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Monday, August 24, 2009

I like to pass time by reading blogs on Spark people. It does my heart good to hear all the good things and the struggles that everyone has; as many times they mirror mine. So this blog is devoted to all of you....my motivators. I want to be here to celebrate with you, give you encouragement when you need it, and join you in fun challenges that help us all with our task.

My main motivation is health. I have high blood pressure that have been very difficult to control. I am so allergic to so many medicines. I also have pre diabetes and I really want to change that.

My second motivation is my husband. He is 11 years older than me, but the rate I'm going, he has a better chance of out living me. We went on vacation this last week and we visited the Crazy Horse Monument. Every year they do a march up to the face of this monument. It is a 6.5 mile hike and we want to do it so bad. But we both know that there is no way I could handle 6.5 miles or the steep trail up to the top. I am determined to get there!

I was a grandmother at an early age, because my husband had been married twice before and had three kids. I love them and their children have always treated me as grandma. I am crazy about them and I love to do things with them. They need me to be on top of my game and I shouldn't deny them that.

Finally there is the most important person that gives me the motivation to do this. It's me...... I want to tie my shoes without bending my feet at wierd angles. I want to bolt up a flight a stairs without getting winded. I want to twist and turn in ways I haven't for so long. I want to wear normal clothes. I want to look forward to exercise. Is that possible? I hope so.

This has been so hard for me and I haven't seen a lot of progress yet. But I'm in it for the long haul and I know that if I need it, there is someone to help me through anything I am dealing with. All I have to do is put out an SOS and the wonderful spark people will be there to see me through.

Thank you so much for that. I need that the most. Happy weight loss!

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LUCKYDUCK2 8/26/2009 11:23AM

    Sharing and caring is so important and I am so glad you are here with and for us also. Hugs and have a healthy Wed!

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ELLENIRENE 8/25/2009 9:26AM

    Motivation: it's a great thing!! It can get so much done!

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DEEGIRL50 8/25/2009 12:16AM

    Grrr! I hate when my weight stops me from doing something. You hit the nail on the head with that one.

You are a lovely addition to SparkPeople! I'm so glad to have you as a teammate!!

Go Daffy-Dills! Go Spark-Friends! Go Keri!

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POSITIVELY_EB 8/24/2009 9:32PM

    What an awesome blog! Thanks for sharing with us!

Hugs! Beverly

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Do we really need to go to work?

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

I'm going to start right off the bat by saying, I like my job and I'm grateful to have it. Sometimes, though, it can really drive me crazy, make me question my sanity, and it can be such a downer!

That's what I'm feeling today. I am the only woman on an all male management team. I don't have any problem with this, but we are different. You know the Men are from Mars, Women are from Venus thing. Well we had to take a 360 degree review. That is where your peers rate you. Boy, I'll tell you what-- The men had a field day taking "pot shots" at each other and more importantly at me. I know I didn't get the worst of it, but still......I admit it.......I'm sensitive.

I was not mean at all and I admit my first thought was, "I wish I would have been mean right back." But I know, if I had a chance to do it over, I would have done it the same. And really this isn't the problem I'm having. We had consultant go through these with us and he pointed out that most times, the critiques may not be true but may be perceptions of the truth. I honestly found that to be the case for me. I'm not trying to say I don't have things to work on, I do, but I could justify most comments.

Then he asked me to pick out the things I do well; I just looked at him. Truthfully, my eye went straight to the negative. So he ended up telling me what he saw that was good. It is so funny that as a society, we do tend to focus on the negative. I start to wonder.....is that why I am struggling with my weight? Do I focus on the negative in me and my life? I know I don't want that to be me. Why do I find it easy to praise and motivate others, but I can' t do it for myself? If I start to tell myself, I will always look this way, then I guess I will.

I really have to change the inner me...you may know her.....not very confident......self conscious.....sensitive....... has little faith in herself.....always trying to keep up with the men.....to be equal........STOP! No more! (It was starting to look like a pity party!) And that is so not what this is. You have to wonder though.....how much sabotage do we do to ourselves? Who cares what others say? How can we be strong individuals for ourselves?

I guess it's a good time to go on vacation-- Time to stretch the mind and body.

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LUCKYDUCK2 8/20/2009 11:11AM

    WOW...what insights for today and I really needed to read this. You have given me food for thought too.

Your right. We all have a circle of friends and family we love and care for and do anything to help. We see all the good in others. We need to include ourselves in this circle of love.

We also need to learn to praise ourselves and give those compliments we do to others. At the end of the day...tell yourself what you did right and what is strong about you. NEVER tell yourself you failed or ..I did good BUT I could do better. That last statement is tells yourself that you did not do your best.

What we hear is what we believe and sadly, we do always seem to talk down to ourselves. Time to end the day with praise and with a high five from the most important person in our lives...ourselves.

What you give to others...give to you. Hugs to a very insightful woman!

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POSITIVELY_EB 8/18/2009 5:59PM

    What an awesome blog! Thank you for sharing! I've been in the position of being the only female on an all male team like that - it stinks sometimes. You are asking some good, valid questions! Keep following those thoughts to where they take you - and I hope you share with us!

Hugs! Beverly

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NO_SNOW_BODY 8/18/2009 4:52PM

    We are our own worst critics, that is a fact. I do think we need to look inside and for that wonderful peerson. I uesd to do performance evalutions where I worked, and my first question was "how do you think you are doing", and "what do you think you can improve on". Those that could tell me a postive aspect were normally the ones that were doing well and could answer both questions without hesitation. I think we have to see both sides equally in able to let the positives shine through.
Take a mini vacation with a home spa treatment for yourself, YOU ARE WORTH that and more.

