Yes, I got a surprise yesterday. After fifteen years, I was told they wanted to take the company in a different direction and that it didn't include me. They said it didn't reflect on me.....right. I have my own theories about it but oh well. What's done is done. I am taking the rest of this week to decompress and then I will make plans to find employment next week.
The big question is whether or not to stay in my chosen field. I feel a little like making a big change. Who knows.
Thank you so much for the spark goodies and nice comments. It means more than I can say. The tears are flowing so easily.
On the bright side, little Noah was born Monday night and he is perfect. He is my 6th grandchild and I am so grateful for him. Maybe this means I am meant to spend some time with them.
This will not beat me....I will come out on top....screw them.
It's lovely here in San Diego....even if the sun isn't shinning today. It sure beats the 90 degree weather we have been having at home. The conference so far is beating my expectations!
We heard from Steve Forbes yesterday and he was fantastic. Today we heard from Al Gore...another great speaker. I am learning a lot at the conference and I really have so much to share with you....but this has to be short and to the point....you know.....places to go.....people to see...things to do.....
You would be proud of me...I have a honor bar in my room and with the exception of the $5.50 bottle of water I bought Saturday night....I have refrained from touching any of it.
I started reading a new book on my trip. "Women Food and God" by Geneen Roth....wow! I have a lot to share about that too, but it will have to wait. I am writing this in the convention center. If I have time to night I will elaborate from my room. This book is amazing.
I'm going to leave you now with a quote I heard yesterday from a Vet who lost his hand in battle....."How do you know that the loss of your dream, isn't the birth of your destiny?"
Life isn't a matter of milestones, but of moments. - Rose Kennedy
Isn't that true..........
I've been reading a lot of blogs lately. Our fellow sparkers really have a lot to say....and sometimes they don't know they are saying it.
For instance, I have seen alot of people discuss what they can't do now or that if they weighed less.....they could do this..... And then there are the ones who are saying....Finally! I can do THIS.....
But what if we are wasting moments while waiting for milestones? I can tell you....I'm not going to miss another moment! And this is how I'm gonna do it.
I don't care what I look like in a swimsuit. As long as I'm not flashing anything inappropriate.....I'm gonna wear one. The water and the exercise I'll get is a moment I refuse to miss.
My hubby and I want to walk to the top of Crazy Horse monument during the Volksmarch. I can't do that right now.....without having a heart attack that is!But I can start walking what I can and work my way up! I will get there!
Also, I wrote a blog on June 7th that really hit home to me and this is just an extension of that because I don't want you to forget it......Be the best you can be.....EVERYDAY.
Quit focusing on what you can't do......what CAN you do? What is special about you? Are you taking care of yourself? Do you love yourself?
1. I can quit worrying about what I look like in my swimsuit.....(I'm not fooling anyone....they already know I'm overweight!) Deal with it!
2. I can walk around the block......I can walk from my hotel to the convention center in San Diego. I will do it often.
3. I am a great person....deserving of love and happiness. I will take care of myself and dress appropriately for the plus size beauty queen I am. (Don't laugh.....we all are.....accept it and act accordingly!)
4. Most of all....be happy....and don't lose your humor.....laugh, laugh, laugh!!!!
We are worth it. May your life be full of moments......don't miss them!
I'm kind of a wreck this week. Work isn't going very well....major stress and I have a doctors appt. tomorrow. That really makes me nervous. Don't worry.....I'm fine.....just working through some stuff. I may tell you more at a later date.....it just depends on how bad I want to blab!!!
I have to go to San Diego in about a week and I'm worried about the seatbelt fitting.....how embarrassing. The last time I flew to Washington DC...it didn't fit on one leg of the flight. I was so hoping I would have lost some of the weight by now.
So I guess I'm just a mess........how come I can't get really big paper towel to clean up my messy life like it cleans up spills on the counter???? I'm just sayin'.....
Okay.....you are about to find out another thing about me. As much as I hate to admit it.......because it makes me feel old.......I like talk radio. I know....I can hear your gasps.......talk radio...eek! In my younger days I wouldn't have dreamed of listening to talk radio. But now I find it very entertaining and relaxing. I have a 30 minute commute each day and it really helps to unwind me.
So now that I have made that confession.....I was listening to a program last week called "Angels on Call". The host, "Mary" is a funny Italian catholic and she is what she calls a psychic intuitive. I get a kick out of the callers' issues and her responses to them. I especially enjoy when she calls people "Chiuauas" That is her term for people who dwell and dwell on an issue. Cracks me up!
Anyway....I hate when I start babbling.....Mary was talking to a lady, who was not happy because she had gained weight and her husband was nagging her about it. Mary asked her if she was trying to lose the weight and she replied that she was. Mary asked her if she was doing it for her or for her husband, because if she wasn't doing it for herself it wouldn't work. She implied that she was doing it for her.
Mary then told her that her husband just wants his girlfriend back. The girl was quiet because she thought the intuitive was telling her that her husband had a girlfriend! Mary went on to explain that he misses the girl she was.
Before you start thinking that this conversation was getting shallow...Mary elaborated. Here is what I got out of it....my interpretation:
You may not be where you were.
You may not be where you are going to be.
But you should always be the best you... everyday.
How many times have you gotten up and threw on sweats because it doesn't matter?
Have you stopped wearing makeup because you don't have to look good anyway?
Do you throw your hair in a ponytail or not fix it because no one is looking at you anyway?
Think about when you were at your best......how did you dress? look? act? Is your current situation defeating you?
Mary's advise to this lady.......and what I took for me......was if you make an effort to be the best you everyday......the rest will come. Take pride in you again.....do it for you......love you.......the rest will come. Only you can make it happen.