Tuesday, August 18, 2009
I'm going to start right off the bat by saying, I like my job and I'm grateful to have it. Sometimes, though, it can really drive me crazy, make me question my sanity, and it can be such a downer!
That's what I'm feeling today. I am the only woman on an all male management team. I don't have any problem with this, but we are different. You know the Men are from Mars, Women are from Venus thing. Well we had to take a 360 degree review. That is where your peers rate you. Boy, I'll tell you what-- The men had a field day taking "pot shots" at each other and more importantly at me. I know I didn't get the worst of it, but still......I admit it.......I'm sensitive.
I was not mean at all and I admit my first thought was, "I wish I would have been mean right back." But I know, if I had a chance to do it over, I would have done it the same. And really this isn't the problem I'm having. We had consultant go through these with us and he pointed out that most times, the critiques may not be true but may be perceptions of the truth. I honestly found that to be the case for me. I'm not trying to say I don't have things to work on, I do, but I could justify most comments.
Then he asked me to pick out the things I do well; I just looked at him. Truthfully, my eye went straight to the negative. So he ended up telling me what he saw that was good. It is so funny that as a society, we do tend to focus on the negative. I start to wonder.....is that why I am struggling with my weight? Do I focus on the negative in me and my life? I know I don't want that to be me. Why do I find it easy to praise and motivate others, but I can' t do it for myself? If I start to tell myself, I will always look this way, then I guess I will.
I really have to change the inner me...you may know her.....not very confident......self conscious.....sensitive....... has little faith in herself.....always trying to keep up with the men.....to be equal........STOP! No more! (It was starting to look like a pity party!) And that is so not what this is. You have to wonder though.....how much sabotage do we do to ourselves? Who cares what others say? How can we be strong individuals for ourselves?
I guess it's a good time to go on vacation-- Time to stretch the mind and body.
Monday, August 17, 2009
I am sooooooo excited to be going on vacation! My husband and I are traveling to the Black Hills for a few days. I was concerned at first about how I was going to manage the diet, but I don't think it will be a problem. The hubby is totally on board with a healthier lifestyle so I think we can handle it. If anyone has any suggestions for food out there, I would love to hear it. I plan to take my laptop along, so I should be able to keep up with the Daffy - Dills and our weekly challenge.
We have plans to do a lot of walking! I can't wait. It's about a six hour drive for us, but I love to road trip! I'm going to pack a cooler with fruit and water so we can have some healthy choices at our fingertips!
Tuesday, August 11, 2009
My grandaughter, Aubrey and I were dancing to a song from our dancing challenge when my laptop died. I am bummed. Good thing the hubby is working so I can use his!
Monday, August 10, 2009
If I could be like the colleges, who give out honorary doctorates, I would give a doctorate right here/right now to every caregiver.
My father in law had a pacemaker/defribulator put in on Friday. My husband and I were supposed to show up on Saturday morning and drive him home. Easy enough, then we had plans to go on a nice hike and then to a movie that evening. How quickly things can change!
We get to the hospital and find out they have been trying to put him in a home but couldn't find one that would take him. Apparently he isn't allowed to move his arm for three days. It was in a sling and because of that he was finding it impossible to maneuver his walker. Going home was going to be nearly impossible. He has a chair that can raise him up and down, but other parts of normal living would be difficult.
He didn't want us to know and didn't call and tell us. My husband was beside himself wondering what to do. I think he would have moved in with him if I hadn't volunteered to take him to our house.
So......good-bye hike. Hello total chaos! It's so funny that we recently became empty nesters and then we have an 85 year old move in with us for a few days. What an adjustment! It's like having a 250 lb. baby. My husband had a hard time dealing with life's "little accidents" to put it kindly. My brand new recliner was christened along with a few other things. My husband was like "How can you be so calm about it? Aren't you mad? What are we going to do?" Well, it's like this. It's just stuff......I can't do anything about it. When he leaves, I will get out the cleaning supplies and life will go back to normal.
In then end, I didn't get my extra workouts in this weekend. But I didn't snack this weekend either. I spent a lot of time with my father in law and I have no doubt, this weekend meant a lot to him. But I do know that there is NO way I could do this on a full time basis.
So kudos to the caregivers out there. I so admire the ones who do it.
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