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Going on vacation!

Monday, August 17, 2009

I am sooooooo excited to be going on vacation! My husband and I are traveling to the Black Hills for a few days. I was concerned at first about how I was going to manage the diet, but I don't think it will be a problem. The hubby is totally on board with a healthier lifestyle so I think we can handle it. If anyone has any suggestions for food out there, I would love to hear it. I plan to take my laptop along, so I should be able to keep up with the Daffy - Dills and our weekly challenge.

We have plans to do a lot of walking! I can't wait. It's about a six hour drive for us, but I love to road trip! I'm going to pack a cooler with fruit and water so we can have some healthy choices at our fingertips!

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ORANGESERBERT 8/18/2009 12:40AM

    It's great your husband is standing behind your 100% it helps to have support at home :-) It sounds like you have a plan with the fruit. I suggest checking out what restaurants they have there. I check www.anywho.com now so I know what I'm getting into ahead of time and can look up health information prior to eating out now. Something as harmless as a salad could end up being worse then a big mac.

You enjoy your vacation!

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LUCKYDUCK2 8/17/2009 5:47PM

    Try the buffalo burgers. It is a very lean meat and to me was a "little" dryer then beef but still taste great. It has less fat then beef. Also, fresh trout...yumm. Ask to have it steamed and not batter fried. Really tasty.

Have a fantastic time on you vacation. You will get in some serious walking with the trails there and it is beautiful.

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POSITIVELY_EB 8/17/2009 5:20PM

    Oh, I'm so jealous! I'm ready for a vacation, too! Please keep us posted on how you're doing! And enjoy yourself!

Hugs! Beverly

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Tuesday, August 11, 2009

My grandaughter, Aubrey and I were dancing to a song from our dancing challenge when my laptop died. I am bummed. Good thing the hubby is working so I can use his! emoticon

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ORANGESERBERT 8/14/2009 12:53PM

    I hate when that happens! I keep mine plugged in when using to prevent that, because when it's not plugged in BAM never fails dies in the middle of something. Dancing was fun this week :-) Did you get 10 songs in? I did a couple with the lyrics so it was Karaoke in my living room last night (would never happen if Rob was hear- lmao I am definitely tone deaf) Dancing with kids is a blast Devlin cracks me up. When he was 2 he's dance all suave like to R&B pop music now its just randomness lmao but it definitely gives you a good crazy work out if you dance like a 4 yr old lmao. Good luck this week, and you are right now matter what we are all winners :-)

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LUCKYDUCK2 8/11/2009 8:25PM

    Isn't it fun dancing with the babyjoys? They are so animated and just full of energy and giggles. I loved dancing with my Grandson but he is now eight and too "grown up" for this . LOL

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POSITIVELY_EB 8/11/2009 7:38PM

    Thank goodness for "small" favors!!! emoticon

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Monday, August 10, 2009

If I could be like the colleges, who give out honorary doctorates, I would give a doctorate right here/right now to every caregiver.

My father in law had a pacemaker/defribulator put in on Friday. My husband and I were supposed to show up on Saturday morning and drive him home. Easy enough, then we had plans to go on a nice hike and then to a movie that evening. How quickly things can change!

We get to the hospital and find out they have been trying to put him in a home but couldn't find one that would take him. Apparently he isn't allowed to move his arm for three days. It was in a sling and because of that he was finding it impossible to maneuver his walker. Going home was going to be nearly impossible. He has a chair that can raise him up and down, but other parts of normal living would be difficult.

He didn't want us to know and didn't call and tell us. My husband was beside himself wondering what to do. I think he would have moved in with him if I hadn't volunteered to take him to our house.

So......good-bye hike. Hello total chaos! It's so funny that we recently became empty nesters and then we have an 85 year old move in with us for a few days. What an adjustment! It's like having a 250 lb. baby. My husband had a hard time dealing with life's "little accidents" to put it kindly. My brand new recliner was christened along with a few other things. My husband was like "How can you be so calm about it? Aren't you mad? What are we going to do?" Well, it's like this. It's just stuff......I can't do anything about it. When he leaves, I will get out the cleaning supplies and life will go back to normal.

In then end, I didn't get my extra workouts in this weekend. But I didn't snack this weekend either. I spent a lot of time with my father in law and I have no doubt, this weekend meant a lot to him. But I do know that there is NO way I could do this on a full time basis.

So kudos to the caregivers out there. I so admire the ones who do it.


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LUCKYDUCK2 8/10/2009 7:56PM

    And kudos to you for opening your door to him. It is hard but so worth every minute. Our parents raised us...time to step up and give back. :)

My mother in law moved in with us for six months and then into assistant living. She loved it there. She had her own apartment and many people her age to visit with. It is so much better then a nursing home. There is total freedom to come and go as they want. Someone is there to make that phone call if anything happens.

I put plastic sheets on my recliner and then a slipcover . Yes, accidents happen but I love the heart your are showing and sharing with him. I am sure your husband also appreciates what you are doing for his dad even if he is stressed right now and doesn't know how to deal with this. I bet it is hard for him to see his father helpless like this. I know it bothered my husband to see his mother "fail".

Hugs to you and your big heart.

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POSITIVELY_EB 8/10/2009 5:25PM

    I definitely agree! You were wonderful! emoticon

Hugs! Beverly

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P316LEIA 8/10/2009 3:37PM

    Most importantly, you were a caregiver when your father-in-law needed you the most. KUDOS to you and your husband for stepping up to the plate and doing what needed to be done. emoticon

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