Thursday, February 18, 2010
I want to go on record right now.........I HATE THAT SONG! It was one of those songs that burned bright when it first came out and then was played so much people just got sick of it.........Maybe I should have used the title "More than a Feeling?" That just aged me too....oops.
Anyway that is not what this blog is about. It's about a disease that many of us claim to have. Why do I say claim? Because I believe the medical board doesn't necessarily recognize it as a problem.....we could tell them different.
Ok, Keri, what the heck are you talking about? Emotional eating......yep....I see you nodding in agreement now!
What does that have to do with feelings? Everything. We recognize the situation and we how it has an impact on us. Most times we even know what set us off in the first place. But......do we know how to identify it and rein it in before it bites us in the scale?
Here's why I'm ranting.....I got my feelings hurt at work yesterday. A guy made disparaging remarks about me and I don't know if he didn't think I could hear him or what but ......it hurt. Now in my job there are a lot of times when you just have to "Suck it up, buttercup!" And mostly I do okay doing just that. Other times.....not so much. That's when the emotional eating usually kicks in for me. And boy does it.......you don't want to know....but you can imagine.
I thought about it a lot yesterday and I wasn't totally over it this morning. Then I had to stop at a store to get a birthday present for my assistant. I had to walk by rows of candy, chips, nuts, etc.......you know the rows I'm talking about. Now ,the old Keri, would have loaded up and brought a bunch of junk to work and then made short work of it.
But I didn't......I wanted to.......but I fought it off. If I would have done it....the guy would have won. No one should have the right to affect how we feel about ourselves but us. They don't have the power. Now that doesn't mean I have "cured" my disease. I still feel a little like this dog.....
Any moment....my world could change. But today I battled the disease and won. I invented a tool for myself to combat those feelings. Now if I keep doing that....I'll beat the disease.....I will find and get the cure. It's getting easier everyday.....at least that's what I'm telling myself!