Friday, August 28, 2009
I'm feeling a little restless this afternoon. I made the virtual model of myself, both before and after and what can I say...........I want it now! Yep! I want to be a spoiled brat who gets her way without having to do the work. Or maybe like a genie, who folds her arms and blinks to get her hearts desire.
But NOOOOOOOOO......I have to work at it. Seems so unfair. Wait!!!!!!! Don't say it.......I know you want to...........awww you did anyway! You're right! Life isn't fair, this isn't going to happen overnight, heck .....it won't even happen next week.
So I guess I'll keep plugging away and taking my small successes. (This is the part where I start kicking and screaming and holding my breath cuz I want to have my way!) Dang! That didn't work either. Well, you can't blame me for trying. Guess I'll go take a walk and burn off some of this frustration! Have a nice weekend!
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
I had to go out of town for work today. Which means I had to eat out. Boy were the temptations put in front of me. It wasn't a restaurant so I had to eat what was served.....a taco casserole and corn bread. I ate about a fourth of the casserole and two bites of corn bread. Then the waitress brought out "Better Than S**" Cake.
I thought, "How in the world am I going to resist this?" So I did the only thing I could do..................No, I didn't eat it.....all, anyway...........I had one small bite and pushed it aside. I tell you it was a very small thing, but I felt like a million bucks! I know two weeks ago, I would have eaten it. Yipee!
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
I'm going to start right off the bat by saying, I like my job and I'm grateful to have it. Sometimes, though, it can really drive me crazy, make me question my sanity, and it can be such a downer!
That's what I'm feeling today. I am the only woman on an all male management team. I don't have any problem with this, but we are different. You know the Men are from Mars, Women are from Venus thing. Well we had to take a 360 degree review. That is where your peers rate you. Boy, I'll tell you what-- The men had a field day taking "pot shots" at each other and more importantly at me. I know I didn't get the worst of it, but still......I admit it.......I'm sensitive.
I was not mean at all and I admit my first thought was, "I wish I would have been mean right back." But I know, if I had a chance to do it over, I would have done it the same. And really this isn't the problem I'm having. We had consultant go through these with us and he pointed out that most times, the critiques may not be true but may be perceptions of the truth. I honestly found that to be the case for me. I'm not trying to say I don't have things to work on, I do, but I could justify most comments.
Then he asked me to pick out the things I do well; I just looked at him. Truthfully, my eye went straight to the negative. So he ended up telling me what he saw that was good. It is so funny that as a society, we do tend to focus on the negative. I start to wonder.....is that why I am struggling with my weight? Do I focus on the negative in me and my life? I know I don't want that to be me. Why do I find it easy to praise and motivate others, but I can' t do it for myself? If I start to tell myself, I will always look this way, then I guess I will.
I really have to change the inner me...you may know her.....not very confident......self conscious.....sensitive....... has little faith in herself.....always trying to keep up with the men.....to be equal........STOP! No more! (It was starting to look like a pity party!) And that is so not what this is. You have to wonder though.....how much sabotage do we do to ourselves? Who cares what others say? How can we be strong individuals for ourselves?
I guess it's a good time to go on vacation-- Time to stretch the mind and body.
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