Monday, December 05, 2011
Ginilee4 asked me a question the other day that I have been trying not to answer. But since she asked, I decided that I would put the answer in my blog. She asked how my job was going and if I was still enamored with it.
Here's my answer.....I'm sorry but it's going to be a somewhat lengthy one....
I have about 20 year in HR. I have been a manager for at least 10 years of that time. Now one of the things that is well documented is what is called a "Honeymoon" stage. A Honeymoon stage is usually an employee's first 90 days. The employee is generally on their best behavior. It's after that first 90 days when you find out just what that employee stands for.
For me, the honeymoon phase is over for the company.....and I'm quite sad about it.
We are a new business and we have a sister property. Needless to say, we are compared with that company and can't do anything they didn't do. It has become a very demotivating situation.
My boss is great! She could find a silver lining in any situation. But it sometimes appears like she gets kicked in the face and asks for more. And maybe that's a bad analogy but sometimes I think she gets treated badly by the powers that be.
The event that took the bloom off the rose for me will sound silly but I want to explain it to you.
The are having a Manager/Supervisor luncheon on Thursday to show appreciation for all their hard work....like a Christmas gift. These employees also get a $200 gift card. Now I was hired as a manager/supervisor, wear the appropriate uniform, made the invitations, and then was told I wouldn't be going....nor would I be getting a gift card. Now keep in mind that our department coaches the supervisor/managers......we do training.....and lots of other things. Because we don't have direct reports....we are not worth of a stupid lunch, appreciation, or a $200 gift card. What a slap in the face......So while all our peers are enjoying a lunch and getting told how much they are appreciated, we get to go eat lunch in the employee dining room and pay for it.
Now I know this seems like such a little thing.....but it screams DISRESPECT to me. And when asked why we would not be included....because those people don't go to the sister company's luncheon.......it sure has put me in the disengaged employee category. It brings back haunting memories of what I went through before I came here.
I don't know what I'm going to do. I'm not ready to give up on this place, I see some unrealized potential here.....but this disrespect kinda eats me alive. I'm not sleeping....I'm stressed and all the while preparing for an employee party that I can only work at not participate in....like the company picnic....health fair...and halloween party.
I'm hoping the feeling passes. I can live with the ugly man suits and the gross cafeteria food; but handling disrespect is a little harder for me to swallow. It's nothing I can discuss with the General Manager. She is part of the problem. She's the kind who comes into your office and gives you standard greetings that are so insincere that there are so many jokes and imitations of it around the office.
I was so hoping this was going to be different. The people are so great....but I guess at the end of the day it's not unique like I thought....it's a power play and people who have no regard for others feelings.
Any suggestions on what I should do? (Pull up my big girls pants and suck it up?)