

    Motivation: it's a great thing!! It can get so much done!

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DEEGIRL50 8/25/2009 12:16AM

    Grrr! I hate when my weight stops me from doing something. You hit the nail on the head with that one.

You are a lovely addition to SparkPeople! I'm so glad to have you as a teammate!!

Go Daffy-Dills! Go Spark-Friends! Go Keri!

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POSITIVELY_EB 8/24/2009 9:32PM

    What an awesome blog! Thanks for sharing with us!

Hugs! Beverly

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Do we really need to go to work?

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

I'm going to start right off the bat by saying, I like my job and I'm grateful to have it. Sometimes, though, it can really drive me crazy, make me question my sanity, and it can be such a downer!

That's what I'm feeling today. I am the only woman on an all male management team. I don't have any problem with this, but we are different. You know the Men are from Mars, Women are from Venus thing. Well we had to take a 360 degree review. That is where your peers rate you. Boy, I'll tell you what-- The men had a field day taking "pot shots" at each other and more importantly at me. I know I didn't get the worst of it, but still......I admit it.......I'm sensitive.

I was not mean at all and I admit my first thought was, "I wish I would have been mean right back." But I know, if I had a chance to do it over, I would have done it the same. And really this isn't the problem I'm having. We had consultant go through these with us and he pointed out that most times, the critiques may not be true but may be perceptions of the truth. I honestly found that to be the case for me. I'm not trying to say I don't have things to work on, I do, but I could justify most comments.

Then he asked me to pick out the things I do well; I just looked at him. Truthfully, my eye went straight to the negative. So he ended up telling me what he saw that was good. It is so funny that as a society, we do tend to focus on the negative. I start to wonder.....is that why I am struggling with my weight? Do I focus on the negative in me and my life? I know I don't want that to be me. Why do I find it easy to praise and motivate others, but I can' t do it for myself? If I start to tell myself, I will always look this way, then I guess I will.

I really have to change the inner me...you may know her.....not very confident......self conscious.....sensitive....... has little faith in herself.....always trying to keep up with the men.....to be equal........STOP! No more! (It was starting to look like a pity party!) And that is so not what this is. You have to wonder though.....how much sabotage do we do to ourselves? Who cares what others say? How can we be strong individuals for ourselves?

I guess it's a good time to go on vacation-- Time to stretch the mind and body.

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LUCKYDUCK2 8/20/2009 11:11AM

    WOW...what insights for today and I really needed to read this. You have given me food for thought too.

Your right. We all have a circle of friends and family we love and care for and do anything to help. We see all the good in others. We need to include ourselves in this circle of love.

We also need to learn to praise ourselves and give those compliments we do to others. At the end of the day...tell yourself what you did right and what is strong about you. NEVER tell yourself you failed or ..I did good BUT I could do better. That last statement is tells yourself that you did not do your best.

What we hear is what we believe and sadly, we do always seem to talk down to ourselves. Time to end the day with praise and with a high five from the most important person in our lives...ourselves.

What you give to others...give to you. Hugs to a very insightful woman!

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POSITIVELY_EB 8/18/2009 5:59PM

    What an awesome blog! Thank you for sharing! I've been in the position of being the only female on an all male team like that - it stinks sometimes. You are asking some good, valid questions! Keep following those thoughts to where they take you - and I hope you share with us!

Hugs! Beverly

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NO_SNOW_BODY 8/18/2009 4:52PM

    We are our own worst critics, that is a fact. I do think we need to look inside and for that wonderful peerson. I uesd to do performance evalutions where I worked, and my first question was "how do you think you are doing", and "what do you think you can improve on". Those that could tell me a postive aspect were normally the ones that were doing well and could answer both questions without hesitation. I think we have to see both sides equally in able to let the positives shine through.
Take a mini vacation with a home spa treatment for yourself, YOU ARE WORTH that and more.

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